Posted in Bueno, Collabor88, Events, Fashion, Glam Affair, Lelutka, Maitreya

Better Things

Welp, I made it on that dreadful website again. *shakes my head* The things they say bother me far less than the idea that someone is wasting so much of their precious time focusing on some silly form of fixated hate. Whoever is posting about me, clearly doesn’t really know me, so they can say whatever they want on that silly site. That’s why they have to post anonymously, right? It’s ok if they don’t like my blog and my photos. I’m fully aware of my limitations as an SL photographer. I’ve never claimed to be some sort of expert. I do what I like. I always have and always will, as far as photography is concerned. If others like it…YAY! If they don’t…well, I understand.
I’m not quite sure where they got the man stealing idea, but that definitely isn’t me. I have NEVER done that in Second Life. Earlier this year, I broke one of my cardinal rules, sorta twice, by dating guys that had dated friends of mine in the past. However, both of my friends were aware and gave their blessings. It didn’t work out, but no one ran away from me….though, to be fair, they probably should have. *laughs* I probably am a tad bit psycho. *evil grin* I’m okay with that. I lost my RL husband to a much younger and much prettier woman. The pain that delivered is far more than any I would ever wish on someone else. So, stealing a man isn’t my style. Besides, why would I want one that can be so easily stolen in the first place?
Alas, if this person so filled with hatred for me….if they really knew me, they probably wouldn’t waste so much of their time on me. Though, by the looks of things, they probably never will, cuz I tend to surround myself with loving individuals who support each others’ endeavors. My friends and I don’t tear each other down. Nor do we look for ways to tear others down.
Once again, I must say that I do not wish this person any ill will. In fact, I’d prefer they find some happiness in their lives and fill their hearts with love instead of whatever petty jealousy or hate that consumes them. If I somehow inadvertently hurt this person, I highly doubt that is was my intention. Perhaps they do have justified reasons to dislike me, but until they are courageous enough to step out of the cowardly anonymous shadows…I cannot honestly know. Nor can I apologize. Perhaps they are the psychotic ones and have no valid reason at all. Until they come forward, I’ll just have to do what I do best…shrug it off and keep on moving forward. I have better things to focus my attention on. ♥

Better Things

[monso] Ahri2 Hair @ C88
LeLUTKA Fleur Head 2.5
Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara V5.0
Glam Affair – Lelutka Applier – Willow @ C88

BUENO-One Love Necklace @ C88
Decoy – Kathleen Cropped Sweater @ C88
BUENO-Julia Jeans for Sat Sale Nov 7, 2020

pose: space cadet – fresh hot tea @ C88
***(come with color change cup)

location: Curiosity Lake

Posted in Apple Fall, Collabor88, Events, FaMESHed, Fashion, Kustom9, Legacy, Lelutka

I’m so, so done

‘Cause I’m so, so done
Guardin’ my tongue, holdin’ me back
I’m livin’ the way that I want
‘Cause I’m so, so done
Fighting myself, goin’ through Hell
I’m livin’ the way that I want
I’m livin’ the way that I want
I’m livin’ the way that I want
I’m livin’ the way that I want
I’m livin’ the way that I want

I lost control over all my energy
Done so much damage to my heart
I’ve given in, I’ve changed my identity
I didn’t mean to go so far, umm-mm

Oh my God (God)
I wish (Wish) I could be (Be) better than this
My God, wish (Wish) I could be (Oh-oh)
~ Alicia Keys – So Done

hair: [monso] Lena2 Hair @ Kustom9
head: LeLUTKA Fleur Head 2.0
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) (1.2)
skin: [theSkinnery] Dalia (LeLutkaEVO) @ C88

TRIGGERED – Chimera Glasses @ Unik
earrings: MG – Kaleidoscope – #18
CHAIN – Tina Necklace Set @ Anthem
AvaWay KITTEN_Bracelet
Burrow Custom To-Go Cup
RE Festive Rings Set

-[ vagrant ]- Kaylee Set @ Kustom9
-[ vagrant ]- Kaylee Wristband R
-[ vagrant ]- Kaylee Top
-[ vagrant ]- Kaylee Shorts

[ VERSOV ] COPOV_GROUP GIFT Ankle Monitor
[Enchante’] – Jenny Sneakers

[Rezz Room] Dachshund Adult Animesh @ Equal10

pose: DM – Stairway
backdrop: Los Vecinos – Dharma – The Bearded Guy

scene extras:
Hangry – Croissant Ice Cream – Peach {rez} @ Kustom9

(Luc.) Ethel the Babushka Figurine @ Kustom9

Apple Fall Ceramic Milk Jar @ FaMESHed
Apple Fall Olive Jar – Olive Glaze @ FaMESHed

dust bunny . paradise plants . monstera tree @ FaMESHed
dust bunny . paradise plants . fan palm @ FaMESHed
dust bunny . paradise plants . pineapple plant @ FaMESHed

Posted in Events, FaMESHed, Legacy, Lelutka, vinyl

Just Empty

Sometimes, I just don’t care. I don’t know why. I suppose its a symptom of mental illness. I’m not sure which one. I guess I should ask my therapist. Maybe one day I will. Then again, I’ve been ill for a few days, so it could just be related to that. I just know that lately, I don’t feel sad or happy. I just feel nothingness. As if there’s a void in my soul. It’s not dark or light. It’s not black or white. It’s not blurry or clear. It’s gray and foggy, like creepy autumn morning. It’s just empty.

hair: [monso] Babi Hair @ FaMESHed
head: LeLUTKA Fleur Head 2.0
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) Perky Edition (1.3.1)

RichB. Thalion Earrings
RichB. Mad NoseChain
[ rD ] – Thrall Necklace @ FaMESHed X
Pixicat– Hailey Top @ Anthem
VINYL – Sticky Bun Leggings @ FaMESHed

pose: Bauhaus Movement – The Way You Like It 14

backdrop is a combination of two:
I Dont Care – Bad Decisions – The Bearded Guy
Rustico – Good Times – The Bearded Guy

Posted in Fashion, Foxcity, GenusProject, Glam Affair, Kustom9, Legacy, Second Life

Re-imagined

When I found the point of life
It came creeping towards me
The shape of eyes

It was all this re-imagined
It was a different kind of speech
It was repetition
It was what you wanted it to be

When I saw the shape of sound
Everything came spiraling

It was all this re-imagined
It was a different kind of speech
It was repetition
It was what you wanted it to be
~ The Contortionist – Reimagined

bs foxcity

hair: [monso] Lalisa Hair @ Kustom9
head: GENUS Project – Genus Head – Classic Face W001 – Mocap
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) (1.2)
skin:  [Glam Affair] Josie Applier [ Genus ] @ Access

Wednesday[+] ~ Idoru Eyelashes @ Kustom9
{S0NG} :: Jem Eyes @ Kustom9
LUXREBEL ”KOKO” Lipstick (GENUS) TAN @ Access

SU!– Hell Freak Sunglasses Gold #04
Kibitz – Tricia’s choker @ Kustom9
[ kunst ] – Aubree septum @ Kustom9

Blossom&Seeds CandySet @ Access

pose: FOXCITY. Poise Bento Pose Set @ Kustom9
FOXCITY. Photo Booth – Air @ Kustom9

 

Posted in Collabor88, Events, Fashion, Legacy, Lelutka, Second Life, Shiny Shabby, shopping, Uber SL

Better Alone

Nobody wants to be
Nobody wants to be the one to walk away
Nobody wants to see
Nobody wants to see the truth, then let it in, run away
Nobody wants to know
Nobody wants to know the ways they don’t love you right
They don’t love you right
So when you hold me tightly, all night
Ooh, baby, I feel like something’s not right
When you hold me tightly like that
Ooh, baby, I know, mmm
I’m better alone than lonely (lonely, lonely)
I’m better alone than lonely here with you
So lonely here
I’m better alone than lonely (lonely, lonely)
I’m better alone than lonely here with you
So lonely here
I’m better alone than lonely
~ Lykke Li – Better Alone

jb amitie

hair: [monso] Moca Hair  @ Collabor88
head: LeLUTKA Lake Head
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) (1.2)
skin: [theSkinnery] Maya (LeLutkaEVO) @ Uber

*Just BECAUSE* Kelly Bikini

pose: Amitie Straw Bag & Espadrilles Pack @ ShinyShabby

location: Burrow Coffee & Whiskey Co.

Posted in Cynful, FaMESHed, Fashion, Glam Affair, Kustom9, Legacy, Lelutka, Second Life, shopping, Uber SL

I’m still learning

I should be living the dream
But I’m living with a security team
And that ain’t gonna change, no
I got a paranoia in me
And you wouldn’t believe
Everything that I’ve seen, no
Coming apart at the seams
And no one around me knows
Who I am, what I’m on
Who I’ve hurt and where they’ve gone
I know that I’ve done some wrong
But I’m trying to make it right
Did the one I love do me wrong?
Give me up right now
I know that I love you but I’m still learning
To love myself
I’m still learning to love myself
~ Halsey – Still Learning

richb cynful

Sady is wearing:
hair:  [monso] My Hair – Lokelanni @ Kustom9
head: LeLUTKA Lake Head 1.1
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) Perky Edition (1.2.1)
skin: [Glam Affair] Reese Skin – Lelutka @ Uber

RichB. Kitty Ears @ SaNaRae
RichB. Imo Earrings
[CX] Tyrant’s Chain @ FaMESHed
MIWAS / Mei Belt jacket
Cynful Bodysuit Set @ FaMESHed
MIWAS / High waist Fishnet tights

pose: Lyrium. Lindalein Series
TrashTheBeat Backdrop – The Bearded Guy

Posted in Bueno, Events, Fashion, Glam Affair, Kustom9, Legacy, Lelutka, Second Life, shoes, shopping, Uber SL

Giving me chills

Swimming in your eyes, in your eyes, in your eyes
Egyptian blue
Something I’ve never had without you
You’re giving me chills at a hundred degrees
It’s better than pills how you put me to sleep
Calling your name, the only language I can speak
Taking my breath, a souvenir that you can keep
Giving me chills
Chills

monso bueno utopia rise design bearded guy

Sady is wearing:
hair:  [monso] My Hair – Maria
head: LeLUTKA Lake Head 1.1
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) Perky Edition (1.2.1)
skin: [Glam Affair] Bella Skin [Lelutka] @ Kustom9

[ rD ] – Evangeline Gorget
BUENO-Julia Bodysuit Fatpack @ Uber
MIWAS / High waist Fishnet tights
**UTOPIA@Design** – “KENDRA”

pose: [evoLove] – Provocative pose set
Rub Cross Steel – Monday Moves – The Bearded Guy

Posted in Catwa, Collabor88, Cynful, Events, Exploration, Fashion, Legacy, Legal Insanity, Lelutka, Second Life, shopping, TMD, Uber SL

I don’t want to mess this thing up

Just a kiss on your lips in the moonlight
Just a touch of the fire burning so bright
And I don’t want to mess this thing up
I don’t want to push too far
Just a shot in the dark that you just might
Be the one I’ve been waiting for my whole life
So baby I’m alright, with just a kiss goodnight
~ Lady Antebellum – Just a Kiss

cynful anaposes legal insanity

Sady is wearing:
hair:  [monso] My Hair – Vicky /Blonde
head: LeLUTKA Lake Head 1.1
body:  [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) (1.2)
skin: [theSkinnery] Signe @ Uber

^^Swallow^^ Charm Ears
LaGyo_Cindy Earrings
[Cynful] Stripper Body Dust
Cynful Diamond – Choker
Cynful Diamond – Bracelets
Cynful Summer Elegance @ C88

Chris is wearing:
hair:  tram J0109 hair
head: CATWA HEAD Daniel
body: [Signature] Gianni

**RE** Elegance Rings
Legal Insanity – Wrynn white denims

pose: Ana Poses – Touching @ TMD
location: The Bay

Posted in Bloom, breathe, Events, Foxcity, Kustom9, Legacy, Lelutka, Prism Events, Second Life

Only Girl

Want you to make me feel like I’m the only girl in the world
Like I’m the only one that you’ll ever love
Like I’m the only one who knows your heart
Only girl in the world…
Like I’m the only one that’s in command
Cause I’m the only one who understands how to make you feel like a man (yeah)
Want you to make me feel like I’m the only girl in the world
Like I’m the only one that you’ll ever love
Like I’m the only one who knows your heart
Only one…

Want you to take it, like a thief in the night
Hold me like a pillow, make me feel right
Baby I’ll tell you all my secrets that I’m keepin’, you can come inside
And when you enter, you ain’t leavin’, be my prisoner for the night
~ Rhianna – Only Girl

monso kaithleen's breathe bloom1

wearing:
hair:  [monso] My Hair – Ale @ Kustom9
head: LeLUTKA Lake Head 1.1 @ Skin Fair
body:  [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) (1.2)
skin: [theSkinnery] Ashley (LeLutka)

-SU!- Almond Nails @ Anthem
Kaithleen’s Bloom Bodysuit, harness, & nipple covers @ Bloom
[BREATHE]-Mii Su Heels @ Fetish Fair

pose: FOXCITY. Good Morning Bento Set

Posted in Blueberry, Kustom9, Lelutka, Maitreya, Second Life, shoes, shopping, Uber SL, [BREATHE]

Bad Habits

Close the door
Take it off of me
Take it off for me
Clothes on the floor
This misery
Loves company

Compulsive indulgence
We’re making love out of focus
You’ll always be my white rabbit
My favorite bad habit

A rush of blood to my head
My heart beats out of my chest
Bad habits
Bad habits
I said never again
But here you are in my bed
Bad habits
Bad habits
~ Delaney Jane – Bad Habits

tram blueberry breathe

Sady is wearing:
hair:  [monso] My Hair – Brida @ Kustom9
head: LeLUTKA Nova Head 1.0
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
skin: [the Skinnery] Ashley (Lelutka) @ Uber

:::NOIR::: Kate Necklace
Blueberry – Reachless – Dress
[BREATHE]-Asumi Heels @ Uber

pose made with AnyPose

for information about the scene see upcoming post: Middy’s Room