Posted in Bloom, Catwa, Events, Fashion, Kustom9, Maitreya, Phedora, Prism Events, Second Life, shoes, shopping

Earth, teach me…

Earth teach me to forget myself as melted snow forgets its life. Earth teach me resignation as the leaves which die in the fall. Earth teach me courage as the tree which stands all alone. Earth teach me regeneration as the seed which rises in the spring. ~William Alexander

hair: {Limerence} Rosaly hair (*new* @ Bloom)
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: Glam Affair – Mindy
.Swan. Blooming Loving Birds Necklace (*new* @ Bloom)
e.marie // Spring Mandala Set (*new* @ Kustom9)
.gypsy heart. Hanna Dress – Heat Pack – Berry (*new* @ Bloom)
Phedora ~ edith v2 platforms (*new* @ EQUAL10)

pose: Fashiowl Poses – Bloom set (*new* @ Bloom)
Serenity Style– Julia Spring Backdrop – The world is mine RARE  (*new* @ Bloom)

Posted in Animals, Death Row Designs, Fashion, Home Decor, Narcisse, Prism Events, Second Life, shopping, Tannenbaum, The Liaison Collaborative

Rx (Medicate)

Theory of a Deadman – Rx (Medicate)

Wake up to a cloudy day
Dark rolls in and it starts to rain
Staring out to the cage-like walls
Time goes by and the shadows crawl
Crushin’ candy crushin’ pills
Got no job, mom pays my bills
Textin’ ex’s get my fill
Sweatin’ bullets, Netflix-chills
World’s out there singin’ the blues
Twenty more dead on the evening news
Think to myself “really, what’s the use?”
I’m just like you, I was born to lose

Why oh why can’t you just fix me?
When all I want’s to feel numb
But the medication’s all gone
Why oh why does God hate me?
When all I want’s to get high
And forget this so-called life

I am so frickin’ bored
Nothin’ to do today
I guess I’ll sit around and medicate (medicate)
I am so frickin’ bored
Nothing to do today
I guess I’ll sit around and medicate (medicate)

Can’t wait to feel better than I ever will
Attack that shit like a kid on Benadryl
Chase it down with a hopeful smile
Hate myself, if I can go for miles
They say family’s all you need
Someone to trust can help you breathe
Inhale that drug, but you start to choke
You follow the outs of an inside joke

Why oh why can’t you just fix me?
When all I want’s to feel numb
But the medication’s all gone
Why oh why does God hate me?
Cause I’ve seen enough of it, heard enough of it, felt enough of it
Had enough of it!

I am so frickin’ bored
Nothing to do today
I guess I’ll sit around and medicate (medicate)
I am so frickin’ bored
Nothing to do today
I guess I’ll sit around and medicate


Superman is a hero
But only when his mind is clear though
He needs that fix like the rest of us
So he’s got no fear when he saves that bus
All the stars in the Hollywood Hills
Snapchat live while they pop them pills
All those flavors of the rainbow
Too bad that shit don’t work though

Your friends are high right now
Your parents are high right now
That hot chick’s high right now
That cop is high right now
The president’s high right now
Your priest is high right now
Everyone’s high as fuck right now
And no one’s ever coming down

I am so frickin’ bored
Nothing to do today
I guess I’ll sit around and medicate (medicate)
I am so frickin’ bored
Nothing to do today
I guess I’ll sit around and medicate


I medicate


hair: =DeLa*= Mesh Hair “Khatia”
head: CATWA HEAD Lilly
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
NARCISSE– Noelle Romper (*new* @ TLC)
erratic / eva – knee socks plain

pose: Foxcity Cute But Psycho set

DRD– My Miserable Holiday Set (*new* @ Tannenbaum)
–DRD – My Miserable Holiday – Carpet
–DRD – My Miserable Holiday – Chair
–DRD – My Miserable Holiday – Table
–DRD – My Miserable Holiday – Tree
–DRD – My Miserable Holiday – Wood Basket
–DRD – My Miserable Holiday – Wood Stove

DRD – AE – Post Apocalyptic Holiday – Tree
DRD – Forgotten Attic – Chair – Stripe

dust bunny & O.M.E.N . Puppy Basket Bed

[Commoner] Break-Up Survival Kit / Zanax RARE

[NikotiN] Dealer Kitchen – Tray Metal
[NikotiN] Dealer Kitchen – Consumer Kit
[NikotiN] Grinder

Kalopsia – Lace Curtains

Posted in Events, Exploration, FaMESHed, Fashion, Jian, Prism Events, Second Life, shopping, Tannenbaum, The Annex, Uber SL, We <3 Role-Play


I was expecting some silly questions when I did the post, “Dangerous Proposition.” I figured a few of my close friends would ask me something insane. I did not expect Josh to ask, “The squirrels that distract you – are they red or grey – or even both?” *laughs*
Well, the squirrels actually represent my trains of thought. They run in all directions, then freeze for no reason. Just imagine a park full of squirrels running in every direction. That’s kinda how my mind works. So, Josh, the answer is…they’re invisible.

Tequila Pt 2

hair:  Wasabi // Foxy Mesh Hair (*new* @ FaMESHed)
antlers: [NANI] Lovely.Forest ~ Deer.Antlers_(unrig) RARE
head: CATWA HEAD Lilly
eyes: –SU!– Ekrabetha Eyes Fatpack
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: DeeTaleZ *Appliers* CATWA Head “Merrylu” Nordic (*new* @ Uber)
tattoo: [White~Widow] Charade – Henna – RARE
The Annex – Aria Dress (*new* @ We ❤ Role-Play)

JIAN Fallow Deer Fawn (*new* @ Tannenbaum)

pose: Foxcity Sweet Tooth set (edited with AnyPose)
location: Hazardous

Posted in Death Row Designs, Events, Fancy Decor, Jian, Prism Events, Second Life, shopping, Tannenbaum

Just a Quote

“And when at last you find someone to whom you feel you can pour out your soul, you stop in shock at the words you utter— they are so rusty, so ugly, so meaningless and feeble from being kept in the small cramped dark inside you so long.”
― Sylvia PlathThe Unabridged Journals of Sylvia Plath

shadow box dec

DRD Shadow Box Dec
DRD – Shadow Box – Series 01 – DEC 2017 – LIGHT
DRD – Series 01 – Canopy Bed – Light
DRD – Series 01 – Chandelier – Light
DRD – Series 01 – Chest – Light
DRD – Series 01 – Drapes – Light
DRD – Series 01 – Side Table A – Light
DRD – Series 01 – Side Table B – Light
DRD – Series 01 – Wing Chair Amber – Light
DRD – Series 01 – Wing Chair Ecru – Light

MudHoney Larson Fireplace Set (*new* @ Tannenbaum)
MudHoney Larson Fireplace – White
MudHoney Larson Paper Stars – long
MudHoney Larson Wreath

Winter Dreams Globe – Happy Holidays – From O.M.E.N (Tannenbaum)
O.M.E.N – Christmas Morning – Reindeer Plushie – Plain (*new* @ Tannenbaum)

SAYO – Glitz Collection (*new* @ Tannenbaum)
SAYO – Glitz Collection – Leaf Candle
SAYO – Glitz Collection – Garden Roses
SAYO – Glitz Collection – Sparkling Star – Rose Gold

dust bunny . pilea peper plant
dust bunny . areca palm plant
dust bunny . pink medinilla plant
dust bunny . potted palm

Cant’ Even – Winterscape (Gold) (*new* @ Tannenbaum)
Can’t Even – Jolly AF (*new* @ Tannenbaum)

Dahlia – Seasonal Candy Set- Round Gumball Jar (*new* @ Tannenbaum)

PILOT – Hanging Planter [White]
PILOT – Book and Tablet Stack
PILOT – Package Wrap

JIAN Santa’s Samoyeds True Spirit of Christmas Tree **25PR** (Arcade)

10 Fancy Decor: Miles Rug (*new* @ Arcade)
Fancy Decor: Twig Tree (gold) (Tannenbaum)

R(S)W Fruit Bowl – Christmas Tree (Tannenbaum)

Culprit Mousie Balloon Music Box (*new* @ Tannenbaum)

floorplan. i love you canvas
floorplan. notebook clutter
floorplan. pile of books

scene created in Trompe Loeil – Dorina Cottage Blush

Posted in CandyDoll, Cynful, Events, Fashion, Phedora, Phoenix, Prism Events, Second Life, shoes, shopping, Tannenbaum, Uber SL

Artistic Influences

Today’s post is the answer to another question posed by Troy Nelson in response to my blog, “Dangerous Propositon.” He asked, “Who are your artistic influences?” Well, this question has me stumped, because I can’t cite any really. I just do my own thing. Sometimes I’m inspired by a song. Sometimes and outfit or accessory or even an item of decor just sparks my imagination and I’m off. Actually, there are a few SL photographers that inspire me to try something different. I doubt seriously if you’ll recognize most of their influence in my work, but a few will be pretty apparent. So, in saying that, I’m going to list a few names and each name with provide you with a direct link to their flickr account. Sabbian Paine, Ados Oldrich, Wendz Tempest, Rina Edenflower, Grace Sixpence, Kess Crystal, Brandon TaselianLoverdag, and so many others that I could fill a page listing them all. These are artists that I not only admire, but that inspire me to try new techniques. So, I guess I stand corrected, I can cite a few…*laughs* I just needed to really think about it for a minute.
I’m still open to topics and questions, so by all means feel free to leave comments. I promise that I do read them all. ♥

its cool

hair:  :::Phoenix::: Charlotte Hair  (*new* @ Tannenbaum)
head: CATWA HEAD Tala
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
eyeshadow: Izzie‘s – Festive Shimmer Eye Make-Up (*new* @ Tannenbaum)
nail polish: alme. Snowy Winter (*new* @ Tannenbaum)
[Cynful] Candela’s Fur Vest  (*new* @ Tannenbaum)
_CandyDoll_ Anya Top (*new* @ Uber)
_CandyDoll_ Anya Pants (*new* @ Uber)
Phedora / Darcy Boots V2 (*new* @ Tannenbaum)

pose: –CHKI0 Poses–listen to that melody Pack
———comes with phone & headphones

.gypsy heart. Festive Backdrops – The Cabin (*new* @ Tannenbaum)
Ariskea[Neige] Nord Pole Post Red (*new* @ Tannenbaum)
O.M.E.N – Christmas Morning – Sleds – Wood (*new* @ Tannenbaum)

Posted in Cynful, Drunk Panda, Events, FaMESHed, Prism Events, RunAway Hair, Second Life, Shiny Shabby, shopping, Tannenbaum


Today is Thanksgiving Day in the U.S. and while I know it has all this historical importance, I really don’t like to think of the first Thanksgiving, because what was to come afterwards was wretched and seemed to pretty much set the standard for our country is some of the worst ways. However, as many years have passed, Thanksgiving has developed a better meaning for most of us. At least, I’d like to think so. We are a gluttonous people and Thanksgiving is not only a day that we stuff ourselves with our favorite delicious  and traditional meals, but it is also a day that we take pause. We look around at our lives and count our blessings. That is my favorite part, because everyone that’s alive has something to be grateful for today. Not everyone will have countless blessings, but even the darkest days provide something for which we can be grateful.

One of my many blessings are the amazing friendships that I’ve developed with people all around the world in Second Life. I can’t even begin to list you all, but each of you plays such an essential part of my daily life. I love you. I adore you. Most of all, I thank you for all that you do. So, whether you celebrate this U.S. holiday or not, while I wait for the food, I want to raise my mimosa glass to you all, “CHEERS!”


hair:  [RA] Stella Hair (*new* @ Shiny Shabby)
head: CATWA HEAD Tala
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
[Cynful] Candela’s Necklace (*new* @ Tannenbaum)
[Cynful] Candela’s Fur Vest (*new* @ Tannenbaum)
[Cynful] Candela’s Dress (*new* @ Tannenbaum)

pose: Drunk Panda – BrokenDreams set
SAYO – Brixton Bar Set (*new* @ FaMESHed)


Posted in Events, Fashion, Lybra, Prism Events, Salem, Second Life, shopping

My Zodiac Sign- #SecondLifeChallenge

I had so much fun doing Strawberry Singh’s challenge last week, that I decided to do it again this week. Today we’re doing the Zodiac challenge. In her blog, she states:
“Here are the instructions for the #SecondLifeChallenge this Monday: Copy and paste the following questions and answers into your post; then delete my answers and input your own. Don’t forget to leave a comment below with a link to your post so we can all come by and check it out!”

  1. What is your Zodiac sign?: (You don’t need to share your birth date if you don’t want to and if you want to do this using your Second Life avatar, you can use the rez date of your avatar.) My birthday is October 6 and I’ve always agreed that I’m very much a Libra.
  2. Do you believe in Astrology and read your horoscope often?: I do think there’s something to Astrology. However, generic horoscopes based on signs alone are bogus. There’s actually some science behind Astrology that can be really crazy accurate, but for that you’d need an accurate chart done. For that, the person creating the chart will need to know not just your birth-date, but the time, and location. All of that plays into a true astrological reading.
  3. What are some of the traits of your zodiac sign and do you feel they reflect who you are?: I am going to copy and paste the traits from the site that Strawberry shared, except for Libra and like her, I’m going to compare:
    1. Strengths: Cooperative, diplomatic, gracious, fair-minded, social – I’d like to believe these are true. Though I wish I were MORE diplomatic, for sure.
    2. Weaknesses: Indecisive, avoids confrontations, will carry a grudge, self-pity-I guess most of this is true. Although, some would say I do carry a grudge, I really don’t. Its just that once I’m done with someone, I’m done. I don’t walk around hating them or even thinking much about them at all. If they cross my path or someone brings them up, I might say something negative, but grudge? Hmmm, I’m not big on carrying resentments around me with. I just let go.
    3. Libra likes: Harmony, gentleness, sharing with others, the outdoors-This is very true, especially in the fall. I absolutely adore being outside in the cool autumn air…the leaves rustling in the wind. Yes, I’d say all of this is true.
    4. Libra dislikes: Violence, injustice, loudmouths, conformity-Absolute truth here. Ok, there are some exceptions to the violence. I don’t like real violence, but I do enjoy violent films and I quite often have violent fantasies about stabbing bitches in the face or punching men in their throats. *grins*

I’m curious if my friends would agree with the traits listed. They know me pretty well and could definitely tell you if these are true about me or not. And to continue following Berry’s lead….I’m going to try my hand at the Buzzfeed quiz as well. Here’s the link:
Can We Accurately Guess Your Zodiac Sign Based On How You Describe Yourself?
And it ended up being right:


last dance

hair: Moon. // Babeh (October  Luxe Box)
head: CATWA HEAD Tala
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
^^Swallow^^ Darkness Ears (*new* @ Black Fair)
LYBRA . Sorcery (*new* @ Salem)

pose & backgroun w/ribbons: Sari-Sari – Puppet Skybox

Posted in Bound Box, Events, FaMESHed, Fashion, ON9, Pale Girl Productions, pr!tty, Second Life, shoes, shopping, {le fil casse}


It’s a song day, because I’m not up to the task about writing how I feel or what I’m going through at the moment. Nor am I feeling some saucy little short story. I want to show you some gorgeous goodies from amazing Second Life creators. I do tend to wear my heart on my sleeve, so I give you a peek into how I’m feeling with a song by one of my all time favorite bands.

Linkin Park – Crawling

Crawling in my skin
These wounds, they will not heal
Fear is how I fall
Confusing what is real

There’s something inside me that pulls beneath the surface
Consuming, confusing
This lack of self control I fear is never ending
I can’t seem
To find myself again
My walls are closing in
(Without a sense of confidence I’m convinced
That there’s just too much pressure to take)
I’ve felt this way before
So insecure

Crawling in my skin
These wounds, they will not heal
Fear is how I fall
Confusing what is real

Discomfort, endlessly has pulled itself upon me
Distracting, reacting
Against my will I stand beside my own reflection
It’s haunting how I can’t seem

To find myself again
My walls are closing in
(Without a sense of confidence I’m convinced
That there’s just too much pressure to take)
I’ve felt this way before
So insecure

Crawling in my skin
These wounds, they will not heal
Fear is how I fall
Confusing what is real

Crawling in my skin
These wounds, they will not heal
Fear is how I fall
Confusing, confusing what is real

There’s something inside me that pulls beneath the surface
Consuming (confusing what is real)
This lack of self control I fear is never ending
Controlling (confusing what is real)


hair: pr!tty – Pixie{GOTG}(*new* @ Gacha Guardians)
head: CATWA HEAD Tala
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
::Axix:: Beloved Nocturnia Gag (October Bound Box)
.::Supernatural::. Kate Choker Silver (*new* @ Season’s Story)
Astralia – Eternal Rings set (*new* @ Salem)
{le fil casse} Chriselle Top
{le fil casse} Jenna Skirt (*new* @ FaMESHed)
[The Forge] Livia Gladiator Boots

FOXCITY. Prop – Silk Stool (Bad Kitty VOL1) (*new* @ ON9)
MINIMAL – Retro Backdrops *2*

Posted in Cynful, Events, FaMESHed, Fashion, Prism Events, Salem, Second Life, shopping

My 7 Life Facts #SecondLifeChallenge

My bestie, Kess Crystal, used to tell me about the Strawberry Singh challenges all the time and how much she loved them. I’m not sure why, but I never did them and never even looked into them. However, this morning, I came across this one and thought, “Ya know, I’ve never done it. I should give it a go.” So, here we go…here’s the link to Berry’s blog if you want to read all about it and you should, because this isn’t just for bloggers anymore: #SecondLifeChallenge – My Seven Second Life Facts

“Here are the instructions for the #SecondLifeChallenge this Monday: Share seven facts about your Second Life avatar or your SLife that may or may not be obvious to your readers/everyone.” -Strawberry Singh

So…here we go..
1. My Second Life Fact #1: Sadystika is not my first avatar, but she’s the only one I use. I have several retired/dead avatars which I will not list for personal reasons.
2. My Second Life Fact #2:
I absolutely love to landscape, but only my own land/homes. I tried doing it for money and made quite a bit doing so, but I did not enjoy doing it for other people. I only do it for myself now. I will help my friends from time to time, but I refuse to take on big landscaping projects or jobs anymore.
3. My Second Life Fact #3:
Until VERY recently, I never used photoshop to edit my photos and even now, most of my photos are edited in picmonkey.
4. My Second Life Fact #4:
One of my biggest pet peeves in SL is for someone to IM me with “I’m bored.” Like Berry, I have never been bored in SL and I’ve been on the grid since November 17, 2006. If you’re bored in SL, log out ffs.
5. My Second Life Fact #5:
In the almost 11 yrs, I’ve been in SL, I’ve only been partnered to 8 people and two of them were Tracy & Kess’ alt as jokes. 
6. My Second Life Fact #6:
I have played a child avatar several times over the years and at one point many years ago, Sady was a child avatar.
7: My Second Life Fact #7:
I have never received a random dick pic from a stranger in SL. That is not a challenge, if anyone sends me one, I will share it and your name with my friends as we laugh and critique your not so private member.

Alright, so there you have it….I hope you’re not judging me or thinking less of me, but if you do, I can’t help that. I suppose that’s your problem more than mine. I’d love to see what other people do with this challenge, so if you do it, make sure you share the link on Berry’s blog as I intend to do with mine. A special thanks to Strawberry Singh, because I had absolutely no idea what I was going to write about with this photo and she solved that problem for me. ♥

salem 2
I accept your challenge!

hair: TRUTH Ophelia (*new* @ Salem)
head: CATWA HEAD Tala
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
SU!– Bento Piercing Set 03
SU!– Bento Piercing Set 03 Labret
SU!– Bento Piercing Set 03 Nose Rings
SU!– Bento Piercing Set 03 Snake Bites
SU!– Piercing Set 05 (*new* @ Industrie)
SU!– Piercing Set 05 Bridge
SU!– Piercing Set 05 Snakebites
[Cynful] The Hunt (*new* @ Salem)

pose: FOXCITY. Insomnia Bento Pose Set (*new* @ Project Se7en)

Posted in Animals, Chic Moda, Events, Fashion, Jian, Phoenix, Prism Events, Salem, Second Life, shopping

Sadystika, Mother of Ravens

Okay, so if you don’t watch Game of Thrones this won’t make any sense and it might even be somewhat of a spoiler. So, stop reading, grab the credits and get to shopping. Otherwise, I have amused myself and perhaps some of my GOT fan readers.

So, Daenerys on Game of Thrones has this big long fancy title, right? Daenerys of the House Targaryen, the First of Her Name, The Unburnt, Queen of the Andals, the Rhoynar and the First Men, Queen of Meereen, Khaleesi of the Great Grass Sea, Protector of the Realm, Lady Regnant of the Seven Kingdoms, Breaker of Chains and Mother of Dragons. 

When I was taking this picture I thought, “Ohhh, Sadystika Sabretooth, Mother of Ravens, Flirting Failure, Bratty Kitten of Josh, Manager of Blogs, Cunt of Cunts, Sady the Psycho, and Addict of Blogging. This got me to thinking about what some other people’s titles might be….*grins* I decided to go after Sassy, since I’m blogging her outfit. Here we go: Sassy Nitely, Creator of ChicModa, Singer of Songs, Master of Twerking, Tallest of Midgets, Mother of Magnificence and Caller of Bullshit! I think it fits. *giggles* What would yours be?


hair:  :::Phoenix::: Cassandra Hair (*new* @ Salem)
head: CATWA HEAD Tala
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
eyes: :Conviction: Viscous Eyes
ChicModa // Raven (*new* @ Black Fair)

Pose by Del May
JIAN Raven Collection :: Spooky Tree (*new* @ Salem)
JIAN Raven Collection :: Orbiters (*new* @ Salem)