Posted in Catwa, Events, Gos, Lybra, Maitreya, Second Life, Shiny Shabby, shoes, shopping, Uber SL

Heart of Glass

“Once I had a love and it was a gas
Soon turned out had a heart of glass
Seemed like the real thing only to find
Mucho mistrust, love’s gone behind
Once I had a love and it was divine
Soon found out I was losing my mind
It seemed like the real thing but I was so blind
Mucho mistrust, love’s gone behind
In between ‘what I find is pleasing’ and ‘I’m feeling fine’
Love is so confusing
There’s no peace of mind if I fear I’m losing you
It’s just no good, you teasing like you do”
~ Blondie – Heart of Glass

heartofglass

wearing:
hair:  Exile – Talia
head: CATWA HEAD Denice
SU!– Astrid Eyes
SU!– Piercing Set 07 Septum & Nose Studs
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
skin: #20 [PUMEC] – MIA – JUNE (*new* @ Epiphany)
tattoo: Apocalyptic – Submission of love
Ascendant – Diamond Heart
Ascendant – Pretentious Nails (*new* @ ShinyShabby)
LYBRA . CARLA (*new* @ X by FaMESHed)
[Gos] Kate Thigh High Boots (*new* @ Uber)

pose by Bauhaus Movement

for information about the scene: A Journey

Posted in Bondi, Catwa, Dahlia, FaMESHed, Foxcity, Maitreya, Second Life, The Liaison Collaborative

Music Speaks

I have a tendency to overthink things. If something is wrong with one of my friends and they don’t want to talk about it….or at least not with me or not right now? I will run the gambit with thoughts about what could be bothering them and whether or not I am to blame. I want to fix it. I want to make it better. As I’m sure some of my friends often want to do with me. Let someone sling mud about me or at me, that will be stuck in my head for ages. I will go back and forth questioning whether I deserved that or not. I’ll wonder if I should apologize or just wash my hands of the whole ordeal.
I started this blog almost three years ago. I started it strictly for the therapeutic value. I saw it working wonders in Kess’ life and I was going through one of the hardest things I’ve ever had to deal with. She knew it and despite the blog therapy, I’m still dealing with that same real life bullshit that got me started, but I’m a lot closer to the end of that and the beginning of a new chapter. So, my blog has been about me expressing myself through words and photos, but I find myself quoting songs or just listing the entire lyrics quite a bit. I struggle with doing that, because so often I do feel as though its a bit of a cop out. However, there are times that music is what inspired a photo or when a song expresses everything I’m feeling in a far better way than I could. I apologized for that several times last year, but I had readers that told me they understood it. I even had readers tell me that I introduced them to music they had never heard before. So, this year, I will make no apologies for how I express myself in MY blog. Oddly enough, there’s no song for this post….*laughs*…but there will surely be one in an upcoming blog, cuz I might have already gotten it ready. *winks*

starchild

wearing:
hair:  Ade – Thank U Hairstyle (*new* @ TLC)
head: CATWA HEAD Denice
SU!– Astrid Eyes
-SU!- Piercing Set 07 Septum & Nose Studs
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
skin: #20 [PUMEC] – MIA – JUNE (*new* @ Epiphany)
BONDI . The Starman Headphones
Dahlia – Suki – Collar (*new* @ X by FaMESHed)
Ascendant – Meet the Queen Nails

pose: FOXCITY. Show Time Bento Pose Set

Posted in Catwa, Chic Moda, Events, Fancy Decor, Fashion, Foxcity, Home Decor, Jian, Lybra, Maitreya, Second Life, shopping, {what next}

Do I Wanna Know?

“Do you ever get the feeling that you can’t shift the tide
That sticks around like something’s in your teeth
And some aces up your sleeve
I had no idea that you’re in deep
I dreamt about you near me every night this week
How many secrets can you keep’
‘Cause there’s this tune I found that makes me think of you somehow
When I play it on repeat
Until I fall asleep”
~ Arctic Monkeys – Do I Wanna Know?

Do I Wanna Know

wearing:
hair:  TRUTH Aislin
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
skin: [theSkinnery] Amber
LYBRA . SIRIA SET (*new* @ X by FaMESHed)
JIAN Beagle Pup (Companion – Add me!)

pose: FOXCITY. Rain Bento Pose Set

scene created on the patio of  DaD DESIGN “Woodpecker Cottage”
ChicModa // Fresno Bench (*new* @ Cosmopolitan)
LISP – Mesh – Newspaper and Coffee – Peach with steam
Fancy Decor: Rain Boots
{what next} Greenwich Rug
{what next} Floor Jar Lantern (stars)
{what next} Snake Plant
{what next} Pothos Plant (trailing)
{what next} Swiss Cheese Plant
{what next} Hanging Heart Decor – Love Grows Here

***If you are reading this on any site that suggests this post was originally published anywhere but SadyStyle by anyone other than Sadystika Sabretooth, you are reading a stolen post.

Posted in Catwa, Events, Exploration, FaMESHed, Fashion, Gos, Maitreya, Second Life, shoes, shopping, Uber SL, United Colors

Moments

“I, I’m not the prettiest you’ve ever seen
But I have my moments, I have my moments
Not the flawless one, I’ve never been
But I have my moments, I have my moments
I can get a little drunk, I get into all the drugs
But on good days I am charming as fuck”
~ Tove Lo –  Moments

That really sums me up pretty damn well. Or it used to. I don’t drink or drug too often anymore. I think at some point, I just realized that I kinda like being sober and in control. Drugs and alcohol can numb the pain for a bit, but the best way not to feel is to just go to sleep. Everything will still be there in the morning.

Moments

wearing:
hair:  DOUX – Lawrence hairstyle
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
skin: [theSkinnery] Amber

^^Swallow^^ Princess Ears
^^Swallow^^ Princess Bento Rings
^^Swallow^^ Magic Necklace

UC_Tina_dress (*new* @ X by FaMESHed)
[Gos] Khloe Buckle Platforms (*new* @ Uber)

pose created using Anypose
location Elysion

***If you are reading this on any site that suggests this post was originally published anywhere but SadyStyle by anyone other than Sadystika Sabretooth, you are reading a stolen post.

 

Posted in Catwa, Collabor88, Eudora3D, Events, FaMESHed, Fashion, Foxcity, Maitreya, Second Life, shoes, shopping

Cat Herder

“It checks you in and kicks you down,
And chews you up and spits you out.
It messes with your sanity by twisting all your thoughts around.
They say it’s blind they say it waits but every time it seals your fate.
And now it’s got you by the balls it won’t let go until you fall.
I was down and out, got up I said “Hey love I’ve had enough!”
I’ve felt pleasure without pain.
My soul you’ll never tame!
Love bites, but so do I.”
Halestorm – Love Bites (So Do I)
I think this is the longest I’ve ever been single in Second Life, aside from when I was married in RL. I’ve dated a bit here and there, but nothing has stuck for more than a week. God forbid I have a life aside from sitting around waiting for someone to complete me. The last two men I’ve dated felt that me not answering within a 30-120 second window was disrespectful. Well, I got news for ya, fellas. I have a life. I’m complete all by myself and while I am naturally submissive, I will NOT roll over and play dead just because you’re online. I’ve been in Second Life for 12 years. I’ve made a few friends. I’ve got a few jobs. I have a lot of interests AND I chase squirrels/shinies. Apparently, that’s too much for some people.
I do know that it can be annoying, but most people either get it and embrace it or they move on. I play Guild Wars 2 with one of my best friends and he has told me that he feels like he’s herding cats when he plays with me. *laughs* I’m always running off in the wrong direction to look at something new or chasing materials for crafting. See? He embraces my inner cat and so do my other close friends. I do know it can be aggravating, because believe it or not, one of my friends is worse than me. I won’t call any names today, but if she’s not paying attention I know she’s been captured Facebook.
So, despite being very lonely at times, especially with the holiday season quickly approaching…I’m just going to enjoy myself with whoever I want, whenever I want. Anyone that has an issue with that can file a report with my keeper. Oh, wait, that’s right, I don’t have one. *giggles* That’s right, I do what I want! Remember that.
I wish you a day filled with love & laughter. ♥

feeling catty

wearing:
hair:  Sintiklia – Hair Sheba
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
skin: [theSkinnery] Amber (*new* @ C88)

*Vanilla Bae* Annie Sweater (*new* @ Equal10)
{vincue} Mely+Undie
Eudora3D Domina Boots (*new* @ X by FaMESHed)

FOXCITY. Late Night Bento Pose Set

SAYO Sin – Crimson Dreams Backdrop
::GB::Black Panther D

***If you are reading this on any site that suggests this post was originally published anywhere but SadyStyle by anyone other than Sadystika Sabretooth, you are reading a stolen post.

Posted in Bueno, CandyDoll, Catwa, Collabor88, Events, FaMESHed, Fashion, Foxcity, Lamb, Legal Insanity, Maitreya, Second Life, shoes, shopping, Uber SL

Skyscraper

“You can take everything I have
You can break everything I am
Like I’m made of glass
Like I’m made of paper
Go on and try to tear me down
I will be rising from the ground
Like a skyscraper, like a skyscraper”
~Kerli – Skyscraper

As humans, we take a lot of punches throughout our lives. Yet, with each passing day, we either grow stronger or weaker. Ultimately, the choice is ours. Mentally and emotionally, I’ve definitely grown stronger. My body? Eh, not so much. I should have taken better care of it when I was younger, but I was invincible and never imagined I’d live past 30. Here I am dealing with level 8 pain daily as the weather changes. Yet, the emotional and mental tolls have been far more difficult to face.
There have been times that I’ve felt as fragile as glass, as delicate as tissue paper, and I’ve been beaten down both literally and figuratively. But each and every time, so far, I’ve gotten up. I’ve gained strength from the pain. In fact, there are times that by keeping my pain to myself and not complaining about it, by not showing it to the world, that I can borrow from it….channel it into strength. I’ve siphoned power from the pain to keep going. Perhaps I’m a bit stubborn, too. I feel like if anyone is going to genuinely take credit for me falling apart, its going to be me. So, until I’m ready to curl up with the worms for eternity, I will continue to rise like a skyscraper.

***If you are reading this on any site that suggests this post was originally published anywhere but SadyStyle by anyone other than Sadystika Sabretooth, you are reading a stolen post.

Skyscraper

wearing:
hair:  Lamb. Dove (*new* @ Uber)
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
skin: [theSkinnery] Amber (*new* @ C88)

EF: Acanthus Headpiece (*new* @ X by FaMESHed)
EF: Acanthus Mask (*new* @ X by FaMESHed)
[The Forge] Xane Collar, Black (*new* @ X by FaMESHed)
Legal Insanity – Mistress dress (*new* @ X by FaMESHed)
_CandyDoll_ Claudia Boots (*new* @ C88)

pose: FOXCITY. Sass Bento Pose Set

Paparazzi – BACKDROP – Grime Block Balcony
BUENO-NightSpot Loft Building-Regular

Posted in Catwa, Collabor88, Dahlia, E.V.E, Events, FaMESHed, Fashion, Home Decor, Landscaping, Maitreya, Mina Hair, Second Life, shopping

A Life On Display

These days, its really easy to compare our lives to the lives of others, especially when so many people are constantly making their private lives public. With all these social media friends posting the best bits of their lives, its really easy to slip into a  state of depression. What’s important to remember is that we’re only seeing the highlight reel of those lives. We’re not being shown the 99% of life that isn’t beautiful and wonderful. Often times, what we’re being shown isn’t even real. Those happy family photos? Behind the scenes the kids hate their parents or the happy couple fights. Perhaps one of them is even cheating.
I remember several years ago catching up with a girl from high school on my RL Facebook. Her life looked so amazing. Her photos and descriptions on Facebook made her family look amazing. Two great kids and an adoring husband. The more we hung out the more truths that came out. She was a closet alcoholic having an affair with her ex-boyfriend online at night after her husband and children went to bed. One of her kids was special needs and really difficult to deal with. Her house was a complete mess. To be honest, her whole life was a mess. This was not at all what she portrayed with the photos and stories she presented on social media.
It turned out that she was nothing like the person she had presented herself to be and I couldn’t be around her, knowing that she was lying to the whole world. Honestly, it was the alcoholism and cheating on her husband that I couldn’t condone. I quickly distanced myself from her and started taking a closer look at what people presented on social media. What I learned from all of this is that we simply cannot compare our actual lives with the highlight reels of people we hardly know. It’s dangerous to our psyches and its not realistic.
With our lives on display, we all have a responsibility to be more honest with one another. With that I wish you all much love & laughter. ♥

on display

wearing:
hair:  MINA – Kim (*new* @ X by FaMESHed)
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
skin: [theSkinnery] Amber (*new* @ C88)
Wicca’s Wardrobe – Kaenis Lingerie (*new* @ RLD)

scene:
Dahlia – Solitary Confinement Cloche – Gold (*new* @ X by FaMESHed)
***pose used is in the Cloche

E.V.E Dystopia Flowers-Eye Ghost
E.V.E Dystopia Flowers-Eye
E.V.E KOI (MOD) Square Confetti Ring

Posted in Catwa, crate, Death Row Designs, Events, FaMESHed, Fashion, Foxcity, Home Decor, Jian, Kustom9, Lamb, Lybra, Maitreya, Prism Events, Quasi, Salem, Second Life, shopping, ULTRA

Guarantees in Life

There are few guarantees in life, but one thing is for sure. You will get hurt. You will find yourself in some of the darkest places imaginable right in your own head. You will eventually die. And no matter who you are if you have tits bigger than a B cup and you sleep in a tank top, you will wake up with one tit out. It never fails.

waking the dead

wearing:
hair:  Lamb. Meow
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
eyes & shadow: [ Conviction ] Living Dead Doll
face & partial body applier: S.E CATWA + OMEGA RIDE OF THE DEAD MASK APPLY 01 (*new* @ Kustom9) ***includes Diamonds and black crown attachment-not shown

LYBRA . XL STILETTO NAILS
: CULT : Dark Side Rings

*Vanilla Bae* Holly Shirt & Cardi: (*new* @ FaMESHed)
[VALE KOER] WAIST PANTIES
**UTOPIA@Design** – “XILA” (*new* @ X by FaMESHed)

pose: FOXCITY. Bad Kitty Bento Pose Set

scene:
JIAN Spoiled Rotties 12. Skeleton Pup Companion (*new* @ Epiphany)

Quasi – Dripping with Sin – 3D Painting

crate Travelor’s Trolley (*new* @ Blueprint)

Rounded Bed (Adult) CHEZ MOI (*new* @ ULTRA)

[La Baguette] Voodoo doll (deco) (*new* @ Salem)
:::ChicaChica::: Holy blood Cocktail tray REZZ (*new* @ Salem)

drd phantom broken mirror

Fapple– Always Prepared- Side Table
Fapple– BDSM Tool Box

striped mocha – hanging lotuses – black