Posted in Catwa, Events, Fashion, Legal Insanity, Maitreya, Second Life, shopping, We <3 Role-Play

You Can Never Hurt Me Again

This is a story that I have never told
I gotta get this off my chest to let it go
I need to take back the light inside you stole
You’re a criminal
And you steal like you’re a pro
All the pain and the truth
I wear like a battle wound
So ashamed, so confused
I was broken and bruised
Now I’m a warrior
Now I’ve got thicker skin
I’m a warrior
I’m stronger than I’ve ever been
And my armor, is made of steel, you can’t get in
I’m a warrior
And you can never hurt me again
Out of the ashes, I’m burning like a fire
You can save your apologies, you’re nothing but a liar
I’ve got shame, I’ve got scars
That I will never show
I’m a survivor
In more ways than you know
‘Cause all the pain and the truth
I wear like a battle wound
So ashamed, so confused
I’m not broken or bruised
‘Cause now I’m a warrior
Now I’ve got thicker skin
I’m a warrior
I’m stronger than I’ve ever been
And my armor, is made of steel, you can’t get in
I’m a warrior
And you can never hurt me
There’s a part of me I can’t get back
A little girl grew up too fast
All it took was once, I’ll never be the same
Now I’m taking back my life today
Nothing left that you can say
‘Cause you were never gonna take the blame anyway
Now I’m a warrior
I’ve got thicker skin
I’m a warrior
I’m stronger than I’ve ever been
And my armor, is made of steel, you can’t get in
I’m a warrior
And you can never hurt me again
No oh yeah yeah
You can never hurt me again

goldilox

wearing:
hair:  /Wasabi Pills/ Olivia Mesh Hair
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
skin: [theSkinnery] Paola

Wicca’s Wardrobe – Aki Mask (*new* @ We<3RP)
.::Nanika::.Star Collar
Zaara : Raksha arm-chains
**RE** Zaria Bracelets
Zaara : Raksha thigh-chain
Legal Insanity – Alice sheer dress

pose by Del May Poses

E.V.E Chained Red Orchid {Gold}

***If you are reading this on any site that suggests this post was originally published anywhere but SadyStyle by anyone other than Sadystika Sabretooth, you are reading a stolen post.

Posted in Apple Fall, Bueno, CandyDoll, Events, Fashion, Second Life, shoes, shopping, TMD, {le fil casse}

In Between

Kelsea Ballerini – In Between

In between just a flame and a ring
In between an apartment and a frontporch swing
In between cheap and fancy a guitar and a Grammy
In between reckless and responsibility
Sometimes I’m my mother’s daughter, sometimes I’m her friend
Sometimes I play grown up and sometimes I play pretend
Sometimes I’m a princess dressed all ribbons and all curls
And sometimes I just wanna scream “I’m not a little girl!“
Dumb enough to think I know it all
Smart enough to know I don’t
Young enough to think I’ll live forever
Old enough to know I won’t
In between
In between beer and basement
And Napa Valley vacation
In between hometown and a neon city
In between underestimated and overexpectated
Who I was and who I’m gonna be
Sometimes I’m my mother’s daughter, sometimes I’m her friend
Sometimes I play grown up and sometimes I play pretend
Sometimes I’m a princess dressed all ribbons and all curls
And sometimes I just wanna scream, “I’m not a little girl“
Dumb enough to think I know it all
Smart enough to know I don’t
Young enough to think I’ll live forever
Old enough to know I won’t
I know I won’t
I’m half head up in the clouds, half feet down on the ground
‘Cause it ain’t that simple
As an adult sittin’ on that page when they say, “Act your age“
But you’re stuck there in the middle
Sometimes I’m my mother’s daughter, sometimes I’m her friend
Sometimes I play grown up and sometimes I play pretend
Sometimes I’m a princess dressed all ribbons and all curls
And sometimes I just wanna scream “I’m not a little girl!“
Dumb enough to think I know it all
Smart enough to know I don’t
Young enough to think I’ll live forever
Old enough to know I won’t
In the in between
Yeah
In the in between
hey sweetpea it’s mama
Just wanna let you know that I love you
Thinkin’ about you, missin’ you while I’m on the road
Can’t wait to see you when I get back

sight seeing

wearing:
hair: /Wasabi Pills/ Chai Mesh Hair
head: CATWA HEAD Lilly
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
{le fil casse} Soraya Dress
_CandyDoll_ Soraya Coat
_CandyDoll_ Soraya Boots

pose: an lar [poses] The Alisha Series

scene:
MINIMAL – Sevilla Backdrop //2// (*new* @ TMD)
[DDD] Twinkling Ivy
BUENO-Bike -Pink
Apple Fall Wrought Iron Chair RARE (Dec Pocket Gacha)
Apple Fall Wrought Iron Table (Dec Pocket Gacha)
Apple Fall Crumpled Newspaper

Posted in Bueno, Events, Fashion, Kustom9, Lybra, Phedora, Second Life, Seven Emporium, shoes, shopping, Uber SL, {le fil casse}

Tomayto, Tomahto

“Prosecuted, stabbed, tomayto, tomahto,” she laughed as she stood watching the bill collector run away after dropping off the bills. Her JIAN Chipmunk Collection :: Companion looking equally intimidating. She looked down to see that the tax man had dropped his 7 – Scientific Calculator. She stomped down on the machine with her Phedora ~ Spectra heels and waved to the men running in fear.
She smiled sweetly as Chip (the chipmunk, duh!) began chewing at the edges of the parcels, “Silly men, surely they saw my 7 – BillPosters sign! Now don’t eat that stuff, we have plenty of nuts inside, just chew it up and spit it out.”

tomayto tomahto

hair: /Wasabi Pills/ Hazel Mesh Hair
head: CATWA HEAD Tala
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: DeeTalez
nose piercing: –SU!– Piercing Set 05 Bridge (Catwa Tala)
lip piercing: –SU!– Piercing Set 05 Snakebites (Catwa Tala)
^^Swallow^^ Vampire Necklace (*new* @ Kustom9)
{le fil casse} Margeaux Sweater (*new*@Uber)
{le fil casse} Margeaux Skirt (*New* @ Uber)
Phedora ~ Spectra heels (Once Upon a Nightmare)
LYBRA . XL STILETTO NAILS
15. :BAMSE: Trench Knife – Silver
JIAN Chipmunk Collection :: Companion

pose by an lar

scene:
BUENO-Night Life- Street (*new* @ Kustom9)
7 – BillPosters
7 – Scientific Calculator
NOMAD // Scattered Leaves A // Yellowgreens
[ keke ] willow leaves for ground – mini
tres blah– Hodgepodge – Snail Mail

Posted in CandyDoll, Events, Fashion, Second Life, shoes, shopping

Tease

I took a day offline and now I’m pressed for time, but this picture made me think of this song anyway. So, here’s a song for ya…*grins*

Tyra B – Tease

Oh I swear she bad
She know she the baddest bitch
Oh she make me mad
She said that I’ll never get
Between her legs
One thing that seem relevant
She don’t swing my way
At least that’s what she claim
But there’s a first time to everything
You ever did
She said she love her man
But I ain’t tryna hear that shit

‘Cause what we got is special
Nah, not special, but it’s sexual
And girl my sexual is oh so special though

But you’s a tease
(shawty you’s a tease)
Why you doin’ this to me
(why you doin’ this to me shawty)
You always do what you doin’
Like you don’t know what you doin’
But you know just what you doin’
To me
‘Cause shawty you’s a tease
(shawty you’s a tease)
Why you doin’ this to me
(why you doin’ this to me shawty)
You always do what you doin’
Like you don’t know what you doin’
But you know just what you doin’
To me

Oh look at that ass
It’s lookin’ like a couple twins
That’s up under that dress
I know a lot of women that say
Oh we just friends
They be checkin’ for me
Always texting T.B.
When they sayin’ they lonely
Yeah, we homies but
There’s a first time to everything
You ever did
She said she love her man
I ain’t tryna hear that shit

‘Cause what we got is special
Nah not special, but it’s sexual
And girl my sexual is oh so special though

But you’s a tease
(shawty you’s a tease)
Why you doin’ this to me
(why you doin’ this to me shawty)
You always do what you doin’
Like you don’t know what you doin’
But you know just what you doin’
To me
‘Cause shawty you’s a tease
(shawty you’s a tease)
Why you doin’ this to me
(why you doin’ this to me shawty)
You always do what you doin’
Like you don’t know what you doin’
But you know just what you doin’
To me

Why can’t you see what you doin’ to me
‘Cause I want you bad
But you’re just a tease
‘Cause what we got is special
Nah not special, but it’s sexual
And girl my sexual is oh so special though

But you’s a tease
(shawty you’s a tease)
Why you doin’ this to me
(why you doin’ this to me shawty)
You always do what you doin’
Like you don’t know what you doin’
But you know just what you doin’
To me
‘Cause shawty you’s a tease
(shawty you’s a tease)
Why you doin’ this to me
(why you doin’ this to me shawty)
You always do what you doin’
Like you don’t know what you doin’
But you know just what you doin’
To me

Tease
(shawty you’s a tease)
Why you doin’ this to me
(why you doin’ this to me shawty)
You always do what you doin’
Like you don’t know what you doin’
But you know just what you doun’
To me
‘Cause shawty you’s a tease
(shawty you’s a tease)
Why you doin’ this yo me
(why you doin’ this to me shawty)
You always do what you doun’
Like you don’t know what you doin’
But you know just what you doin’
To me

tease

hair: /Wasabi Pills/ Ginny Mesh Hair
head: CATWA HEAD Tala
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: #PUMEC – XENA – Dead March – CATWA SKIN App.
nose piercing: –SU!– Piercing Set 05 Bridge (Catwa Tala)
lip piercing: –SU!– Piercing Set 05 Snakebites (Catwa Tala)
_CD_ Mala Bodysuit Fall Rose (*new* @ Epiphany)
_CD_ Mala Boots High Rare (*new* @ Epiphany)

pose from Foxcity
Paparazzi – BACKDROP – The Brownstone Hotel Stoop

 

Posted in Death Row Designs, Events, Fashion, Home Decor, Pretty Mess, Second Life, shopping, unKindness

Bookworm

I love books. Not just reading them, but holding them and owning them. I love the smell of a used bookstore, a library, and a new bookstore. Each one has a distinct odor of its own. I have shelves and shelves of books I have yet to read, because…well, I’m on the computer most of the time and I simply hate reading books on a screen. I’ve tried to read on tablets and I did okay with the Kindle for a while, but eventually I just really missed holding the book, using a bookmark, and having strangers ask me about the book I’m reading. No one asks you what you’re reading when you’re staring at a tablet. So, I refuse to buy eBooks anymore. I need to feel the paper between my fingertips. I need to hear the rustling of the pages as I turn them anxiously trying to finish the sentence/paragraph/chapter. There are always going to be books in my bathroom, on my nightstand, and on various shelves throughout my house. Some I’ve read and decided they’re simply too good to part with, while others sit for ages on the shelf waiting for me to finally embrace the story within.

bookworm

wearing:
hair: /Wasabi Pills/ Opal Mesh Hair
head: CATWA HEAD Tala
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
EarthStones Eyeglasses – The Countess
PM – 7. Maesi Blue&Black Top (*new* @ Epiphany)
PM – 8. Maesi Blue&Black Shorts (*new* @ Epiphany)

pose: Le Poppycock *Book Lovers* A (comes w/book & cat)

scene:
20 – DRD – Bloodcroft Castle – Secret Bookcase
uK – Victorian Book Stand Brown Booth RARE
uK – Victorian Book Stand Her Studies RARE
uK – Victorian Book Stand Quill and Ink
uK – Victorian Book Stand Scholar Study
uK – Victorian Book Stand Book Pile
uK – Victorian Book Stand Loose Bits
uK – Victorian Book Stand Her Note
uK – Victorian Book Stand Scholar Stack
39 – DRD – Bloodcroft Castle – Carpet – Two

 

Posted in Events, FaMESHed, Fashion, Second Life, shopping, {le fil casse}

Chillaxin

So, the RL is home all week. No, he’s not sick. He’s a gamer and he took the week off for some Destiny game and just in time for that he got the new PS4 Pro! The man is locked in his room yelling and cursing…all week. Me? Oh I’m chillaxin, cuz I don’t have to cook regular meals. The man is living off gamer foods and loving it. Its like a week long SuperBowl at my house. Hot wings, pigs in a blanket, pizza rolls, pizza, sandwiches…and yes, I do make him sandwiches…damn good ones, too!
Irma has made her way up to North Alabama. Of course, its not a hurricane anymore, but we’re getting sooo much rain that my patio is a little lake. Taking the dog out is fun…NOT! So, I’m going to be doing a blogothon week so prepare youself for lots of pictures and songs…hahaha. Alright, so that’s what’s going on with me this week. I’m burning sage and sending lots of love & healing light to all of those affected by Hurrican Irma, because last night I saw that 3.6 Floridians are without power. I went through a week of no power back in 2011 and that it and of itself is hard, not to mention all the damage done by Mother Nature.

lean back

wearing:
hair:  /Wasabi Pills/ Sage Mesh Hair – Style 2  (*new* @ Chapter Four)
head: CATWA HEAD Tala
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
{le fil casse} Lysette Romper (*new* @ FaMESHed)

pose: FOXCITY. Stairs (Sitting) Bento Pose Set
FOXCITY. Photo Booth – A Fool’s Paradise

Posted in Animals, Events, FaMESHed, Fashion, Jian, Mesh Body Addicts Fair, Scandalize, Second Life, shoes, shopping, Uber SL

Random Run

She was out for a run like any other day. She stopped at the corner market for her bottle of water and a rest when the adorable little puppy wandered up, tongue and tail wagging. She poured some of her water on the ground for the pup and he lapped up before passing out at her feet. He had no tags and he was too cute to leave abandoned in a parking lot. She sighed and rolled her eyes at herself, I don’t have time for a puppy. She carried the pup into the store and asked the clerk if she knew anything about it. The clerk mentioned that the pup had been hanging around for a few days but no one had claimed it or came looking for it. Sady sighed again, left her number with the clerk just in case anyone came looking for the sweet puppy and took it home.
That was six years ago, the Random and Sady have been inseparable ever since.

rest stop

wearing:
hair/Wasabi Pills/ Deanna (*new* @ FaMESHed)
headCATWA HEAD Kathy
skin: DeeTaleZ *Appliers* CATWA Head “Face Miriam”
bodyMaitreya Mesh Body – Lara
tattoo: [White~Widow] Coco – Black (*new* @ Uber)

[Z O O M] Jinks Glasses (*new* @ FaMESHed)
Scandalize. Annie TOP. Maitreya (*new* @ MBA Fair)
Scandalize. ANNIE Sweatshirt. Maitreya (*new* @ MBA Fair)
Scandalize. ANNIE Leggins. Maitreya (*new* @ MBA Fair)
REIGN.– JUNE SNEAKERS
JIAN Lively Labs :: Black Companion Pup
{Imeka} Cutie water bottle {5}

Scene:
7 – Ice Machine II PG (pose included, edited with AnyPose)
RAMA – #selfie_RAMA Sclater Street

Posted in Events, Exploration, Fashion, N21, Scandalize, Second Life, Self Reflection, shopping

The Hours Fade

“so the hours fade
something’s got to break
something’s got to change
so the hours fade
something’s got to break
something’s got to change”
The Kays Lavelle ~ The Hours

I haven’t been myself this week. As much as I try, I cannot shake this scrambled feeling. Its as if the reception in my brain is fuzzy. I’ve been emotional to say the least. Sometimes I’m slow to react to situations simply because I need time to process, but this week…I dunno, its like everything has been processing really slow. The ringing in my ears is louder than even and the pain that lives within my body has spiked. These things make it even harder for me to concentrate. Sometimes its all I can do to just sit still.
I’m sure the wonky weather in my area has played a major role in this, but something’s got to change…for I feel I’m going mad. This morning I didn’t even want to get out of bed, but as my coffee sat on my nightstand getting colder I forced myself to get up…come to the PC and write some of this down. I can’t even know if this will make sense to anyone else, but its where I’m at and I’ve found that more often than not…I’m not alone in my feelings. As the hours fade, I hope that this haze, too, will fade and I will get back to feeling more like myself.

scandalize top

wearing: 
hair
/Wasabi Pills/ Apple Mesh Hair
headCATWA HEAD Kathy
bodyMaitreya Mesh Body – Lara

EarthStones Butterfly Necklace & Earrings – Whisper
Scandalize. Juliet. (*new* @ N21)
Blueberry – DWL Classic

pose: FOXCITY. Bento Ground Sits VOL1
location: Hazardous

Posted in Events, Fashion, Kustom9, Phedora, Second Life, Self Reflection, shoes, shopping, ULTRA

Stick a Knife In It

“The weak can never forgive. Forgiveness is the attribute of the strong.” ~Mohandas Gandhi

This is a lesson that took me ages me to learn. I had to learn that I had more power over how I feel than anyone else. I had to learn that forgiveness does not mean forgetting. I had to learn that holding onto resentments is like carrying rocks in my pocket and that each resentment I carry is just another rock. How many rocks must one soul carry until they learn to start letting them go? I had to learn that anger is a secondary emotion. Its one we choose, because its more comfortable than the fear and/or pain behind it. There will be some that read this and disagree, but that simply means they haven’t learned these lessons yet. Some never will. I know these things to be true. I know them to be as true as my weight and the scars on my skin.
Learning to forgive, despite the pain and/or fear certainly is not easy. It doesn’t mean you have to find love in your heart for those that have scorned you. It means you have to find love in your heart for yourself. Enough love to stop giving more power to those that hurt you. It means taking the power away from those that do not deserve it. I recently found out that someone that I once counted among my closest friends has been telling lies about me. He’s told innumerable people that I was trying to sleep with him and that’s why he quit being my friend. Those that know me…that really know him…they know that simply isn’t true, but there are plenty of people out there that are listening and believing his lies. It hurt. It still does, but there’s nothing I can do about him, his lies, or those that choose to believe him, except forgive him and let it go.
Will I ever trust him again? Will I ever be his friend again? Of course not. Learning to forgive and let go does not color me a fool. It simply strengthens me and lightens the load on my soul. I will never understand his reasons for that lie. He could have simply told the truth. We had an argument, we both felt the other person was unreasonable and he chose to walk away rather than talk it out. He could have said that I threw the friendship away, as that may very well have been his understanding of the situation. However, he chose to spread rumors and lies about me instead. Again, I admit that it hurt.
By forgiving him, I drop those rocks of resentment with his name on them, and I lighten the load on my soul. In the end, I am the stronger one, because by lightening my spiritual load I strengthen it at well. He is but one example of how people have stabbed me in the back. There are many others, but I must forgive them, as well. For its my spirit that I must care for and it is my responsibility to lighten that load. I have far more serious matters going on in my life that worrying about this man and his lies or anyone else that chooses to hate me for no genuine reason. So, to him I say, “I forgive you, here’s my back, stick a knife in it if you must, but you will NOT break my spirit or rape my soul.”

 

hide n seek

wearing:
hair: /Wasabi Pills/ Apple Mesh Hair (*new* @ ULTRA)
bodyMaitreya Mesh Body – Lara
tattoo: [White~Widow] TwinPeaks II – Black (*new* @ Enchantment)
_CandyDoll_ Megan Panties Black (*new* @ Rewind)
Phedora ~ Melissa Strappy heels  (*new* @ Kustom9)
JIAN Jack Russel Terrier :: Companion (Luxe Box May)

pose by Del May

backdrop: RAMA – #selfie_RAMA Cube Photostudio (*new* @ 6 Republic)

Posted in Events, Fashion, fri.day, N21, Second Life, Self Reflection, shoes, shopping

Hold Your Head Up

When people upset you and you want to lash out in public forums or on social media, think twice. I say this for myself as much as for anyone else. Its always best to take a minute and think about what you’re about to say or do…what are the possible ramifications? What is your motive? What do you hope to gain from it? More than likely you’ll rethink it and that’s probably for the best. I’ve rarely regretted NOT saying something when I was upset, but I have far too many times regretted things I said in the heat of the moment. Once it’s out there, its out there. No matter the apologies or the excuses, once the damage is done…well, its done. So, learn a lesson with me if you don’t already do it…think before you type/speak so that you can hold your head up, instead of hanging it in shame like me.

scandalize

wearing:
hair:   /Wasabi Pills/ Paige Mesh Hair
head: CATWA HEAD Kathy
bodyMaitreya Mesh Body – Lara

**RE** Simone Heart Collar
Scandalize. MADISON (*new* @ N21)
fri. – Daphne.Platforms (Coal)

pose by !bang
location: IMPORTS Wine Bar