Posted in Collabor88, Fashion, shoes, shopping, [BREATHE]

I wasn’t always like this

I’m a nightmare, I know what you mean by that
I can’t wake up from all these scary dreams I have
I don’t really care, and I never will
That’s the way I am, such a bitter pill
I don’t really care, how much silence kills
That’s the way I am
No, I wasn’t born without a heart
I wasn’t always like this, no
Watched you break me, no
Now you blame me
No, I wasn’t born with all these scars
And that’s what made me like this, no
Can you blame me, no? (No, oh, oh)
I wasn’t born like this
Hurt people, hurt people
I’d rather be heartless (Heartless)
Than have my heart in pieces

I wasn’t always like this

hair: Tableau Vivant // Scilla
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) Special Edition (1.3)

(Yummy) Daisy Ring Collection @ C88
RKKN. Marley Bodysuit White @ Epiphany
RKKN. Marley Sweatpants V2 Sage @ Epiphany
[BREATHE]-Misasa Sneakers @ Epiphany

pose: Le Poppycock Rough Patches Low Point

backdrop: MINIMAL – September Group Gift 2019

Posted in Collabor88, Events, Legacy, Lelutka, poses, Second Life, skin, vinyl

Ain’t no rental

Independent, athletic
I been sweating, doing calisthenics
Booty vicious, mind yo business
I been working, working on my fitness
I’ve been lifting heavy metal
See this ass? Ain’t no rental
Take it down low like just stretching
Pick it back up like I’m flexing
Woo, tryna get it, working on my fitness
Think about how I’m gonna feel when I step up on the catwalk
Think about how I’m gonna feel when I got that ass that don’t stop
That ass that don’t stop, that ass don’t stop
And think about how I’m gonna feel when I take it all off

Vinyl rkkn

hair: Tableau Vivant \\ Nany hair @ C88
head: LeLUTKA Fleur Head 2.0
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) Perky Edition (1.3.1)
skin: [theSkinnery] Dalia (LeLutkaEVO) @ C88

VINYL – Wasabi Crop @ Equal10
RKKN. Thea’s Boxers

pose: Lyrium. Mina Static & Breathing Pose Series @ Dubai

Vesturario – Good Times – The Bearded Guy

.:revival:. bathroom towel

Posted in Animals, Bueno, DOUX, Events, Fashion, Glam Affair, Home Decor, Kustom9, Legacy, Lelutka, N21, Second Life

A Little Bit Off

I’m a little bit off today, something down inside me’s different
Woke up a little off today, I can tell that something’s wrong
I’m a little thrown off today, there’s something going on inside me
I’m a little bit off today, a little bit off today
(I’m a little bit off today, a little bit off)
See, I’m a little bit off today, I cannot put my finger on it
Got up a little off today, just to play that same old song
I don’t really wanna try today, I see nothing in my reflection
I’m a little bit dry today, feel like I could die today
~ Five Finger Death Punch – A Little Bit Off

doux rkkn bueno thor rezz diversion

hair: DOUX – Carla hairstyle @ Equal10
head: LeLUTKA Lake Head 1.2
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) (1.2)
skin: [Glam Affair] Bia Skin [ Lelutka ] @ Kustom9

e.marie // Caliope Bracelet @ Kustom9
RKKN. Camila T-Shirt @ Kustom9
RKKN. Camila Jumpsuit @ Kustom9
: CULT : Tessa Feet Jewels @ Kustom9

pose: Diversion – Ponder Poses @ Access

BUENO-Segura Sofa @ N21

[Rezz Room] Pug Adult Animesh @ Kustom9

..::THOR::.. Early Summer Gacha Set  @ Kustom9
..::THOR::.. Picnic Blanket
..::THOR::.. Pillow Acanthus
..::THOR::.. Pillow Birds
..::THOR::.. Old Crate Table
..::THOR::.. Nectarines
..::THOR::.. Summer Goodies – RARE
..::THOR::.. Wooden Boat – RARE

Posted in Collabor88, DOUX, Glam Affair, Kustom9, Legacy, Lelutka, Second Life, shopping, Tres Chic

Time Goes By

Time goes by and still I’m stuck on you
Yeah, time goes by and still I’m stuck on you, ooh, you, ooh
I been afraid, don’t wanna fade out of my body
I been astray, barely awake, floating above me
Covered in red, what can I say? I’ve been a zombie
I’m feeling like I’ve been locked in a grave
You were the laugh, you were the life, you were the party
You were the brave, I was the weak, you were the army
You were the faith, you were the truth, I was the sorry
I’m feeling like you’ve been taking away
You were my one, you were my one
When all has been said, all has been done
You were my one, you were my one
Now I am left reaching above me, oh, oh
Time goes by and still I’m stuck on you, ooh, you, ooh (whoa oh)
Well time goes by and still I’m stuck on you, ooh, you, ooh
Why did you leave? Why did you go leaving me lonely?
Didn’t you know you were the home, you were the only?
Where did you go? Where did you go? Where did you go?
Come back to me
doux rkkn space cadet

wearing:
hair: DOUX – Elvia hairstyle @ Tres Chic
head: LeLUTKA Erin Head
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) (1.2)
skin: [Glam Affair] Beatriz Skin [Lelutka] @ C88

lashes: [theSkinnery] Lora Lash Collection (LeLutkaEVOLUTION) @ Access
eyes: LOTUS. Unicorn Eyes 17 (LeLutka) RARE @ Access

eyeshadow: IDTTY FACES – LELUTKA FIRST KISS COLLECTION #4
lipstick: IDTTY FACES – LELUTKA SUGAR DRIP COLLECTION #5

RKKN. Layla Shirt @ Kustom9
RKKN. Layla Jeans Blue @ Kustom9

pose: – space cadet – chill chair @ Harajuku

tarte. dock cushion

location: Burrow Coffee & Whiskey Co.

Posted in Events, Fashion, Kustom9, Maitreya, Second Life, shopping, vinyl

Daydream in Blue

Daydream
I fell asleep amid the flowers
For a couple of hours
On a beautiful day
Daydream
I dream of you amid the flowers
For a couple of hours
Such a beautiful day
~ I Monster – Daydream in Blue

foxy vinyl rkkn

Sady is wearing:
hair:  Foxy – Cupid Hair @ Kustom9
^^Swallow^^ Charm Ears
head: LeLUTKA Nova Head 1.0
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
skin: [the Skinnery] Ginny (Lelutka)

VINYL -Rupture Hoodie @ Equal10
RKKN. Mae Jeans @ Kustom9

 

Posted in Events, Fashion, Kustom9, Maitreya, Second Life, shopping, Uber SL

leave into madness

find the only sign that you’re numb
lingering on your lips
hide in knowing tides undone
breathe i’m surrounded by your touch, blushed from salted tips
shrouding all i know, paths already found too soon
sigh the lowly miles become, withering your forfeit
fighting knowing one by one
leave into madness
above, hushed in our eclipse
how then would you know – i’m already drowning too?
ah, i’m fading wanting silence, torn
in your shallows i’ll swim
howling the only light on my shore
to align
oh to help me find
oh to align
oh to broken roots
hope that we return soon
leave me fighting shrouded lungs
drifting on from the moor
oh will i lie to soothe my tongue
oh believe my eyes
yearn for it all
leave you to find
all in time
calling your wind to tide
await you in the night
ah, i’m fading wanting silence, torn
in your shallows i’ll swim
howling the only light on my shore
to align
oh to help me find
oh to align
oh to broken roots
hope that we return soon
oh believe my eyes yearn for it all
only where my spirit grows
oh believe my eyes yearn for it all
learn to be whole
will we ever learn
ah, i’m fading wanting silence, torn
in your shallows i’ll swim
howling the only light on my shore
to align
oh to help me find
oh to align
oh to broken roots
hope that we return soon
oh believe my eyes yearn for it all
leave you to find
all in time
~ Vraell – Grain

cx miu

wearing:
hair: [monso] My Hair – Julia @ Kustom9
head: LeLUTKA Nova Head 1.0
ears:  [CX] Withered Bezerker Ears
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
skin: [theSkinnery] Ginny (LeLutka&Bom) @ Uber

Miu  – Rose top @ FaMESHed
RKKN. Paige Jeans StoneBlue @ Epiphany

pose by Del May

Posted in Chic Moda, Collabor88, DOUX, Events, Exploration, Fashion, Glam Affair, Kustom9, Maitreya, Second Life, shopping, Uber SL

My Daughter

I could brag endlessly on my SL daughter, Chickadee Tremor, but to do so would reveal more about her real life than is my right to share. So, I will simply say that I love and adore her in both worlds. She inspired me to be a better person every single day. And to her, I say, “Thank you for being my daughter.”

coffee chicmoda and chickadee

Chickadee is wearing the same clothes as me, her hair is:
Stealthic – Brink
for more details about Chickadee’s look, see her post: Never Be Alone

Sady is wearing:
hair: DOUX – Sasha hairstyle @ Dubai Event
head: LeLUTKA Nova Head 1.0
eyeshadow: Izzie’s – LeLutka – Natural Eyeshadow berry
lipstick: Glam Affair – Lelutka HD Makeups @ Collabor88
ears: ^^Swallow^^ Charm Ears
skin: Glam Affair – Lelutka – Naya @ Kustom9
body: Maitreya Mesh Body

ChicModa // Ettie Heart Top @ Uber
RKKN. Paige Jeans StoneBlue @ Epiphany

pose: Sunrise by Space Cadet

locaiton: Native Soul

Posted in Apple Fall, Events, FaMESHed, Fancy Decor, Home Decor, Prism Events, Second Life, Tannenbaum, The Liaison Collaborative

Still Learning

As I said, I am still blogging, but I’ve stepped back from taking anything new from the brands I blog for on Blogotex until January. I’m finishing up the posts for the things I have taken and will practice with the ever patient brands that use inworld groups. Plus I’m doing photos with friends and stuff. I’ve been getting by using PicMonkey and PhotoScape for the last four years. Before I started blogging, I was a pixlr junkie. It’s weird that I’ve been taking photos in Second Life for as long as I can remember, but never sat down and forced myself to learn PhotoShop. Suddenly, I’m out of my element and feeling like a noob again. Oddly enough, that has gotten me excited again. It’s been a while since I was truly excited about my photography, with the exception of a few photos that filled me with some sense of pride.
Just like I share other aspects of my life in my blog, I’m going to share bits and pieces of my what’s happening as I continue my blogging path. I’m pretty happy with how this picture turned out in the end. There are some things that I hope to learn that will make a shot like this much better in the future, but for now I’m pretty proud of it.

Raw shot taken in Black Dragon:
Snapshot_007

After editing in PhotoShop:
prism peaches thor

I definitely think I’m making progress.

Apple Fall XL Christmas @ FaMESHed
Apple Fall Christmas Soldier – Cream LI: 1
Apple Fall Large Present – Holly w/ Gold Ribbon LI: 1
Apple Fall Large Present – Mistletoe w/ Cream Ribbon LI: 1
Apple Fall Hearts Sleigh LI: 2

Apple Fall Original Artwork – Christmas Wreath @ The Liaison Collaborative
Apple Fall Original Artwork – Christmas Wine (FREE) @ The Liaison Collaborative

Architect. Tannenbaum mirror with lights @ Tannenbaum

Botanical – Douglas Fir Christmas Tree for Tannenbaum

crate Wrap It Up ~ Floor Clutter

DaD “Pile of Christmas presents” @ Anthem

Fancy Decor: Tree Decorations 3 @ Tannenbaum
04 Fancy Decor: Finial Ornament B (color change) LI: 1
09 Fancy Decor: Floral Ornament C LI: 1
10 Fancy Decor: Hammered Ornament LI: 1
05 Fancy Decor: Finial Ornament C (color change) LI: 1
03 Fancy Decor: Finial Ornament A (color change) LI: 1
06 Fancy Decor: Finial Ornament D (color change) LI: 1
08 Fancy Decor: Floral Ornament B LI: 1
01 Fancy Decor: Drop Ornament (color change) LI: 1
02 Fancy Decor: Round Ornament (color change) LI: 1
07 Fancy Decor: Floral Ornament A LI: 1

[ kunst ] & KraftWork – Candle house (c) LI: 1
[ kunst ] & KraftWork – Candle house (b) LI: 1
[ kunst ] & KraftWork – Candle house (a) LI: 1

(RKKN & Nutmeg Group Gift)
ReKa. Angels In Love LI: 2
ReKa. Festive Papers LI: 2

PILOT – Package Wrap LI: 1

..::THOR::.. Christmas DIY Ornaments Gacha @ Tannenbaum
..::THOR::.. Clay Tag – Family LI: 1
..::THOR::.. Reindeer Wood Tag – Blitzen LI: 1
..::THOR::.. Reindeer Wood Tag – Dasher LI: 1
..::THOR::.. Simple Lights LI: 1
..::THOR::.. Clay Tag – Noel LI: 1
..::THOR::.. Clay Tag – Faith LI: 1
..::THOR::.. Reindeer Wood Tag – Prancer LI: 1
..::THOR::.. Reindeer Wood Tag – Vixen LI: 1
..::THOR::.. Clay Tag – Christmas LI: 1
..::THOR::.. Reindeer Wood Tag – Comet LI: 1
..::THOR::.. Wooden Crate LI: 1
..::THOR::.. Clay Tag – Peace LI: 1
..::THOR::.. Clay Tag – Jingle LI: 1
..::THOR::.. Reindeer Wood Tag – Rudolph LI: 1
..::THOR::.. Clay Tag – Hope LI: 1
..::THOR::.. Reindeer Wood Tag – Dancer LI: 1
..::THOR::.. Clay Tag – Believe LI: 1
..::THOR::.. Clay Tag – Love LI: 1
..::THOR::.. Reindeer Wood Tag – Cupid LI: 1
..::THOR::.. Reindeer Wood Tag – Donner LI: 1

.peaches. Kathy Fireplace Set @ FaMESHed
.peaches. Kathy Fireplace Set – Fireplace (White)
.peaches. Kathy Candle Set – Red/Green (Flame)
.peaches. Kathy Fireplace Set – Old Rug (ADULT) – 2

[Rezz Room] Adult Labrador Retriever Animesh

Culprit Sonata Console Piano @ Tannenbaum

Tuesdays Tree Table Decor Set @ Tannenbaum
Tuesdays Tree Table Decor – 1
Tuesdays Tree Table Decor – 3
Tuesdays Tree Table Decor – 2

Posted in Collabor88, Events, Fashion, GenusProject, GingerFish, Gingerfish Poses, Kustom9, Maitreya, Reign, Second Life

A Warning

Sometimes I think that people like me should come with a warning. I mean, in my mind there are walls and barbed wire all around my heart, but there are no signs. I never considered it until just now. I was wandering around Autumn Trace when I saw this little shack and thought how truly poetic it was to have stumbled across this little shack in the swamp. I identify so deeply with this entire sim. It feels very much like wandering about in my mind.

foxy ab reign rr

hair:  Foxy – Nola Hair @ Kustom9
head: Genus Head – Baby Face
skin: L’Etre – Lana Skin
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara V4.1

AsteroidBox. Carrie Sweater @ Kustom9
RKKN. Nicole’s Jeans
REIGN.- DONNA BOOTIES @ Collabor88
[Rezz Room] Pomeranian Animesh @ Equal10

poses: GingerFish Poses – Mind Games @ eBento
location: Autumn Trace

Posted in Catwa, Collabor88, Events, Fashion, Second Life, shopping, The Liaison Collaborative

I think I might be sinking

Spent my days with a woman unkind
Smoked my stuff and drank all my wine.
Made up my mind to make a new start
Going To California with an aching in my heart.
Someone told me there’s a girl out there
With love in her eyes and flowers in her hair.
Took my chances on a big jet plane
Never let them tell you that they’re all the same.
The sea was red and the sky was grey
Wondered how tomorrow could ever follow today.
The mountains and the canyons started to tremble and shake
As the children of the sun began to awake.
Seems that the wrath of the Gods
Got a punch on the nose and it started to flow;
I think I might be sinking.
Throw me a line if I reach it in time
I’ll meet you up there where the path
Runs straight and high.
To find a queen without a king;
They say she plays guitar and cries and sings.
La la la la
Side a white mare in the footsteps of dawn
Tryin’ to find a woman who’s never, never, never been born.
Standing on a hill in my mountain of dreams,
Telling myself it’s not as hard, hard, hard as it seems
~ AMY LEE – “Going To California” by Led Zeppelin

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Basics:
head: CATWA HEAD Catya
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
skin: [Glam Affair] Carla @ Collabor88

tram I0624 hair @ Collabor88
Ascendant – Mrs. Majesty Nails
TETRA – Not so basic crop tank @ Collabor88
RKKN. Annan’s Panties

pose: Le Poppycock *La Parisienne* Malaise @ The Liaison Collaborative
KraftWork Matcha Beach Shack