Posted in CandyDoll, Catwa, Collabor88, Events, Fashion, Maitreya, RAMA, Second Life, shoes, shopping

I’m a Bad Girl

So, word has it that there’s a certain person out there roaming the grid with her panties all in a twist, riding up her crack simply because I exist. Once upon a time, someone did me wrong and this little birdy was unfortunate enough to hear me say a bad word. Lo and behold, this little birdy has decided that I should be released from all my SL jobs…blah blah blah….she’s been whining all over Facebook and to anyone that will listen. Unfortunately for her, I guess most people are all under some grand delusions about me. Was calling someone a bitch that serious? Does she even have a clue what happened to me to cause me to say such a thing? Well, no, of course not. However, I cleaned my side of the street and apologized to both the person I called the name and the upset little birdy for having to hear it and THAT was months ago. I’m big enough to admit my mistakes. I’m not perfect. Lord, someone smack me down right now, if I ever said I was…nope, more often than not I hate myself more than this silly little birdy ever could. Kinda sad she’s given me so much power over her life, I never asked for all that space in her empty little head. I mean, I’m guessing its pretty empty if she got all that room in there for me. Oh well, I suppose she can attend meetings with all my other haters, maybe she’ll meet some new friends that will take her mind off me. I think they’d get along quite nicely.
Well, what are you waiting for? Clearly I’m a bad girl, who is going to give me my spanking?

babygirl

wearing:
hair: #10 – Sintiklia – Baby girl – Hair Elin colors&pastels roots
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: [theSkinnery] Kailee (*new* @ C88)

=Zenith=Vintage Tighten Gloves
_CandyDoll_ Doll Outfit (*new* @ Kinky)
_CandyDoll_ Candy Heels (*new* @ Kinky)

pose by Del May

#selfie_RAMA – Faux Fur Bed ‘Pink’ (*new* @ equal10)

Posted in Catwa, Collabor88, Events, FaMESHed, Fashion, Gingerfish Poses, Kaithleen's, Maitreya, Pale Girl Productions, RAMA, Second Life, shopping

Yes to Heaven

I don’t have the words, but Lana Del Rey does, so here you go….

Lana Del Rey ~ Yes to Heaven

If you dance I’ll dance
And if you don’t I’ll dance anyway
Give peace a chance
Let the fear you have fall away
I’ve got my eye on you
I’ve got my eye on you
Say yes to heaven
Say yes to me
Say yes to heaven
Say yes to me
If you go I’ll stay
You come back I’ll be right here
Like a barge at sea
In the storm I stay clear
‘Cause I’ve got my mind on you
I’ve got my mind on you
Say yes to heaven
Say yes to me
Say yes to heaven
Say yes to me
If you dance I’ll dance
I’ll put my red dress on again
And if you fight I’ll fight
It doesn’t matter, now it’s all gone
I’ve got my mind on you
I’ve got my mind on you
Say yes to heaven
Say yes to me
Say yes to heaven
Say yes to me
I’ve got my eye on you
I’ve got my eye on you
I’ve got my eye on you
I’ve got my eye on you

yes to heaven

wearing:
hair: RAMA.SALON  – Caroline (*new* @ equal10)
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: Glam Affair –  Rayna (*new* @ C88)
*AvaWay* CARRIE Necklaces
(Yummy) Sea Treasures Ring Set (*new* @ C88)
Kaithleen’s Ellie Boho Maxi Skirt (*new* @ FaMESHed)

pose: GingerFish Poses – Moonlight and Martinis set (*new* @ Vintage Fair)

location: {mystical fae}

Posted in Avenge, Bueno, Catwa, Events, Fashion, Maitreya, RAMA, Second Life, Sexy Princess, shopping

Because I Can

I love dressing super sexy/slutty in SL, because I can. I’ve been known to dress up like an elf, a cat, a murderer, a skater, a devil, and a variety of other things. My avatar is also much thinner than me in RL and she is forever young. She is anything I want her to be, all based on how I’m feeling at the moment. That’s the beauty of Second Life, right? We can be just about anything we want? Now, I understand that if you dress as an elf and go to an RP sim where there are other elves, people will assume you are there to RP. The same can be said about any of the characters. I mean, there seems to be a sim for everything these days, whether RP or not. So, naturally if I’m dressed overtly sexy or slutty and I hang out at a popular adult club, its going to happen that someone is going to say something or do something that would not be okay in the real world. I’m not easily offended in either world.
However, as an adult woman in her 40s, I find the age difference disconcerting at times. I hear people say all the time that age is just a number, but I disagree. Age is much more than a number. Age is a reflection of time spent alive, it suggests decades of changes that were either witnessed first hand or merely learned by historians. If I’m closer to your mom’s age than I am to yours, things are going to be weird at times. I know, I’ve been there more than once. Yes, it took more than one for me to learn my lesson. The lesson I learned is that it matters to ME. I always find it ironic when a guy is hitting on me and I ask his age. The minute he tells me he’s under a certain age, I wince and shake my head. I won’t deny that its somewhat flattering when they say, “I like older women” or “age doesn’t bother me.” But c’mon, let’s be real, we all know they are most likely just trying to get laid and that’s fine. Again, adult club…its to be expected. What I find amusing is that they assume that their opinion on the age difference is the only one that matters. Uhm, hello? I asked the question for a reason. I’m not going to relate romantically to a 20yr old guy. Sure, they can lie and say they are older, but the truth will come out eventually. There are certain things that people in their 20s simply could not have experienced and certainly wouldn’t remember, because it happened before their time.
This is not to say that I’m not capable of being friends with people of all ages. We can certainly learn a lot from one another, but knowing that you weren’t even born when I graduated high school? Meh, sorry boys, it just turns me off. So, even if you’re just wanting to get laid, try paying attention to what the woman is saying. The questions she asks means those topics are important to her. This goes both ways, all ways, regardless of gender and/or sexual preference, obviously.

dirty dancing

wearing:
hair: RAMA.SALON – Cherry Hair (*new* @ Blush)
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: Glam Affair – Viktoria Applier

[Sexy Princess] Blossom Top & Skirt (*new* @ DAZZLE)
[Avenge] Sparkling thong (*new* @ Kinky)

pose by Del May
BUENO-Hallway-Miami (*new* @ Arcade)

Posted in Catwa, Events, FaMESHed, Maitreya, RAMA, Scandalize, Second Life, shoes, shopping

I’m Hooked

Have you ever met someone that lures you in…as if they cast a spell on you? One taste of their lips makes you weak in the knees. That first time you make love is like a first hit of heroin. You would do just about anything to feel them inside you one more time….to hear those delicious words in your ear…to feel their hands roaming over you body. If you close your eyes, you can picture it like it was just last night. I have and I’m hooked.

when I think about you
Hurts me the most when I wake
I fumble and twist, ’til the truth starts to click
There’s so much space in this bed
These sheets go for miles: dreams of your smile

wearing:
hair: RAMA.SALON – Hayley Hair  (May FaMESHed Go)
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
ears: ^^Swallow^^ Shiny Ears
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: [theSkinnery] Katy (Catwa Applier) toffee
brows: –SU!- Blair Eyebrows +CATWA APPLIER

(Yummy) Free Spirit Rings
Violetility – Ruffle Collar

Scandalize.Jennifer-TOP. (May Pocket Gacha)
Scandalize.Jennifer-SKIRT (May Pocket Gacha)
Scandalize.Jennifer-HEELS (May Pocket Gacha)

pose created using AnyPose
Stockholm&Lima:Better With You Platform Bed (*new* @ ROMP)

Posted in Catwa, Collabor88, Events, Fashion, Home Decor, Maitreya, RAMA, Red Fish, Scandalize, Second Life, shoes, shopping, ULTRA

Sad Girl

Once upon a time, I lived a different kind of life…music takes me on the most delicious journey through my mine field of memories….
Being a mistress on the side
It might not appeal to fools like you
We’ve been around on the side
Wanna be something you would do
But you haven’t seen my man
You haven’t seen my man
You haven’t seen my man
You haven’t seen him
He’s got the fire and he walks with fame
He’s got the fire and he talks with fame
His Bonnie on the side, Bonnie on the side
Makes me so sad, girl
His money on the side, money on the side
Makes me so sad, girl
I’m a sad girl, I’m a sad girl, I’m a sad girl
I’m a sad girl, I’m a bad girl, I’m a bad girl
Being a bad bitch on the side
It might not appeal to fools like you
We’ve been around when he gets high
It might not be something you would do
But you haven’t seen my man
You haven’t seen my man
You haven’t seen my man
You haven’t seen him
He’s got the fire and he walks with fame
He’s got the fire and he talks with fame
His Bonnie on the side, Bonnie on the side
Makes me so sad, girl
His money on the side, money on the side
Makes me so sad, girl
I’m a sad girl, I’m a sad girl, I’m a sad girl
I’m a sad girl, I’m a bad girl, I’m a bad girl
Watch what you say to me
Careful who you’re talking to
Watch what you say to me
Careful who you’re talking to
I’m on fire, baby
I’m on fire
He’s got the fire and he walks with fame
He’s got the fire and he talks with fame
His Bonnie on the side, Bonnie on the side
Makes me so sad, girl
His money on the side, money on the side
Makes me so sad, girl
I’m a sad girl, I’m a sad girl, I’m a sad girl
I’m a sad girl, I’m a bad girl, I’m a bad girl
I’m a sad girl, I’m a sad girl, I’m a sad girl
I’m a sad girl, I’m a bad girl, I’m a bad girl

enough is enough

wearing:
hair: RAMA.SALON – Chiara Hair
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: [theSkinnery] Katy (Catwa Applier) toffee (*new* @ C88)
brows: –SU!- Blair Eyebrows +CATWA APPLIER
RedFish – Chronic tattoo (*new* @ ULTRA)

-SU!- Piercing Set 05 Bridge
CODE-5 [ Pamerale ] (*new* @ ROMP)
. a i s l i n g . NoseChains
Cae :: Farfalla :: Necklace (*new* @ ULTRA)
[CX] Shredder Claws – Silver

Scandalize.Mulbery-top & pants. (*new* @ equal10)
Scandalize. MulberyHeels. (*new* @ equal10)

pose: –IC poses- Single Pack 13

scene:
[ keke ] huge cozy up pillow – chevron
220ML – Alabama Style [Closed Bottle]
220ML – Alabama Style [Cup w/ Liquid]
Peaches ‘N Cream – ‘Emotional Baggage’ Handbag Clutter
Peaches ‘N Cream – ‘Kiss & Makeup’ Makeup Clutter
Peaches ‘N Cream – ‘Planet Of the Vapes’ Electric Vape
[Black Bantam] Busy Westie On Fours Rez

Posted in Catwa, Collabor88, Events, FaMESHed, Fashion, Maitreya, Narcisse, pr!tty, Second Life, shopping

Let There Be An End

“I give the fight up: let there be an end, a privacy, an obscure nook for me. I want to be forgotten even by God.” ~ Paracelsus  Robert Browning

Granted I discovered this quote as I watched Anon on Netflix, but the quote struck a nerve on so many levels that I immediately had to find its origin. Upon finding the origin and reading around the quote, I discovered an entirely new meaning to it. I admit that my first thought was about celebrities and how they’ve no privacy whatsoever. Upon watching the film, it developed an entirely new meaning and I do recommend the film. Obviously, I’m no movie critic, but it is a psychological thriller set in the future. A future I hope never comes to be, for I found it to be absolutely dreadful. As if our privacy has not been invaded enough, the premise of this movie suggests that even our mere thoughts are opened to others. Not to mention our memories. You could have no more secrets…ever. Your eyes recording everything you see and do, only for that information to fall into the wrong hands. Trust me, I’ve given no spoilers about the movie. These are just things I thought about in conjunction with the film. About how life would be for the majority of us.
I think this quote relates to Second Life, as well. So many of us have made tragic mistakes or have been so hurt so brutally that we associate that pain with the avatar. How easily we can start anew. I’ve done that a few times in my earlier years in SL, but I’ve also grown from that and have become far too comfortable with my current avatar to ever consider starting again. I’ll own my mistakes and do my best to amend my behavior when I am wrong. I’ve grown to realize that some are too miserable within their own skin to forgive and forget. I let them go and forget them. They may hold onto their resentments and their toxicity for as long as they like, but they will have no hold over me. I cannot control what other do, feel, think, or believe, but for me, let there be an end to the controversy. I shall erase them from my lives and move forward, forgetting their very existence. If our paths shall pass in the future, they are no more than a stranger to me and will be treated as such.

Forgotten

wearing:
hair: RAMA.SALON – Julie Hair (*new* @ FaMESHed)
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: [theSkinnery] Katy (Catwa Applier) toffee (*new* @ C88)
brows: –SU!- Blair Eyebrows +CATWA APPLIER

pr!tty – Floral Choker
(Yummy) Free Spirit Rings (*new* @ C88)

.:villena:. – Rose Bud Fur Jacket – Blush
Narcisse– Julia Tshirt Corset Dress (*new* @ FaMESHed)

Posted in Bound Box, Catwa, Collabor88, Events, Fashion, Maitreya, Pale Girl Productions, RAMA, Second Life

Taste Like Candy

I struggled with what to write for this photo until I resorted to music, because I just can’t write erotica. Maybe I could, but I’m not comfortable doing that for my blog, sooo….yeah, here’s a song. *giggles & blushes* Oh, and a special thank you to my dear friend, Aaron, for letting me boss him around…erhm, I mean, for posing for me, yeah, that’s it. *grins* So, while I’m showing off the first of at least four post showcasing items in the Bound Box…enjoy the music.

Doja Cat – Candy

I can name a couple ways, baby, this shit might go
You just might forget that this was what you’re gettin’ high for
And it might do the things to him, I mean the guy who
He’s the one who’s sweet enough, who’ll shoot to make that high note

And it’s such a typical thing, runnin’ over a million, oh
Runnin’ through a difficult place, you don’t need no blood on your hands, no

She’s just like candy, she’s so sweet
But you know that it ain’t real cherry, know that it ain’t real cherry
She’s just like candy, she’s so sweet
But you know that it ain’t real, know that it ain’t real
She’s just like candy, she’s so sweet
But you know that it ain’t real cherry, know that it ain’t real cherry
She’s just like candy, she’s so sweet
But you know that it ain’t real, know that it ain’t real

I can be your sugar when you’re fiendin’ for that sweet spot
Put me in your mouth, baby, and eat it ’till your teeth rot
I can be your cherry, apple, pecan, or your key lime
Baby I got everything and so much more than she’s got

And it’s such a typical thing, runnin’ over a million, oh
Runnin’ through a difficult place, you don’t need no blood on your hands, no

She’s just like candy, she’s so sweet
But you know that it ain’t real cherry, know that it ain’t real cherry
She’s just like candy, she’s so sweet
But you know that it ain’t real, know that it ain’t real
She’s just like candy, she’s so sweet
But you know that it ain’t real cherry, know that it ain’t real cherry
She’s just like candy, she’s so sweet
But you know that it ain’t real, know that it ain’t real

Sugar coated, lies unfolded, you still lick the wrapper
It’s addictive, you know this, but you still lick the wrapper
Sugar coated, lies unfolded, you still lick the wrapper
It’s addictive, you know this, but you still lick the wrapper

She’s just like candy, she’s so sweet
But you know that it ain’t real cherry, know that it ain’t real cherry
She’s just like candy, she’s so sweet
But you know that it ain’t real, know that it ain’t real
She’s just like candy, she’s so sweet
But you know that it ain’t real cherry, know that it ain’t real cherry
She’s just like candy, she’s so sweet
But you know that it ain’t real, know that it ain’t real

take me

Aaron is wearing:
Hair: Stealthic – Haunting
Head: CATWA HEAD Daniel
Ears: Stretched ears-Omimi- [MANDALA]
Body: [Signature] Gianni Body – Body

Sady is wearing:
hair: RAMA.SALON – Maria Hair (*new* @ C88)
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: [theSkinnery] Katy (Catwa Applier) toffee (*new* @ C88)
brows: –SU!- Blair Eyebrows +CATWA APPLIER
Wicca’s Wardrobe – Joy (*new* Bound Box May)

pose: PURPLE POSES – Couple 778

Posted in Catwa, Collabor88, Cynful, Events, FaMESHed, Fashion, Maitreya, RAMA, Second Life, The Liaison Collaborative

I’ll Wait For You

Skylar Grey – Come Up For Air

I’m no good for you
I’m not what you need
You’ve made it very clear
Though I disagree
Enough to let you go
To let you drift away
‘Cause once you navigate these troubled waters
I believe that someday you’ll return
And I will still be here
When you come up for air
Do you what you gotta do
I’ll wait for you, to come for air
‘Cause this whole wide world
There’s no one else for me
So while you search the seas for answers
I will still be waiting here
Make sure you dive down deep
Because if you do
Even though it takes a thousand lifetimes
My love, I know you’re finally gonna see the truth, and you’ll return
And I will still be here
When you come up for air
Do you what you gotta do
I’ll wait for you, to come for air
And even if this really is the end
I’m sure I’ll be alone until I’m dead
‘Cause no one else will ever quite compare
To them, it wouldn’t be fair
To let you with somebody new
And all I did was think of you
If you’re my Jack then I’m your Rose
And I promise I’ll never ever let go
And I’ll still be here
When you come up for air
Do you what you gotta do
I’ll wait for you, to come for air
To come up for air
Come up for air
Come up for air
To come up for air
To come up for air
Come up for air
Come up for air
To come up for air
I'll Wait For You
wearing:
hair:  RAMA.SALON – Sylvia Hair (*new* @ C88)
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
ears: ^^Swallow^^ Shiny Ears
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: [theSkinnery] Katy (Catwa Applier) toffee (*new* @ C88)
SU!- Blair Eyebrows +CATWA APPLIER+-SU!- Piercing Set 06 Spiked Nose Studs
-SU!- Piercing Set 06 Snakebites
.::Nanika::. Leah Necklace (*new* @ The Liaison Collaborative)
[The Forge] Rosella Necklace, Normal, Black (*new* @ FaMESHed)
[Cynful] Elvi Top + High Waist Pants (*new* @ FaMESHed)pose: an lar [poses] The Caitlin Series (*new* @ The Liaison Collaborative)

anxiety %chicago build1 (*new* @ 6 Republic)
Posted in Death Row Designs, Events, Exploration, FaMESHed, Fashion, Maitreya, RAMA, Second Life, shoes, shopping, [BREATHE]

Options

One of the greatest gifts we have is the power of choice. If you ever saw the movie, Dangerous Minds, you probably remember the classroom scene where that topic was discussed. You may not have a choice about the gun pointed at your head, but you can choose how you react/respond. So, when adversity comes your way, you have a choice on how to proceed. There are always options. They might not be options we like. They might not be options you like, but there are always options.
The thing is, when you make you’re forced to make tough decisions where none of the choices are exactly ideal, particularly if you reach out to friends for advice on said options. I think in cases like that, its best to sort it out on your own. Not everything you do requires a second opinion, especially when your dilemma involves doing things that feel right to you, but most certainly will not be understood by others. Occasionally, you just have to do what’s right for you, despite what others may think. So, whatever your quandary may be, think carefully on the outcome of your options before seeking the opinions of others.

options

wearing:
hair: RAMA.SALON – Diana Hair (*new* @ Blush)
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: Glam Affair – Mindy

neve top – surge (*new* @ FaMESHed)
neve short – sass (*new* @ FaMESHed)
[BREATHE]-Setsu Heels (April PocketGacha)

pose in DRD – Boho Backyard – Athena Couch
location: Rustic Retreat

Posted in Bueno, Catwa, Events, Fashion, Foxcity, Gos, Jian, Maitreya, RAMA, Second Life, shoes, shopping, Uber SL

When It Rains

While I love anything and everything by the band, Garbage. This song has always meant something special to me. You see, I used to write a lot of poetry, almost daily. The problem was that I could never write about happy stuff. Poetry was my outlet for being sad and was there a more emo era than the 90s? I think not. All of my best poems have been based on sadness, pain, or anger. Very few of my poems are happy, loving, or about nature. When I first got married, I was at a loss. I couldn’t write anymore, but it seems that the past few years have been so rough and some of the options I’ve considered as of late…Well, let’s just say that when I confessed a few to friends they became quite worried. For now, I think I’ll throw myself back into writing in my journal, writing poetry, and short stories….and maybe I’ll even start back on a book I started years ago.

Rainy Day Tunes
You know I love it when the news is bad
Why it feels so good to feel so sad?
I’m only happy when it rains

wearing:
hair: RAMA.SALON – Emilia Hair (*new* @ Kinky)
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: Glam Affair – Mindy

Tukinowaguma Headphone
**RE** LUX Lolita Necklace
**RE** Motor Gloves (*new* @ Uber)

BUENO– Gemma Jackets (*new* @ Uber)
.::Dead Dollz::. Hell’s Doll Biker Pants (*new* @ Uber)
[Gos] Liz Ankle Booties (*new* @ Uber)

JIAN Beagle Pup

pose: FOXCITY. Soulfood Bento Pose Set (*new* @ Blush)
FOXCITY. Photo Booth – Escape (*new* @ Blush)