Posted in Catwa, Cynful, Death Row Designs, DOUX, Events, Fashion, Gingerfish Poses, Glam Affair, Maitreya, Second Life, Self Reflection, shopping

The Devil and Me

When I was a little girl, I used to ask my mom questions about the devil all the time. A bit of foreshadowing in real life, perhaps? To be fair, I think my curiosity was stirred up by foods. My parents had a fondness for deviled ham and it came in this little can that was wrapped in paper. On that paper was the iconic symbol of a devil. Red, pointy tail, hooves…not greatly detailed, just a bit of clip art before that was really a thing. There was also devil’s food cake which was amazing and compared to angel’s food cake…I found the devil to be the better cook. My mom would also make comments to about the cats having the devil in them when they were especially mischievous, energetic, or loud. As an only child, I love the cats the most when they were active, so again, I had this positive connection to the devil. The funny thing is, I remember asking my mom to tell me all about the devil, but for the life of me, I cannot remember anything she would say. I’m guessing she probably changed the subject and tried to steer my attention to Jesus or angels. Those topics just always put me right to sleep. I’m quite sure if my mom was to look back on my early childhood she was say there were a lot of clues about what was to come. *grins*

ga gf cx
Why be a Redangel, when you can be a RedDevil, Tracy?

hair: #2 DOUX – Summer Night Hairstyle RARE
head: CATWA HEAD Catya v4.0
skin: [Glam Affair] Mineko – Catwa Applier 007 – 05 @ Arcade
ears: ^^Swallow ^^ Crusties
body:  Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara V4.1

[CX] Kishin Bindi @ Panic of the Pumpkin in Okinowa
Cynful Diamond – Choker
Cynful Diamond – Bracelets
[ Conviction ] The Claws V.2 – Matte Ombre
neve intimates – form @ FaMESHed X

GingerFish Poses – Bedeviled @ Pose Fair

12 – DRD – Bloodcroft Castle – Throne Altar
11 – DRD – Bloodcroft Castle – Throne
.BIRCH Pentagram Inverted Torches

 

Posted in Catwa, Collabor88, Events, FaMESHed, Fashion, Gos, Maitreya, pr!tty, Second Life, shoes, shopping, Uber SL

Everywhere I Look

I use songs in my blogs a lot. Sometimes its because I can’t find the words to say what I’m feeling, but some incredible musician has them already in a song. So, I borrow their words and talents to help express myself. Today, I’m going to share a song that means a great deal to me. It reminds me of a special person from my past. He was an amazing individual and loved me like no one else I’ve ever known. We couldn’t make it work, because his ignorance and stupidity drove me insane. I had no patience for it, but at the end of the day being in his arms was home. There was a passion in our relationship that can never be replicated. I destroyed him and now he’s dead. I will never forgive myself for what I did to him.

The song is Something I Can Never Have (still) by Nine Inch Nails.  Mind you, this is the same man that made me hate AC/DC. Though now that he’s gone, for some reason, I tend to be more open to the older songs, especially the ones he played regularly on his electric guitar. Isn’t it strange how people can leave such a mark in our lives? I always thought we’d cross paths again someday, but it never happened. The last time I saw him was a confrontation at a gas station…he cried from the pain….I cried from the regret. I was a different person then. I was reckless and self-centered. Even with all his issues, for he was far from perfect, he did not deserve what I did to him. I will live with that shame for the rest of my life.

RIP JLM♥

Live Free
I still recall the taste of your tears 
Echoing your voice just like the ringing in my ears 
My favorite dreams of you still wash ashore 
Scraping through my head ’till I don’t want to sleep anymore

Sady is wearing:
hair: pr!tty – Jes
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: [theSkinnery] Katy (Catwa Applier) toffee (*new* @ C88)
brows: –SU!- Blair Eyebrows +CATWA APPLIER

(Yummy) Free Spirit Rings (*new* @ C88)
.08 [ kunst ] – Slim Cigarette #2 (hand)

neve top – recycled biker (*new* @ Uber)
[Gos] Boutique – Liz Leather Pants (*new* @ FaMESHed)
**UTOPIA@Design** – “ERIKA”

pose by Del May

Posted in Bueno, Catwa, Events, FaMESHed, Fashion, Foxcity, Maitreya, RunAway Hair, Second Life, Shiny Shabby, shopping, Uber SL

Numb

This morning I don’t have words of my own, so I’ll let Meg Myers say/sing it for me.

Meg Myers-Numb

When all is said and done
Tell me how to write this
Tell me how to fight this war
I’ll keep marchin’ on
Like a broken robot
Money back guarantee
I’m in your custody
But I’m not a criminal, I can be your next big thing
Look at what I’ve become
Silly little monster
Should’ve just held my tongue

I hate the feeling of this weight upon my shoulders
Pushing the pressure down on me
You think you want the best for me but nothing really matters
If you force it won’t come, I guess I’m feeling numb
I guess I’m feeling numb

Sometimes I wish I could fly
Through a secret trap door into another life
Bury my head in the sand
I don’t want to grow up
La la la la la la

I hate the feeling of this weight upon my shoulders
Pushing the pressure down on me
You think you want the best for me but nothing really matters
If you force it won’t come, I guess I’m feeling numb
I guess I’m feeling numb

I’ll play the game
I’ll do everything you tell me
All the losers win in the end
I’ll play the game
I’ll do anything you tell me
All the losers win in the end

I hate the feeling of this weight upon my shoulders
Pushing the pressure down on me
You think you want the best for me but nothing really matters
If you force it won’t come, I guess I’m feeling numb
I guess I’m feeling numb
I guess I’m feeling numb
I guess I’m feeling numb

shadows

wearing:
hair: [RA] Samatha Hair (*new* @ FaMESHed)
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: Glam Affair – Mindy

BUENO -Cheeky Half Shirt (*new*)
neve short – shameless plaid (*new* @ Uber)

pose: FOXCITY. Fixated Bento Pose Set
MINIMAL – Night Street Background (*new* @ Shiny Shabby)

Posted in Death Row Designs, Events, Exploration, FaMESHed, Fashion, Maitreya, RAMA, Second Life, shoes, shopping, [BREATHE]

Options

One of the greatest gifts we have is the power of choice. If you ever saw the movie, Dangerous Minds, you probably remember the classroom scene where that topic was discussed. You may not have a choice about the gun pointed at your head, but you can choose how you react/respond. So, when adversity comes your way, you have a choice on how to proceed. There are always options. They might not be options we like. They might not be options you like, but there are always options.
The thing is, when you make you’re forced to make tough decisions where none of the choices are exactly ideal, particularly if you reach out to friends for advice on said options. I think in cases like that, its best to sort it out on your own. Not everything you do requires a second opinion, especially when your dilemma involves doing things that feel right to you, but most certainly will not be understood by others. Occasionally, you just have to do what’s right for you, despite what others may think. So, whatever your quandary may be, think carefully on the outcome of your options before seeking the opinions of others.

options

wearing:
hair: RAMA.SALON – Diana Hair (*new* @ Blush)
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: Glam Affair – Mindy

neve top – surge (*new* @ FaMESHed)
neve short – sass (*new* @ FaMESHed)
[BREATHE]-Setsu Heels (April PocketGacha)

pose in DRD – Boho Backyard – Athena Couch
location: Rustic Retreat

Posted in Avenge, Bloom, Catwa, Events, Fashion, Foxcity, Maitreya, Phoenix, Prism Events, Second Life, shoes, shopping, Uber SL, [BREATHE]

Exactly What I Need

This has been an absolutely insane week. Last weekend was bad enough, but it only led to a week full of disappointments. People never cease to amaze me. It almost seems as if the people I really want to believe in, people I once looked up to…are the ones that have let me down the most. I saw a meme earlier this week that read something like, “A this point, I’m more surprised by the people that stay than I am by the people that leave.” At least that was the general idea, might not be the exact words, but close enough. These days, I’m more surprised by the people that don’t try to stir up shit. Those are hard to find and its why I rarely leave my platform anymore.
I’ve got a few good friends, both male and female and that’s exactly what I need.

Therapy
You look like therapy
Exactly what I need
You are the darkness for me to light, yeah
The perfect remedy
To heal what’s hurting me
Come be the therapy for me
And me for you, tonight

wearing:
hair:  :::Phoenix::: Rebecca Hair (*new* @ Bloom)
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: Glam Affair – Mindy
neve top – recycled biker (*new* @ Uber)
neve short – shameless plaid (*new* @ Uber)
[BREATHE]-Foxy Heels (*new* @ Uber)
FOXCITY. SkinFX – Volume I (*new* in mainstore)

pose: . Infiniti . – Darling set

scene:
[Avenge] Black/White backdrop (*new* @ Limit8)
NOMAD // Tufted Chair

Posted in Fashion

Pretty Things Just Taste Better

“Pretty things just taste better,” she purred as she pulled only the prettiest grapes off the bunch, popping one in her glittering red mouth before putting the rest on her plate. She was quite accustomed to pretty things…pretty men, pretty cars, pretty jewelry, pretty clothes, a pretty reflection, and most importantly pretty delusions. She no longer saw her true self in the mirror, she saw the younger version of herself. There in the mirror she saw only the inner beauty she radiated, untouched by the hands of time and unclear without her glasses. She was quite grateful for weak eyes for this very reason.

I suppose that while beauty is in the eye of the beholder, society has set a few norms for most of us. Gourmet foods often look quite aesthetic, but do they always taste better? It really comes down to personal preference, doesn’t it? One of the many reasons I love Second Life is that it allows me the freedom to set my own standard for what’s pretty and surround myself with lots of pretty pixel treats, including friends. So, as I rejoin the blogging world for the first time in over four years, I’ve gathered some of my closest friends and asked them to wear some of their favorite pretty things.

Pretty Girls

Left to Right: Kess Crystal, Grace Sixpence, Sadystika Sabretooth, and Tracy Redangel

Kess is wearing:
Dead Dollz Felina Panties – Blush
Dead Dollz Felina Reloaded – Blush
fri. – Kendall.Platforms (Cream)
TRUTH HAIR Ximena

Grace is wearing:
Hair – Blues – Naiesli
Shoes – Candydoll – Linda
Top – Emery – Hall Top
Shorts – Addams – Mariela Tiered Shorts
Tattoo-[White~Widow] Legend – Black – RARE

Sady is wearing:
hair-Magika – Honey Whiskey
top-[hh] Zeo Frill Top
skirt-neve skirt – buttons denim
bracelets-**RE** MoonFlight Bracelets FatPack
shoes-#EMPIRE – Marigold
thigh bands-#EMPIRE – Heart Harness

Tracy is wearing:
Hair Catwa– Grace
outfit: UC Tbatha corset- pink
shoes: Glamistry– Ramonda heels