I initially began this blogging journey of mine as a form of therapy. Now I’m in actual therapy. As my therapy progresses, I’m getting to some pretty hardcore subject matter. Poking demons that I’ve struggled to shut down for most of my life. Things I couldn’t begin to get raw about in such a public format. As I work on myself more and more each week in my real life, I find my tolerance for some of the mental games that take place in Second Life getting smaller and smaller. I watch as other people completely melt down over things that seem so ridiculous, but I know that those people are feeling something so real. It absolutely breaks my heart to see people walking around with so much rage, hate, and misery. It’s truly sad to know that there are people out there that genuinely find joy in the faults of other people. I find it completely heart wrenching that some individuals find comfort in pointing out the flaws of other people. I am by no means perfect, but one thing I have never done is tell lies about people to make them look bad. I have never spread vicious rumors hoping to destroy someone else’s happiness. The world is ugly enough and I feel that it is up to us to be as positive as we can, to celebrate the success of others, to embrace the hopes of one another, to remove ourselves from situations that make us unhappy, so that we can truly share and promote that positive energy. I truly hope that anyone out there that is wasting their energy on hatred will find some inner peace so that they can find happiness. Just imagine a world full of happy people…isn’t it beautiful?
Once upon a time, Sady adopted the most wonderful young woman as her daughter in Second Life. This beautiful young lady was very quick to point out all the adult toy boxes that Sady was putting in her photos. Then one day out of the blue, Sady logged in to receive her very own vending machine full of adult toys. This was an amazing gift from her naughty daughter who said, “Now you have a real toy box!” *laughs* Well, like mother like daughter, my sweet Chickadee is a brat!! I know, shocking! God, I love that girl!
Cutting back on the number of stores that I officially blog for is one of the hardest things for me to do. Choosing which stores to stay with and which to let go of can simply do my head in, but its part of what I have to do if I am to remain a responsible blogger. It’s my duty to do my best for each brand I represent and the minute I know that is no longer possible, I have to face the truth and cut them loose. It’s heartbreaking to say the least. Especially when I have been with a brand from the beginning. However, as I continue along my blogging journey I evolve just like everyone else. My tastes change, my style changes, my feelings change and thus my blog changes, as well as my photos.
The important thing for me to remember is why I blog in the first place. I blog for me, first and foremost. I blog for the therapeutic value and the creative outlet. The past few months, I’ve discovered that’s all I do. I log in to SL simply to blog and I work. I love both, but there has to be more. SL is not a job, nor do I ever want it to feel like one. I love the jobs I have and I love my blog. I love the stores that I represent and those I’ve had to part ways with over time. I have never blogged for a store that I didn’t believe in nor will I.
It’s time for me to find room for more than blogging and work in my Second Life. That’s why I had to resign my position from a total of 9 stores and events this past weekend. *sighs* I only hope the brands know how difficult the decision was and that I will always be grateful for the opportunities afforded me while blogging for them.
I really hate the phrase, “A leopard never changes its spots.” I disagree with the meaning behind it, completely. If meant literally, then its just a fact. However, it is rarely said with literal intent. It refers to people not being able to change their true character. I just do not believe that’s true. I believe that people can and do change, especially with age. Now, I understand that the phrase is actually refers to people’s innate traits, but again, I know that people DO change. I know they do, because I have…several times. The older I get, the more I evolve and change. I think that’s true about most people. No matter how old you, think back to who you were 7-10 yrs ago. I certainly hope you changed. We learn and we grow, to suggest otherwise is simply ridiculous to me. To suggest that someone cannot or will not change is really quite an insult. It’s like suggesting there’s no hope or reason to continue living and learning.
hair: Navy+Copper – Ivy (*new* @ Belle)
head: CATWA HEAD Denice
ears: .:[PUMEC] :. – / Mesh Ears\ – Winter Flower
–SU!– Piercing Set 07 Septum & Nose Studs
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
skin: #PUMEC – Sophia
“Such a beautiful color I wear upon my skin
And a perfect shade of purple on a flower permanent
And I’m constantly reminded of how I should have changed
And now I can’t stop thinking about the love that slipped away
It slipped away”
~ Pop Evil – Purple
Have you ever met someone that lures you in…as if they cast a spell on you? One taste of their lips makes you weak in the knees. That first time you make love is like a first hit of heroin. You would do just about anything to feel them inside you one more time….to hear those delicious words in your ear…to feel their hands roaming over you body. If you close your eyes, you can picture it like it was just last night. I have and I’m hooked.
I recently acquired a homestead and its perfect for me, because though I do share a good bit about myself in my blog. I also enjoy my privacy and I’m quite content spending several days in a row alone. I like having complete control of my land and I love that no one can see who is on my land. I don’t have to worry about seeing someone I don’t care for on my radar because they are somewhere else on the sim. I finally feel truly free to hide away from the world. I can create whatever scenes I like wherever I want and never have to worry about a neighbor putting up some atrocious house with prim trees from 2007. I love my new home, because its the best place to be when I’m hiding from the world.