Posted in DOUX, Events, Fashion, Foxcity, Legacy, Lelutka

I got so numb

Unlucky for you
I’m queen of the bored
And I’m like Cleopatra
I get what I want
I lean in but then I check right out
I don’t flinch because it doesn’t hurt
And what is god if it’s no one there
And there’s no proof that you ever cared about me
About me
I fuck with the fates
Because it’s so much fun
And I don’t feel a thing
Cause I got so numb
I lean in but then I check right out
I don’t flinch because it doesn’t hurt
And what is god if no one’s there
And what is god if there’s no proof
There ain’t no proof
You got no proof
I lean in but then I check right out
I don’t flinch because it doesn’t hurt
And there’s no proof that you ever cared about me

hair: DOUX – Carla hairstyle
head: LeLUTKA Lilly Head 2.5
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) Special Edition (1.3)
skin: #3 — PUMEC – NADYA – JANUARY — LELUTKA x BOM @ Epiphany
tattoo: Apocalyptic Love & Passion @ Uber

(Yummy) The Dreamers Set @ Uber
(Yummy) Daisy Ring Collection @ C88
.miss chelsea. Ibis @ Uber
(shirt, bodysuit, jeans)

pose: FOXCITY. Lucid Bento Pose Set

Posted in accessories, Cynful, DOUX, Events, Fashion, Foxcity, Lelutka, Maitreya

Secretly Desire

“Beware of those who criticize you when you deserve some praise for an achievement, for it is they who secretly desire to be worshiped.”
― Suzy Kassem, Rise Up and Salute the Sun: The Writings of Suzy Kassem

Secretly Desire

DOUX – Ubert hairstyle
LeLUTKA Fleur Head 2.5
Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara V5.0
[theSkinnery] Karima @ Uber

Frayed – Boujee Mask #1 @ Anthem
EarthStones Belly Bugs – Dragonfly
Cynful Kiki’s Tracksuit – Hoodie @ Equal10
Cynful Kiki’s Tracksuit – Sweatpants @ Equal10

pose: FOXCITY. Soulfood Bento Pose Set
K&S – // SLC. Backdrop. materials. @ Anthem

Posted in DOUX, Fashion, Kustom9, Legacy, Lelutka, Second Life

Old Habits

I’m flyin’
I’m flyin’ high like a bird
But my fluttering wings can’t keep you from pullin’ me down
Your mama
Your mama says I’m a fool
And yeah, maybe that’s true ’cause I can’t stop thinkin’ ’bout you
I’m tryin’
I’m tryin’ not to forget my words
‘Cause when I’m around you, I tend not to changin’ my mind
I promised
I promised myself not to slip back into old habits
‘Cause heartbreak is savvy and love is a bitch

consent for belle

hair: DOUX – Jennie hairstyle @ Dubai
head: LeLUTKA Fleur Head 2.0
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) (1.2)
skin: [Glam Affair] Anika Skin [ Lelutka ] @ UBER
tattoo: + Apocalyptic + Becoming a dragon @ Belle

RichB. Skully Arm Bands
Kibitz – Tricia’s bracelet @ Kustom9
Secrets – Aurora Belly Chain

[ CONSENT ] Elvi Babydoll @ Belle

pose: .HG. Uranus

Stockholm&Lima: Always [Messy] Bed

.peaches. Bae’s Journal – Lover
.peaches. Be Mine – Condom Clutter
.peaches. Be Mine – Wine Bottle

Traveler-Night stand by Bazar

Loft & Aria – Juniper Lamp Blue

dust bunny . hanging plants . double planter
{vespertine} hanging succulents. – string of pearls.,

Posted in Cynful, DOUX, Events, Fashion, Glam Affair, Kustom9, Legacy, Lelutka, Second Life, shopping, Uber SL

Surfing

I went on a SL date last night and we were talking about the different things we like to do in Second Life. He mentioned surfing and I realized that its one of the few things that I have never done in SL. I did windsurfing once and that was hilarious, but I’ve never actually tried surfing. So, I thought it was only appropriate that I do a surfing picture today as I’m adding this activity to my SL bucket list. Hopefully, the handsome man that took me out for sushi last  night will take me surfing someday. *smiles*

doux cynful flf amitie

hair: DOUX – Carla hairstyle @ Equal10
head: LeLUTKA Lake Head 1.2
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) (1.2)
skin: [Glam Affair] Bia Skin [ Lelutka ] @ Kustom9

Rebel Gal – Charm Necklace @ Equal10
e.marie // Caliope Bracelet @ Kustom9
EarthStones Kainda Bracelet @ Uber
SU!– Almond Nails
Cynful Anesthasia Chain Set – FLF June 12, 2020

pose: Amitie Mundaka Woman Pack @ Equal10

Posted in Second Life

Feels like too much

The last few days have been a complete whirlwind of nightmares for myself and a couple of my closest friends. We’ve all had absolutely maddening situations happening to us in RL. We’ve all be worried sick about each other while dealing with our individual crisises. Sometimes it just all feels like too much. So, I’m keeping this short and sweet, wishing I could slip into that beautiful Nutmeg tub and soak away my problems.

Nutmeg. Tidy Pastels Complete Set @ Shiny Shabby
Nutmeg. Tidy Pastels Liquid Soap
Nutmeg. Tidy Pastels Chair w/Pillow White Adult
Nutmeg. Tidy Pastels Drying Rack / 1
Nutmeg. Tidy Pastels Mirror Blue / 1
Nutmeg. Tidy Pastels Clock White
Nutmeg. Tidy Pastels Liquid Soap Olive
Nutmeg. Tidy Pastels Washbasin w/Towel Texture Option
Nutmeg. Tidy Pastels Bar of Soap / 2
Nutmeg. Tidy Pastels Woven Bag Complete Set Bonus Item

Nutmeg. Attic Hideout Painting_Bonus Item
Nutmeg. Attic Hideout Plated Pink Branch
Nutmeg. Dacha Hanging Candle Bucket
Nutmeg. Dacha Old Wooden Chest
Nutmeg. Dacha Metal Bathtub wo/Shower
Nutmeg. Bucolic Console Table
Nutmeg. Old Oriental Rug4_Bonus Item
Nutmeg. Countryside Dream Chandelier White / Long
Nutmeg. Flower Cherub Statue Bonus Item

Serenity Style– El patio Building Scene @ Uber

Serenity Style– Rothschild Bathroom Mirror

(Fundati) Ivy Leaves

[Rezz Room] Shiba Inu Puppy Animesh @ Uber

Posted in Second Life

I need healing

Wish I could’ve found the words to say
Wish I could’ve given what you gave
‘Cause we could’ve loved, we could’ve been something
But not if I’m brokenAnd I know that you love me but I don’t think I’m ready
Found me in a bottle
Oh, I thought I needed someone I could run to
Oh, run to, oh
But I need healing
I need healing
~ Arlissa – Healing

heaux-idtty-diversion-lode-cosmic-dust

hair: tram J0513b hair @ Uber
head: LeLUTKA Erin Head
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) (1.2)
skin: [theSkinnery] Signe (LeLutkaEVO)

lashes: [POUT!] Kelly – Eye lash collection @ Belle
eyes: [Heaux] Brighton Eyes @ N21

eyeshadow: IDTTY FACES – LELUTKA ANGEL DUST #5
lipstick: IDTTY FACES – LELUTKA ANGEL DUST #8

LODE Head Accessory – Pansy [blue] @ ShinyShabby
[Cosmic Dust]  – Dakota Dress @ Kustom9

pose: Diversion  – Blossom – Poses @ Belle

Posted in Events, Fashion, GenusProject, Glam Affair, Kustom9, Maitreya, Second Life, Uber SL

Falling into the New Year

So, I’m stepping or rather falling into the new year with a positive attitude. I might fall on my ass. I might fall on my face. Regardless of how I land, I am going to make this a great year. This year is all about improving the quality of my life. I started a weight loss journey approximately three months ago and I’m already ahead of the game, having lost over 5% of my initial body weight. In fact, within a few weeks, if I’m really good…I will be have lost 10% and that’s a rather big deal. This isn’t about a new me, this is about the true me. I’m working on overcoming my anxiety and depression. I’m on the right path and those closest to me will tell you…it is working! I didn’t wait for the new year, because those resolutions that I’ve made in the past for the new year have almost always failed. These are not resolutions, at all. These are promises and commitments that I’m making to myself. By bettering myself for myself, I can be a better person, daughter, sister, friend, blogger, employee, and maybe…eventually…a better girlfriend to some lucky person..lol. Now, will someone hurry up and catch me before I bust my face apart?!?! *splat* erhm…thanks a lot!

tableau addams diversion

hair: Tableau Vivant // Scarf hair @ Kustom9
head: GENUS Project – Genus Head – Baby Face
AG. Transcendence Eyes Pack @ Belle
skin:  [Glam Affair] Khloe Applier @ Uber
body: Maitreya Mesh Body

Addams // Maisei Bomber Jacket
Addams // Maisei Jeans with Patches
Addams // Maisei Sneakers

pose: Diversion – I’m Okay Poses @ Access

Focus Poses. Coffee Shop / Background winter version

Posted in Catwa, Events, Fashion, Lybra, Maitreya, Second Life, shopping, Uber SL

Two Hearts

“A new love is something painful
Two hearts, unstable
I went numb and ran away
So I wouldn’t be able
To get let down, I was high
To touch the ground from the sky
A new love is somethin’ fatal
And I wouldn’t be able
I wasn’t expecting you
Like a punch that knocks the wind out
I think you’re changin’ everything
‘Cause I’m about to let you in now”

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Basics:
head: CATWA HEAD Catya
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
skin: [Glam Affair] Dee Applier

hair: TRUTH Surrender
LYBRA . JENNY @ Uber

.ARISE. Be Mine Pose 2
anxiety %entertainment skybox

Posted in Catwa, Events, Fashion, Maitreya, Second Life, shopping, The Liaison Collaborative, Uber SL

Bathwater

I’m sure some of you have heard the phrase, “I’d drink her bathwater.” I finally decided to look up where this came from and I can’t find the origin, but I found plenty of examples of it used in songs.

“She’s so tuff, my knee’s a little rough
From crawlin’ on across her floor.
If she’d place an order I’d drink her bath water and
Not even use a chaser.”
ZZ Top – Decision or Collision

So, I’m just wondering how high were they when they came up with this shit? I mean, honestly….bathwater? Gross. Do you know what’s IN bathwater? Seriously, its dead skin, dirt from your pores, soap, sweat…I mean, its all the stuff you want to get OFF your body and now someone wants to drink it? Yes, I realize that its not meant to be taken quite so literally, but what kind of freaking compliment is that supposed to be? Furthermore, I’d love to say that this is primarily a male phrase, but noooooo….

“But I still love to wash in your old bathwater
Love to think that you couldn’t love another
I can’t help it, you’re my kind of man “
No Doubt – Bathwater

Someone please explain to me how this is a compliment and why on earth anyone would want to drink bathwater or make that kind of comparison. I mean, let’s get real. Tell someone you love them so much, you’d wipe their ass if they got too fat or too old to do it themselves. Tell them that you’d build them a ramp if they ended up in a wheelchair. Tell someone that no matter how gross feet are, that you’d rub their feet if that’s what they really wanted. I mean, isn’t oral sex enough? Why do we need to drink dirty water?

Well, that’s my rant about that…here’s to love and CLEAN water!

bathwater

Basics:
head: CATWA HEAD Catya
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
skin: [Glam Affair] Dee Applier

hair: TRUTH Elixir
[ rD ] – Amelie Set @ The Liaison Collaborative
(Yummy) Grace Ring Set @ Uber
Ascendant – Midnight Call Nails

pose w/tub: Amitie Paris Nights @ The Liaison Collaborative

 

Posted in Blueberry, Catwa, Events, Fashion, Foxcity, Maitreya, Second Life, shoes, shopping, Uber SL

Grasp the Thorn

“But he who dares not grasp the thorn
Should never crave the rose.”
― Anne Bronte

nice

Basics:
head: CATWA HEAD Catya
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
skin: [Glam Affair] Dee Applier

Moon. Hair // – Happy
(Yummy) Precarious Love Necklace @ Uber
Ascendant – Savage Nails @ LeVeL
Blueberry – Stella – Flowy Top
Blueberry – Stella – Flowy Skirt
Blueberry – Stella – Fishnet & Shoes

FOXCITY. Curves Bento Pose Set

MINIMAL – Santorini Backdrop
-Garden- by anc “secret garden”