I’m so fucking happy all time Also, I’m really good at telling lies My friends they always call me for advice But they don’t know I’ve been crying For the past seven nights This happens every single time I’m drinking Like I can finally hear the thoughts I’m thinking And it’s oh so clear Make a bee line to the bathroom and I look into the mirror saying Fake bitch, fake bitch Running from her problems But she makes it look so good when she ignores them And she puts them on a shelf And she whispers to herself It’s okay, bitch Don’t ever change, bitch La la la la la
Magika – Amy LeLUTKA Lilly Head 2.5 [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) Special Edition (1.3) — PUMEC – JADWIGA – LELUTKA x BOM
Life is messy. There’s no doubt about that. Anyone with pets or children will attest to stepping in something questionable in the middle of the night. Nothing will throw off your day faster than cleaning up a mess like that first thing in the morning. Clearly, life isn’t perfect, but rather than compare our lives to those we see on our lovely screens…I think its better to embrace it. I know my life isn’t what I had hoped it would be and I changed my ideas about my life several times over the course of my life. Not once did I envision my life to be what it is now. I jokingly said I’d be a fat old woman who hates kids and has a bunch of cats. I don’t even have that! I mean, I don’t LOVE kids, but I surely don’t hate them. Ok, I am fat, so I got that goal down easy enough. Wait, was that a goal….oh god, I manifested that shit! Fuck me. Well, ok, so what. I’m fat, I got a grocery list of health problems and no insurance. I’m still here. I have rather decent roof over my head. *looks down at my fat body* Uhm, clearly, I have plenty to eat. *laughs* I have two running cars. I have one tiny feline terrorist and the most perfect smartest dog in all da world. And I still have my wonderful, albeit crazy, Mom. I am freaking blessed! Sure, I struggle financially, but it sure could be worse. My condo and my cars are paid in full. That’s a true blessing. As Thanksgiving (yes, its a U.S. holiday) comes sliding around the corner, I have a lot to be thankful for and I’m thankful that I do. Whether you celebrate this holiday or not, I think its a nice reminder to take some honest inventory of the blessings in our lives. It’s easy to forget those blessings as we go about our mundane daily routines. If you’re blessed enough to be reading this, it means you’ve been blessed with a little bit of time and the luxury of internet. While, I’m not so sure you need to be grateful for reading my ramblings, I’m pretty sure you’ve got your own plethora of blessings to behold. Oh…and don’t think I forgot you. I am very very grateful that you have taken that little bit of time from your life to read my words. More grateful than I can properly express, but Thank You.♥
Every once in a while I like to tap into my dark side. In now way does this begin to compare to some of the incredibly talented bloggers we have on the AsteroidBox team, but I still wanted to try a dark shot…so I did. I don’t have any deep or meaningful things to say today. I just wanted to try something different. Hopefully, people will like it. *bites her black nails*
hair: Magika – Midnight
head: LeLUTKA Fleur Head 2.0
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) (1.2)
skin: DeeTaleZ *SKINS* for LELUTKA HEADS (EVO.) – Flora
tattoo: THIS IS WRONG Mind Flyer Shine+tattoo
“Some people never go crazy. What truly horrible lives they must lead.”
― Charles Bukowski
wearing:
hair: DOUX – Sasha hairstyle @ Dubai Event
head: GENUS Project – Genus Head – Classic Face
eyes: [Heaux] Gatsby
ears: ^^Swallow^^ Charm Ears
skin: DeeTaleZ Skin *Kacee* for GENUS HEADS
eyeshadow: TONE 2 – If Only You Knew Smokey Eye @ Belle
lipstick: IDTTY FACES – GENUS NUDE SWINGS 8
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
Tattoo “Rise of Quetzalcoatl”_by GoK
–SU!– Face Piercing Set 01 Ascendant – Basic French Nails
: CULT : His Princess Rings/Silver BUENO-Restrain Top @ Uber Mug – April Thong
If I had to do it all again
I’d still be your biggest let down
You will never call me your friend
We fall back to strangers
‘Cause it’s already dead
Said what we said
And I can’t change what’s behind
Even if you’ll never wish me well
Even if you laugh while I burn in hell
Even if these words are an empty shell
I wanna say I’m sorry
You don’t have to take this apology
You could spit it all right back and leave
But I don’t care, it’s not for me
I wanna say I’m sorry
I wanna say I’m sorry
~ Diamonte – I’m Sorry
wearing:
hair: Foxy – Flirt Hair @ Kustom9
head: GENUS Project – Genus Head – Classic Face
skin: DeeTaleZ Skin *Kacee* for GENUS HEADS
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
Tattoo “Rise of Quetzalcoatl”_by GoK
..::THOR::.. Junkhead – Gacha set @ Anthem
..::THOR::.. Layne Microphone
..::THOR::.. Mike Amp
..::THOR::.. Angry Chair
..::THOR::.. Jerry Guitar – black/red/chek RARE
..::THOR::.. Alice Rug
How can you act like you know
When all you know is to lie?
Another truth to expose,
Freedom will capture their eyes.
We find this truth
We fight. You lose.
Your time’s up now.
That’s enough now.
Shut up, get out!
Truth called you out.
I know this language of yours
I used to speak it so well.
A fire meant to be pure
Is now the fire of Hell.
It is written
Long before you.
~ Flyleaf – Call You Out
Anytime I see condoms tucked into clothing, be it underwear or thigh high boots, I think of Pretty Woman, when Julia Roberts pulls out the assortment of condoms and proclaims that she’s a safety girl. So, condoms protect our genitals from most things…too bad there’s not a condom for our hearts. It would be nice to trust what’s in front of you without getting slapped in the face with a brick wall of pain only days into dating someone, right? I mean, I personally think that I’m pretty guarded. I’ve been successfully single now for two years. I open myself up to the possibility of something good for a few days and where did it get me? You guessed it…slapped in the face with the harsh realities of this cruel grid. I’m reminded once again that I’m not good enough. You’d think by now, I’d get it…and for the past two years I did. Technically, I haven’t broken that stride, because anything that doesn’t last more than a week does not make a relationship. It simply makes one vulnerable enough to get hurt. Thanks, Life, you did it again.
Please don’t comment with some hippy dippy love shit about how I’m worthy, blah blah blah…I truly appreciate the efforts, but they are wasted on me. My life has more than proven that I’m not those lovely things that make one a lovable partner. Lucky for me, I make a great friend and I also have some pretty epic ones. So, all is not lost. ♥
“It doesn’t happen overnight but you
Turn around and a month’s gone by
And you realize you haven’t cried
I’m not giving you an hour or a second or another minute longer
I’m busy getting stronger”
~ Sarah Evans – A Little Bit Stronger
wearing:
hair: Stealthic – Dawn (*new* @ K9)
head: CATWA HEAD Denice
eyes: –SU!– Osanna Eyes IDTTY Faces – Spicy Lipstick (*new* @ TLC)
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
skin: #PUMEC – Sophia
tattoo: [ATI] Koi Love II
L’Emporio ::*Sagittarius*:: Archer BENTO Gloves Mug – Raja Finger Armor (*new* @ Days of Yore)
[The Forge] Evelyn set (*new* @ Days of Yore)
-[The Forge] Evelyn Shoulder Wrap
-[The Forge] Evelyn Bodice
-[The Forge] Evelyn Harness
pose: [ Focus Poses ] 50’s Tbird
***pose taken out of the car [ Focus Poses ] Vintage car girl_1
“If teardrops could be bottled
There’d be swimming pools filled by models
Told a tight dress is what makes you a whore
If “I love you” was a promise
Would you break it, if you’re honest
Tell the mirror what you know she’s heard before
I don’t wanna be you anymore
Hands, hands getting cold
Losing feeling’s getting old
Was I made from a broken mold?
Hurt, I can’t shake
We’ve made every mistake
Only you know the way that I break”
