“Owners of dogs will have noticed that, if you provide them with food and water and shelter and affection, they will think you are god. Whereas owners of cats are compelled to realize that, if you provide them with food and water and shelter and affection, they draw the conclusion that they are gods.” ― Christopher Hitchens, The Portable Atheist: Essential Readings for the Nonbeliever
Lately, I’ve just been going through the motions of putting one foot in front of another. I’m faking it until I make it, you could say. This year has taken quite a toll on me, as it has most of us. I’ve counted my blessings and I promise I am grateful. However, some days putting on that happy face is a huge struggle. The holidays haven’t really helped much. Fortunately, that’s almost over for a while. I’m holding on to the hope that 2021 is a better year. I want to say that it has to be, but I think that this year has proven…repeatedly…that it can always get worse.
Well, this year isn’t over yet and its just gonna keep dumping on some of us right until the bitter end. I just want to crawl into a hole and hide sometimes. Not just from this year, but from the world in general. There’s just so much happening around me and its a bit overwhelming. The diabetes thing is sooooo hard this late in life. I’m a creature of habit. Granted most of my habits are not good ones. Don’t you judge me! *winks* I guess for once in my life I am making resolutions, but not because I really want to. I have to! Time to work on that vision board, I reckon. *laughs* Y’all forget that I really am a Southern girl at heart. I’m doing my best to not get too stressed over all of this. Lots and lots of people live with diabetes and I will, too! I can do this. I will do this!
hair: Stealthic – Always head: LeLUTKA Lily Head 2.5 body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) Special Edition (1.3) skin: — PUMEC – JADWIGA – LELUTKA x BOM
This past year is definitely one for the history books. I could easily tear it all down and rant about all the wretched events that have occurred. I’d rather count the blessings and rejoice in the lessons. We all know what we’ve lost and there’s nothing to gain by focusing on our losses. We need to regroup and gather all that hope we had at the beginning of this year. We need to take that hope and truly visualize a better year for all of us. We have to let go of the hate, the sorrow, and the misery and move forwards with love, joy, and faith. It’s time for us to appreciate the people that uplift us. It’s time to reach out to those less fortunate. It’s time for us to embrace the lives we still get to live. It would be so easy for me to focus on my limitations and the restrictions in my life. Instead, I choose to embrace the freedoms and abilities that I often take for granted. Ok, I can’t be on my feet for more than ten minutes without experiencing some pretty intense pain, but I CAN be on my feet for ten minutes! I can walk from one room to the next. I can walk to my car. I have rooms. I have a car. Those are blessings. I appreciate them so much. I have haters that want to post lies about me. I also, have some of the most wonderful friends I could have ever hoped for in my life. So, that’s it. In looking at the yuck this year has delivered….if I dig deep enough, I also find some pretty awesome advantages. If you take a good look at your own life, I bet you’ll find some remarkable things worthy of gratitude, too.
hair: Stealthic – Fixated head: LeLUTKA Fleur Head 2.5 body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) Special Edition (1.3) skin: — PUMEC – JADWIGA – LELUTKA x BOM
Sese – Christmas Tree Farm @ Arcade -22.Sese – Christmas Tree Farm – Tree Wrapper -5.Sese – Christmas Tree Farm – Fence Tree -23.Sese – Christmas Tree Farm – Tree+Ornaments -14.Sese – Christmas Tree Farm – Snow Tree Lights -2.Sese – Christmas Tree Farm – Fence Cage -10.Sese – Christmas Tree Farm – Tree Grove
Life is messy. There’s no doubt about that. Anyone with pets or children will attest to stepping in something questionable in the middle of the night. Nothing will throw off your day faster than cleaning up a mess like that first thing in the morning. Clearly, life isn’t perfect, but rather than compare our lives to those we see on our lovely screens…I think its better to embrace it. I know my life isn’t what I had hoped it would be and I changed my ideas about my life several times over the course of my life. Not once did I envision my life to be what it is now. I jokingly said I’d be a fat old woman who hates kids and has a bunch of cats. I don’t even have that! I mean, I don’t LOVE kids, but I surely don’t hate them. Ok, I am fat, so I got that goal down easy enough. Wait, was that a goal….oh god, I manifested that shit! Fuck me. Well, ok, so what. I’m fat, I got a grocery list of health problems and no insurance. I’m still here. I have rather decent roof over my head. *looks down at my fat body* Uhm, clearly, I have plenty to eat. *laughs* I have two running cars. I have one tiny feline terrorist and the most perfect smartest dog in all da world. And I still have my wonderful, albeit crazy, Mom. I am freaking blessed! Sure, I struggle financially, but it sure could be worse. My condo and my cars are paid in full. That’s a true blessing. As Thanksgiving (yes, its a U.S. holiday) comes sliding around the corner, I have a lot to be thankful for and I’m thankful that I do. Whether you celebrate this holiday or not, I think its a nice reminder to take some honest inventory of the blessings in our lives. It’s easy to forget those blessings as we go about our mundane daily routines. If you’re blessed enough to be reading this, it means you’ve been blessed with a little bit of time and the luxury of internet. While, I’m not so sure you need to be grateful for reading my ramblings, I’m pretty sure you’ve got your own plethora of blessings to behold. Oh…and don’t think I forgot you. I am very very grateful that you have taken that little bit of time from your life to read my words. More grateful than I can properly express, but Thank You.♥
I love exploring photographic sims. I’ve been a fan of the BKLYN sim since the first time I visited. It is the absolute perfect city sim and fortunately they have a group now that allows for rezzing. They didn’t the first few times I visited. Recently, that group has done up another sim called Midnight in Paris. I finally was able to take the time to explore yesterday and it did not disappoint. It looks the best if you use their region windlight. (I’m not on the whole EEP thing yet.) This sim is perfect for photography and/or a romantic little date. There benches all over the city to provide some romantic conversations and there’s even a small cafe right on the street. I recommend turning on sounds, because the hustle and bustle of the city really adds to the experience. You might even hear some cats fighting in the alley. I did. I won’t say much more, because I encourage you to visit and see for yourself.
It’s 5am and my 74yr old mother is dancing through the house singing Beyonce’s “Single Ladies.” I don’t even think she realizes what she’s singing, but she’s doing a well enough job that I recognize the song. I just pulled up the song on YouTube and she comes running in asking how did I know she had that song stuck in her head. *cracks up* Well, Mom, you tend to think out loud…so its not that hard to know what you’re thinking. God, I love this woman!
hair: Stealthic – Cordova LeLUTKA Fleur Head 2.5 Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara V5.0 [theSkinnery] Karima @ Uber
I’ve been actively blogging for almost five years and while I very much enjoy taking photos, I’ve grown quite weary of my actual blog site. I know that a few of you actually read what I write, but for the most part I have found that most of my followers tend to look at the photos. If they want something in the photo they see on flickr, they will click the link to my blog and scroll straight to the credits. I’m also running out of space for my blog photos on this site. With that said, if I want to continue using this site, I will not only need to renew my subscription, but upgrade it, as well. The upgrade will more than double the yearly amount that I’m paying now. While, I’d have more than enough room for photos after the upgrade, I can’t really justify the expense. This is something that has been on my mind for several months now. I’ve wrestled with the idea of retiring completely from blogging, but let’s face it, I’m always going to take photos. I might as well list the items I’m wearing and that is easily done on Flickr. I can even hyperlink on flickr to provide slurls. Essentially, I can do everything on flickr that I do hear, aside from writing long drawn out posts. After sitting down and going over my pros&cons list, I have decided that I will be migrating my blog…or downsizing it so that I’m working more from flickr and less on wordpress. Eventually, this page will disappear, because I won’t be paying to keep the site up if I’m no longer using it. I’ll have to reach out to my sponsors, of course, as they took me on with an actual blog page in place. They may not want to continue on with me if I’m micro blogging and that’s okay. I completely understand that. So, watch my flickr for micro blogs…I’ll still post here from time to time, as its paid for through January, but the time is near and I’m definitely going to make that move.
Look inside my eyes
I know you’re watching
Look at my demise
You know you got me
Feed me all your lies
And I just soak it up, soak it up, soak it up, baby
Thought that you were mine
But you ain’t down
~ Johnny Rain – LLWH
Sady is wearing:
hair: DOUX – Ubert hairstyle
head: GENUS Project – Genus Head – Classic Face
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) (1.2)
skin: [theSkinnery] Isla (Genus) @ C88
upper tattoo: Apocalyptic – Awakening the eye black @ Belle
lower tattoo: Apocalyptic – Butterfly creeper