Posted in breathe, Events, Fashion, Glam Affair, Kustom9, Legacy, Lelutka, The Liaison Collaborative

Anyone But Me

Seven years strong with my therapy
Making mosaics of my memories
Puzzled with doubt, I’m my closest enemy
It’s like this girl is squatting in my identity
She’s a raver, a likkle libertine (ayy)
And a bouncer to my dopamine
Tried so hard to become a referee
To even out the game that’s between my mind and meLove me or leave me and let me be lonely
Inside my head, there’s a voice that controls me
I’d rather be somewhere else with anyone but me
Ooh, love me or leave me and let me be lonely
Been down so long now that happy is holy
I’d rather be somewhere else with anyone but me
Anyone but me (mmm), anyone but me (uh)She’s dependent, she’s my man and wife
Peckham preacher, give ’em bad advice
She just does the spendin’ and then I pay the price
Tryna be Calise but she always trip me twice
But, I know I could do better (I could do better)
Baby, we’re no good together (together, together)
You are you, I am I
Now you gotta go bye
~ Joy Crookes – Anyone But Me

Anyone But Me

hair: Tableau Vivant \ Ondina @ Kustom9
head:  LeLUTKA Fleur Head 2.0
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) (1.2)
skin: [Glam Affair] Demi Skin @ Uber

Kibitz – Teddy’s babygirl necklace @ Kustom9
Ricielli – Aella Jacket (Legacy) Black RARE @ Arcade
Ricielli – Aella Top (Legacy) Black RARE @ Arcade
Ricielli – Aella Shorts (Legacy) Black RARE @ Arcade
[BREATHE]-Tamio Wedges- @ Arcade

pose: Diversion – Apocalypse Set @ TLC

Dark Alley Backdrop – The Bearded Guy

Atelier Burgundy . Apoc Artist Corner @ TLC
Atelier Burgundy . Apoc Canvas @ TLC
Atelier Burgundy . Apoc Canvas Draft GIFT @ TLC

Posted in Bueno, DOUX, Fashion, Kustom9, Legacy, Lelutka, poses, shoes, shopping, skin

Its been fun

I’ve cut way back on my blogging commitments lately and I have to say its been fun to play with different styles again. I think this photo would have looked better without the pup, but I couldn’t resist that he was sitting the same way as me. I don’t have a whole lot to say as I’ve been struggling with my health lately. I suppose I could have done a micro post for this photo, but I didn’t. *shrugs*

hair: DOUX – Ubert hairstyle
head: LeLUTKA Fleur Head 2.0
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) (1.2)
skin: [theSkinnery] Dalia (LeLutkaEVO) @ C88

TRIGGERED – Treasurer Glasses Gacha #RARE @ Kawaii Project
BUENO-Bella Necklace @ Kustom9
kunst ] – Kyle Cuffs @ Kustom9
MIWAS  / Rei Outfit @ Equal10
-MIWAS / Rei Jacket
-MIWAS / Rei Bra top
-MIWAS / Rei Denim shorts
-MIWAS / Rei Boots

pose: Bauhaus Movement – F*ck The Mainstream 12
The Tunnel – Sick Neon – The Bearded Guy

Kalospia – Luna’s Hanging Light @ C88

Mutresse-Sitting2-Chubby Puppies

MVT – Organic Acai take away

Posted in Apple Fall, Collabor88, Events, FaMESHed, Fashion, Kustom9, Legacy, Lelutka

I’m so, so done

‘Cause I’m so, so done
Guardin’ my tongue, holdin’ me back
I’m livin’ the way that I want
‘Cause I’m so, so done
Fighting myself, goin’ through Hell
I’m livin’ the way that I want
I’m livin’ the way that I want
I’m livin’ the way that I want
I’m livin’ the way that I want
I’m livin’ the way that I want

I lost control over all my energy
Done so much damage to my heart
I’ve given in, I’ve changed my identity
I didn’t mean to go so far, umm-mm

Oh my God (God)
I wish (Wish) I could be (Be) better than this
My God, wish (Wish) I could be (Oh-oh)
~ Alicia Keys – So Done

hair: [monso] Lena2 Hair @ Kustom9
head: LeLUTKA Fleur Head 2.0
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) (1.2)
skin: [theSkinnery] Dalia (LeLutkaEVO) @ C88

TRIGGERED – Chimera Glasses @ Unik
earrings: MG – Kaleidoscope – #18
CHAIN – Tina Necklace Set @ Anthem
AvaWay KITTEN_Bracelet
Burrow Custom To-Go Cup
RE Festive Rings Set

-[ vagrant ]- Kaylee Set @ Kustom9
-[ vagrant ]- Kaylee Wristband R
-[ vagrant ]- Kaylee Top
-[ vagrant ]- Kaylee Shorts

[ VERSOV ] COPOV_GROUP GIFT Ankle Monitor
[Enchante’] – Jenny Sneakers

[Rezz Room] Dachshund Adult Animesh @ Equal10

pose: DM – Stairway
backdrop: Los Vecinos – Dharma – The Bearded Guy

scene extras:
Hangry – Croissant Ice Cream – Peach {rez} @ Kustom9

(Luc.) Ethel the Babushka Figurine @ Kustom9

Apple Fall Ceramic Milk Jar @ FaMESHed
Apple Fall Olive Jar – Olive Glaze @ FaMESHed

dust bunny . paradise plants . monstera tree @ FaMESHed
dust bunny . paradise plants . fan palm @ FaMESHed
dust bunny . paradise plants . pineapple plant @ FaMESHed

Posted in Events, FaMESHed, Legacy, Lelutka, vinyl

Just Empty

Sometimes, I just don’t care. I don’t know why. I suppose its a symptom of mental illness. I’m not sure which one. I guess I should ask my therapist. Maybe one day I will. Then again, I’ve been ill for a few days, so it could just be related to that. I just know that lately, I don’t feel sad or happy. I just feel nothingness. As if there’s a void in my soul. It’s not dark or light. It’s not black or white. It’s not blurry or clear. It’s gray and foggy, like creepy autumn morning. It’s just empty.

hair: [monso] Babi Hair @ FaMESHed
head: LeLUTKA Fleur Head 2.0
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) Perky Edition (1.3.1)

RichB. Thalion Earrings
RichB. Mad NoseChain
[ rD ] – Thrall Necklace @ FaMESHed X
Pixicat– Hailey Top @ Anthem
VINYL – Sticky Bun Leggings @ FaMESHed

pose: Bauhaus Movement – The Way You Like It 14

backdrop is a combination of two:
I Dont Care – Bad Decisions – The Bearded Guy
Rustico – Good Times – The Bearded Guy

Posted in breathe, Collabor88, Cosmopolitan, crate, Events, FaMESHed, Fashion, Legacy, Lelutka, shoes, shopping, skin, Uber SL, unKindness

Invisible

I don’t wanna talk about it, there isn’t much to say
I don’t have an excuse to why I won’t come to your party
And I don’t want my picture taken, I’d hate it anyway
No, I don’t wanna spoil your night, just go have fun without meI’m pushing food around my plate
‘Cause my father said I’m overweight
Well, maybe he’d feel better
If I just disappeared altogether and I
Got so good at faking smiles
I can do it for a little while
Just don’t ask me if I’m okay
‘Cause I’m not okay, noIt’s hard to show you something invisible
No tears, no scars, no bruises, It’s not physical
It’s covered up and hidden tight
Beneath the skin, inside the mind
You wouldn’t even notice, you wouldn’t even know
Invisible, invisible, invisible
~ Grace Davies – Invisible

WEARING:
hair: MIWAS  – Hair #Maria
head: LeLUTKA Fleur Head 2.0
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) Perky Edition (1.3.1)
skin: [theSkinnery] Dalia (LeLutkaEVO) @ C88

e.marie // Kandi Puff Earrings
dress: Blossom&Seeds Narda @ Cosmopolitan
shoes: [BREATHE]-Miyuwa Heels @ C88

[Rezz Room] Dachshund Adult Animesh @ Equal10
[Rezz Room] Dachshund Puppy Animesh @ Equal10

Lyrium. Yuna Idle Stands Breathing Poses @ Equal10

SCENE:
Campito – Good Times – The Bearded Guy

crate Patio Plant Cart Set @ Equal10
crate Patio Plant Cart – Beige Green
crate Patio Plant Cart – Box Plants
crate Patio Plant Cart – Hat & Throw
crate Patio Plant Cart – Pot & Cloth
crate Patio Plant Cart – Egg Head Pearl Plant
crate Patio Plant Cart – Bonsai Palm

crate Cabo Bar Set @ Anthem
crate Cabo Bar
crate Cabo Bar Citrus Basket
crate Cabo Bar Mint Plant
crate Cabo Bar Pom Pom Garland
crate Cabo Bar Citrus Sangria Dispenser

andika[End of summer sweets]A/dispenser @ Equal10

Ariskea [Sunrise] Succulent Ceramic hangers

Mithral * Mojito Syngonium @ Equal10
Mithral * Albo Syngonium @ Equal10

dust bunny . paradise plants . @ FaMESHed
dust bunny . paradise plants . fan palm
dust bunny . paradise plants . pineapple plant
dust bunny . paradise plants . monstera tree . with lights

uK – Infinity Fountain Ivory @ Uber

7 – Cat Burglar Painting

Posted in Collabor88, Cosmetics, FaMESHed, Fashion, Legacy, Lelutka, Mina Hair, Second Life, shopping, skin

Sparkle and Shine

People are like stained – glass windows. They sparkle and shine when the sun is out, but when the darkness sets in, their true beauty is revealed only if there is a light from within. ~ Elisabeth Kubler-Ross

hair: MINA – Lupine @ FaMESHed
head: LeLUTKA Fleur Head 2.0
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) Perky Edition (1.3.1)
skin: [theSkinnery] Dalia (LeLutkaEVO) @ C88

eyeshadow: IDTTY FACES – LELUTKA ALL IN COLLECTION #3 @ Fetish Fair
lipsticks: IDTTY FACES – LELUTKA ALL IN COLLECTION #8 @ Fetish Fair

AsteroidBox. Bailey Earrings @ Equal10
AsteroidBox. Bailey Collar @ Equal10

Go On – The Future – The Bearded Guy

Posted in Collabor88, Events, Fashion, Foxcity, Legacy, Lelutka, Second Life

Shameless

Don’t speak, no, don’t try
It’s been a secret for the longest time
Don’t run (oh), no, don’t hide
Been running from it for the longest time
So many mornings, I woke up confused
In my dreams, I do anything I want to you
My emotions are naked, they’re taking me out of my mind
Right now, I’m shameless
Screamin’ my lungs out for ya
Not afraid to face it
I need you more than I want to
Need you more than I want to
Show me you’re shameless
Write it on my neck, why don’t ya?
And I won’t erase it
I need you more than I want to
I need you more than I want to

asteroid box famx

hair: TRUTH Solstice
head: LeLUTKA Fleur Head 2.0
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) Perky Edition (1.3.1)
skin: [theSkinnery] Dalia (LeLutkaEVO) @ C88

AsteroidBox. Elena Lingerie @ FaMESHed X
(Luc.) Whisky Cocktail BENTO accessory @ Equal10

pose: FOXCITY. Pampered Bento Pose Set @ C88

MK Red – Vibrate Night – The Bearded Guy

[ILAYA] Logan Lounger

Kalospia – Luna’s Hanging Light @ C88

dust bunny . areca palm plant

Posted in Collabor88, Events, Legacy, Lelutka, poses, Second Life, skin, vinyl

Ain’t no rental

Independent, athletic
I been sweating, doing calisthenics
Booty vicious, mind yo business
I been working, working on my fitness
I’ve been lifting heavy metal
See this ass? Ain’t no rental
Take it down low like just stretching
Pick it back up like I’m flexing
Woo, tryna get it, working on my fitness
Think about how I’m gonna feel when I step up on the catwalk
Think about how I’m gonna feel when I got that ass that don’t stop
That ass that don’t stop, that ass don’t stop
And think about how I’m gonna feel when I take it all off

Vinyl rkkn

hair: Tableau Vivant \\ Nany hair @ C88
head: LeLUTKA Fleur Head 2.0
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) Perky Edition (1.3.1)
skin: [theSkinnery] Dalia (LeLutkaEVO) @ C88

VINYL – Wasabi Crop @ Equal10
RKKN. Thea’s Boxers

pose: Lyrium. Mina Static & Breathing Pose Series @ Dubai

Vesturario – Good Times – The Bearded Guy

.:revival:. bathroom towel

Posted in Collabor88, Cynful, Events, Fashion, Foxcity, Legacy, Lelutka, Second Life

It all comes back to you

Do you believe in Heaven above?
Do you believe in love?
Don’t tell a lie, don’t be false or untrue
It all comes back to you
Open fire, on my burning heart
I’ve never been lucky in love
My defenses are down
A kiss or a frown
I can’t survive on my own
If a girl walks in and carves her name in my heart
I’ll turn and run away
Everyday we’ve all been led astray
It’s hard to be lucky in love
It gets in your eyes, it’s making you cry
Don’t know what to do, don’t know what to do
You’re looking for love
Calling Heaven above
Send me an angel
Send me an angel
Right now, right now

cynful magika foxcity damien bearded guy

hair: Magika – Lyric
head: LeLUTKA Fleur Head 2.0
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) Perky Edition (1.3.1)
skin: [theSkinnery] Dalia (LeLutkaEVO) @ C88

Cynful Diamond Earrings
Cynful Diamond – Choker
Cynful Diamond – Bracelets

*T.Whore* – Sexy Fur Stole White (no longer available)
[Cynful] Stripper Body Dust
Cynful Sparkle Dress @ C88

pose: FOXCITY. Heatwave Bento Pose Set

Baby Crimsom – Pervert Side – The Bearded Guy
**I added decor & Damien**

 

Posted in breathe, DOUX, Events, Legacy, Lelutka, Second Life

Appreciation or Appropriation?

So, this might be a sensitive subject and I genuinely come to the table from a place of complete love. I’m also rather ignorant about the subject and I guess one could blame that on white privilege. However, in no way, shape, or form is this meant to insult ANYONE. And because I don’t like to offend people like that, I tend avoid certain things. However, I’ve noticed that Asian culture seems to be fair game. Oddly enough, its not one that I’ve been especially drawn to…except for the food. Cuz, let’s be fair, most Asian cuisine is pretty damn delicious and yes, I would honestly try some of the “weird” stuff they serve in the street food vendors I’ve seen on TV.
I guess my question is…when does it go from appreciation to appropriation? And when did this become a thing? For instance, growing up I always wondered how sports teams got away with using some of the names they used, because even as a child, I felt it was rather racist. My parents had no good answer about that teams and always said that one day they would change. They were right and as far as I know, most of them have changed. (I don’t follow sports, so some may not have changed yet.) Also, as a child, my favorite costume for Halloween was being a “gypsy,” but recently I discovered that even that term is considered racist now. I had no idea. I just loved all the jewelry and the flowing skirts. I liked it a whole lot more than being a princess! Also, as a kid…cowboys and Indians was a normal thing to play as a kid. We didn’t see them as good guys and bad guys, we just saw cowboy hats & guns or feathers & arrows. I always wanted to an Indian, because I thought they were cooler. I never could get into Westerns or cowboys.
So, if we look back on my childhood, without knowing my heart and reasons….was I racist? Was I appropriating someone’s culture? Well, I know my heart has never been racist. I know my parents weren’t racist. My family actually did have friends of other races and yes, they did come to our house (before you ask). With that said, my father was in the U.S. Army, so I was exposed to different races and cultures from a very early age.
To me, skin color is the same as hair color…the darker your natural pigment, the harder it is to change it.
Feel free to comment anyway you like, but know this…ANY clear-cut racist or hateful remarks will be deleted. This is not about hate or racism, this is about me trying to better understand the world I live in.

breathe

hair:  DOUX – Jane Hairstyle
head: LeLUTKA Fleur Head 2.0
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) (1.2)
skin: DeeTaleZ *SKINS* for LELUTKA HEADS (EVO.) – Flora

.TeaBunny. + [CX] Shamisen Hairpins
*:..Silvery K..:*Japanese pipe(Lotus Silver)T
toksik – Propitious Qipao Dress
[BREATHE]-Toyumi Heels @ Epiphany (close Aug 12)

pose: Bauhaus Movement – Let The Beat Drop 26

Red Core – Asian Walls – The Bearded Guy