Library

“A library is never — for lovers of the written word — simply a place for conserving or storing books but rather a sort of living creature with a personality and even moods which we should understand and learn to live with.” – Francisco Márquez Villanueva

As long as I can remember, I’ve loved books. Yes, I love to read, but its more than that. I love possessing books. I love the smell of them and the feel of them in my hands, the pages between my fingers. I love the energy and smells of bookstores and libraries alike and each has their own individual scent. Books are like magical portals to another world and when a story really pulls you in…that collection of paper and words truly transports me so far away that it is one of the greatest escapes in the world.
I love this quote, because its just so damn true. Whether a small collection of books or an entire room or building, the titles and authors on display truly come together to create a personality of its own, not to mention a reflection of the keeper of said books.

don't over complicate it

wearing:
hair:  Lamb. Lilac (*new* @ Uber)
head: CATWA HEAD Denice
Veechi – Culprit Shadow (*new* @ Uber)
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
skin: #20 [PUMEC] – MIA – JUNE (*new* @ Epiphany)
tattoo: IDTTY Body Shop – Feline Fatale

Meva Sora Gloves
Dead Dollz – Nora Outfit (*new* @ Uber)

pose by An Lar (can’t remember which set, sorry)
location: Burrow Coffee Co.

Kill & Chill

So, almost everyone knows that Netflix & Chill has lost it’s original meaning and turned into code for something comparable to a booty call. I personally still think of it is as me binge watching TV from the comfort of my bed with some good snacks! However, sometimes I’m irritated or anxious and sitting still watching television isn’t going to do the trick. Sure, I could take a xanax and calm down, but then I’d pass the fuck out. That’s too chill, especially when I’ve got so much on my plate. This past year I was introduced to Guild Wars 2 and I’ve got to say it has become the perfect escape for me. There are times that I am simply not feeling social, but going into another virtual world to kill monsters? Oh yes, please!!! Plus, its no big secret that I’m a lover of violence!
The minute I saw this fantastic form fitting bodysuit from Bueno, my mind immediately went to Kill Bill, as it is one of my favorite films of all time. I even did a term paper in college on Beatrice, but that’s a story for another time. It probably would have been more appropriate for this picture, but anyone that reads my blog regularly knows that I do what I want! *laughs*

kill and chill

wearing:
hair:  Tableau Vivant // Bise hair  (*new* @ Uber)
head: CATWA HEAD Denice
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
skin: #20 [PUMEC] – MIA – JUNE (*new* @ Epiphany)
BUENO-BodySuit (*new* @ Uber)
[VALE KOER] HERMES KICKS

pose by Bauhaus Movement

Strange

“Hey, anyone can get love, anyone can get laid
You know you’re home when you find the ones who
Stay brave enough not to tame, they let you burst into flames
Stoke the coals and then watch you blow, yeah
They’re the ones make you trust in the universe
When you’re lost and you’re left and it’s getting worse
They’re the ones who you know will get you by
We are all strange
And it ain’t never, never, ever gonna change
We are all strange
And it ain’t never, ever, never gonna change”

noir

wearing:
hair:  ::C’est la vie !:: Kiki Hair   (*new* @ Salon 52)
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
skin: [Glam Affair] Dorothy Applier [ Catwa ] 001 ( 20 )

LYBRA . AMBER (*new* @ Uber)
UC_Pearl_wedding_heels (*new* @ FaMESHed)

pose by DelMay

 

Setting Goals!

I had just been telling a friend of mine, “I’ve been tip toeing through broken glass for so goddamn long that I’ve forgotten what it feels like to wear my combat boots and fight back.” He shrugged it off like some crazy shit that only a high chick would say, but I think he just didn’t get it. Oddly enough, I was listening to Digital Daggers and one of my favorite songs of their started playing. While I’m not fond of the redundant name of the song, the lyrics connect to me in ways the author couldn’t have possibly imagined, and the melody is one of those hauntingly cool songs that only come along every so often. It all just got me thinking and looking back, which I do a lot.
I had gotten so tired of fighting that I just threw my hands up and surrendered. I tiptoed around certain friends, avoided some altogether…simply because I didn’t want to upset them and for whatever reason, my presence upsets them. There are people that hate me for reasons I have yet to understand and those people practically monitor my every move, another thing I have yet to understand. I didn’t have any fight in me. I was too emotionally tired to deal with SL drama, which is all it is…stuff that wouldn’t happen in RL, that’s for sure.
I genuinely stopped giving a fuck. Whatever happened…happened. While this attitude was rather liberating and freaking great at first, it got very dark rather quickly. I realized that I had not just lost the ability to give a fuck, but I had also lost hope. I was merely waiting to die. I was impossible to be around, my friends must have been watching from afar…some of them. I know they love me, but I’m sure they were like…nuh huh, she full on craycray, right now! They were right.
Due to so much time alone, I was able to take long horrid looks in the mirror, figuratively and literally. The emptiness in my eyes, no glow in my cheeks, even my lips seem pale. At least I have good make up, maybe I’ll start wearing some of it…not that anyone will see it, unless someone sends me a webcam..lol. I’ve got pink hair dye that I’ve been too chicken to apply..
It’s time to start living again and living for ME! As for all that broken glass? Hmm! Bitches better get out of my way, cuz Momma has a broom, Baby! My existence hurts your feelings? Block me and stop obsessing, stop pretending you like me, stop pretending to my friend…how about you find a new hobby or scape goat this year?
I’m putting my combat boots on, world. Ready or not, I’m not ready to just roll over and die like a little bitch. Enough is enough. I have a lot of changes to make, but there’s nothing like a new year to motivate me to make those changes. Am I making resolutions? No. I’m setting goals. *wink*

river song

wearing:
hair:  TRUTH VIP Joy
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
skin: [theSkinnery] Paola

VINYL – Yuletide Crop
Dead Dollz – Mayerling Skirt (*new* @ UBER)

Challenge to Challenge

It’s that time of year again, when my demons come out the play and my brain just doesn’t want to focus all on its own. So, once again, rather than continue to slap lyrics and songs ALL the time…I am presenting my readers with a challenge. All five of you…lol. I have subscribers that look at the pictures, but I don’t think I have very many actual readers. You guys are my favorites and I can say that, cuz the others don’t read..lol. Ok, so…last year, I offered up a Dangerous Proposition and had a few people participate. I’m hoping that this year’s challenge will bring a few more responses. This year, the suggestions I’m looking for are a bit more specific, yet very random at the same time.
So, here goes…I’m looking to be challenged with two completely random things for me to compare or connect in some way. Some examples would be like…an apple and a wrench, a candle and a cellphone, a piece of cake and a paint brush. Sure, I could use these examples, but it would take the fun out of the challenge for me. This should be especially easy for Grace Sixpence, as last year she always gave me two random things to write about anyway. So, no, you can’t use the ones listed above. So, I challenge you to challenge me. If you’re a blogger that writes and would like to play along just add #challengetochallenge to your suggestion and I will send you two random items to write about, as well.

tetra

Sady is wearing:
hair: tram H1116 hair (*new* @ Uber)
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
skin: [theSkinnery] Paola

Kibitz – MSG necklaces [gold] amore
(Yummy) Curator Rings Set
TETRA – Sabina blouse
[Aleutia] Amelia Pants

not really a pose, candid ao shot

scene:
Onsu ~ “Maple” Skybox
Fancy Decor: Faline Candlestick
Loft & Aria – Roma Mirror
Dahlia – Loire – Flower Arangement – Dusty Rose – 19.

I’m a Mess

I’ve been told that I’m a bit of a downer lately and I know it’s true. I’ve also been told that I need to socialize more, but the downer thing is exactly why I can’t right now. I have to keep busy, keep moving forward until all of this real life crap is so far behind me that I can barely see it, much less cry over it. I’m sorry to to the friends that need me right now. I’m simply not strong enough for both of right now. You deserve better, but please know that I do love you all…I am just a mess right now. I’m doing my best to keep myself pulled together, but the minute I stop moving forward…the very moment I let my demons have so much as one second of time in my head. I’m doomed. So, am I withdrawing and isolating? Yes, a bit, but I am trying not to withdraw too much. I even reached out to a handful of friends to do some collaborations. So, you’ll be seeing those soon. ♥

Holiday Hardships

wearing:
hair:  #Foxy – Luxe Hair (*new* @ N21)
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: –Belleza– Freya
skin: [theSkinnery] Paola

[Cynful] Chilli Jersey – Earrings
UC_Winter_cozy_sweater (*new* @ Uber)
[Gos] Hurley Ankle Boots (*new* @ Uber)

pose: FOXCITY. Sits VOL3 Bento Pose Set

scene:
KraftWork Hygge (*new* @ Uber)
-KraftWork Hygge Snowy Cabin
-KraftWorh Hygge Bed
-KraftWork Hygge Rug
-KraftWork Hygge Table Short
-KraftWork Hygge Wall Lamp Left
-KraftWork Hygge Wall Lamp Right

RO – Home for the Holidays – Alaska RARE

 

Find the light

This entire song has been one of those songs that I’ve related closely to from the very first time I heard it. There’s a weird sense of comfort in surrendering myself to the pain accompanied by lyrics. I didn’t list all of the lyrics, just the first punch. This is one of those songs that just…well…give it a listen sometime and if you really hate the melody, maybe just google the lyrics and read them over. *shrugs* Do what you want, I know I do. *forces a smile*
“Yesterday was the tornado warning, today is like the morning after
Your world is torn in half, you wake and let’s wait to start the morning process
Rebuilding and you’re still a work in progress
Today is a whole new chapter, it’s like an enormous ass
The thunderstorm has passed ya
Your weather didn’t poke his eyes out with the thorn bush that you
Used to smell the roses, stopped to inhale can’t even tell your nose is stuffed
So focused on the brightside, then you floor the gas pedal
And hit the corner fast, the more asserted
Never looking back, may hit the curb
But everyday is a new learning curve, as you, steer through life
Sometimes you might not wanna swerve
But you have to to avert a disaster, lucky, no permanent damage
Cause they hurt you so bad, it’s like they murdered your ass
And threw dirt on your casket, but you returned from the ashes
And that hurt that you have, you just converted to gasoline
And while you’re burning the past, standing at inferno and chant
I’m standing in the flames
It’s a beautiful kind of pain
Setting fire to yesterday
Find the light, find the light, find the light”

another day

wearing:
hair:  Lamb. Bliss (*new* @ C88)
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
skin: [theSkinnery] Paola

(Yummy) Auspicious Necklace (*new* @ Uber)
^^Swallow^^ Princess Bento Rings

Blueberry Aria – Button Up Top
Blueberry – Tinker Set – Long Legwarmers

crate Porch Rocker ~ Yellow (*new* @ The Liaison Collaborative)
crate Porch Rocker ~ Decor (*new* @ The Liaison Collaborative)
***pose used is in the chair***

Skyscraper

“You can take everything I have
You can break everything I am
Like I’m made of glass
Like I’m made of paper
Go on and try to tear me down
I will be rising from the ground
Like a skyscraper, like a skyscraper”
~Kerli – Skyscraper

As humans, we take a lot of punches throughout our lives. Yet, with each passing day, we either grow stronger or weaker. Ultimately, the choice is ours. Mentally and emotionally, I’ve definitely grown stronger. My body? Eh, not so much. I should have taken better care of it when I was younger, but I was invincible and never imagined I’d live past 30. Here I am dealing with level 8 pain daily as the weather changes. Yet, the emotional and mental tolls have been far more difficult to face.
There have been times that I’ve felt as fragile as glass, as delicate as tissue paper, and I’ve been beaten down both literally and figuratively. But each and every time, so far, I’ve gotten up. I’ve gained strength from the pain. In fact, there are times that by keeping my pain to myself and not complaining about it, by not showing it to the world, that I can borrow from it….channel it into strength. I’ve siphoned power from the pain to keep going. Perhaps I’m a bit stubborn, too. I feel like if anyone is going to genuinely take credit for me falling apart, its going to be me. So, until I’m ready to curl up with the worms for eternity, I will continue to rise like a skyscraper.

***If you are reading this on any site that suggests this post was originally published anywhere but SadyStyle by anyone other than Sadystika Sabretooth, you are reading a stolen post.

Skyscraper

wearing:
hair:  Lamb. Dove (*new* @ Uber)
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
skin: [theSkinnery] Amber (*new* @ C88)

EF: Acanthus Headpiece (*new* @ X by FaMESHed)
EF: Acanthus Mask (*new* @ X by FaMESHed)
[The Forge] Xane Collar, Black (*new* @ X by FaMESHed)
Legal Insanity – Mistress dress (*new* @ X by FaMESHed)
_CandyDoll_ Claudia Boots (*new* @ C88)

pose: FOXCITY. Sass Bento Pose Set

Paparazzi – BACKDROP – Grime Block Balcony
BUENO-NightSpot Loft Building-Regular

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