I am walking proof that blogging works. Just yesterday, I acquired some cute new purses, because I saw one of them on a blog post. I also discovered a new pose store. I mean, I dunno how new they are to the grid, but they’re new to me and that’s always exciting to me as a photographer. These pants I’m wearing were an item I saw at an event, but after I saw them in a blog post, I decided I had to have them. I have loved the backdrops from Paleto for a while, but after seeing one I didn’t have in a blog post…I went to their store. There I discovered that they had five backdrops on sale, all for less than L$100! I had to scoop them up! I can only hope that my blog inspires people to buy a few things from time to time as well.
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These burning flames, these crashing waves
Wash over me like a hurricane
I’ll captivate, you’re hypnotized
Feel powerful but it’s me again
Come, lay me down
‘Cause I know this
‘Cause I know this lord
In the middle of the night, in the middle of the night
Just call my name, I’m yours to tame
In the middle of the night, in the middle of the night
I’m wide awake, I crave your taste
All night long ’til morning comes
I’m getting what is mine, you gon’ get yours, oh
In the middle of the night, in the middle of the night, oh
And just call on me, ah, just call my name
Lie with me in
So we’ve put an end to it this time.
I’m no longer yours and you’re no longer mine.
You said this hill looks far too steep
If I’m not even sure it’s me you wanna keep.
And it’s been ten days without you in my reach,
And the only time I’ve touched you is in my sleep.
But time has changed nothing at all –
You’re still the only one that feels like home.
I’ve tried cutting the ropes and
I let you go but you’re still the only one
That feels like home. ~ Missy Higgins – Ten Days
So, y’all gotta know I miss writing something on occasion. Should’ve known I couldn’t stay quiet for too damn long. I didn’t even make it a month. I don’t know what I’ll write about going forward. I don’t think I’ll be quite so forthcoming about my life. Sadly, there are people out there that like to hurt me and use personal information to do so. In the meantime, I hope everyone, even the haters, enjoys this summer the best you can. Let’s all eat watermelon and get sticky!
It just so happened after I shot this picture, some of my lovely friends invited me to come hang out at The Bay (where I sometimes host). Well, I was already dressed for it, so why not, right? Upon landing they were quick to inform me that I looked like BayWatch reloaded…*giggles* I have to admit, that was kinda the look I was going for…I even pumped up the tatas for this shot. I even laughed when I did it, because it was more like, “Hey, Watch!” than BayWatch. Anyway, we’ve got gorgeous earrings from Triggered paired with a swimsuit from Boosh, both can be found at the current round of Belle. Add in this gorgeous windblown hair from Wasabi that’s over at Bloom and I’m ready for the beach!
Well, Hi there! Don’t mind me, I’m just putting ornaments back on the tree…perhaps a little higher than they were before. Why? Oh, you must not have cats. Anyone that owns a cat knows why…*laughs* So goes the life of a cat lover during the holidays! Deck the halls with lost ornaments from the tree…falalalala la la laaaa…ouch, was that broken glass? OMG! Where is that soon to be dead cat?
“When they judge you, yawn.
When they misunderstand you, smile.
When they underestimate you, laugh.
When they condemn you, ignore.
When they envy you, rejoice.
When they oppose you, prevail.”
― Matshona Dhliwayo
I will never understand how people can be so careless with the people they supposedly love. Or how callous they can be with other people’s emotions. Why would you allow someone to fall in love with you just so you can turn around and walk away? Would they let someone step off the ledge of a 100 ft drop? I mean, if you would, then you should avoid all human contact, because you are a monster. Yet, if you allow someone to fall in love with you knowing you don’t feel the same way, you might as well push them off the roof. The feeling is the same. Oh sure it sounds dramatic, but if you’ve ever truly had your heart broken, you know that there is nothing that will EVER heal those wounds. Those are permanent scars. They will never go away. Here’s something people don’t seem to understand about scar tissue. Scar tissue is numb on the surface. It no longer feels. You have to dig beneath that immediate surface to get to the nerves that will sense pain/pleasure. So, the most scarred a heart becomes, the more difficult it becomes to feel anything…ANYTHING.
It has taken me years to get to a place where I’ve allowed someone else into my heart and he’s all too aware of the walls he has yet to conquer. Honestly, I doubt he ever will conquer them. I’m not sure anyone can. I’m not sure there’s anything beyond those walls worth finding anyway. Which is probably why things are working out with Derrek, to be fair. It’s not something either of us take lightly, but we are honest with each other about our feelings. We’ve known each other for years and I have accepted one another’s scars, guarded walls and all. This is the best I can hope for and I am so very blessed that he’s willing to love me despite the restrictions. Fortunately, he has a real life that will hopefully balance things out for him.
As for the rest of you out there, dating…falling in and out of love…be careful, please. Don’t be careless with one another, because you cannot begin to know how truly fragile another person can be. Just treat each other the way you’d want to be treated, it really is just THAT simple.
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