Posted in DOUX, Events, FaMESHed, GenusProject, Kustom9, Maitreya, Second Life, shoes, shopping, vinyl

It’s time.

Welp. Everyone around me seems to be changing. Some for the better, some for worse. As we wrap up another year, I’ve decided that in order to obtain the things I do want in my life (what’s left of it) that I need to make room, but letting go of the things that are not working out. I’m good at letting things go…including people. I was an Army brat and we moved constantly when I was a kid. So, walking away and not looking back for anything more than a reminiscent glance is simple enough. I’ll admit that the longer something or someone has been a part of my life, the harder it is to let go, but in time…I’ll be fine…no matter who, what, where, or why. I’ve survived way too much crap in this life to be held back by people that aren’t worth my time. And things? Well, they are just things, aren’t they?
As the end of this year inches closer and closer, I’m taking a good hard look at what I’ve been doing with my life as of late. It’s time to clean house…both worlds. I’m making changes and these changes are for ME…no one else. I’ve spent the last few years bending over backwards and tip toeing around broken glass to avoid hurting people I love, but have they done the same in return? In most cases, I’m afraid not. Don’t worry about Sady, she’ll be fine. Yes, I will be fine, but I won’t be around as a doormat, punching bag, fall back plan, dirty secret, or second choice anymore.
It took me way too long to get here and I’m not turning back now. I appreciate the roles everyone have played in my life over time and I am so grateful for the lessons, but I’m done. I’m putting my proverbial foot down. I’m establishing boundaries and for those that can’t respect them…welp. RIP. Its time for me to filter out some of the toxic people,  behaviors, habits, excuses, etc. So, here’s looking at you 2019, cuz 2020 will be better or I will die trying. It is just that simple.

doux ison vinyl equal semotion

hair:  #1 DOUX – Beanie Babe hairstyle [M] RARE @ Arcade
head: Genus Head – Baby Face
body: Maitreya
skin:  — PUMEC #RARE 2 – KATE – MAY   @ Kustom9

ISON – cropped turtleneck sweater
VINYL – Genetics Tartan Skirt @ FaMESHed
EQUAL – Elettra Boots @ FaMESHed

SEmotion Libellune Winter Deer Animesh #2 RARE @ Arcade

pose: T E M P L A R #5 @ SOS

location: Snow falls

Posted in DOUX, Eudora3D, Events, FaMESHed, Fashion, GenusProject, Kustom9, Maitreya, Second Life, shoes, shopping, Uber SL

It isn’t a crime

I finally faced the fact that it isn’t a crime not having friends. Being alone means you have fewer problems.

Whitney Houston

dead dollz eurdora galland diversion

hair:  #1 DOUX – Snowflake Queen hairstyle @ Arcade
head: Genus Head – Baby Face
.random.Matter. – Miroh Elfie Ears @ Kustom9
body: Maitreya
skin:  — PUMEC #RARE 2 – KATE – MAY   @ Kustom9

**CC** – Glamour Glitter
**CC** – Glitterati
KUNGLERS – Inga necklace
Dead Dollz – Mila Outfit @ Uber
Eudora3D Harper Boots @ FaMESHed

pose: Diversion – Cold Days – Bench @ Belle

Reindeer by Galland Homes  @ Tannenbaum

hive // fir tree

LB_Conifer.v2{Seasons}

 

Posted in Animals, Blueberry, Collabor88, Events, GenusProject, Kustom9, Prism Events, Second Life, Tannenbaum

Cherish one another, please.

I’ve spent the majority of my adult Christmases alone. This year won’t be very different. It’s not a great feeling and its one I wish no one ever had to feel. It can be absolute hell for some and the darkest of hours for others. I’m not suggesting that anyone hover over their friends, but please…if each of us take a moment to reach out and wish each other a good day…offer a shoulder if needed or able…a silly little joke…something personal. Not just a generic, “hey, how are you?” Ask something that requires them to think of an answer, not give you that auto pilot reply, “I’m fine.” If we all do this for one another, we will remind one another that we matter….all of us matter. Be kind and grateful to one another and for one another. There are no guarantees that they will still be part of our lives next year. Cherish one another, please.

prism barley blueberr tableau

hair:  Tableau Vivant // Avril hair  @ Collabor88  (Nov)
head: Genus Head – Baby Face
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) (1.1)
skin:  — PUMEC #RARE 2 – KATE – MAY   @ Kustom9

Astralia Clothing – Xmas Flamingo Sweater FLF Nov 29, 2019
Blueberry – Power Play – Jeans
Blueberry – Power Play – Boots

pose in:
Xmas Ladder Tree (Adult) CHEZ MOI LI: 12 @ Tannenbaum
w/Xmas Gifts CHEZ MOI LI: 1

22769 – Dear Santa LI: 1

Ariskea[December] Star Wreath LI: 3

hive // fir tree . a LI: 3
hive // fir tree . b LI: 4
hive // fir tree A . snowy LI: 4

[Merak] – Christel’s Daybed PG LI: 15 @ Tannenbaum

PLAAKA SquirrelNutCracker

[Rezz Room] Pomeranian Snowman Animesh @ Tannenbaum

Barley – Raleigh Complete Set @ Belle
Barley – Raleigh Candle Holder – Black
Barley – Raleigh Accents
Barley – Raleigh Wall Centerpiece – Black
Barley – Raleigh Cannister
Barley – Raleigh Side Table 1
Barley – Raleigh Presents
Barley – Raleigh Candlesticks
Barley – Raleigh Home Sweet Home Pillow

Junk Food – I Believe Snowglobe @ Tannenbaum

Yokai – Plush Christmas @ Tannenbaum
2.Yokai – Plush Christmas – Santa Teddy Bear (red)
1.Yokai – Plush Christmas – Plush Christmas Gift RARE
13.Yokai – Plush Christmas – Candy Teddy Bear (green)

Yokai – Glowing Teddy Deer (Frost) @ Collabor88  (Nov)

*HEXtraordinary* Sitting Krampus Plushie- Chocolate @ Tannenbaum

 

 

Posted in Eudora3D, Events, Exploration, Fashion, GenusProject, Kustom9, Second Life, shoes, shopping, The Liaison Collaborative, Uber SL

Fire Away

You’re a real tough cookie
With a long history
Of breaking little hearts like the one in me
That’s okay, lets see how you do it
Put up your dukes, let’s get down to it

Hit me with your best shot
Why don’t you hit me with your best shot
Hit me with your best shot
Fire away
~ Pat Benatar – Hit Me With Your Best Shot

belle beusy osmia eudora gingerfish

hair: Beusy: Diabla Style @ Kustom9
head: Genus Head – Baby Face
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) (1.1)
skin:  — PUMEC #RARE 2 – KATE – MAY   @ Kustom9
lipstick: alaskametro<3 “Holly” lipstick @ Uber

LUXE. Bailey Choker Onyx
KUNGLERS – Halime necklace @ Belle
VOBE– Buddha Rings Silver @ Belle
OSMIA – Bianca.Leather Jumpsuit @ Kustom9
[Glitzz] Ballerina Stocking @ Belle
Eudora3D Adele Boots @ Belle
^^^^these are maitreya only, but I used Loose fit with the Legacy body & it was fine^^^^

pose:  GingerFish – Cold Little Heart @ The Liaison Collaborative
location: Somewhere else BKLYN

Posted in Events, Fashion, GenusProject, Kustom9, Second Life, shoes, shopping, Uber SL, vinyl

Krampus Krewe

So, on my recent rez day, a small group of friends gathered to run wild across the grid. We went to an art gallery where I clearly lost my mind, but we will not be discussing that. *laughs* We went a few places to dance. We went a few places to explore. And we went a few places to laugh. I had a great night and we ended it all sitting on top of a Motel sign (scroll all the way down to see a picture of that). While we were wilding out…we came up with a name for ourselves. The Krampus Krewe….okay, my silly ass came up with the name, but its kute, right? See what I did there? *grins* Yes, I’m feeling mischievous and I’ve got the perfect sidekick to help me out. I just love this little guy!

tram vinyl eudora

hair: tram I1110 hair @ Uber
head: Genus Head – Baby Face
.random.Matter. – Miroh Ears @ Kustom9
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) (1.1)
skin:  — PUMEC #RARE 2 – KATE – MAY   @ Kustom9
lipstick: alaskametro<3 “Holly” lipstick @ Uber

:::ChicChica::: Headband Snowflake Silver
VINYL – Chocolate Coat – Legacy
[Glitzz] Ballerina Stocking @ Belle
Eudora3D Adele Boots @ Belle

DaD “Vintage Sled” @ Uber

*HEXtraordinary* Baby Krampus (not new) @ Tannenbaum

Krampus Krewe

All of the laides are wearing the Vinyl chocolate coat ☺

Posted in Bondi, Cynful, Events, Fashion, GenusProject, Kustom9, Prism Events, Second Life, shopping, Tannenbaum, Uber SL

To love

You promised the world and I fell for it
I put you first and you adored it
Set fires to my forest
And you let it burn…..

…..And now the chapter is closed and done
To love, love, yeah
To love, love, yeah
To love, yeah
And now it’s goodbye, it’s goodbye for us
~ Selena Gomez – Lose You to Love Me

Normally, I don’t write anything in addition to song lyrics, but occasionally a song comes along that hits you so hard in the feels. I didn’t copy the full lyrics, because this is one of those songs that you can clearly understand every word when listening to it.  Most of my friends know how much I adore Selena Gomez, but I’ve never had any special connection to her music. But this song…wow. It just shows how we so often lose ourselves in a relationship…without even realizing it.
With every word, I feel like she crawled into my head…my heart…my soul and captured the very spirit of what I’ve been feeling these last few months regarding the end of my marriage in real life. I can honestly say that I’ve never grieved a relationship the way I’ve grieved this one and I hope I never do again. This is the hardest thing I’ve ever dealt with and if you know me, or read my blog regularly…well, you know it just doesn’t seem like the type of thing that would destroy me. I didn’t think so either.
I’m coming out of the other side now…and I am finally finding myself again…after all these years. I’m not playing victim or pointing fingers. I’m dealing with my life the best way I can right now. That’s more than I can say I was doing a year ago. I am finally able to love me again.

Goodbye, Paul.

bondi cynful GoK

 

hair: Tableau vivant // Holly hair @ Tannenbaum
head: Genus Head – Baby Face
SU!– Face Piercing Set 01
skin:  — PUMEC KATE – #10   @ Kustom9
lipstick: alaskametro<3 “Holly” lipstick @ Uber
Tattoo “Kali Durga”_by GoK

BONDI . Toy Soldier Cap @ Tannenbaum
[CX] Painful Silence
Cynful Fuzzy Cardigan (recently updated to fit Legacy)
[Cynful] Stripper Body Dust
Cynful Pixie Dust
NANIKA – Claudia Garter Black Maitreya

Exposeur – Padded Room (Clean)
***includes poses***

Posted in Animals, Events, Fashion, GingerFish, Gingerfish Poses, Kustom9, N21, Prism Events, Second Life, shoes, shopping, Tannenbaum, vinyl

Feeling Festive…for Now

It is happening! I’ve already changed my display name to Sαdy M’ғɴ Clαwѕ. Now I’m posing with reindeer and dogs dressed up like elves. Don’t look now, but it seems I’ve caught the Christmas spirit!! (This would be a good time to gasp and run for cover.) I’m so excited to dress up and decorate…everything Christmas. I wonder how long this will last? I know I won’t make it until Christmas. No idea how long it will be before I’m complaining about the commercialism of the holiday and if I have to look at one more “this” or “that.” Based on experience, I have quickly tired of it in the past. I hope this year will be different, as its the first time in years that I’m feeling even remotely festive.

stealthic addams vinyl rr gf

hair:  Stealthic – Plush
head: Genus Head – Baby Face
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) (1.1)
skin:  — PUMEC #RARE 2 – KATE – MAY   @ Kustom9
lipstick: HIATUS – Glamourish #2 HD Lipstick [genus] @ Belle

.TeaBunny. Celestial Specs @ N21
Addams // Hillay Cropped Wool Sweater
VINYL – Coffee First Leggings @ N21
[Enchante’] – Kelsey Sneakers @ Tannenbaum

[Rezz Room] Box Pomeranian Elf Animesh @ Tannenbaum

GingerFish – Love is the Warmest Color @ Flourish

location is private property of a deer friend (see what I did there?)

Posted in Blueberry, Catwa, Cynful, Fashion, Foxcity, Jian, Maitreya, Second Life

Wolfpack

“I got a question for you
Expect me to behave
And then you try to art of war me with your mind games
Got your fake invitation into Pandora’s box
You’re mean because you’re scared
That there ain’t room for both of us
I got a message for you
I came with honesty
Next time you’re whispering my name
Like you don’t see me
Keep acting like you made it
Too scared I’ll come and take it
You feed your enemies and still you don’t, you don’t succeed

Girl, I know this game it can be a bit drained
But we still got each other (and I got your back)
All I’m saying it’s nice to have you in my corner
You’re my tribe, that’s why girl
You are my wolfpack”
~ Tala & Banks – Wolfpack

blue angel

basics:
head: CATWA HEAD Denice
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
skin: #PUMEC – Sophia

hair: Tableau Vivant // Vento hair
*LODE* Head Accessory – Fuchsia [white]
[Cynful] Stripper Body Dust

#6 Blueberry – Lillith – Wings – RARE – White
Blueberry – Cori – Lace Dress
Blueberry – Cori – Thigh High Shoes

pose: FOXCITY. Late Night Bento Pose Set

JIAN :: Wolf

{anc} NO LIMITS // flock of flying doves. [soda-blue]

Persefona Floating Feathers Classic (white)

Posted in Catwa, Events, Fashion, Maitreya, Second Life, shopping, The Liaison Collaborative

You Don’t Know

“I’m the girl you’ve been thinking about
The one thing you can’t live without
I’m the girl you’ve been waiting for
I’ll have you down on your knees
I’ll have you begging for more
You probably thought I wouldn’t get this far
You thought I’d end up in the back of a car
You probably thought that I’d never escape
I’d be a rat in a cage, I’d be a slave to this place
You don’t know how hard I fought to survive
Waking up alone when I was left to die
You don’t know about this life I’ve led
All these roads I’ve walked
All these tears I’ve bled”
~ In This Moment – Whore

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wearing:
hair:  DOUX – Brandie hairstyle @ equal10
head: CATWA HEAD Denice
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
skin: #PUMEC – Sophia
[The Forge] Victoria @ Belle

pose: BellePoses – Alena @ TLC

Posted in Blueberry, Catwa, Collabor88, Events, Fashion, Foxcity, Jian, Maitreya, Second Life, shopping, {le fil casse}

Would you…

“Would you lie for me?
Cross your sorry heart and hope to die for me?
Would you pin me to a wall?
Would you beg or would you crawl?
Stick a needle in your hungry eyes for me?”
~ Halsey – Trouble 

lfc angel

basics:
head: CATWA HEAD Denice
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
skin: #PUMEC – Sophia

JIAN Raven Collection :: Companion
Blueberry – Oakley Wings – Black
*PH* Disordered Hair // #3 – monochrome @ equal10
{le fil casse} Tessa Dress @ C88

pose: FOXCITY. Bebe Bento Pose Set

Persefona Floating Petals