Posted in Collabor88, DOUX, Events, Fashion, Glam Affair, Kustom9, Legacy, Lelutka, poses, Reign, Second Life, shoes, shopping, skin

Bringing Ideas to Fruition

I think the vibe I was going for in this picture will be fairly obvious to Supernatural fans. At least, I hope so. I’m so far behind in that series. I’m still stuck somewhere in Season 9. I can’t believe that show has lasted so long. I’m glad for everyone involved and for the fans, but damn. That’s a long running series for some demon hunters. It’s a pretty cool show and I recommend it to anyone stuck in quarantine. I kinda doubt you’ll manage to binge all the episodes in one sitting. LOL
I’m partial to Dean, his taste in music, and definitely his car. Most people I know prefer Sam, which I just do not understand, but that’s cool. Less people between Dean and me. *grins*
Once again, this is one of the many things I adore about photography in Second Life. You can create your own personal scenes to somewhat place yourself in the story line of your favorite shows and/or movies….or even bring a scene to life from a book. Wherever you draw your inspiration from, this is the perfect outlet for bringing these ideas to fruition.

Bringing Ideas to Fruition

hair: DOUX – Ryancita hairstyle @ Kustom9
head: LeLUTKA Avalon Head 3.0
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) Perky Edition (1.4)
skin: [Glam Affair] Mia Skin [Lelutka EvoX] @ C88

(Yummy) Layered Rose Necklace @ Kustom9
(Yummy) Plumage Ring Set @ C88
EQUAL – Rose Nails French @ Access
:::ChicChica::: Bubble Tea
Seniha. Rianna Set @ Access
(top, thong, shorts)
REIGNxFLITE.- GEMINI REMIX SNEAKERS

pose: Le Poppycock-Never look back

Paparazzi – BACKDROP – Dead End Garage – jade

[777] Impalz-67 [Devil Hunters’]

dust bunny . storybook living . researcher’s journal

*02 [VOZ] Graffiti Vending Machine (A) – UNCOMMON

7 – Fresh Donuts
7 – Ice Machine

Posted in Animals, Bueno, Collabor88, Fashion, Kustom9, Legacy, Lelutka, Second Life, shopping, Uber SL

Cruel Summer

Well, its almost summer and many areas the temps are quite convincing that summer has arrived early. Now, with all the social distancing  rules and hopefully common sense in place, I wonder how this is going to affect summer activities. I’ve seen plenty of shots on the news that showcase plenty of activity at the beaches. I really hope that people will stop listening to politicians about this virus, do a little bit of research for themselves, and protect each other. I know people are worried about the economy, but if this virus keeps wiping people out at the rate it’s been going…well, let’s just say, dead people don’t spend money either. No matter what you believe, please stay safe…the virus is real and before its over, we will all have lost someone to this horrific pandemic. Its better to endure ONE cruel summer than lose them all.

bueno swimsuit

hair: –FABIA– Mesh Hair < Elona> @ Access
head: LeLUTKA Lake Head 1.1
ears: ^^Swallow^^ Charm Ears
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) Perky Edition (1.2.1)
skin: [theSkinnery] Shara (LeLutkaEVO) @ Uber

[theSkinnery] Lora Lash Collection (LeLutkaEVOLUTION) @ Access
eyeshadow: IDTTY FACES – – SWEET BABE LELUTKA #4
lipstick: IDTTY FACES – – SWEET BABE LELUTKA #9

Vibing — Vanessa Earrings @ Access
(Yummy) Adel Ring Set @ C88
Ascendant – Silvia Nails @ Access

BUENO-Sari Swimsuit @ Kustom9

pose: Lyrium. Luna Series Group Gift

Paparazzi – BACKDROP – Vapor Heights @ Equal10

KAZZA – CostalPatioSet

Junk Food – Ice Cream Cart (Pink) @ Equal10

O.M.E.N – French Bulldog Life Guard

Posted in Events, Fashion, Maitreya, Second Life, shopping, Uber SL

How did we get here?

I absolutely love how people say they’re tired of all the bullshit on the grid and how they want people to be more honest, but at the end of the day they only really want the truth they want to hear. They don’t want the whole truth. I have apologized for hurting people’s feelings with the truth, but I will never apologize for being honest. I am trying to just keep my mouth shut and let people ramble senselessly about their issues for which they clearly want not resolution, but its hard to listen to someone talk about such toxic behaviors as if its a sporting event. I wonder if they know how they sound or that people are literally rolling their eyes the minute they begin to speak about certain subjects? Are they so self absorbed they don’t really care, because they’re more interested in having an audience?
These are the questions that occur to me as I listen to the broken records and instructions for self-destruction from some of the people in my life. I can only imagine the sorts of thoughts they all have about me. I’m pretty sure I’ve become the person that is such a downer most of my friends have quit reaching out for a damn good reason. I can’t say I blame them. Dare I say it? I’ve become….*cringes*…emo. Ugh. Easy for me to sit in my pool of self loathing and point the fingers at those around me. Damn…we need to pull it together. How did we let ourselves get here?

vinyl tableau uber

head: GENUS Project – Baby Face
SU!– Piercing Set 01
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
skin: ItGirls – Luccia @ Uber

Tableau Vivant // U-bob @ Uber
Ascendant – Seductress Nails and Dermal Gems @ Kinky
VINYL – August Necklace Gift Pak @ Uber
VINYL – Madison Blazer & Shirtdress @ Uber

pose: {NR} paining ❤
Paparazzi – BACKDROP – The Brownstone Hotel Stoop

Posted in Catwa, Events, FaMESHed, Fashion, Maitreya, Phoenix, Second Life, shopping, Uber SL

Big Bad Wolf

“You see I am the wolf,
And this dirty, little piggy lives inside of me.
You see every now and then,
I forget which one that I want and which one that I need.
I have come to realize
That both of them have become a necessity
I now have come to realize
That I become which animal I choose to feed”
~ In This Moment – Big Bad Wolf

big bad wolf

Basics:
head: CATWA HEAD Catya
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
skin: [Glam Affair] Dee Applier

:::Phoenix::: Sandy Hair @ FaMESHed
(Yummy) Grace Ring Set @ Uber
Ascendant – Savage Nails @ LeVeL
adorsy – Tatjana Set @ FaMESHed

pose: [..::CuCa Designs::..] Thrills 04

Paparazzi – Bleak Street BACKDROP

Posted in Bueno, CandyDoll, Catwa, Collabor88, Events, FaMESHed, Fashion, Foxcity, Lamb, Legal Insanity, Maitreya, Second Life, shoes, shopping, Uber SL

Skyscraper

“You can take everything I have
You can break everything I am
Like I’m made of glass
Like I’m made of paper
Go on and try to tear me down
I will be rising from the ground
Like a skyscraper, like a skyscraper”
~Kerli – Skyscraper

As humans, we take a lot of punches throughout our lives. Yet, with each passing day, we either grow stronger or weaker. Ultimately, the choice is ours. Mentally and emotionally, I’ve definitely grown stronger. My body? Eh, not so much. I should have taken better care of it when I was younger, but I was invincible and never imagined I’d live past 30. Here I am dealing with level 8 pain daily as the weather changes. Yet, the emotional and mental tolls have been far more difficult to face.
There have been times that I’ve felt as fragile as glass, as delicate as tissue paper, and I’ve been beaten down both literally and figuratively. But each and every time, so far, I’ve gotten up. I’ve gained strength from the pain. In fact, there are times that by keeping my pain to myself and not complaining about it, by not showing it to the world, that I can borrow from it….channel it into strength. I’ve siphoned power from the pain to keep going. Perhaps I’m a bit stubborn, too. I feel like if anyone is going to genuinely take credit for me falling apart, its going to be me. So, until I’m ready to curl up with the worms for eternity, I will continue to rise like a skyscraper.

***If you are reading this on any site that suggests this post was originally published anywhere but SadyStyle by anyone other than Sadystika Sabretooth, you are reading a stolen post.

Skyscraper

wearing:
hair:  Lamb. Dove (*new* @ Uber)
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
skin: [theSkinnery] Amber (*new* @ C88)

EF: Acanthus Headpiece (*new* @ X by FaMESHed)
EF: Acanthus Mask (*new* @ X by FaMESHed)
[The Forge] Xane Collar, Black (*new* @ X by FaMESHed)
Legal Insanity – Mistress dress (*new* @ X by FaMESHed)
_CandyDoll_ Claudia Boots (*new* @ C88)

pose: FOXCITY. Sass Bento Pose Set

Paparazzi – BACKDROP – Grime Block Balcony
BUENO-NightSpot Loft Building-Regular

Posted in Catwa, Events, Fashion, Foxcity, Maitreya, Second Life

…just some words i wrote

He called in sick, when I needed him most
He only saw a piece of the aftermath
And he called in sick
What could I do?
He wasn’t to mine to be true.
Be mad? Nah.
Why?
Is that what you would do?

zk &amp; noir kinky event

wearing:
hair:  Sintiklia – Hair Xia
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
skin: [Glam Affair] Dee

:::NOIR::: Marie Bracelets (*new* @ Kinky)
Ascendant – Nude Bento Nails (*new* @ Kinky)
-:zk:- Tania Top (*new* @ Kinky)
-:zk:- Tania Shorts (*new* @ Kinky)

pose: FOXCITY. What Gives Bento Pose Set
Paparazzi – Pose Hallway – AMBER

Posted in Second Life

Topless Tuesdays & Vanilla Bae

So, a lot of clubs in SL, especially adult ones, have Topless Tuesdays, but I’ve found no other club that makes it as fun as FMD. Naturally, you all know I hang out there quite a bit and that I’m a kinky bitch. Thus, it cannot surprise you that I look forward to Tuesdays. However, as I do have other responsibilities, it is sometimes difficult or just a pain in the arse to change tops every time I need to run elsewhere on a Tuesday. Lo and behold, I have found the most delicious solution. Thanks to Vanilla Bae, we now have a selection of interactive clothing that allows us to go from topless, back to modest with the click of a button. To make it even better, you can set it to private or public, or even assign users. How freaking cool is that? Its not just for tops either, this outfit I’m wearing will slide the panties over, too. Talk about convenience!!
So, if you’re a member at FMD, grab you some Vanilla Bae and c’mon over! If you’re not, I really think you should be. It’s an awesome club, plus I hang out there….duh, so you know its gotta be awesome! Oh and did I mention that Vanilla Bae is one of the sponsors at FMD? So, come to one of our parties on a Saturday night, make sure you dress in theme, you might just win!

topless tuesdays

wearing:
hair:  #Foxy – Sugar Hair
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
ears: ^^Swallow^^ Ears Silence BLACK
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: [theSkinnery] Katy
brows: –SU!- Blair Eyebrows +CATWA APPLIER

SU!– Piercing Set 05 Bridge
SU!– Bento Piercing Set 03 Nose Rings
CODE-5 Pamerale
(Yummy) Free Spirit Rings
SECRETS– Danita Nipple Chain
e.marie // Flask – Vodka

Tee*fy Eden Shrug – Black
* Vanilla Bae * Lauren Top & Panty (*new* @ equal10)

pose by Del May

Paparazzi – Slum Riverside – BACKDROP – green (*new* @ Limit8)

Posted in Avenge, Catwa, Chic Moda, Collabor88, Events, Fashion, Second Life, Tres Chic

I Tried

When I tell someone that I don’t believe I have a true love or that you no longer have a heart to give, they immediately feel sorry for me. They want to save me and convince m that there is a true love out there for me somewhere.  Meanwhile, I have a man telling me that anyone would be a fool not to love me, but does he? How could he when he is with another? I have tried to believe that there is something special out there for me, but I’ve surrendered to my fate. I know now that my place is in the shadows. I know that my place is a secret hideaway, for it in the dark that the truth hides. Whatever there is about me that people find so lovable, there must be something equally wretched that sends them away. And that’s ok. I know now that I tried. That is not my life. Love has eluded me repeatedly and now? I’m done. I tried.

I tried
Sometimes I feel that I am what I deserve
A hundred crimes, no way to pay them off
So when quiet fills the night and you hurt
Know I am sorry for all that you lost

wearing:
hair: no.match_ ~ NO_WONDERLAND (*new* @ Enchantment)
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
ears: ^^Swallow^^ Shiny Ears
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: [theSkinnery] Katy (Catwa Applier) toffee (*new* @ C88)
brows: –SU!- Blair Eyebrows +CATWA APPLIER

[Avenge] Universe necklace (long) (*new* @ TresChic)
[Avenge] Universe earring (*new @ TresChic)
ChicModa&e.marie // Knot Dress (*new* @ Whimsical)

pose by Del May
Paparazzi – Slum Riverside – BACKDROP – green (*new* @ Limit8)

Posted in Catwa, Essenz, Events, FaMESHed, Fashion, Gingerfish Poses, Lamb, Maitreya, Second Life, shoes, shopping, Uber SL

Baggage

We all have some sort of emotional baggage. Some are lucky enough to travel light. Some of us have to rent out a storage room to keep up with everything that happens to us. The thing is we definitely need to put it somewhere, otherwise we’re dragging it all around with us all the time and it just weighs us down. We don’t need to carry it around displaying it with pride like, “Oh look at me, I was abused as a kid!” We must learn how to deal with it and once we do, we need to pack it neatly away so that when we revisit it, or these metaphorical boxes in our imaginary closets/storage rooms come crashing down, we can deal with it accordingly. Yes, occasionally it will happen that one or more of those boxes might fall open, but just like photographs in a shoe-box, we need to learn to sift through those memories and realize how far we’ve come. Then shove that crap right back in the box and possibly find a more secure place for it. Then lock it up and guard the key, only offering to open it up and share with people we’ve learned to trust. People we know won’t turn around and use the things they discover like weapons against us down the line.
Maybe I’m waxing too philosophical this morning. Maybe none of that made sense to anyone, but me. Then I again, my blog is my therapy…so what do you expect? *chuckles*

storage

wearing:
hair: Lamb. Luna (*new* @ FaMESHed)
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: Glam Affair – Mindy

.::Dead Dollz::. Margot Romper (*new* @ FaMESHed)
Essenz – Detroit (*new* @ Uber)

pose: GingerFish Poses – Euphoria Set
Paparazzi – BACKDROP – Dead End Garage – jade

Posted in Events, Fashion, Mina Hair, Second Life, shoes, shopping, Uber SL, United Colors, What if...

Santa’s Helper

What if with women’s rights, we fought for our right to be Santa, too? Naturally, we’d do it much sexier than an old fat man in a beard, but would we stumble along the streets on Christmas eve drunk and pissing in corners, because this is the end of the gig until next year? Nah, we’d make much more money as Santa hookers or strippers…helpers, if you will. *grins*
Regardless of who Santa may or may not be, sober or not, I know my ass will be eating well and sauced up right. Hope your holiday weekend is a happy one♥

drunk santa

wearing:
hair: MINA – Carmen (*new* @ Uber)
head: CATWA HEAD Lilly
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: DeeTaleZ  “Merrylu” Mixedtype
^^Swallow^^ Shiny Ears
**RE** Juliett Pasties Maitreya Red Common
::GB::Mini down jacket (Maitreya) Santa (*new* @ District20)
UC_Mimi_panties
UC_Mimi_boots

pose: Imitation. – Kendra v1 Set
Paparazzi – BACKDROP – Dead End Garage – jade (*new* @ Limit8)