Sometimes it feels like the world is crashing down
Nobody can hear the pain
But it hurts so loud
But maybe loneliness brings us closer to ourselves
And pushes us to learn to love from the inside out
hair: tram J1201 hair @ C88
head: LeLUTKA Fleur Head 2.5
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) Special Edition (1.3)
skin: — PUMEC – JADWIGA – LELUTKA x BOM
Lunar – Lamu Top @ Equal10
Lunar – Lamu Bra @ Equal10
Lunar – Lamu Panties @ Equal10
pose: space cadet – pack 13
location: Curiosity Lake
You can’t tell what someone has been through in real life just by looking at them. You sure as hell can’t do that in Second Life. Yet, for some reason, people in SL tend to judge one another so much more harshly than they judge others in real life. We scream about body shame, micro aggressions, and other issues in SL. We gather our friends and point fingers, we blast them on social media, but how often do we do that in real life? Do we gather our neighbors to ostracize someone else in the neighborhood? Do we chase down cars leaving stores that have offended us? No, you don’t, I don’t…no one really does. I just don’t understand why being behind a keyboard makes some people so rude. Yes, I understand that there’s a certain degree of anonymity, but to me that’s even more reason to be kind. We have no idea who we are dealing with on the other side. Not really. Even with profiles full of information and clues, we can not tell what someone else is dealing with or what their life has been like or why they choose this virtual existence. I think it is pretty fair to say that everyone has been through a lot this past year. So, let’s go into this next year with more kindness and compassion. Please.
hair: DOUX – Ines hairstyle
head: LeLUTKA Fleur Head 2.5
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) Special Edition (1.3)
skin: — PUMEC – JADWIGA – LELUTKA x BOM
ears: — PUMEC – / Mesh Ears\ – Dance of evil genius
nails: Tulssy – Abstract Fatpack Coffin
[ILAYA] Ylva Dress and Svea Scarf @ Uber
Serenity Style– Magical Christmas- Cute Fawn RARE @ Tannenbaum
pose: space cadet – fireflies
[Bad Unicorn] Cold World Backdrop – Falling Snow @ FaMESHed
This past year is definitely one for the history books. I could easily tear it all down and rant about all the wretched events that have occurred. I’d rather count the blessings and rejoice in the lessons. We all know what we’ve lost and there’s nothing to gain by focusing on our losses. We need to regroup and gather all that hope we had at the beginning of this year. We need to take that hope and truly visualize a better year for all of us. We have to let go of the hate, the sorrow, and the misery and move forwards with love, joy, and faith.
It’s time for us to appreciate the people that uplift us. It’s time to reach out to those less fortunate. It’s time for us to embrace the lives we still get to live. It would be so easy for me to focus on my limitations and the restrictions in my life. Instead, I choose to embrace the freedoms and abilities that I often take for granted. Ok, I can’t be on my feet for more than ten minutes without experiencing some pretty intense pain, but I CAN be on my feet for ten minutes! I can walk from one room to the next. I can walk to my car. I have rooms. I have a car. Those are blessings. I appreciate them so much. I have haters that want to post lies about me. I also, have some of the most wonderful friends I could have ever hoped for in my life.
So, that’s it. In looking at the yuck this year has delivered….if I dig deep enough, I also find some pretty awesome advantages. If you take a good look at your own life, I bet you’ll find some remarkable things worthy of gratitude, too.
hair: Stealthic – Fixated
head: LeLUTKA Fleur Head 2.5
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) Special Edition (1.3)
skin: — PUMEC – JADWIGA – LELUTKA x BOM
AvaWay LETTER Necklaces @ FaMESHed
Seniha. Alison Dress @ FaMESHed
Seniha. Alison Boots @ FaMESHed
[Rezz Room] European Cat Adult Santa Animesh @ Santa Inc
pose: space cadet – pack 12 @ Harajuku
[Bad Unicorn] Cold World Backdrop @ FaMESHed
Sese – Christmas Tree Farm @ Arcade
-22.Sese – Christmas Tree Farm – Tree Wrapper
-5.Sese – Christmas Tree Farm – Fence Tree
-23.Sese – Christmas Tree Farm – Tree+Ornaments
-14.Sese – Christmas Tree Farm – Snow Tree Lights
-2.Sese – Christmas Tree Farm – Fence Cage
-10.Sese – Christmas Tree Farm – Tree Grove
Welp, I made it on that dreadful website again. *shakes my head* The things they say bother me far less than the idea that someone is wasting so much of their precious time focusing on some silly form of fixated hate. Whoever is posting about me, clearly doesn’t really know me, so they can say whatever they want on that silly site. That’s why they have to post anonymously, right? It’s ok if they don’t like my blog and my photos. I’m fully aware of my limitations as an SL photographer. I’ve never claimed to be some sort of expert. I do what I like. I always have and always will, as far as photography is concerned. If others like it…YAY! If they don’t…well, I understand.
I’m not quite sure where they got the man stealing idea, but that definitely isn’t me. I have NEVER done that in Second Life. Earlier this year, I broke one of my cardinal rules, sorta twice, by dating guys that had dated friends of mine in the past. However, both of my friends were aware and gave their blessings. It didn’t work out, but no one ran away from me….though, to be fair, they probably should have. *laughs* I probably am a tad bit psycho. *evil grin* I’m okay with that. I lost my RL husband to a much younger and much prettier woman. The pain that delivered is far more than any I would ever wish on someone else. So, stealing a man isn’t my style. Besides, why would I want one that can be so easily stolen in the first place?
Alas, if this person so filled with hatred for me….if they really knew me, they probably wouldn’t waste so much of their time on me. Though, by the looks of things, they probably never will, cuz I tend to surround myself with loving individuals who support each others’ endeavors. My friends and I don’t tear each other down. Nor do we look for ways to tear others down.
Once again, I must say that I do not wish this person any ill will. In fact, I’d prefer they find some happiness in their lives and fill their hearts with love instead of whatever petty jealousy or hate that consumes them. If I somehow inadvertently hurt this person, I highly doubt that is was my intention. Perhaps they do have justified reasons to dislike me, but until they are courageous enough to step out of the cowardly anonymous shadows…I cannot honestly know. Nor can I apologize. Perhaps they are the psychotic ones and have no valid reason at all. Until they come forward, I’ll just have to do what I do best…shrug it off and keep on moving forward. I have better things to focus my attention on. ♥
[monso] Ahri2 Hair @ C88
LeLUTKA Fleur Head 2.5
Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara V5.0
Glam Affair – Lelutka Applier – Willow @ C88
BUENO-One Love Necklace @ C88
Decoy – Kathleen Cropped Sweater @ C88
BUENO-Julia Jeans for Sat Sale Nov 7, 2020
pose: space cadet – fresh hot tea @ C88
***(come with color change cup)
location: Curiosity Lake
The last few days have been busy busy busy, as are the first few days of every month. *laughs* This is nothing new. However, yesterday I had to leave the house and that’s always an anxiety attack. Luckily, I wasn’t in the voting line too long. My mother used to work the polls and she knew the best time for us to go. She picked the absolute best time, too. There wasn’t much of a line when we got there, but as we left there was a line going quite a ways down the sidewalk outside. It was really odd seeing so much security surrounding the premises, but I suppose it was good to err on the side of caution. I’ll admit that I was a bit nervous as I live in a very very red state and I am quite blue. And that’s the extent of what I will discuss about politics. I won’t unfriend those that disagree with me, as I feel we all have our reasons for feeling the way we do. I have family that is red and while I don’t agree with them, I can still love them….from a distance. *grins*
DOUX – Tegan hairstyle
LeLUTKA Fleur Head 2.0
Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara V5.0
[theSkinnery] Karima @ Uber
AsteroidBox. Lexi Shirt @ Kustom9
Blueberry – HBIC – Skirt
[BREATHE]-Rineko Heels @ FaMESHed
pose: space cadet – pack 11 @ Harajuku
K&S – // SLC. Backdrop. @ Anthem
“I do not believe that all books will or should migrate onto screens: as Douglas Adams once pointed out to me, more than 20 years before the Kindle showed up, a physical book is like a shark. Sharks are old: there were sharks in the ocean before the dinosaurs. And the reason there are still sharks around is that sharks are better at being sharks than anything else is. Physical books are tough, hard to destroy, bath-resistant, solar-operated, feel good in your hand: they are good at being books, and there will always be a place for them.”
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hair: DOUX – Carla hairstyle
head: LeLUTKA Lake Head 1.2
eyes: [Heaux] Piper Eyes @ Anthem
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) (1.2)
skin: [Glam Affair] LIllian Skin [ Lelutka ] @ Uber
Rebel Gal – Charm Necklace
Blueberry – Authentic – Tucked In Top
Blueberry – Authentic – Jeans
[BREATHE]-Tamika Heels @ FaMESHed
pose: – space cadet – tea time
scene:
Scarlet Creative Tulum Resort @ FaMESHed
DRD Boho armoir
uK – Boho Summer Chairw/Blanket Color
uK – Boho Summer Table Color
uK – Boho Summer Pillow Crate Color
dust bunny . tropical delights . chicken wraps @ Anthem
[Rezz Room] British Shorthair Jumping
.:Bee Designs:. Summer Fun Gacha Swimming Shark
I have found that whenever you look outside yourself for something or someone to make you happy, you are simply looking in the wrong place. Happiness definitely comes from within and you have to truly want it in order to achieve it. To truly want something, you have to be willing to work for it. Too many people with mental illnesses refuse to accept that and it breaks my heart. I’ve been there and I know its not an easy path. By no means am I cured. I still suffer from mental illness, but I am getting help and it is working. It works, because I’m following suggestions and taking advice that I don’t always like. I know its working, because I feel better more often than I don’t. I no longer sit and wallow in self pity or self loathing. I no longer envy what other people have, because I have beyond what I absolutely need in this life. I’m not looking at what I don’t have. Instead, I’m counting my blessings for everything I do have and I’m appreciating it all a bit more. I know it could all be gone in an instant. I don’t want to wait until its gone to enjoy it or appreciate the blessing bestowed upon me.
hair: DOUX – Carla hairstyle
head: LeLUTKA Lake Head 1.2
eyes: [Heaux] Piper Eyes @ Anthem
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) (1.2)
skin: [Glam Affair] LIllian Skin [ Lelutka ] @ Uber
lashes: MICHAN – Lilith Lashes Fatpack [Lel EVO] @ TLC
eyeshadow: IDTTY FACES – LELUTKA PLAY COOL COLLECTION #3 @ Cosmopolitan (closes July 12)
lipstick: IDTTY FACES – LELUTKA PLAY COOL COLLECTION #9 @ Cosmopolitan (closes July 12)
Rebel Gal – Charm Necklace
Blueberry – Authentic – Crop Top
pose: – space cadet – pack 9 @ Harajuku (closes July 10)
I woke up this morning with a tremendous headache and it has been one helluva week. Today, I’m taking some much needed time for myself. I want to enjoy my newly landscaped sim. I want to dedicate some time to adding some finishing touches and decorating my house. I’m sure I’ll take a blog picture, but my blog is more for me than anyone else anyway…sorry, not sorry. I love that people read it and enjoy it…all five of you..lol, but at the end of the day, I have always blogged because its something I’ve wanted to do. However, there are days that I honestly don’t even want to bother with it. I guess that’s natural after four years of blogging almost daily.
In real life, I’m smoking a cigarette with my coffee, but I sure wish it was a blunt. This headache is not fun and while I know that looking at a screen is not conducive for a headache, neither is that bright ass sun blaring through my window. *hisses* Alas, this is going to be a good day. I’ve decided and that’s that.
hair: DOUX – Alaska hairstyle @ LeVeL
head: LeLUTKA Lake Head 1.2
eyes: [Heaux] Piper Eyes @ Anthem
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) (1.2)
skin: [Glam Affair] LIllian Skin [ Lelutka ] @ Uber
lashes: MICHAN – Lilith Lashes Fatpack [Lel EVO] @ TLC
eyeshadow: IDTTY FACES – LELUTKA HALF TIME COLLECTION # 5 @ ShinyShabby
lipstick: IDTTY FACES – LELUTKA HALF TIME COLLECTION #10 @ ShinyShabby
nails: -SU!- Almond Nails
Rebel Gal – Charm Necklace
(Yummy) Adel Ring Set
Blueberry – SL17B – Lace Trim Top
Blueberry – FLF – Valentines – Panties
pose: – space cadet – weed&coffee ladies
the pose comes with a blunt/joint & a cup, but I used my own mug which was a gift from my dear friend, Harlow Heslop
e.marie // True Love Mug – Cats
So, y’all gotta know I miss writing something on occasion. Should’ve known I couldn’t stay quiet for too damn long. I didn’t even make it a month. I don’t know what I’ll write about going forward. I don’t think I’ll be quite so forthcoming about my life. Sadly, there are people out there that like to hurt me and use personal information to do so. In the meantime, I hope everyone, even the haters, enjoys this summer the best you can. Let’s all eat watermelon and get sticky!
hair: Wasabi // Summer Mesh Hair @ Summerfest
head: LeLUTKA Lake Head 1.2
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) (1.2)
skin: [Glam Affair] LIllian Skin [ Lelutka ] @ Uber
.:Vegas:. Tattoo Earthly @ Uber
eyeshadow: IDTTY FACES – LELUTKA MAUVE DREAMS COLLECTION #1
lipstick: IDTTY FACES – LELUTKA MAUVE DREAMS COLLECTION #6
Cae :: Palmera :: Collection (earrings & necklace) @ Uber
OSMIA – Rachel.Outfit @ Uber
pose: – space cadet – melons @ Summerfest
Just going to share a link to one of my favorite covers of The Beatles’ All You Need is Love
Nothing you can know that isn’t known
Nothing you can see that isn’t shown
Nowhere you can be that isn’t where you’re meant to be
It’s easy
All you need is love
All you need is love
All you need is love, love
Love is all you need
hair: Tableau Vivant // Birdie hair @ Uber
head: LeLUTKA Lake Head 1.2
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) (1.2)
skin: [Glam Affair] LIllian Skin [ Lelutka ] @ Uber
.:Vegas:. Tattoo Earthly @ Uber
eyeshadow: IDTTY FACES – LELUTKA WILD ROSE COLLECTION #1
lipstick: IDTTY FACES – LELUTKA WILD ROSE COLLECTION #8
pose: – space cadet – pastry sits @ SaNaRae
for scene credits: Take One Day Away
