I’ll take it nice and slow Feeling good on my own without you, yeah Got me speaking in tongues The beautiful, it comes without you, yeah I’m gonna put my body first And love me so hard ’til it hurts I know how to scream out the words Scream the words I love me! Gonna love myself, no, I don’t need anybody else
I am walking proof that blogging works. Just yesterday, I acquired some cute new purses, because I saw one of them on a blog post. I also discovered a new pose store. I mean, I dunno how new they are to the grid, but they’re new to me and that’s always exciting to me as a photographer. These pants I’m wearing were an item I saw at an event, but after I saw them in a blog post, I decided I had to have them. I have loved the backdrops from Paleto for a while, but after seeing one I didn’t have in a blog post…I went to their store. There I discovered that they had five backdrops on sale, all for less than L$100! I had to scoop them up! I can only hope that my blog inspires people to buy a few things from time to time as well.
hair: Wasabi // Asia Hair head: LeLUTKA Fleur Head 2.5 body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) Special Edition (1.3) skin: [theSkinnery] Monica (LeLutkaEVO)
This past weekend, I left my blogging haven aka my platform, and I went to two parties at Burrow Company! Yep, two!! I was in a great mood and for good reason. There were two 80s themed parties. Okay, the first one was a DJ set by my gorgeous, talented friend, Phen (who also happens to be a blogger). She played songs from 1980 and it was so much fun! The best part is that I was totally ready for Harlow’s big 80s party later that night, so I was able to rock my Madonna look at both parties. (If you clicked Madonna’s name there, you’ll see my inspiration.) I knew other people would do lots of bright colors, but that’s not really how I remember the 80s. So, I wanted to go for one of Madonna’s edgier looks.
I knew I had everything I needed in my inventory and I’m rather proud of how it turned out. I mean, its not an exact replica, but that’s not as fun as using a pic for inspiration, anyway. So, all the details are below and in honor of my friends, Harvey & Harlow Holiday, I’ve added a little song at the end. *grins*
Both parties were a blast and I can’t recommend a better place to hang out to chill, to explore, to take photos, but they also have some pretty epic events (big & small)…so while I’m giving this massive shoutout to Burrow Company, I want to make sure my readers know that there’s a huge Valentine’s Masquerade Ball. Click the link for details and I hope to see you there.♥
hair: tram G0728 hair / FATPACK+HeadbandHUD UltraRARE head: LeLUTKA Fleur Head 2.5 body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) Special Edition (1.3) skin: #3 — PUMEC – NADYA – JANUARY — LELUTKA x BOM @ Epiphany
Here we go…into the season of delicious treats and calories galore. Here in the U.S. its all about the gluttony. We’ve got candy everywhere for Halloween. Then there’s an endless array of traditional dishes for our most gluttonous holiday of them all…Thanksgiving! Luckily for me, I just made a major lifestyle change a week and a half ago. No more crappy foods. Don’t get me wrong, I’ve had my fair share of delicious junk food over the years. I won’t be missing out on anything except the calories and toxins in those foods. Over the past six months, I’ve watched a friend of mine shift to a plant based diet and she’s done super well with it. That’s not for me, but I did want to get away from the processed foods and the fried foods and all the sugars I was taking in on a daily basis. I’ve already lost some weight and I’ve got a friend doing this with me. It’s exciting to compare recipes and discuss how different we feel physically. When I saw all the amazing treats tha were presented at Salem this year, I knew I wanted to take a picture of someone sneaking off to eat the bad stuff. So, here it is…me celebrating the season.
I don’t like leaving my house. This is well known among my friends, but there are times that I have no choice. I have to go to the store or the doctor. I have to take the dog out. I suffer from extreme anxiety and each time I walk out the front door of my house I wish for the earth to swallow me whole. I can’t explain when it started or the cause of it. I wasn’t always like this. I used to love being outdoors. I was very active and enjoyed long walks in the woods. The only thing that seems to bring me any peace when I am out of the house is when I encounter a random butterfly or dragonfly. For as long as I can remember, those beautiful, majestic creatures have fascinated me and delivered a sense of peace. It is for this reason that no matter where I live in SL, be it a boring little linden home or the gorgeous homestead I have now, there will always be butterflies and dragonflies. These amazing little things that bring me the simplest of joys and comfort can be part of my daily virtual life if I so choose it.
Alright, as a perpetually single woman on the grid, I find myself meeting some very interesting people. Yes, a good portion of them are men, for the lack of a better word. Most of them have been pretty nice experiences, but there’s enough bad apples out there….that I’m beginning to avoid the orchard. Although, I’ve heard about women receiving unsolicited dick pics, that has yet to be my experience. What I have experienced has been far more bizarre in my opinion. I’m not going to tell full stories of how I get myself into these situations, but below you will find a few examples of what I consider to be such bizarre interactions that I’m always left with the same question, “Are you serious?”
I was on voice with this guy, I had invited him to my land, things seemed normal enough as we talked about random things like music and movies when he just lies down in my SL bed and says he’s going to sleep there. I thought he was kidding, but then I hear this strange noise from his end of things. Yes, it sounded like he was jerking off. Being me, I just asked him, “Uhm, are you jerking off?” He just keep making the noise until he ‘finished’ and said, “Yeah, I always do before I go to sleep.”
I was having a first conversation with a guy. He’s told me a few things about himself. He’s told me I’m cute, blah blah…then says, “Going AFK.” To which I replied, “OK.” Then he said, “I’m going to jerk off, I’ve been needing to do this all day.”
I was talking to a friend of mine on Skype, oddly enough about a guy that had been trying to talk to both of us. During our conversation, he IMed both of us separately. He told her that he was helping his best friend inworld, he told me that he was cooking dinner. He went quiet to both of us for about an hour. Then he began with his IMs again, sending her spanks and sending me kisses.
The ex-boyfriend of a friend, messaged me on Facebook with pornographic gifs. I asked why on earth he thought it was okay to send those to me and his answer was, “I thought you’d like them.” Next thing I know he was sent me a 15 sec video of him jacking off.
I was cuddling with a guy that I had been getting to know pretty well. We were kissing and talking, when he suddenly stands up and says, “I gotta go, my ex girlfriend needs me.”
This year has not started off so good for me and a great deal of my RL is just hanging in limbo. Sometimes it all just gets so overwhelming, then compound that with the heartache of a recent breakup….well, some days I just want to throw in the towel. I want to crawl into a hole and disappear. Unfortunately, that is not an option. A very dear and wonderful friend of mine has also gone through a really rough beginning to the year. Naturally, we’ve shared a bit of our woes with one another. Neither of us really wanting to unload on the other, because we both have so much on our plate. The other day, I told him how overwhelmed I was…I just let it all out. Of course, I followed that with an apology, because I know his situation sucks, too. That’s when he surprised me with his silver lining and told me that he had something to look forward to in a few months. This keeps him going. With my life being in limbo, he told me that no matter what I need to find something to look forward to….something that will keep me going. I haven’t found that thing just yet, but those wise words have been absorbed and its something I’ve spent a lot of time thinking about since that conversation. Until I find that something to look forward to in the future months, I’m focusing on each day…looking forward to ending each day having done something productive. I want to end each day with a smile on my face and love in my heart. And as long as I have amazing friends like him….there should be more than enough love in my heart to end the day with a smile on my face.♥
In my post, Prediction, I wrote about whatever I was doing/feeling at midnight would be the thing I was doing/feeling the most of 2018. WOW! IF that is true, I am in serious trouble! I was sloppy ass drunk. However, I was laughing and dancing with some beautiful women so I raise my glass again to Tracy, Ara, and Posh. It was after the clock turned twelve that my real antics began….well, most of them. I’ve done my best to apologize to a handful of people. Apparently, I offered myself as part of a threesome to some very dear friends. *dies* So, apparently I was a little horny on NYE…please don’t let this year be like that. *dies again and again* I talked way too much about God knows what…I read poetry to my best friend, Kess. She actually enjoyed it and it wasn’t romantic gushy poetry like one would imagine. *laughs* I fell out of my chair. I still don’t remember doing that, but apparently I kept asking Kess and Zia, “How did I get on the floor? Why am I on the floor?” I woke up with lots of new friends on my list and surprisingly enough, I remember them all….I think. I even chatted live with a new friend as well as an old one later on. I sent messages I wish I could take back. I said words I shouldn’t have said and eventually I did things I shouldn’t have done. I’d love to say that it doesn’t count because I was drunk and/or don’t remember, but it does count. I am still responsible for my actions and my behavior. I’m not a bad person, I’m just a very careless and reckless drunk.
It’s behind me now and it will most likely be at least a month of more before I drink again. Oh God, Kess’ birthday is in February….I’ll warn you all closer to the day so you can block me. *laughs*
Moving on is sometimes the absolute hardest thing to do. Leaving people, places, pets, things, habits…we get attached and for me it always rips at my soul. Sometimes we do the leaving, sometimes we’re the ones being left…but both scenarios can be equally heartbreaking. As 2016 is coming to a close, there are a lot of things I’m walking away from and I refuse to keep looking back. It has been a year of great loss, shock, change, and dismay. I’m ready to leave it all behind, especially the negative emotions that accompanied it. I’ve packed my bags with all the good stuff and to the rest, I bid you farewell.
I’ve shed more than my share of tears for loss this past year. I’ve been blessed with some amazing people in this incredible virtual world. While I’ve had to walk away from quite a few and some walked away from me, the number of truly incredible people that have become such an integral part of my Second Life is astounding. I cannot remember having so many friends in SL that I cannot possibly keep up with everything they’re doing as well as my own life. I love it, though.
As I march forward into the new year, I plan to do my best at keeping up with those that want to be an active part of my life. I plan to embrace what’s left of my real life and to truly make my mark. Determination and desire, those are my words as I look forward.
And as I look back one final time to all that I’m leaving behind…well, I’m shedding my last tears. I know that 2017 will have its share of heartaches, but I have a feeling that there’s an abundance of blessings waiting and I’m hoping to share them all with my friends and family.
hair: little bones. Mishi MG – Earrings – Barcelona Boho
MG – Necklace – Barcelona Boho *COCO*_LaceHemSweaterDress (*new* @ Uber)
*COCO*_SuedeOver-the-KneeBoots (*new* @ Uber)
We’ve all heard the age old adage that all that glitters is not gold, but sometimes it IS! Just like the night I was scrolling through Facebook and found a reminder to check out N21. Oh man, I had almost forgotten! Thank you Mandala for not only reminding but tempting me with this adorable Origami necklace and earrings set! So, I’m making my way around N21 and not only do I find the Origami set, but the glittering beauty that is this super fun LuLu Dress from Tres Blah! Well, it was like a sign and it did glitter and there was a gold…naturally the rebel in me was determined to have my gold and glitter, too! I knew I had some gold shoes and eagerly put them on only to find that they were actually TOO gold, so I dug around and wouldn’t you know it, I discovered some a bonus color hud in the pack with these shoes and BOOM…a perfect match was born!
So, here it is…glittering, gold, and fabulous. No sooner do I have my outfit put together, complete with dancing particle glitter, and decide to do this blog than I get word that Fancy Decor has done metallic pumpkins for Fifty Linden Friday and is leaving them out through Sunday! I quickly grab the orange and gold for my pictures and here we are…I’m feeling a bit like Queen Midas if I say so myself.
Ohh, where is my crown? Ah well, can’t blame a girl for getting distracted with all these shinies and forgetting something!