Posted in Collabor88, Events, Fashion, Legacy, Lelutka

there’s no room for ideals in this mechanical place

Through these city nightmares you’d walk with me
And we’d talk of it with idealistic assurance
That it wouldn’t tear us apart
We’d keep our heads above the blackened water
But there’s no room for ideals in this mechanical place
And you’re gone now
Through a grimy window that I can’t keep clean
Through billowing smoke that’s swallowed the sun
You’re nowhere to be seen
Do you think our desires still burn
I guess it was desires that tore us apart
There has to be passion
A passion for living, surviving
And that means detachment
Every-body has a weapon to fight you with
To beat you with when you are down
There were too many defence between us
Doubting all the time
Fearinf all the time
Doubting all the time
Fearinf all the time
That like these urban nightmares
We’d blacken each other skies

there's no room for ideals in this mechanical place

hair: Tableau Vivant // Soiree @ C88
head: LeLUTKA Lily Head 2.5
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) Special Edition (1.3)
skin: [theSkinnery] Monica (LeLutkaEVO) peach @ C88

(Yummy) Daisy Ring Collection @ C88
Seniha. Melanie Set @ Orly
Seniha. Melanie Top
Seniha. Melanie Pants

pose: Lyrium. Jullie Static & Breathing + Fingers Series @ Equal10
location: BKLYN

Posted in DOUX, Dubai, Events, Fashion, Kustom9, Legacy, Lelutka, poses, Shiny Shabby, shoes, shopping

Let me love you like a woman

We could get lost in the purple rain
Talk about the good old days
We could get high on some pink champagne
Baby, let me count the waves
Let me love you like a woman
Let me hold you like a baby
Let me shine like a diamond
Let me be who I’m meant to be
Talk to me in songs and poems
Don’t make me be bittersweet
Let me love you like a woman

Let me love you like a woman

hair: DOUX – Valentine hairstyle @ Dubai
head: LeLUTKA Lily Head 2.5
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) Special Edition (1.3)
skin: [theSkinnery] Avery @ Kustom9

Seniha. Prudence Set @ FaMESHed X
**UTOPIA@Design** – “NATALIA”

pose: Diversion – Mirage Vol. 2 Poses @ Shiny Shabby
Diversion – Mirage Backdrop @ Shiny Shabby

Posted in Animals, Collabor88, Events, Fashion, Foxcity, Kustom9, Legacy, Lelutka, Second Life

Tame the whispers

The whole world trying
To blind the way home
But we’ve got shelter
Deep inside,
Secret
Tame the whispers
Of winds as they blow
Feel my shivers
In your arms

Tame the whispers

hair: Magika – December
head: LeLUTKA Lily Head 2.5
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) Special Edition (1.3)
skin: [theSkinnery] Avery @ Kustom9

AvaWay LETTER Necklaces Set @ FaMESHed
(Yummy) Eliza Ring Collection @ C88
FAKEICON / csillag led lights
FAKEICON / mary gems collar
FAKEICON / glace hand gems

-ATTIC- Winter Spirit Twig Earrings
-ATTIC- Winter Spirit Monocles
-ATTIC- Winter Spirit Antlers RARE

[Cubic Cherry] {Vow} latex long gloves @ FaMESHed X
Just BECAUSE Sassy Gown

pose: FOXCITY. Night Sassy Bento Pose Set

[Rezz Room] Reindeer Adult Animesh @ ManCave
[Rezz Room] Reindeer Baby Animesh @ ManCave

Posted in Collabor88, Cynful, Events, FaMESHed, Fashion, Kustom9, Legacy, Lelutka, poses, Second Life, shopping, skin

Even when

“Listen to the people who love you. Believe that they are worth living for even when you don’t believe it. Seek out the memories depression takes away and project them into the future. Be brave; be strong; take your pills. Exercise because it’s good for you even if every step weighs a thousand pounds. Eat when food itself disgusts you. Reason with yourself when you have lost your reason.”
― Andrew Solomon, The Noonday Demon: An Atlas of Depression

Even when

hair: Magika – December
head: LeLUTKA Lily Head 2.5
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) Special Edition (1.3)
skin: [theSkinnery] Avery @ Kustom9

AvaWay LETTER Necklaces Set @ FaMESHed
(Yummy) Eliza Ring Collection @ C88

Cynful Nini’s Top + Armwarmers Set @ Equal10
Cynful Nini’s Skirt @ Equal10

pose: Lyrium. Cynthia Static & Breathing + Fingers Series @ Equal10

(Milk Motion) Parisian Backyard

Posted in Cosmopolitan, DOUX, Events, Fashion, Kustom9, Lelutka, poses, Second Life

I Will Be Rising

You can take everything I have
You can break everything I am
Like I’m made of glass
Like I’m made of paper
Go on and try to tear me down
I will be rising from the ground
Like a skyscraper, like a skyscraper

I Will Be Rising

hair: DOUX – Carla hairstyle
head: LeLUTKA Fleur Head 2.5
skin: [theSkinnery] Teo (LelutkaEVO) @ Kustom9
tattoo: Apocalyptic + Becoming a dragon

=Zenith=Off Shoulder Faux Fur Coat
Apl.Blossom Toya @ Cosmopolitan

pose: K&S – // Freya. Bento poses @ Access
backdrop: K&S – // Everlasting story. Backdrop @ Access

Posted in Animals, Apple Fall, Collabor88, Events, Fancy Decor, Fashion, Home Decor, Kustom9, Lelutka, Second Life

Life is Messy

Life is messy. There’s no doubt about that. Anyone with pets or children will attest to stepping in something questionable in the middle of the night. Nothing will throw off your day faster than cleaning up a mess like that first thing in the morning. Clearly, life isn’t perfect, but rather than compare our lives to those we see on our lovely screens…I think its better to embrace it.
I know my life isn’t what I had hoped it would be and I changed my ideas about my life several times over the course of my life. Not once did I envision my life to be what it is now. I jokingly said I’d be a fat old woman who hates kids and has a bunch of cats. I don’t even have that! I mean, I don’t LOVE kids, but I surely don’t hate them. Ok, I am fat, so I got that goal down easy enough. Wait, was that a goal….oh god, I manifested that shit! Fuck me. Well, ok, so what. I’m fat, I got a grocery list of health problems and no insurance. I’m still here. I have rather decent roof over my head. *looks down at my fat body* Uhm, clearly, I have plenty to eat. *laughs* I have two running cars. I have one tiny feline terrorist and the most perfect smartest dog in all da world. And I still have my wonderful, albeit crazy, Mom. I am freaking blessed! Sure, I struggle financially, but it sure could be worse. My condo and my cars are paid in full. That’s a true blessing.
As Thanksgiving (yes, its a U.S. holiday) comes sliding around the corner, I have a lot to be thankful for and I’m thankful that I do. Whether you celebrate this holiday or not, I think its a nice reminder to take some honest inventory of the blessings in our lives. It’s easy to forget those blessings as we go about our mundane daily routines. If you’re blessed enough to be reading this, it means you’ve been blessed with a little bit of time and the luxury of internet. While, I’m not so sure you need to be grateful for reading my ramblings, I’m pretty sure you’ve got your own plethora of blessings to behold. Oh…and don’t think I forgot you. I am very very grateful that you have taken that little bit of time from your life to read my words. More grateful than I can properly express, but Thank You.♥

Life is Messy

hair: Stealthic – Vigil
head: LeLUTKA Fleur Head 2.5
skin: [theSkinnery] Teo (LelutkaEVO) @ Kustom9
tattoo: Apocalyptic + Becoming a dragon

Mug – Fiona Tank @ Kustom9
Mug – Fiona Thong @ Kustom9

[Rezz Room] Box Pug Adult Animesh (Holdable) @ Kustom9

scene:
hive // modern farmhouse kitchen

-tres blah- Hodgepodge – Refreshments
-tres blah- Hodgepodge – Breakfast Clutter

Apple Fall Times Newspaper
Apple Fall ‘Elvira’ Plate w/ Egg, Avocado & Toast

+Half-Deer+ Cutie Clutter – Spilled Black Coffee

{vespertine} – woodland owly utensil jar.
{vespertine} – woodland cup hanger.

Second Spaces – Well-stocked Pantry – spices

Fancy Decor: Satie Coffee Machine
Fancy Decor: Satie Cream & Sugar
Fancy Decor: Satie Coffee Pods

Fancy Decor: Pour Over Coffee Maker @ C88
Fancy Decor: Kettle @ C88

dust bunny . kitchen clutter . dish drying rack . white
dust bunny . kitchen clutter . paper towels

Posted in Bueno, Cosmopolitan, DOUX, Events, Fashion, Kustom9, Lelutka, poses, Second Life, shoes, shopping

Laughing at Myself

I got ahead of myself when taking this picture. I totally meant to change my hair. In editing it dawned on me that this scene was looking like one of those from a movie where the girl always looks on point. As people magically wake up with perfect hair and make up. Let’s not even talk about how pristine they are while working out, barely sweating at all, just a glistening…as if they have been sprayed with light iridescent oils. Well, this picture is in between and instead of reshooting, I figured I’d just have a laugh at my own mistake. I’ve gotten used to laughing at myself over the years, so this is nothing new.

Laughing at Myself

hair: DOUX – Carla hairstyle
head: LeLUTKA Fleur Head 2.5
skin: [theSkinnery] Teo (LelutkaEVO) @ Kustom9

BUENO-Gia Top @ Kustom9
BUENO-Edi Sweat Pants @ Kustom9
[ VERSOV ] ARKANOV_SNEAKERS @ Kustom9

pose: Focus. Hello Autumn @ Cosmopolitan
background: Focus. The Mall Autumn Park @ Cosmopolitan

Posted in accessories, Cynful, DOUX, Events, Fashion, Foxcity, Lelutka, Maitreya

Secretly Desire

“Beware of those who criticize you when you deserve some praise for an achievement, for it is they who secretly desire to be worshiped.”
― Suzy Kassem, Rise Up and Salute the Sun: The Writings of Suzy Kassem

Secretly Desire

DOUX – Ubert hairstyle
LeLUTKA Fleur Head 2.5
Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara V5.0
[theSkinnery] Karima @ Uber

Frayed – Boujee Mask #1 @ Anthem
EarthStones Belly Bugs – Dragonfly
Cynful Kiki’s Tracksuit – Hoodie @ Equal10
Cynful Kiki’s Tracksuit – Sweatpants @ Equal10

pose: FOXCITY. Soulfood Bento Pose Set
K&S – // SLC. Backdrop. materials. @ Anthem

Posted in FaMESHed, Fashion, Lelutka, Maitreya, Second Life, shoes, shopping, Uber SL, [BREATHE]

I’m just enjoying life…

I opened my sim to the public yesterday and I cannot begin to tell you how sweet people have been when visiting. I surely hope it stays that way. People have been both generous and kind. And I’ve managed to scare a few with some little hidden gems I have around the sim. *giggles* It truly is wonderful to see people visiting the sim. It makes me feel good that they want to see it and experience it for themselves.
None of that really has anything to do with this picture, but I did take it on the sim….in one of the three houses that are currently there….for now. I will be changing the sim all the time. I already want to tear down one of the houses and do something else. *laughs* For now, I’m just enjoying life…as you can see. There are lots of changes on my horizon and I’m excited about each and every one of them.

I'm just enjoying life...

hair: TRUTH VIP Forever
LeLUTKA Fleur Head 2.5
Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara V5.0
[theSkinnery] Karima @ Uber

Just BECAUSE Rissa Dress @ FaMESHed
[BREATHE]-Mihoyo Heels @ FaMESHed

pose: Ana Poses – Serenity
location: Curiosity Lake

Posted in Animals, Blueberry, Events, Exploration, Jian, Lelutka, Maitreya, poses, Second Life, shoes, shopping, skin, The Liaison Collaborative, Uber SL

She’s Singing

It’s 5am and my 74yr old mother is dancing through the house singing Beyonce’s “Single Ladies.” I don’t even think she realizes what she’s singing, but she’s doing a well enough job that I recognize the song. I just pulled up the song on YouTube and she comes running in asking how did I know she had that song stuck in her head. *cracks up* Well, Mom, you tend to think out loud…so its not that hard to know what you’re thinking. God, I love this woman!

She's Singing

hair: Stealthic – Cordova
LeLUTKA Fleur Head 2.5
Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara V5.0
[theSkinnery] Karima @ Uber

Blueberry – HBIC – Top
Blueberry – HBIC – Shorts
Blueberry – HBIC – Shoes & Socks

JIAN Bichon Frise Companion

pose: :LW: Bento Poses – Courage @ The Liaison Collaborative
(includes stick & golder retriever)

location: Curiosity Lake