Posted in Blueberry, Catwa, Exploration, Fashion, Foxcity, Maitreya, Reign, Second Life, shoes, shopping

Trust Issues

“I’m just letting you know I’m emotionally unavailable
I’d love to reciprocate your love but I’m incapable
I know that you don’t get it, but I’m just so unstable
And all I could think about is how you’d be unfaithful
You think that I am crazy
But that, that does not phase me
And no, you cannot change me
Just know you cannot save me”
~ Olivia O’Brien – Trust Issues

I really want to elaborate on how deeply the quoted lyrics above hit home. There has only been ONE man in my entire life that has not betrayed me and that was my maternal Grandfather. I honestly do not believe he ever would have either. Granted, I was only 7yrs old the last time I saw him before he died, but the way my mother talks about him…well, I have to believe he never would have betrayed me. He was amazing the had the bluest eyes I have ever seen. Every other man in my life has hurt me by making me feel less than worthy. Every man I’ve dated has cheated either with me or on me. Yes, I said with me. You see, I learned my lesson about the betrayal early on. So, in my early 20s, I wouldn’t date a man that didn’t have a woman at home. Why? Because at that time, I would have rather been the woman he cheats with than the woman he cheats on. I was treated exceptionally well by those men and had no restrictions. They couldn’t very well insist on monogamy from me when they were going home to fuck someone else, now could they?
I’m not saying there aren’t some good, honest men out there. All I can say is that they’ve not been men I dealt with for very long. Perhaps its the type of men I’m attracted to. I can accept that. Regardless of why, it comes down to this one thing. I am incapable of trusting a man romantically. I tried to last year, but like all the rest….that led to betrayal and the shattered remains of a heart that wasn’t even healed from the last betrayal. The promises people make when they think they’re in love….hmmmm, I don’t know, I suppose the old addage, “Promises were made to be broken,” has proven to be true….at least in my life. So, trust issues? Nah, more like a full blown subscription to NTA….never trust anyone.

Trust Issues

wearing:
hair:  Vanity Hair::Baccara
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
skin: [theSkinnery] Amber

^^Swallow^^ Princess Bento Rings
^^Swallow^^ Magic Necklace

Tee*fy Jenna Tube Top
Blueberry – Aria – Stylized Pants
REIGN.- BECKY STUDDED BOOTS

pose: Foxcity. Sass Bento Pose Set
location: Route66

***If you are reading this on any site that suggests this post was originally published anywhere but SadyStyle by anyone other than Sadystika Sabretooth, you are reading a stolen post.

Posted in Catwa, Fashion, Foxcity, Landscaping, Maitreya, Second Life, Sexy Princess, shoes, shopping

Mood Swings

Our minds are so freaking powerful and yet can also be so very weak at the same time. There’s been a lot of recent controversy about designers in SL, then there was a rather large debate about suicide…lots of opinions and a handful of facts. The truth is, what may seem weak and selfish (suicide) to one, may seem courageous, even enviable to others. We all like to sit up and judge one another for this and that, but the truth is no one knows how another person’s mind works. As a person that has suffered from extreme mood swings my entire life, I can tell you that what might send me over the edge one day, will slip right off my back the next. I’m sure they call them mood swings because that how it feels…like our emotions are just swing through out minds like a monkey on a vine in the jungle. However, what if we were to look at them as literal swings that we can actually control. As we feel a negative swing sweeping us off our feet, we don’t have to fuel that mood with the push and pull that powers a swing. No, we can just surrender and let the swing come to a stop. Then we can get down and choose a better swing. I don’t know if that makes sense to anyone else, but I often write these things for myself more than anyone else. As I try to remind myself not to jump off the swing while its too far back or too far forward, I hope that others will do the same.

This post is not about right or wrong. I think grown folks should already know that. I’ve got nothing good to add to the designer drama. This is merely a post about mood swings with a photo I took before any of the drama even occurred.

only one

wearing:
hair:  Vanity Hair::Soul Sista
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: DeeTaleZ *Appliers* CATWA Head “Myra”
[Sexy Princess] Amalfitana Black Outfit
-[Sexy Princess] Amalfitana Bra 
-[Sexy Princess] Amalfitana Suit
-[Sexy Princess] Amalfitana Boots
pose: FOXCITY. Surface Set
scene:
Heart – Ancient Stone Pathway
[we’re CLOSED] swing natural wood
Posted in Catwa, Chic Moda, Culprit, Events, FaMESHed, Foxcity, Jian, Maitreya, Second Life, Tres Chic, Vanity Event, [BREATHE]

Good Day

I have to say, I really am blessed when it comes to some of my friends. As I’m writing this my face is hurting from laughing so hard. I’ve been laughing so hard that I feel sorta drunk. Mind you, I messed up my meds the past few days, so that could be part of it. Regardless, it’s been a crazy whirlwind day, but aside from literally waking myself up shaking, it was a good day.

beachin

wearing:
hair:  Vanity Hair::Baccara (*new* @ TresChic)
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: DeeTaleZ *Appliers* CATWA Head “Myra”
Cae :: Hughes :: Sunglasses
ChicModa // Marie (*new* @ FaMESHed)
[BREATHE]-Simone Heels (*new* @ Epiphany)
JIAN Beach Party Pointers VIP Adult Companion (*new* @ Epiphany)
JIAN Beach Party Pointers VIP Pup Companion (*new* @ Epiphany)
pose: FOXCITY. Breezy Bento Pose Set
scene:
KraftWork Beach Burger Shack
Culprit ModSquad Scooter Surf Decor (*new* for Go by FaMESHed)
Posted in breathe, Catwa, Events, Fashion, Foxcity, Maitreya, N21, Narcisse, RunAway Hair, Second Life, shoes, shopping, The Liaison Collaborative, Uber SL, unKindness, Vanity Event

Quiet Lies

I’m letting the music speak for me….

Matthew Mayfield ~ Quiet Lies

You somehow see inside me
When I lay down
You steal my dreams easily
When you’re around
Quiet lies
Whisper whispered all the time
No more silent treatment
I am screaming in your ear
I’m starving stop at nothing
Til I am inside you for good
For good
Lights blurred with time
And that gray became a light
You see nothing clearly
So head strong deny the feeling
Quiet lies
Whisper whisper all the time
No more silent treatment
I am screaming in your ear
I’m starving stop at nothing
Til I am inside you for good
Ooh for good ooh for good
No more silent treatment
I am inside i am inside
No more silent treatment
I am screaming in your ear
No no no
Starving I’ll stop at nothing
Til I am inside you for good
No no no no
No more silent treatment
I am screaming in your ear
No no no
Starving I’ll stop at nothing
Til I am inside you for good
For good

Quiet Lies

wearing:
hair:   [RA] Sabrina Hair
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: Glam Affair – Willow – Jamaica ( Uber)

**CC** – Heavenly Ranger Halo (*new* @ Crystal Heart)
**CC** – Heavenly Ranger Aura (*new* @ Crystal Heart)
Nov-Jahseh Necklace (*new* @ Vanity Event)
(Yummy) Curator Rings Set (N21)

Narcisse– Sally Mini Ruffle Dress (*new* @ TLC)
[BREATHE]-Mireya Heels (*new* @ Blush)

pose by Foxcity – Me Time Set

scene:
uK – Victorian Dreamscape Cloudsies Blue
E.V.E Waving Bioluminescent Fungus W&G Cloud

Posted in Bueno, Catwa, Events, Gos, Maitreya, Second Life, shoes, shopping, Uber SL

Do These Shoes Make My Ass Look Big?

Whenever someone asks if something makes their ass look big, I can’t help myself, nor do I even try to stop myself…I immediately answer with something random, “No, its your elbows that look fat in that.” or “No, you ass just IS fat.” Something along those lines, because let’s face it….its a no win situation. You might as well have some fun with it. They say there’s no stupid questions, but I disagree. I think there are lots of stupid questions, but I love them. Stupid questions, get stupid answers. *grins*

Bueno & Gos + DeadDollz

wearing:
hair: Vanity Hair: Amorous
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: [theSkinnery]  Iris (Catwa Applier) toffee
.::Dead Dollz::. Nadja Sweatshirt (*new* @ The Clique)
.::Dead Dollz::. Nadja Leggings (*new* @ The Clique)
[Gos] Natalie Ankle Boots (*new* @ Uber)

pose: Bauhaus Movement

background is an interior wall in the loft apartment found in:
BUENO-NightSpot Loft Building-Decay (*new* @ Uber)

Posted in Animals, Cosmopolitan, Events, Fashion, Home Decor, Rebel Hope, Second Life, Shiny Shabby, shopping

Steampunk

“Steampunk is…a joyous fantasy of the past, allowing us to revel in a nostalgia for what never was. It is a literary playground for adventure, spectacle, drama, escapism and exploration. But most of all it is fun!”
George Mann

I love this description of Steampunk, because it suits us all so well in Second Life, too, doesn’t it? This is a virtual playground full of adventures, exploration, plenty of spectacles, and God knows we’ve got more than our fair share of drama. I think for most of us its a form of escapism, as well as a creative outlet. I don’t have a lot of experience with Steampunk, so I won’t even pretend to know anything about it other than it looks super cool! Its fun to dress up and decorate with various steampunk and industrial styles in SL. I’ve gathered quite a collection over the years and have rarely displayed any of it outside of my home (which I am constantly changing), but when I saw this corset from Elegance Boutique, a steampunk scene immediately began unfolding in my head and this is the result.

steampunk_011

I’ve listed everything in the photos and its quite a list. Just know that it was the corset that sent my mind whirling into the Eye of the Storm that is now my little world of Steampunk. As there are soooo many color options available, just imagine what it will inspire you to do. *winks*

wearing:
hair: Vanity Hair::Aquarius
head: CATWA HEAD Catya
skin: [theSkinnery] Opal (Catwa Applier) honey
eyeshadow & lipstickNew Faces – Emilia (Catwa app) [Make-up]
bodyMaitreya Mesh Body – Lara
hands: -VA-F-VISTA BENTO PROHANDS FEM

.BP. Steam Patch Airship Captain ultra rare
Absolut Vendetta– Hydra Rings
Bauhaus Movement – Madonna Necklace
Yasum*MESH*Elfen Bracers
[CX] Zip Up Bracelets

Elegance Boutique -Corset   “Mona” – Brown (*new* @ Cosmopolitan)
-SU!- Nylon Stockings /Ripped/ BLACK
!Rebel Hope – Gossip Mesh Platform Boots_Maitreya

scene:
created in Scarlet Creative Myrtle Mews
:CP: Los Robles London Rug
Apt B // The Industrial Side – Old cabinet
*LODE* Deco – Morning Glory Gramophone [oxidized]
!gO! SteamTeddy +Cheedo+
DRD – Industrial Seat
[ zerkalo ] Steampunk Posters – 6 (*new* @ Shiny Shabby)
RO – Spook Show – Val Vain Mannequin
DRD – Industrial hanging lights
..::TH::.. Recycled “Willy” Table+
!gO! SteamTeddy +Nux+
Apple Fall Books & Map
BAZAR Traveler-Book&Clock
Soy. BKLYNITES LOFT – Factory Chair
!gO! SteamTeddy +Mad+
Exposeur – Wonderland Pocketwatch – Copper (store closed)
.03 [ kunst ] – Raiload shelving
!gO! SteamTeddy +Ace+
..::TH::.. Neptune Sideboard
JIAN Countryside Collies :: Family Rug
Ex Machina Vulcano fireplace 1.2
RO – The Doll Maker – Iva Plague Doll
NOMAD // Amore Loveletters
{vespertine– letters deco.}
.08 [ kunst ] – Pick axe (floor)
!gO! SteamTeddy +Giddy+
Bauhaus Movement – Cypriss’s Apocalypse Gun
!gO! SteamTeddy +Slit+
RO – Spook Show – Freida Freak Mannequin
..::TH::.. Neptune Cabinet
DRD – Industrial wineholder
..::TH::.. Industrial Table (with giver)
DIGS – Hand-Rolled Smoking Decor
..::TH::.. Metches Box “Kraken Book”

poses by Bauhaus Movement

Posted in E.A.Studio, Events, Fashion, Second Life, Self Reflection, shopping, Tres Chic

Bad Girl

So, I wanted a quote about a bad girl being good or vice versa. I wanted a quote to epitomize the balance. In my search, I stumbled upon this:

I don’t want to be ‘Halsey: America’s Sweetheart,’ or ‘Halsey: Bad Girl.’ If you can sum up my career in a clickbait headline, I’ve done something wrong. Halsey

I love this for so many reasons. One of the reasons, really isn’t mine to tell, let me just say I’m feeling a great sense of pride on behalf of a good friend. The other is because this amazing young woman has summed it up perfectly. I’m not a famous anything…and well, I have no career, but I love what she’s saying here. I don’t want to be known as Sady the good girl (yeah, I know…not too many would believe that anyway), but I don’t want to be labeled a bad person or total bitch either. There are many sides to me. I often make jokes that some people are bi-polar and I’m more like quad-polar. I like to thing that I’m as multi-faceted as a quality diamond and have more layers than an onion. I believe I’ve achieved that and I think those that know me well would probably agree. I don’t take pride in much, because I’m extremely hard on myself. My friends fuss at me for this all the time, but if there’s one thing I will take pride in? I’m definitely not a book properly judged by my cover.

bad-girl1

I’m true to myself. That is one thing I can say for certain. Yes, there are times that I falter and fall flat on my face, but you will always see me get back up…even if I have to crawl around for a good long while first. Good or bad…above all? I am strong.

wearing:
Vanity Hair::Aquarius (*new* @ Tres Chic)
.:E.A.Studio:. Piercing Bare Code
.:E.A.Studio:. Ear Nepthune
**RE** Simone Heart Collar
UC_leather_bikini_top
ED. Hype Pants (*new* @ Tres Chic)
E-Clipse Hype Boots (*new* @ Tres Chic)

poses: Bauhaus Movement