Drive through the street with your eyes closed Trip on the stick where the wind blows So out of reach but it looks close Don’t assume what you don’t Know You act real hot but you’re still cold You wanna be rich with a Lambo So out of reach but it looks so close Red light but you still go You can walk around the entire world But you still end up with what you started with first Spit out money and you offer out lures Get the girl but it wasn’t the cure
I have been sick af the last couple of days. A lot of my symptoms could easily be stress related…like IBD & Fibromyalgia. Both have been flaring up, which in turns affects other issues, like back pain and headaches. However, I’ve spent a good amount of time in bed, mostly because I have no choice, and I’m trying very hard to reduce my stress. Honestly, I don’t feel that stressed. I know I have a lot on my plate, but I don’t feel stressed. I feel like I have things under control. So, I’m not sure what’s going on. Perhaps it’s something else entirely. Perhaps it’s some sense of impending doom lingering in the back of my mind somewhere, because I still struggle with the concept of being content, happy, and actually loving myself. Thanks to not having insurance and living in the great U.S. of A…I’m just going to need to suffer through whatever it is. In the meantime, I’ll be doing my best to carry on.
hair: DOUX – Chi hairstyle head: LeLUTKA Avalon Head 3.0 body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) Perky Edition (1.4) skin: [Glam Affair] Mia Skin [Lelutka EvoX] @ C88
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‘Cause I’m my own soulmate (Yeah, yeah) I know how to love me (Love me) I know that I’m always gonna hold me down Yeah, I’m my own soulmate (Yeah, yeah) No, I’m never lonely (Lonely) I know I’m a queen but I don’t need no crown Look up in the mirror like damn she the one One, one, one, one, one, one (The one) Like damn she the one One, one, one (The one) That bitch in the mirror like yeah, I’m in love Love, love, love, love, love, love (In love) Like yeah, I’m in love Love, love, love (In love) Look up in the mirror like damn she the one And she never tell me to exercise We always get extra fries And you know the sex is fire And I gotta testify I get flowers every Sunday I’mma marry me one day True love ain’t something you can buy yourself True love finally happens when you by yourself So if you by yourself, then go and buy yourself Another round from the bottle on the higher shelf
**special thanks to my wifey, Ghoulie Waffles, for introducing me to this song**
Writing when I’m content or happy has always been a struggle for me. I used to write poetry daily. It’s as if the concept of being content or happy is so foreign to me that I can’t properly describe it. I think that’s a common thread amongst artists. The songs that move us the most are the sad songs. The art that moves us the most, tend to be that that makes us uncomfortable or stirs a strong emotion from within. What is stronger than pain? So, here I am trying to find the words to express that I’m in a pretty good place at the moment. Perhaps the biggest part of that is my perception, but whatever it is…I don’t want to only write about the bad times and bad feels anymore. The world doesn’t need more pain or misery, we all need to know there is goodness out there and how to achieve it, even if our dreams never came true.
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My dog gets away from me about once every once in a while or so and I feel absolutely terrible. It is always when she sees another dog and gets excited. She’s always on a leash, but I can’t always win the tug of war with her 60lbs of pure muscle. I absolutely hate the way people glare at me when this happens. I understand it, but it doesn’t make it any easier to face the fear of opening the door to step outside with my dog any easier. I’m not a terrible pet owner, but I could be a better one.
My cat will absolutely risk his life to get outside. I don’t want him to go outside and I’ve damn near killed him (accidentally) trying to stop him. He has a will of is own and a determination like I’ve never seen. He is the loudest, most destructive, personable cat I have ever owned. I’ve had a lot of cats over the years. At one point, I had five at one time!
I wouldn’t trade either of them for the world, but sometimes these two remind me that pets aren’t always easy.
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