Doing this photo was so fun, we both agree we are full of attitude, from the poses to the styling of our outfits. I’m pretty sure our superpower is shopping and it looks like we are headed off on a girl’s weekend to do just that! Between Maria and I, we were able to showcase the entire Spotlight pack by Blueberry, plus Maria was able to add a few other Blueberry items to demonstrate how well they can enhance one another. She’s brilliant like that. Definitely check out her version, there’s a link at the bottom of the credits. Her version is amazing! ♥
I never should have called ‘Cause I knew you’d leave me But I didn’t think you could do it so easily I never should have held your hand On that cold rainy night ‘Cause, further along, it would cause another fight Stranger, that’s all I see When I look into your eyes A soulmate who wasn’t meant to be Stranger, who knows all my secrets Can pull me apart and break my heart A soulmate who wasn’t meant to be
Everything I ever knew came from you Everything I wanna be, that’s in me That comes from me Open up your fist and let me out I was made to run around And let me feel the air beneath my feet Let me go And I know not everybody gets a new life And I know not everybody gets to start over again But I do know what I’m doing with my new life I’ll build it up, break it down, build it up Build it up, break it down Build it up, break it down You can fly away too, that’s on you But don’t tell me what I cannot do I can tie on my shoes and put on my coat I’m living a history, the one that I wrote
hair: [monso] Kaine Hair @ C88 head: LeLUTKA Avalon Head 3.0 @ Skin Fair body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) Special Edition (1.4) skin: [Glam Affair] Rika Skin [Lelutka EvoX] @ Skin Fair Glam Affair – New Body Line RE Sublime Nose Piercing N9
Ok, so this is a bit off and has absolutely nothing to do with the photo, but since I am prone to sharing my real life or lackthereof here, I figure I might as well share this, too. However, this could be a trigger for some. If you are easily triggered by suicide topics, please have someone else read it first to determine whether or not you should. I’m doing this for me. These are my reasons: 1. to hold myself accountable 2. cuz I think the convo is cute 3. cuz it shows how quickly my state of mind changes So, what I’m going to do is just copy a conversation between myself and my wifey, Ghoulina Waffles, cuz it pretty much sums things up. Please don’t go nuts and call for welfare checks, I’m fine and I have an appt with my therapist in the morning.
9:24am Ghoulie: Hope your stint at XXXXXX went okay Sady: girl, I couldn’t sleep before my shift I just laid in bed for hours contemplating suicide then after my shift, I passed the fuck out and had a nightmare about a failed suicide attempt Ghoulie: Jesus wammen Sady: was a rad attempt fail tho rofl Ghoulie: you are not allowed to think of suicide when your wifey is this pretty https://flic.kr/p/2kENqCT oh? how’s that? Sady: oooh, I tried to race my car into a busy intersection, but ended up launching my car over it instead, but also flipping it mid way so I was over the intersection upside down screaming “fuck yeah” out the window before turning right side up and crashing into a building but in my dream, my car was so sturdy it protected me, so I just had a concussion some scratches and bruises and a bunch of teenagers decided I was a worthy cause and all came to visit me and then it was kinda over and a giant storm came and mom was passed out on the couch so I sat and watched this amazing storm outside when it was over we went to target to buy candy lmao Ghoulie: WTF, so, you had an action film for a suicide attempt Sady: ooh and at the store there were all these candy bar flavored pop tart bites….they were new and I was mad that they didn’t have a grab bag with all the flavors especially since I didn’t want a whole bag of milky way pop tarts lmao Ghoulie: I like you, but you’re crazy (said with a gif) Sady: note to self, do not use car in suicide attempt, cuz if it fails, you only killed your car Ghoulie: No suicide attempts, okay? Sady: we’ll see Ghoulie: your body is already like evil hands rubbing together “Teeheehee we got this” Sady: RIGHT??? Ghoulie: it’s like surprise suicide, you just can’t plan it Sady: pretty much…lol
….then we trailed off to discuss our new Linden Labs stilt homes and other things
Again, I repeat, I’m fine now. I was just talking to one of my closest friends. She gets me on a level that most don’t and she knows when to take me seriously, when to worry, etc. She’s not worried and you shouldn’t be either. This is not a cry for help, but just a glimpse into my BPD brain. As my friend, Tracy Redangel, once said, “Depression lies.” I know this and I would not act on a suicidal impulse. Trust that I know myself far better than most and I will be discussing my thoughts with my new therapist tomorrow morning. Meanwhile, I have too much work to do and too many people counting on me to just up and dip out! I PROMISE.
hair: [monso] Mabel Hair @ C88 head: LeLUTKA Nova Head 2.5 eyes: AG. Mercury Eyes @ Access body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) Special Edition (1.3) skin: PUMEC – Lillian
[ rD ] – Rayna Cuff & Earrings @ TLC Rainbow Sundae Callie Bracelet @ TLC MY BAGS by Mila Blauvelt My Naughty RED hive // cold brew coffee to go . Apl.Blossom Genesis @ TLC
Shopping in SL is clearly much different from shopping in RL, but I do my best to mix and match pieces from various brands to create a look that isn’t quite so cookie cutter. While there’s absolutely nothing wrong with creating a look based on an entire outfit presented by the designer. Sometimes I really like going through different pieces much like I do in RL. Luckily, I can do this in SL without making quite the same mess. *laughs* You should’ve seen my bedroom back in the day. I mean, you wouldn’t see the floor. I was quite messy, but I knew where the clean clothes were vs the dirty clothes!
N-E-WAY! I fell in love with this new suede and lace skirt from Gaia, but I wasn’t ready for the adorable camisole top that matched it. Of course, I got it. I’m saving that for another look, ok? Lucky for me, Breathe just released these amazing suede boots that really helped me achieve a warm cozy outfit with the perfect pinch of pink!
For the scene, I did something I thought was cute. I took these posters I had from ionic and added my own textures. Well, technically they belong to Lucky Conundrum, as he created them for Burrow Company. I just thought it would be neat if the posters actually advertised something inworld. So, a shoutout and a big thank you to Lucky for allowing me to use his posters for my scene. ♥
I’ve always loved rooftop scenes in movies and tv shows. It always looks so cool with the way they make the roof of a building into something completely different. When I was growing up, my mother always had a lot of houseplants. She would struggle when we lived in apartments, because she wanted a yard where she could plant bushes and outdoor flowers. None of the buildings we ever lived in had a flat rooftop that my mom could use for gardening, but it was always something I wished she could have done. So, when I saw the Akina Garden Set from Serenity Style, I knew this was my chance to create a rooftop area that would be unlike anything else I’ve done. I had a lot of fun setting this all up to look like my avatar was getting photographed for her Instagram in her rooftop paradise. Who knows, maybe I’ll do more rooftop photography. I kinda dig it. *giggles* See what I did there? Yeah, I know, I’m punny. *sticks her tongue out*
hair: [monso] Billie Hair @ FaMESHed head: LeLUTKA Lilly Head 2.5 body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) Special Edition (1.3) skin: #3 — PUMEC – NADYA – JANUARY — LELUTKA x BOM @ Epiphany
22769 – Garden Patio 22769 – Patio Pouf Table – COMMON 22769 – Shabby Patio Rug – COMMON 22769 – Patio Chair Creme – COMMON 22769 – Banana Tree – COMMON 22769 – Cubic Box Tree Pot – COMMON 22769 – Patio Fairy Lights – COMMON
22769 – Gardening Work 22769 – Seeding Bowl – COMMON 22769 – Bags of Soil – COMMON 22769 – Garden Wellies – COMMON 22769 – Workbench – COMMON 22769 – Shelf with Oil – COMMON 22769 – Box with Tools – COMMON 22769 – Box With Pots – COMMON 22769 – Watering Can – COMMON 22769 – Flowerpots – COMMON
Too bad some people like to sleep Talking the American dream I woke up late at night to see Nightmares on every city street Somethings that made me wanna scream Can’t wake you, make you wanna see Silence is violence and defeat But you just stay quiet in the sheets, quiet in the sheets Traps songs in the frat house Trump sign in the window How can we be free in the future if the kids don’t Conquer the addiction Start to make revisions? Maybe most of all We should learn to fucking listen
It never snows in LA You’d never know it was a holiday I don’t believe that Jesus Christ was born to save me That’s an awful lot of pressure for a baby But here we are again, with family or friends Some extra time to spend and I’m not mad about it Don’t waste a dime on me, just want your company Beside a Christmas tree, if the dog allows it –Finneas – Another Year
hair: [monso] Yaska Hair @ C88 head: LeLUTKA Fleur Head 2.5 body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) Special Edition (1.3) skin: — PUMEC – JADWIGA – LELUTKA x BOM ears: — PUMEC – / Mesh Ears\ – Dance of evil genius
cat ears, eyes, eyeshadow, & lipstick: — PUMEC – MURKA – BEAUTY SET (LELUTKA) @ Santa Inc Tulssy – Abstract Fatpack Coffin (Yummy) Eliza Ring Collection @ C88
AvaWay LETTER Necklaces @ FaMESHed ChicModa // Fiona Top & Pants
Welp, I made it on that dreadful website again. *shakes my head* The things they say bother me far less than the idea that someone is wasting so much of their precious time focusing on some silly form of fixated hate. Whoever is posting about me, clearly doesn’t really know me, so they can say whatever they want on that silly site. That’s why they have to post anonymously, right? It’s ok if they don’t like my blog and my photos. I’m fully aware of my limitations as an SL photographer. I’ve never claimed to be some sort of expert. I do what I like. I always have and always will, as far as photography is concerned. If others like it…YAY! If they don’t…well, I understand. I’m not quite sure where they got the man stealing idea, but that definitely isn’t me. I have NEVER done that in Second Life. Earlier this year, I broke one of my cardinal rules, sorta twice, by dating guys that had dated friends of mine in the past. However, both of my friends were aware and gave their blessings. It didn’t work out, but no one ran away from me….though, to be fair, they probably should have. *laughs* I probably am a tad bit psycho. *evil grin* I’m okay with that. I lost my RL husband to a much younger and much prettier woman. The pain that delivered is far more than any I would ever wish on someone else. So, stealing a man isn’t my style. Besides, why would I want one that can be so easily stolen in the first place? Alas, if this person so filled with hatred for me….if they really knew me, they probably wouldn’t waste so much of their time on me. Though, by the looks of things, they probably never will, cuz I tend to surround myself with loving individuals who support each others’ endeavors. My friends and I don’t tear each other down. Nor do we look for ways to tear others down. Once again, I must say that I do not wish this person any ill will. In fact, I’d prefer they find some happiness in their lives and fill their hearts with love instead of whatever petty jealousy or hate that consumes them. If I somehow inadvertently hurt this person, I highly doubt that is was my intention. Perhaps they do have justified reasons to dislike me, but until they are courageous enough to step out of the cowardly anonymous shadows…I cannot honestly know. Nor can I apologize. Perhaps they are the psychotic ones and have no valid reason at all. Until they come forward, I’ll just have to do what I do best…shrug it off and keep on moving forward. I have better things to focus my attention on. ♥
‘Cause I’m so, so done Guardin’ my tongue, holdin’ me back I’m livin’ the way that I want ‘Cause I’m so, so done Fighting myself, goin’ through Hell I’m livin’ the way that I want I’m livin’ the way that I want I’m livin’ the way that I want I’m livin’ the way that I want I’m livin’ the way that I want
I lost control over all my energy Done so much damage to my heart I’ve given in, I’ve changed my identity I didn’t mean to go so far, umm-mm
Oh my God (God) I wish (Wish) I could be (Be) better than this My God, wish (Wish) I could be (Oh-oh) ~ Alicia Keys – So Done