Posted in Bondi, Collabor88, Cynful, DOUX, Events, Fashion, Legacy, Lelutka, N21, vinyl

Life’s a game ’til you lose, then what?

I’m the widow
On the tip-tippy-toppy of the highest high of low
And I’m the shadow
Of the first little flower on the brightest patch of snow

Happiness can be hard to find
I’m so slap silly happy
Everybody wants to take mine

Yeah, right
That sounds nice
Everything we ever wanted and more
Someday we’ll get paid
More than it was worth to sell our souls
Yeah, yeah, right

Yeah, I’m a rock star
I’m a queen resurrected, just as messed up as before
Twist the knife hard
Just makes it easier to tell you I don’t need you anymore 

Life’s a game ’til you lose, then what?
I’m reaching a new level of not giving a fuck

Life’s a game ’til you lose, then what?

DOUX – Cyanna hairstyle
LeLUTKA Lilly Head 2.5
[LEGACY] Meshbody (f) Special Edition (1.3)
— PUMEC – JADWIGA – LELUTKA x BOM
Lilithe’// Omukade Tattoo

BONDI . The Rockstar Headphones
e.marie // Cherie Puff Earrings @ N21
(Yummy) Daisy Ring Collection @ C88
:::ChicChica::: Chic Cola opened

VINYL – Waffles Wrap Top Boho Black TSS Jan 23, 2021
Cynful Keeper Flare Pants – FLF Jan 22, 2021

05_{-Maru Kado-} Cat2_stretch (1Li)

pose: – space cadet – 2021 @ N21
MINIMAL – London Rooftop Scene

Posted in Events, Fashion, Kustom9, Legacy, Lelutka, [BREATHE]

Fake Bitch

I’m so fucking happy all time 
Also, I’m really good at telling lies 
My friends they always call me for advice 
But they don’t know 
I’ve been crying 
For the past seven nights
This happens every single time I’m drinking 
Like I can finally hear the thoughts
I’m thinking
And it’s oh so clear 
Make a bee line to the bathroom and
I look into the mirror saying 
Fake bitch, fake bitch 
Running from her problems
But she makes it look so good when she ignores them 
And she puts them on a shelf 
And she whispers to herself 
It’s okay, bitch 
Don’t ever change, bitch 
La la la la la 

Fake Bitch

Magika – Amy
LeLUTKA Lilly Head 2.5
[LEGACY] Meshbody (f) Special Edition (1.3)
— PUMEC – JADWIGA – LELUTKA x BOM

(Yummy) Adel Ring Set
cheezu. hara outer @ Kustom9
Mug – Emma Skirt @ Kustom9
[BREATHE]-Mitsusa Flats @ Epiphany

MOVEMENT- I have plans My notebook – 2

location: Serasim

Posted in Collabor88, Cynful, DOUX, Events, Fashion, Glam Affair, Home Decor, Legacy, Lelutka, The Liaison Collaborative, {le fil casse}

Sex and Candy

I smell sex and candy here
Who’s that lounging in my chair
Who’s that casting devious stares
In my direction

Sex and Candy

DOUX – Martina hairstyle @ Level
LeLUTKA Lilly Head 2.5
[LEGACY] Meshbody (f) Special Edition (1.3)
Glam Affair – Lelutka Skin – Zasha @ C88

(Yummy) Daisy Ring Collection @ C88
Cynful Fluffy Desire Set
{le fil casse} Maisie Socks

pose: Lyrium. Lollies Pose & Animation Set @ Equal10

Serenity Style- Giselle Winter Armchair

Serenity Style– Blue Winter Entry Set @ TLC
Serenity Style- Blue Winter Table
Serenity Style- Blue Winter Picture
Serenity Style- Blue Winter Roses Vases
Serenity Style- Blue Winter Books
Serenity Style- Blue Winter Cushions

KraftWork Clarrington Set . Table Lamp @ Kustom9
KraftWork Clarrington Set . Rubber Plant @ Kustom9
KraftWork Clarrington Set . Basket 2 @ Kustom9

LEMME..Natural Dildo // Malachite
LEMME…Stimulate me!Dildo_ Mint

dust bunny . hanging plants . ivy planter

Posted in Collabor88, Fashion, shoes, shopping, [BREATHE]

I wasn’t always like this

I’m a nightmare, I know what you mean by that
I can’t wake up from all these scary dreams I have
I don’t really care, and I never will
That’s the way I am, such a bitter pill
I don’t really care, how much silence kills
That’s the way I am
No, I wasn’t born without a heart
I wasn’t always like this, no
Watched you break me, no
Now you blame me
No, I wasn’t born with all these scars
And that’s what made me like this, no
Can you blame me, no? (No, oh, oh)
I wasn’t born like this
Hurt people, hurt people
I’d rather be heartless (Heartless)
Than have my heart in pieces

I wasn’t always like this

hair: Tableau Vivant // Scilla
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) Special Edition (1.3)

(Yummy) Daisy Ring Collection @ C88
RKKN. Marley Bodysuit White @ Epiphany
RKKN. Marley Sweatpants V2 Sage @ Epiphany
[BREATHE]-Misasa Sneakers @ Epiphany

pose: Le Poppycock Rough Patches Low Point

backdrop: MINIMAL – September Group Gift 2019

Posted in Collabor88, Events, Fashion, Legacy, Lelutka

there’s no room for ideals in this mechanical place

Through these city nightmares you’d walk with me
And we’d talk of it with idealistic assurance
That it wouldn’t tear us apart
We’d keep our heads above the blackened water
But there’s no room for ideals in this mechanical place
And you’re gone now
Through a grimy window that I can’t keep clean
Through billowing smoke that’s swallowed the sun
You’re nowhere to be seen
Do you think our desires still burn
I guess it was desires that tore us apart
There has to be passion
A passion for living, surviving
And that means detachment
Every-body has a weapon to fight you with
To beat you with when you are down
There were too many defence between us
Doubting all the time
Fearinf all the time
Doubting all the time
Fearinf all the time
That like these urban nightmares
We’d blacken each other skies

there's no room for ideals in this mechanical place

hair: Tableau Vivant // Soiree @ C88
head: LeLUTKA Lily Head 2.5
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) Special Edition (1.3)
skin: [theSkinnery] Monica (LeLutkaEVO) peach @ C88

(Yummy) Daisy Ring Collection @ C88
Seniha. Melanie Set @ Orly
Seniha. Melanie Top
Seniha. Melanie Pants

pose: Lyrium. Jullie Static & Breathing + Fingers Series @ Equal10
location: BKLYN

Posted in Animals, Collabor88, Events, Fashion, Foxcity, Kustom9, Legacy, Lelutka, Second Life

Tame the whispers

The whole world trying
To blind the way home
But we’ve got shelter
Deep inside,
Secret
Tame the whispers
Of winds as they blow
Feel my shivers
In your arms

Tame the whispers

hair: Magika – December
head: LeLUTKA Lily Head 2.5
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) Special Edition (1.3)
skin: [theSkinnery] Avery @ Kustom9

AvaWay LETTER Necklaces Set @ FaMESHed
(Yummy) Eliza Ring Collection @ C88
FAKEICON / csillag led lights
FAKEICON / mary gems collar
FAKEICON / glace hand gems

-ATTIC- Winter Spirit Twig Earrings
-ATTIC- Winter Spirit Monocles
-ATTIC- Winter Spirit Antlers RARE

[Cubic Cherry] {Vow} latex long gloves @ FaMESHed X
Just BECAUSE Sassy Gown

pose: FOXCITY. Night Sassy Bento Pose Set

[Rezz Room] Reindeer Adult Animesh @ ManCave
[Rezz Room] Reindeer Baby Animesh @ ManCave

Posted in Collabor88, Cynful, Events, FaMESHed, Fashion, Kustom9, Legacy, Lelutka, poses, Second Life, shopping, skin

Even when

“Listen to the people who love you. Believe that they are worth living for even when you don’t believe it. Seek out the memories depression takes away and project them into the future. Be brave; be strong; take your pills. Exercise because it’s good for you even if every step weighs a thousand pounds. Eat when food itself disgusts you. Reason with yourself when you have lost your reason.”
― Andrew Solomon, The Noonday Demon: An Atlas of Depression

Even when

hair: Magika – December
head: LeLUTKA Lily Head 2.5
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) Special Edition (1.3)
skin: [theSkinnery] Avery @ Kustom9

AvaWay LETTER Necklaces Set @ FaMESHed
(Yummy) Eliza Ring Collection @ C88

Cynful Nini’s Top + Armwarmers Set @ Equal10
Cynful Nini’s Skirt @ Equal10

pose: Lyrium. Cynthia Static & Breathing + Fingers Series @ Equal10

(Milk Motion) Parisian Backyard

Posted in Blueberry, Collabor88, DOUX, Events, FaMESHed, Fashion, Glam Affair, Legacy, Lelutka, shoes, shopping, The Liaison Collaborative, Uber SL, [BREATHE]

Road Trip to Nowhere

Have you ever just wanted to get in you car and drive with no destination in mind? I have and I’ve done it more than once. Of course, the problem with that is….eventually you have to stop for gas and by that time, you’re God knows where. Fortunately, there’s GPS on most phones these days. If you’re lucky you’ve got cell service wherever you’ve landed and can find your way home.
Most of us have responsibilities and loved ones that simply don’t allow us to do such a thing without hurting someone. Annnd, let’s be fair, the whole idea loses it’s appeal if you have to call and explain to someone that you’re trying to run away, but not forever…you’ll be back…eventually…
Yeah, that goes over like a ton of bricks. Trust me, I tried that way. You have to explain to someone why you feel the need to do this and by the time you’re done explaining it. Yeah, the whole idea is just ruined. Don’t even get me started on the fact that when this idea strikes, you’re never prepared and packing a bag takes so much away from the spontaneity.
I guess as we grow older and…*grumbles*…more mature. Ugh. We tend to realize what a mess can be made from a random road trip to nowhere. When I was younger and didn’t depend quite so much on medications, this was something I’d do. There were no cell phones (yes, I’m that old, fuck off) and by the time you stopped to get gas, you could justify not calling on the lack of working payphones.

Road Trip to Nowhere

hair: DOUX – Sixty Nine hairstyle @ Level
head: LeLUTKA Lily Head 2.5
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) Special Edition (1.3)
skin: Glam Affair – Lelutka Skin – Emilia @ UBER

AvaWay LETTER Necklaces Set @ FaMESHed
(Yummy) Eliza Ring Collection @ C88

Blueberry – 2020 Holidays – Dress
[BREATHE]-Miumi Heels @ Fameshed X

pose: Secret Poses – Winter Road Trip @ TLC
**comes with jeep (and a dog I didn’t use)

Second Spaces – Holiday Prep – bag of gifts @ Arcade

(Milk Motion) The Belvedere Hotel @ C88

Posted in Bueno, Collabor88, Events, FaMESHed, Fashion, Glam Affair, Legacy, Lelutka, Second Life

Show me a sign

I gave you everything
And in return
You gave me nothing
Show me a sign
Please give me anything
I will not hide from what’s inside of me
My nemesis
I’m turning away from me
And all the things I’ve known
I don’t need your help no more
I can do this on my own
I’m taking all the blame
Resent what I’ve become
I regret everything and
There’s nowhere left to run
There is no yesterday
Tomorrow’s far away

Show me a sign

hair: Tableau Vivant // Garland hair @ C88
head: LeLUTKA Lily Head 2.5
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) Special Edition (1.3)
skin: Glam Affair – Lelutka Skin – Fran @ C88

AvaWay LETTER Necklaces Set @ FaMESHed
(Yummy) Eliza Ring Collection @ C88

BUENO-Embrace Top @ Anthem

pose: Le Poppycock Rough Patches

Posted in Collabor88, FaMESHed, Kustom9, Legacy, Lelutka, Second Life, shopping, skin, {le fil casse}

What dirty dishes?

This is how you get out of trouble for not doing the dishes. *grins* You just stand real pretty in something distracting and offer some treats. Now, what significant other could possibly be upset about a few dishes in the sink when they can have hot cocoa, churros, and this? None with a pulse, I can tell you that! *giggles*

What dirty dishes?

hair: TRUTH Brazen
head: LeLUTKA Lily Head 2.5
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) Special Edition (1.3)
skin: — PUMEC – JADWIGA – LELUTKA x BOM

AvaWay LETTER Necklaces Set @ FaMESHed
(Yummy) Eliza Ring Collection @ C88
^^Swallow^^ Princess Belly Piercing @ Kustom9

{le fil casse} Laverne Bralette
{le fil casse} Laverne Shorts

pose: Ana Poses – Her September

scene:
hive // modern farmhouse kitchen
DaD “Rustic Frames
-tres blah- Hodgepodge – Morning Start
-tres blah- Hodgepodge – Dirty Dishes
dust bunny . kitchen clutter . spice rack . black
dust bunny . kitchen clutter . paper towels
dust bunny . kitchen clutter . dish drying rack . white
Hangry – White Glazed Churros @ Kustom9
Hangry – Jolly Hot Cocoa – White @ Kustom9