Posted in Catwa, Events, Fashion, Maitreya, Pose Fair, RunAway Hair, Scandalize, Second Life, shoes, shopping, The Liaison Collaborative, Uber SL, Vanity Event

Zoning Out

I wrote about my fibromyalgia the other day and it took a lot for me to do that, but in writing about it, I found myself reading more about this affliction. As I said in that post, I’ve been having an especially hard time with it the last week and it hasn’t eased up quite yet. I’ve always kind of struggled with focus, unless I somehow slip into a zone with something, in which case I can’t unfocus….it’s like 0 or 100. However, here lately, I’ve found myself just zoning out. I can’t begin to tell you what I’m thinking, because when I snap out of it, its like I just woke up and can’t remember my dream. Perhaps I’m finally understanding what men are talking about when they say they are genuinely thinking about nothing. I’ve never understood how anyone could not be thinking something at all times, but I think I’m finally getting there. I know its not a good thing and I’m working towards making it stop, but in the meantime, I hope that my regular readers will understand if I slap music and lyrics with my photos more than usual.

balcony

wearing:
hair: [RA] Amber Hair
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: Glam Affair – Willow – Jamaica (*new* @ Uber)

*OAL* Sea Glass Jewelry (*new* @ Vanity Event)
Scandalize. Lipa set. (*new* @ Vanity Event)
Scandalize. LipaFlats. (*new* @ Vanity Event)

pose: InPulse– Pose 05 set (*new* @ Pose Fair)

scene: MINIMAL – Bionic Building *8*
Ariskea[Amber]Set (*new* @ The Liaison Collaborative)
-Ariskea[Amber] Porch Chair [Brown]
-Ariskea[Amber] Porch Chair [Blue]
-Ariskea[Amber] Giant Plant Philo [Healthy]
-Ariskea[Amber]Rug [Brown]

Posted in Catwa, Events, Exploration, Fashion, Foxcity, Kustom9, Lamb, Maitreya, Scandalize, Second Life, shopping

Walking Solo

I’ve been asked a few times why I often include the lyrics to the song, instead of just linking the song in my blog. The answer is quite simple. I adore poetry and most song lyrics read like poetry if you take away the music. I’ve explained many time that songs often say what I can and if you do add the melody, it can elevate the feeling behind the picture to an entirely new level.

Oh Wonder – Without You

Step out into the sun
Skies above they radiate me
Lift up, carry the love
Do you know?
That I’ve been out of my mind
This slow life I’m waiting for you
To swing me all of your line
Do you know?
Since I’ve been walking solo
Dreaming you were back home
I find getting down low
Hide until tomorrow
Come back into the good life
Lose these hazy love lies
I’ve been chasing my mind
Lonely in the cold nights
‘Cause I’m kicking up stones without you
Can’t pick up the phone without you
I’m a little bit lost without you
Without you
And I’m digging down holes without you
Can’t be on my own without you
I’m a little bit lost without you
Without you
Step out into the dark
Where were you when I was trying
To lift up, carry the love
Do you know?
That I’ve been closing my eyes
Love me slow, hallucinating
Swinging me all of your light
Do you know?
Since I’ve been walking solo
Dreaming you were back home
I find getting down low
Hide until tomorrow
Come back into the good life
Lose these hazy love lies
I’ve been chasing my mind
Lonely in the cold nights
‘Cause I’m kicking up stones without you
Can’t pick up the phone without you
I’m a little bit lost without you
Without you
And I’m digging down holes without you
Can’t be on my own without you
I’m a little bit lost without you
Without you
Hold me close when it’s over
Life goes slow loving sober
Feel my bones getting older
Sadness grows when you’re cold
‘Cause I am one step heavy and two steps high
Hold it steady with you by my side
One step heavy and two steps high
Two steps high
‘Cause I’m kicking up stones without you
Can’t pick up the phone without you
I’m a little bit lost without you
And I’m digging down holes without you
Can’t be on my own without you
I’m a little bit lost without you
Without you
Without you
Without you
I’m a little bit lost without you
Without you
And I’m digging down holes without you
Can’t be on my own without you
I’m a little bit lost without you
Without you

bikini season

.wearing:
hair:  Lamb. Sunshower (*new* @ Summerfest)
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: Glam Affair – Lily (*new* @ Kustom9)
(Yummy) Free Spirit Rings
Scandalize. Klossy. (*new* @ FrouFrou)

pose: FOXCITY. Sass Bento Pose Set
location: Baja Bay

Posted in Catwa, Collabor88, Events, FaMESHed, Fashion, Foxcity, Kustom9, Maitreya, REWIND, Scandalize, Second Life, shopping, ULTRA

Fake Friends

“Don’t worry about what people say behind your back, they are the people who are finding faults in your life instead fixing the faults in their own life.” ~Author Unknown

This quote or something along those lines has been told to me so many times over the years. It’s important to my sanity that I remember this, especially when “friends” begin acting shady around you. I think most of us are intuitive enough to realize when one of so called friends suddenly seems fake as hell. I’ll admit it hurts to think that someone you care about suddenly thinks very little of you. Even worse knowing that the real reason they have suddenly begun to think less of you, is actually a reflection of their feelings towards themselves. Sadly, instead of looking in the mirror, they’d rather project their failures and misgivings upon someone else. At this point, the question is, do you attempt to prove that person wrong or do you just go the other way. I know that for me personally, I cannot tip toe about broken glass that I can’t even see. They’ll just have to clean that up themselves, because I have far too much on my plate to worry about what others think of me. If only that was my biggest problem, I’d be far more blessed than I deserve.

the sea

wearing:
hair:  [e] Staci (*new* @ FaMESHed)
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: Glam Affair – Lily (*new* @ Kustom9)
tattoo: IDTTY Body Shop (*new* @ ULTRA)
DIRTY PRINCESS– Hippie Chic Princess Sunglasses (*new* @ REWIND)
MICHAN – Heather Necklace (*new* @ REWIND)
Scandalize. Kimberly.  (*new* @ Collabor88)

pose: FOXCITY. Beach Bunny Bento Set

Posted in Catwa, Collabor88, Events, Exploration, Fashion, Jian, Maitreya, Scandalize, Second Life, shoes, shopping, The Liaison Collaborative, Vanity Event

Amazing Little Things

I don’t like leaving my house. This is well known among my friends, but there are times that I have no choice. I have to go to the store or the doctor. I have to take the dog out. I suffer from extreme anxiety and each time I walk out the front door of my house I wish for the earth to swallow me whole. I can’t explain when it started or the cause of it. I wasn’t always like this. I used to love being outdoors. I was very active and enjoyed long walks in the woods. The only thing that seems to bring me any peace when I am out of the house is when I encounter a random butterfly or dragonfly. For as long as I can remember, those beautiful, majestic creatures have fascinated me and delivered a sense of peace. It is for this reason that no matter where I live in SL, be it a boring little linden home or the gorgeous homestead I have now, there will always be butterflies and dragonflies. These amazing little things that bring me the simplest of joys and comfort can be part of my daily virtual life if I so choose it.

amazing little things

wearing:
hair: Tableau Vivant // Charlize hair (*new* @ C88)
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: Glam Affair –  Rayna (*new* @ C88)

MG – Necklace – Venice Beach Boho – Short (FLF June 8)
(Yummy) Sea Treasures Ring Set (*new* @ C88)
JIAN Butterfly Collection (Companion)

Scandalize.Fox.DRESS. (*new* @ Vanity)
Scandalize. FoxHeeels. (*new* @ Vanity)

pose: :LW: BENTO Poses – High Hopes (*new* @ The Liaison Collaborative)
location: The Bay

Posted in Second Life

It’s Friday and More!!!

Today is so exciting for so many, especially all the shopping addicts out there! Of course, people are excited about Arcade, but not everyone really likes gachas. FaMESHed opens and the new event Vanity opens! That’s not including all the other events that have recently opened like Kinky and Uber and more! I’m super excited about tonight, too. I’ll be drinking for the first time in a while AND I’ll be hosting at FMD tonight from 6-8pm SLT…so if you’re out and about, drop by, cuz its open access….so its a great time to decide whether or not you’d like to become a member.
Whatever your plans are, I surely hope that you have a fantastic Friday and a wonderful weekend! I plan on being duhrunk af!! *laughs*

Purple Bunny

wearing:
hair:  TRUTH Bloom (*new* @ Uber)
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: Glam Affair – Viktoria Applier
tattoo: Lami – Color Tattoo [CAROL G] (*new* @ Vanity)
Scandalize.EARS (*new* @ Kinky)
Scandalize.Iliana-SHADOW. (*new* @ Kinky)

pose by DelMay
taikou / summer night backdrop (*new* @ Uber)

Posted in Catwa, Death Row Designs, Events, Fashion, Lamb, Maitreya, Scandalize, Second Life, shoes, shopping, Tres Chic

Not For Rent

Whether its an sl rumor, some fake ass hater written post on slsecrets, or a full on Facebook attack, we could all learn something from the celebrities in Hollywood. Stop feeding the trolls. These cyber bullies can only take up space in our heads if we let them and I don’t know about you, but there are no vacancies in mine. The space in my head is not for rent and I’m damn sure not going to let someone take up residence there for free. The only power these wretched people have over you is the power you give them. They feed off your fury, your misery, and your pain. Take that away from them and they will surely starve. They crave that reaction. They crave the attention. No more. Turn on that no vacancies sign and tell these people that space in your mind is not for rent. You’ll be amazed at how quickly they go away.

ready to go

wearing:
hair:  Lamb. Cherry
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
ears: ^^Swallow^^ Ears Silence BLACK
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: [theSkinnery] Katy (Catwa Applier) toffee
brows: –SU!- Blair Eyebrows +CATWA APPLIER

Scandalize.Hanna.TOP (*new* @ TresChic)
Scandalize.Hanna.JEANS (*new* @ TresChic)
Scandalize.HannaHeels (*new* @ TresChic)

pose created using AnyPose

secne:
[MF] Beautiful suitcase closed
DRD – Boho Backyard – Hewett Chair – Two

Posted in Catwa, Events, FaMESHed, Maitreya, RAMA, Scandalize, Second Life, shoes, shopping

I’m Hooked

Have you ever met someone that lures you in…as if they cast a spell on you? One taste of their lips makes you weak in the knees. That first time you make love is like a first hit of heroin. You would do just about anything to feel them inside you one more time….to hear those delicious words in your ear…to feel their hands roaming over you body. If you close your eyes, you can picture it like it was just last night. I have and I’m hooked.

when I think about you
Hurts me the most when I wake
I fumble and twist, ’til the truth starts to click
There’s so much space in this bed
These sheets go for miles: dreams of your smile

wearing:
hair: RAMA.SALON – Hayley Hair  (May FaMESHed Go)
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
ears: ^^Swallow^^ Shiny Ears
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: [theSkinnery] Katy (Catwa Applier) toffee
brows: –SU!- Blair Eyebrows +CATWA APPLIER

(Yummy) Free Spirit Rings
Violetility – Ruffle Collar

Scandalize.Jennifer-TOP. (May Pocket Gacha)
Scandalize.Jennifer-SKIRT (May Pocket Gacha)
Scandalize.Jennifer-HEELS (May Pocket Gacha)

pose created using AnyPose
Stockholm&Lima:Better With You Platform Bed (*new* @ ROMP)

Posted in Catwa, Collabor88, Events, Fashion, Home Decor, Maitreya, RAMA, Red Fish, Scandalize, Second Life, shoes, shopping, ULTRA

Sad Girl

Once upon a time, I lived a different kind of life…music takes me on the most delicious journey through my mine field of memories….
Being a mistress on the side
It might not appeal to fools like you
We’ve been around on the side
Wanna be something you would do
But you haven’t seen my man
You haven’t seen my man
You haven’t seen my man
You haven’t seen him
He’s got the fire and he walks with fame
He’s got the fire and he talks with fame
His Bonnie on the side, Bonnie on the side
Makes me so sad, girl
His money on the side, money on the side
Makes me so sad, girl
I’m a sad girl, I’m a sad girl, I’m a sad girl
I’m a sad girl, I’m a bad girl, I’m a bad girl
Being a bad bitch on the side
It might not appeal to fools like you
We’ve been around when he gets high
It might not be something you would do
But you haven’t seen my man
You haven’t seen my man
You haven’t seen my man
You haven’t seen him
He’s got the fire and he walks with fame
He’s got the fire and he talks with fame
His Bonnie on the side, Bonnie on the side
Makes me so sad, girl
His money on the side, money on the side
Makes me so sad, girl
I’m a sad girl, I’m a sad girl, I’m a sad girl
I’m a sad girl, I’m a bad girl, I’m a bad girl
Watch what you say to me
Careful who you’re talking to
Watch what you say to me
Careful who you’re talking to
I’m on fire, baby
I’m on fire
He’s got the fire and he walks with fame
He’s got the fire and he talks with fame
His Bonnie on the side, Bonnie on the side
Makes me so sad, girl
His money on the side, money on the side
Makes me so sad, girl
I’m a sad girl, I’m a sad girl, I’m a sad girl
I’m a sad girl, I’m a bad girl, I’m a bad girl
I’m a sad girl, I’m a sad girl, I’m a sad girl
I’m a sad girl, I’m a bad girl, I’m a bad girl

enough is enough

wearing:
hair: RAMA.SALON – Chiara Hair
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: [theSkinnery] Katy (Catwa Applier) toffee (*new* @ C88)
brows: –SU!- Blair Eyebrows +CATWA APPLIER
RedFish – Chronic tattoo (*new* @ ULTRA)

-SU!- Piercing Set 05 Bridge
CODE-5 [ Pamerale ] (*new* @ ROMP)
. a i s l i n g . NoseChains
Cae :: Farfalla :: Necklace (*new* @ ULTRA)
[CX] Shredder Claws – Silver

Scandalize.Mulbery-top & pants. (*new* @ equal10)
Scandalize. MulberyHeels. (*new* @ equal10)

pose: –IC poses- Single Pack 13

scene:
[ keke ] huge cozy up pillow – chevron
220ML – Alabama Style [Closed Bottle]
220ML – Alabama Style [Cup w/ Liquid]
Peaches ‘N Cream – ‘Emotional Baggage’ Handbag Clutter
Peaches ‘N Cream – ‘Kiss & Makeup’ Makeup Clutter
Peaches ‘N Cream – ‘Planet Of the Vapes’ Electric Vape
[Black Bantam] Busy Westie On Fours Rez

Posted in Catwa, Cynful, Events, Fashion, Foxcity, Lybra, Maitreya, Pale Girl Productions, Scandalize, Second Life, shopping, Uber SL

Devil Inside

I can’t speak for anyone other than myself, but when I say that there’s a dark side to me that most people will never really see or know, I mean it. Certain truths have a way of making their way into the light and sometimes it is those very facts that trigger a rage so pure. This rage is what most people would consider evil or even the work of the devil. Ah, but I don’t believe in evil or the devil. I believe we are all quite capable of being monsters when pushed far enough. No one knows what another person might actually do until they’ve done it. Think the awful things you see on the news can’t or won’t happen to you? You are wrong. Terrible, horrendous things happen to wonderful and innocent people every day. What makes you so special? To lower your chances, I suggest you treat people with care, because you never know when you’ll trigger the “devil inside.”

Demon

wearing:
hair1: DOUX – Demon hairstyle
hair2: DOUX – Snob hairstyle
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: Glam Affair – Mindy
tattoo: [White~Widow] Elektra – Black

**RE** LUX Lolita Necklace
(Yummy) True Rebel Ring Set (*new* @ Uber)
[Cynful] Stripper Body Dust (*new*)

outfit: Scandalize. Bia (*new* @ Kinky)
LYBRA . BRIDE STOCKINGS (*new* @ Trunk Show)

pose by Bauhaus Movement
lighting: FOXCITY. SkinFX – Volume I (*new*)

Posted in Catwa, Events, Fashion, Foxcity, Maitreya, Scandalize, Second Life, Shiny Shabby, shoes, shopping

Anesthetize Me

“I said I was into you
You said you were into me…..

Looks like this love wasn’t meant to last…

You said you reap just what you sow
So tell me where does your garden grow”
~Funeral Suits – All Those Friendly People

So, the song is below the credits…and the bits of lyric quoted above really strike a chord with me. I don’t want to get into the details, but I think it’s fairly obvious what its all about. If not, well, maybe you should listen to the whole song, I dunno. I just know I’m tired of talking about my feelings. I’m actually kinda sick of the feelings themselves and talking about them. Well, it fuels my inner demons and I’m over that, too.

scandalize raven
Count back, anesthetize
Colors burnt into my eyes
Life for you is shades of grey
Help me, help me find my way

wearing:
hair: TRUTH Lela (*new* mainstore)
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: Glam Affair – Mindy
EF: Fortuna Bangles, Bracelets, Necklace
(Yummy) Delicate Ring Stacks
Scandalize. Raven (*new* @ Shiny Shabby)
Scandalize. Raven Heels (*new* @ Shiny Shabby)

pose: FOXCITY. What Gives Bento Pose Set

MINIMAL – Illuminate Backdrop #5