Posted in Cosmopolitan, DOUX, Events, Fashion, GenusProject, Glam Affair, Kustom9, Second Life, shoes, shopping, Tres Chic

Light of your soul

“Don’t ever let the light of your soul dim, even if the world seems black and white.”
― Tilicia Haridat

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hair:  DOUX – Cotton hairstyle @ TresChic
head: Genus Head – Baby Face
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) (1.1)
skin:  [Glam Affair] Amelie Applier [ Genus ] @ Kustom9

[ rD ] Nanaya Earrings
[ rD ] Nanaya Choker Necklace
[ rD ] – Nanaya Bracelets
B&S Canada. @ Cosmopolitan
Pure Poison – Lidia Boots

pose: Diversion – Goodbye Autumn
Serenity Style– Mystic Winter Forest Backdrop

Posted in Collabor88, Cynful, Events, FaMESHed, Fashion, GenusProject, GingerFish, Maitreya, Second Life, The Liaison Collaborative

Easier to let go

As far back as I can remember, I’ve heard the phrase, “Absence makes the heart grow fonder.” I’m just not sure that holds true with me. I’m not sure if its because I’m an Army brat or if there’s something intrinsically broken within me. If anything, the more fitting phrase for me would be, “Absence makes the heart grow stronger.” The longer someone ignores me or stays away…the harder someone pushes me away…the longer someone makes me wait…the stronger my heart gets and the less I feel the need or desire for that person in my life.
I’m pretty sure this is due to being an Army brat and constantly moving as a child. I mean, I was twelve before we moved into a home that would last us more than two years, and that home only lasted four. The next place lasted less than 3 years. I took moving around and constantly saying goodbye to people as part of life. Where I am now, I’ve lived since 2004 and I will most likely die here. It’s weird to think I won’t move again. It’s weird seeing what happens to my life when I am not constantly filtering through my belongings to reduce the amount of boxes I’ll have to move.
I haven’t been much different with the people in my life. I suppose that aside from my mother, my (ex) husband is the longest relationship I maintained and that was only because we shared a living space. Since he has moved out, we’ve barely texted. We haven’t spoken once. The longer he’s gone, the less I miss him, and the less it hurts. I suppose I trained myself to strengthen the walls around my heart as a child. I knew better than to get attached. Except now I fear its easier to let go, than it is for me to hold on.

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hair:  tram I1009 hair @ Collabor88
head: Genus Head – Baby Face
skin: L’Etre – Lana Skin
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara V4.1

Ascendant – Lust Chain Nails @ Kinky
(Yummy) Heirloom Ring Set @ Collabor88
Pewpew! Warmed Hot Chocolate – White
Cynful Plush Turtleneck Dress @ Collabor88
Pure Poison – Scarlett Boots @ Collabor88

[Rezz Room] Bengal Cat Sleep

GingerFish – Cold Little Heart @ The Liaison Collaborative

Posted in Catwa, Events, Fashion, Glam Affair, Second Life, shopping, Uber SL

Saving Ourselves

“Heroes are made by the paths they choose, not the powers they are graced with.”
― Brodi Ashton, Everneath

When I was growing up I was told the same fairy tales that  most of us heard. You knw the ones where some princess or beautiful maiden needed to be rescued? Then magically some handsome prince would come along, save the girl, and they would live happily ever after. I don’t remember any of the fairy tales being about a woman saving a man or saving another woman, much less saving herself. I grew up waiting for some man to come along and save me from the one man I should have been able to trust the most. It never happened. Looking back now, I wish I had been taught that women are amazingly strong creatures and fully capable of rescuing themselves, as well as helping each other. Instead, I was taught that women were out to get each other and that only a man…a handsome prince, usually, could come save the day.
One thing is for sure, it has been women that rescued me far more often than any man. I’m not hating on men, mind you. I’m simply trying to say that women don’t need to depend on any man to fix things. I’d rather see women supporting and encouraging one another, lifting each other up, to show the world that we are not just capable of greatness, but we are made for it! Let’s work on saving ourselves!

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[monso] My Hair – Zero @ Neo-Japan
CATWA HEAD Catya
[Glam Affair] Maria Applier
[LEGACY] Meshbody
Pure Poison  – Pandora Outfit @ Uber
[Rezz Room] Box CYBER GREYHOUNDS @ Neo-Japan

pose: Amitie  Fetish set @ Kinky
Drink It – Holy Bandits Backdrops – The Bearded Guy

Posted in Catwa, Fashion, Foxcity, Kustom9, Lybra, Maitreya, Second Life, shopping, Uber SL

Fickle Game

“Because I’m fast enough to get in trouble and not fast enough to get away
And I’m old enough to know I’ll end up dying and not young enough to forget again
It’s all a fickle game
Life’s a fickle game we play”

lybra uber

wearing:
hair:  Tableau Vivant // MinaPina hair @ Kustom9
head: CATWA HEAD Denice
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
skin: #PUMEC – Sophia

LYBRA . COURTNEY @ Uber
Pure Poison – Nova Socks & Sandals @ Kustom9

pose: FOXCITY. Curves Bento Pose Set

ninety– Shops [ backdrop ] @ Access

Posted in Catwa, Events, FaMESHed, Fashion, GingerFish, Gingerfish Poses, Maitreya, Pose Fair, RAMA, Second Life

Actions

Actions will always speak louder than words, you just have to know how to listen by watching. I’ve talked about friendship dozens of times. Obviously, I’m no expert. I don’t even like people that much. That’s why I spend so much time alone. The older I get, the more people I get to know, the more true it becomes that I’m happier alone more often than not. However, if there’s one thing I do know, it’s this: A real and valued friendship can conquer adversity with truth.
Disposing of a friendship without any explanation speaks volumes about the type of person you are and what value you placed on that friendship. It doesn’t say shit about why you walked away. I’m not saying that everyone is due an explanation. Sometimes, its so obvious to us that we can’t imagine the other person would question why. The thing is, if they come to you confused and you refuse an explanation, not only have you just expressed how unimportant that person is to you, but you come off  a bit cowardly in my opinion. Your reason is yours, but if you’re not ready to explain or defend that reason…well, that really says more about you than them, don’t you think?
If your attitude and demeanor changes towards a friend, trust that they will notice. Furthermore, if they approach you about that change and you deny it? Well, you might as well unfriend them with no explanation. You’ve essentially just lied to their face and said in no uncertain terms that they are not worth the truth. Authentic friendships will not unravel over a little disagreement or even a big one, if both parties are mature and care enough to work through it.
Just food for thought, because I’ve dealt with all of these situations recently. I know I’m not perfect, but I do think I’m a decent friend more often than not. I own my mistakes and I own my pain. I will tell you that it hurts to be blatantly deceived and betrayed by someone you believed in. If you ever valued your friend, why not grab some ice cream, take a little walk, and talk it out. Maybe you can’t resolve it, but you damn sure won’t if you don’t try.

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Not everyone agrees with secondary photos in blogs and I’m not one to do them all the time, but on occasion I will be adding a second photo that zooms in on a few things to give a better look at the details our amazing creators put into their designs.

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wearing:
hair:  RAMA.SALON – Abbie Hair @ FaMESHed
head: CATWA HEAD Denice
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
skin: #PUMEC – Sophia

{Momoko}Flower Crown @ Belle
Ascendant – Dracarys Nails
ChicModa // Brooklyn Top @ FaMESHed
ChicModa // Zoe Skirt @ FaMESHed
Pure Poison – Luna Platforms @ Belle
[Rezz Room] English Bulldog Adult Animesh (Companion) @ 6 Republic

pose: GingerFish Poses – I Scream for Ice Cream @ Pose Fair
location: Copper River

Posted in Catwa, Chic Moda, Events, FaMESHed, Fashion, Home Decor, pr!tty, Second Life, shoes, shopping, The Liaison Collaborative, unKindness

Clear The Haze

I don’t even remember taking this picture or editing it. I know I took it last week…day one of being sick, I believe. As, today is Day 7 of the flu, I have to say this is the best I’ve felt in a week. I’m still not back to myself yet, I’m certainly glad to be on the mend.  What I can tell you about the last seven days is that they’ve been a complete blur. I remember talking on skype to a friend of mine and trying to explain that each day had many days inside it. That made complete sense to me at the time and sadly, I am still sick enough to get exactly what I was trying to say. Well, yes, I have been heavily medicated and you’d think that would have made it a bit more enjoyable, but no. The best part was being asleep. I got lots of sleep and the waking moments were often surreal. This morning has been a complete whirlwind already…wish this lil kitten luck as I clear the haze of this past week and get caught up.♥

smoke & magic

wearing:
hair:  pr!tty – Demy – :rigged: (*new* @ Coven)
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: Glam Affair –- MaryJane – Catwa Mesh Head Applier – Jamaica

[ kunst ] – Cigarette & holder #1 (mouth)
=Zenith=Cosy long Gloves – Maitreya

ChicModa // Ara Dress // Lara
Pure Poison – Love Pumps(*new* @ FaMESHed)

pose:  Bauhaus Movement – Hearts Burst Into Fire Poses (*new* @ TLC)
uK – Kitten- Black Bed (*new* @ Kinky)

Posted in Events, Fashion, Second Life, shoes, shopping, The Annex

Clementine

The name of this adorable jumper from The Annex, “Clementine” had me thinking of a song that I love by Sarah Jaffe of the same name. I’ll give you the link to listen to, but I’m not going to fill this page with lyrics this time. So, before I continue, here’s the song link: Sarah Jaffe-Clementine

It sorta fits the feel of the photo for me, too. Looking back at moments in my life that seemed so tragic once upon a time…I remember believing beyond any doubts that I was madly in love with…oh what was his name? *chuckles* Yeah, as I get older my youth really makes me laugh sometimes. Other times I just shake my head and wonder how I’m still alive. I was so careless and reckless in my 20s. In some ways I miss those days, the freedom I felt. Then again, if I knew then what I know now, I’m not sure I would have lived quite so carefree. I probably would have done a lot more to prepare for my future…my now. Alas, hindsight truly is 20/20, isn’t it?

Well, it is what is now and there’s no changing the past. I can only address my present day and so I shall. I hope that whatever path you take is filled with love and laughter. I hope wherever it leads is a place of peace and harmony, also filled with more love and more laughter. As those two things have literally been lifesavers for me over the years. ♥

clementine

wearing:
hair: {Single} Lyssa Hair
head: CATWA HEAD Tala
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara

The Annex – Clementine (*new* @ Flawless Cart Sale)
Pure Poison – Ava Platforms

pose by LePoppycock
MINIMAL – Retro Backdrops *5* (*new* @ REWIND)

 

Posted in Fashion, Second Life, Self Reflection, shopping

Shadows

“Memories of shadow’s haunt me,
From the years when I was young,
Things that used to terrify me,
Are the things, That I’ve become”
~Yelawolf’s Shadows ft Joshua Hedley

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This song was released in perfect time for the Halloween holiday and as haunting as the music is, the lyrics are equally haunting. They inspired me to stop and just think about how many things I said I’d never be, yet here I am those very things. Kinda makes me wonder if the reason things that used to terrify me where sort of an intuitive look at my future and my mortality. Although, I cannot remember a time that I was afraid to die. I’m not a thrill seeker, mind you. I’ve just simply never been afraid to die, which to some seems particularly strange because I am not the least bit religious.
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Anyway, its a great song and I hope you’ll give it a listen. Perhaps you can listen as you wander about the Bloody Horror Fair, because if there’s any event out there to get you in the mood for Halloween and all things deliciously dark…this is the one! I found myself wandering about there late last night. I stumbled across this super comfy hoodie from Annex that is very similar to one I had in RL years ago.
As always there are multiple events going on across the grid and this shopping junkie tries her best to find her way through them all!

wearing:
/Wasabi Pills/ Dakota Mesh Hair
CATWA HEAD Gwen
CATWA Mesh Eyes
Glam Affair – Pia Applier ( Catwa / Tumble ) America 02
Izzie’s – Catwa Dark Metallic Eyeshadows Appliers
.:E.A.Studio:. Piercing Bare Code Silver
[BODY FACTORY] LX Necklace (Black)
The Annex – Raven Hoodie – Skeleton (*new* @ Bloody Horror Fair)
**RE** Bad-Kitty Gloves Pack 2 – RARE
:::insanya::: Ripped Leggings HC
Pure Poison – Raysa Boots   (*new* @ Uber)

poses by Bauhaus Movement
location: Whole Wheat