Posted in Apple Fall, Collabor88, Events, FaMESHed, Fashion, Kustom9, Legacy, Lelutka

I’m so, so done

‘Cause I’m so, so done
Guardin’ my tongue, holdin’ me back
I’m livin’ the way that I want
‘Cause I’m so, so done
Fighting myself, goin’ through Hell
I’m livin’ the way that I want
I’m livin’ the way that I want
I’m livin’ the way that I want
I’m livin’ the way that I want
I’m livin’ the way that I want

I lost control over all my energy
Done so much damage to my heart
I’ve given in, I’ve changed my identity
I didn’t mean to go so far, umm-mm

Oh my God (God)
I wish (Wish) I could be (Be) better than this
My God, wish (Wish) I could be (Oh-oh)
~ Alicia Keys – So Done

hair: [monso] Lena2 Hair @ Kustom9
head: LeLUTKA Fleur Head 2.0
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) (1.2)
skin: [theSkinnery] Dalia (LeLutkaEVO) @ C88

TRIGGERED – Chimera Glasses @ Unik
earrings: MG – Kaleidoscope – #18
CHAIN – Tina Necklace Set @ Anthem
AvaWay KITTEN_Bracelet
Burrow Custom To-Go Cup
RE Festive Rings Set

-[ vagrant ]- Kaylee Set @ Kustom9
-[ vagrant ]- Kaylee Wristband R
-[ vagrant ]- Kaylee Top
-[ vagrant ]- Kaylee Shorts

[ VERSOV ] COPOV_GROUP GIFT Ankle Monitor
[Enchante’] – Jenny Sneakers

[Rezz Room] Dachshund Adult Animesh @ Equal10

pose: DM – Stairway
backdrop: Los Vecinos – Dharma – The Bearded Guy

scene extras:
Hangry – Croissant Ice Cream – Peach {rez} @ Kustom9

(Luc.) Ethel the Babushka Figurine @ Kustom9

Apple Fall Ceramic Milk Jar @ FaMESHed
Apple Fall Olive Jar – Olive Glaze @ FaMESHed

dust bunny . paradise plants . monstera tree @ FaMESHed
dust bunny . paradise plants . fan palm @ FaMESHed
dust bunny . paradise plants . pineapple plant @ FaMESHed

Posted in DOUX, Events, Fashion, Home Decor, Lelutka, Maitreya, Second Life, shoes, shopping, The Liaison Collaborative

Better I Should Know

Heaven bend to take my hand
And lead me through the fire
Be the long awaited answer
To a long and painful fight

Truth be told I’ve tried my best
But somewhere along the way
I got caught up in all there was to offer
And the cost was so much more than I could bear

Though I’ve tried, I’ve fallen…
I have sunk so low
I messed up
Better I should know
So don’t come round here
And tell me I told you so…

We all begin with good intent
Love was raw and young
We believed that we could change ourselves
The past could be undone
But we carry on our backs the burden
Time always reveals
In the lonely light of morning
In the wound that would not heal
It’s the bitter taste of losing everything
That I’ve held so dear.
~ Sarah McLachlan – Fallen

doux aleutia mudhoney serenity style

wearing:
hair: DOUX – Eleni hairstyle @ Equal10
head: LeLUTKA Nova Head 1.0
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
skin: [the Skinnery] Ginny (Lelutka)

[Aleutia] Becca Dress @ Belle
EQUAL – Khloe Wedges @ Belle

MudHoney Blaire Hanging Chair

Serenity Style-Dottie Handmade Figurines- Family RARE @ The Liaison Collaborative

Serenity Style– Fall in Love Gate Milkaid Pink Roses @ Unik

Posted in Apple Fall, Collabor88, Events, FaMESHed, Home Decor, Second Life, shopping

Kinky Christmas

So, I was feeling bit mischievous when putting together this scene. We have a tendency to think about children and families at the holidays, but what about the couples that haven’t gotten around to children or don’t want any? What about the couple that wants to get down and dirty knowing that no one is going to interrupt? Well, for them, I’ve got the perfect little kinky Christmas idea! *grins* You see, we’ve got an industrial bench and table, which is perfect for restraints. We’ve got Kama Sutra statues to inspire the couple with various positions. And plenty of toys for both to play with…now I just wonder what could be in that box???

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The Snow – Xmass Feelings – The Bearded Guy @ Unik

Fapple– BDSM Tool Box
Fapple- Kama Sutra Gacha 11
Fapple- Kama Sutra Gacha 06
Fapple- Kama Sutra Gacha 16
Fapple- Kama Sutra Gacha 07
Fapple- Kama Sutra Gacha 10
Fapple- Kama Sutra Gacha 18
Fapple- Kama Sutra Gacha 03
Fapple- Kama Sutra Gacha 19

Refuge – Industrial Christmas Set @ Winter’s Hollow
-Refuge – Sheet Music Lantern
-Refuge – Industrial Christmas Bench Blue
-Refuge – Industrial Christmas Table

Apple Fall Large Present – Mistletoe w/ Cream Ribbon @ FaMESHed
West Village Naughty Things Tray @ FaMESHed X

BackBone Kinky Toy Rack

PILOT – Adult Toy Box [Valentine]

Second Spaces – Snug Bug – carriage lamp @ Collabor88
Second Spaces – Snug Bug – mirror shelf @ Collabor88

Vagabond – Quaint Old Chair (Light)

Posted in Collabor88, Events, Fashion, GenusProject, Maitreya, Second Life, {le fil casse}

Decorate or Destroy

I can’t decide whether I want to decorate for a black Christmas (black ornaments, white tree, etc) or use this fantastic giant ornament as a festive wrecking ball to destroy this snowman. Decorate or destroy? THAT is the question.

black christmas

hair: Exile – Jen @ Anthem
head: GENUS Project – Genus Head – Baby Face
WarPaint* Parisian lipglass – set 1 @ Anthem
skin: L’Etre – Lana Skin
body: Maitreya Mesh Body

LaGyo_Neva Pearl choker @ Collabor88
Lagyo_Neva Long Earrings @ Collabor88
LaGyo_Neva Christmas Ornament (STATIC POSE) @ Collabor88
Ascendant – Holly Nails @ Santa Inc
AsteroidBox. Alina Shirt @ Anthem
{le fil casse} Lillia Skirt

Hello Sir – Xmass Feelings – The Bearded Guy @ Unik

Posted in Catwa, Events, Fashion, Maitreya, pr!tty, Second Life

Follow Me

“Survived, tonight, I may be going down,
Cause everything goes round too, tight, tonight,
And it, you watch him crawl, you stand for more.
And your panic stricken, blood will thicken up, tonight
Cause I don’t want you, to forgive me,
You’ll follow me down, you’ll follow me down,
You’ll follow me down
Survive tonight, (I see your) head’s exposed,
So we shall kill, constructive might, s’right,
As your emotions fool you, (my) strong will rule,
I won’t feel restraint, watching you close sense down,
I can’t compensate, that’s more than I’ve got to give.”
~ Skunk Anansie – You’ll Follow Me Down

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wearing:
hair: pr!tty – Ryan @ Salon52
head: CATWA HEAD Denice
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
skin: #PUMEC – Sophia
Mellow / Bow Choker @ Unik
[I<3F] – Mina @ Belle Event

pose: STUN – Pose Pack Collection Bento ‘Hanzel’ #46
Maximus – Holy Bandits Backdrops – The Bearded Guy @ Unik

Posted in Bondi, Catwa, Events, FaMESHed, Fashion, Maitreya, Second Life, Shiny Shabby, shopping

This is Real

Here’s a snippet of one of the best songs ever, performed by some of the greatest rock musicians of my time. It’s amazing talent like this that for a few minutes, even on the worst day, can make me glad to be alive. I love to listen to this on full volume and sing as loud as I want and dare anyone to try and stop me. If you’re not familiar, then check it out, the youtube link is below….this is real fucking music!!!

“Under the water,
It’s cold and it’s grey.
My torrid autumn,
Another season decays.
Open up the Hollow,
And my walls come down.
I tell you it’s a problem,
Just when no one’s around.
But then,

I know what’s wrong,
God, you complicated everything.
I know you’re gone, gone, gone,
This is where I will draw a line.

I will draw my line.

Burning my cathedrals’,
Cause I don’t pray anymore.
Look at all of these people, Tragic little people,
They smile and then they don’t know what for.
But then,

I know what’s wrong,
God, you complicated everything.
I know you’re gone, gone, gone,
This is where I will blur my line.”
~ From Can To Can’t
(Corey Taylor with Dave Grohl, Rick Nielsen, Scott Reeder)
(from “Sound City” soundtrack)

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wearing:
hair: .:EMO-tions.. *CHRISTINE* @ Salon52
head: CATWA HEAD Denice
Schadenfreude Tear Dermal Piercing
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
skin: #PUMEC – Sophia

BONDI . The Rockstar Headphones . @ FaMESHed
Swan Nara Choker – gold – heart – black ribbon @ Belle
**RE** Quinn Rings Set
Ascendant – Smoothie Nails @ Shiny Shabby

amias – KAMALA top @ Belle
[HU] Cassy Dungarees @ Belle

pose: Ebano Poses Hat set @ Unik
[ VERSOV ]_SEVILLA ANDALUCIA_FULLSCENE @ FaMESHed

Posted in Catwa, Collabor88, Cynful, Events, FaMESHed, Fashion, Home Decor, Maitreya, Second Life

Diversion on Ladder

So my beautiful friend, Rina Edenflower, recently retired from blogging. I’ll be honest, I was a bit devastated as she’s someone I’ve admired for years. Turns out, she’s moved from blogger to creator and is making poses. This particular pose can be found on Marketplace for only L$10. She’s just starting out, so there’s not a lot on there just yet, but these are poses made by a successful blogger who only retired after five years of blogging. So, if there’s a pose maker out there that knows what bloggers need, she is definitely one of them. So, watch out Flickr, Rina’s not done with you yet! (She just changed the name of her story from Latter to Diversion, so initially the post was called Latter on Ladder, which was funny to me…now it’s just weird, but that’s ok)

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wearing:
hair:  Tableau Vivant // Esperanza hair @ C88
head: CATWA HEAD Denice
.:I ProFect I:. Valea Mesh Eyes @ Unik
Schadenfreude Tear Dermal Piercing
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
skin: #PUMEC – Sophia
[Cynful] Stripper Body Dust

: CULT : DIAMOND BOW COLLAR @ Belle
**RE** Quinn Rings Set
Ascendant – 420 Nails @ Anthem

Pseudo– Minka Top @ Belle
Pseudo- Minka Shorts @ Belle
#EMPIRE – Coreopsis

pose: Diversion – On The Roof

KraftWork Bellosguardo Set @ FaMESHed
-KraftWork Bellosguardo Library White
-KraftWork Bellosguardo Ladder White

Posted in Catwa, Collabor88, Events, FaMESHed, Fashion, Maitreya, Second Life

We Have Our Ways

I use my blog to work things out on paper sometimes. I’ll write about stuff I’m going through or stuff that I’ve watched friends go through. Sometimes I talk about how much I dislike people, but the truth is….people fascinate me. They also scare the shit outta me, because in the past I’ve let people get too close too fast and it has rarely worked out. These days, my trust issues are the size of full blown subscriptions and prevent that from happening too often these days, but even the slow grown friends have been known to burn me on occasion.
Now, with all that said, I’d like to say that I do have an amazing group of good friends that will not burn me. Nor I them. I’ve had issues with three of them and like grown ass adults, we worked through it every time. We’re not perfect, but we have our ways of understanding what matters at the end of the day. Our love for one another is bigger than the petty shit we tend to get upset about. I am so blessed to be surrounded by beautiful, strong souls that love me as much as I love them. It shouldn’t surprise anyone to know that my best friends are cunts and motherfuckers….*laughs*….yes, that’s what we call each other and ourselves. We’re not families, we like cults, and there’s no getting out! *grins*

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wearing:
hair:  Tableau Vivant // Veep hair @ FaMESHed
head: CATWA HEAD Denice
.:I ProFect I:. Valea Mesh Eyes @ Unik
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
skin: #PUMEC – Sophia

[Eternus] Spring Flutter Tiara @ Salon52
< IDEALIA > TINA Necklace @ Unik
alme. Mesh Stiletto Nails – Pinks Medium Glitter @ Belle
Vibing — Destiny Rings — Rose gold

TETRA – Freebird top @ C88
TETRA – Freebird skirt @ C88

pose: Lyrium. Neva Series Walking Poses @ Unik

background is at a friend’s house

Posted in Catwa, Events, FaMESHed, Fashion, Gos, Maitreya, Phoenix, Second Life, shoes, shopping, The Liaison Collaborative

Recycle Me

I think I’ve written about my knee replacements in the past. Honestly, I’m not sure. So, there you have it, both of my knees have been replaced. So, there’s plastic and metal in both my knees now. No, I haven’t set off any metal detectors as of yet, but I do have a card for each knee to carry with me in the event that I do. With that said, I was thinking to myself the other day, “I wonder if they have considered using recycled plastic or metal for these parts.” I’m going to guess they don’t, but can you imagine? I mean, the way we’re tapping the resources of our planet as if she’s going to provide for us for eternity….it might be some day that replaceable body parts are made from recyclables. Then when we die, they reclaim those parts to recycle again! Jussayin! It could happen! I’m pretty sure my grandmother would never have dreamed of the day that people were having sex with robots, but that day is here!

recycle me

So, my futuristic look is rather complex and I wanted to make sure you got a good view of it all….so there’s more photos than normal, but I’m not that hard to look at….am I?

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wearing:
hair: :::Phoenix::: Beth Hair @ FaMESHed
head: CATWA HEAD Denice
.:: StunnerOriginals ::.Eyes Cybernetic – Pack One @ Unik
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
skin: #PUMEC – Sophia

[ rD ] – Jaanvi Set @ TLC
-[ rD ] Jaanvi Earrings
-[ rD ] Jaanvi Necklace
Ghoul – Hannya Demon Arms – Tsurara Onna
Dead Dollz – Selene Dress @ FaMESHed
[Gos] Star Boots @ FaMESHed

pose: [InDiGo] Marta Pose Set  @ Unik

Trash it – Technologic Vol 2 – The Bearded Guy @ TLC

Posted in Catwa, Cynful, Events, Maitreya, Second Life

Tell me why…

“Tell me why I’m waiting for someone
That couldn’t give a fuck about me”
Shiloh Dynasty – Waiting

waiting on the mail

wearing:
hair: #Foxy – Blossom Hair @ equal10
head: CATWA HEAD Denice
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
skin: #PUMEC – Sophia

Fortuna – jewelry set Corazon @ Unik
**RE** LUX Kitty Watch
{ZOZ} Bento Long Coffin Nails

Mug – Charlotte Tank @ Belle
Cynful 360 Belly Piercing @ Access
Cynful Long Skirt @ Access

pose by Del May

L2 Studio MINI Shoreline

{what next} Chelsea Mailbox

.:revival:. largo bench