Posted in Collabor88, Cynful, Events, Fashion, Foxcity, Legacy, Lelutka, Second Life

It all comes back to you

Do you believe in Heaven above?
Do you believe in love?
Don’t tell a lie, don’t be false or untrue
It all comes back to you
Open fire, on my burning heart
I’ve never been lucky in love
My defenses are down
A kiss or a frown
I can’t survive on my own
If a girl walks in and carves her name in my heart
I’ll turn and run away
Everyday we’ve all been led astray
It’s hard to be lucky in love
It gets in your eyes, it’s making you cry
Don’t know what to do, don’t know what to do
You’re looking for love
Calling Heaven above
Send me an angel
Send me an angel
Right now, right now

cynful magika foxcity damien bearded guy

hair: Magika – Lyric
head: LeLUTKA Fleur Head 2.0
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) Perky Edition (1.3.1)
skin: [theSkinnery] Dalia (LeLutkaEVO) @ C88

Cynful Diamond Earrings
Cynful Diamond – Choker
Cynful Diamond – Bracelets

*T.Whore* – Sexy Fur Stole White (no longer available)
[Cynful] Stripper Body Dust
Cynful Sparkle Dress @ C88

pose: FOXCITY. Heatwave Bento Pose Set

Baby Crimsom – Pervert Side – The Bearded Guy
**I added decor & Damien**

 

Posted in Fashion, Kustom9, Legacy, Lelutka, poses, Second Life, shopping, skin, tattoo, Uber SL

Trying Something

Every once in a while I like to tap into my dark side. In now way does this begin to compare to some of the incredibly talented bloggers we have on the AsteroidBox team, but I still wanted to try a dark shot…so I did. I don’t have any deep or meaningful things to say today. I just wanted to try something different. Hopefully, people will like it. *bites her black nails*

demon

hair: Magika – Midnight
head: LeLUTKA Fleur Head 2.0
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) (1.2)
skin: DeeTaleZ *SKINS* for LELUTKA HEADS (EVO.) – Flora
tattoo: THIS IS WRONG Mind Flyer Shine+tattoo

makeup: THIS IS WRONG Creep makeup
eyes: [Heaux] Grave Eyes
ears: ^^Swallow^^ Persia Ears @ Kustom9

toksik – Devil’s Manner Horns
*PKC* Danni Collar @ Kinky
Mug – Killer Nurse – #2 Test Subject RARE
AsteroidBox. Layla Bikini @ Equal10
**UTOPIA@Design** – “PRIYA” @ Uber

pose: Bauhaus Movement – Fade to Black

background: The Asylum Backdrop – The Bearded Guy

Posted in Apple Fall, breathe, Bueno, Collabor88, Dahlia, Events, FaMESHed, Fashion, Glam Affair, Home Decor, Kustom9, Legacy, Lelutka, Second Life, shoes, shopping, skin, Uber SL

Paw to the Jaw

I love my cat. I really do, but I’m starting to understand why people prefer dogs. I woke up this morning to a paw to the jaw. Yep, that’s right, he walked on my face. My reaction was a slinging arm which resulted in a cat flung across the bed, followed by a soft murr. This was not a wounded cat sound. Trust me, I’ve heard plenty of those noises. Step on a cat’s tail just once and  you’ll never forget it. No, just three little gentle murrs. I couldn’t go back to sleep at this point. I had to get up and find out if he was okay. I’m not a monster, ya know? He’s fine. Once he saw that I was awake, his attitude suddenly changed. I swear that he looked at me and in his little meow language said, “Oh, you’re up! Feed me?”
Needless to say, I fed the little bastard and now he’s lying comfortably on his perch, licking himself. I’m pretty sure he’s quite proud of himself this morning. *looks out the window* FFS, the sun isn’t even up yet. I suspect there’s a nap in my future.

bossom elm

hair: Magika – Sunrise
head:  LeLUTKA Fleur Head 2.0
ears: ^^Swallow^^ Persia Ears @ Kustom9
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) (1.2)
skin: [Glam Affair] Anika Skin @ Uber

Kibitz – Tricia’s bracelet
Blossom&Seeds Shannon @ Uber
[BREATHE]-Mitsune Heels @ Uber

pose is in the mat

scene:
.peaches. Wanderlust – Books

Apple Fall Aspidistra in Wicker Planter

Ariskea [Sunrise] Succulent Ceramic hangers
Ariskea[Julia] Peonies Basket [Rose] @ FaMESHed

BUENO-Laptop Hustle

Dahlia – Himalayan Salt Lamp – Natural – Coral

Elm. Marley Standing Desk @ Collabor88
Elm. Marley Standing Desk – Book Stack
Elm. Marley Standing Desk – Bullet Journal
Elm. Marley Standing Desk – Cacti Candle
Elm. Marley Standing Desk – Cactus Candle #1
Elm. Marley Standing Desk – Cactus Candle #2
Elm. Marley Standing Desk – Diffuser
Elm. Marley Standing Desk – Doughnut Snack
Elm. Marley Standing Desk – Lamp
Elm. Marley Standing Desk – Mesh Board [White]
Elm. Marley Standing Desk – Speakers
Elm. Marley Standing Desk – Stapler
Elm. Marley Standing Desk – Stool [White Top]
Elm. Marley Standing Desk – Succulent Pot
Elm. Marley Standing Desk – Washi Tape
Elm. Marley Standing Desk [White Top]
Elm. Marley Standing Mat

Foxwood – Lilly – Puppy Basket – pink

Granola. Puff Puff Pretty Collection. @ Equal10
Granola. Puff Puff Pretty Ashtray.
Granola. Puff Puff Pretty Bud Vase.
Granola. Puff Puff Pretty Catch-All.
Granola. Puff Puff Pretty Edibles.
Granola. Puff Puff Pretty Herbal Tea.
Granola. Puff Puff Pretty Make-up Clutter.

LEMME…Natural Girl Collection @ Equal10
LEMME…Enlightened Sexuality + Dildo
LEMME…Natural Girl // RARE
LEMME…Something to hang // Memphis
LEMME…Yin Yang Inciense holder stick
LEMME..Natural Dildo // Rose Quartz

MudHoney Classic Photo Room 5

dust bunny . hanging plants . cheese plant
dust bunny . hanging plants . double planter
dust bunny . hanging plants . ivy planter
dust bunny . pink medinilla plant

Posted in Events, Fashion, Foxcity, Lelutka, Maitreya, Second Life, shopping, Uber SL

Consistency?

Yes, I have been playing in Photoshop again. I learned some new tricks, got a new add on…so I shall be experimenting quite a bit. I’ve been told I need to find my style and establish some consistency. I’m going to try, but I’m not sure consistency IS my style. I’ve always been the kind of person that just goes with how I’m feeling. I’m a complex woman with a colorful past, more demons than any one person should have, and my mind goes a gazillion miles a minute in all directions. But it has been said that if I want to be taken more seriously as a blogger I will need to calm my little ass down. *laughs* I’m not sure what’s going to happen yet, but being tamed isn’t really something I’ve ever really longed for in the past. We’ll see…

magika cx spirit

 

Sady is wearing:
hair:  Magika – Sage
^^Swallow^^ Charm Ears
head: LeLUTKA Nova Head 1.0
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
skin: [the Skinnery] Ashley (Lelutka) @ Uber

Cae :: Eternal :: Collar
:::NOIR::: Kate Necklace
[CX] x Ichigo – Yoni’s Passion @ Hentai Fair
SPIRIT – Chloe jeans

pose: FOXCITY. Angels Bento Pose Set

Posted in Events, Fashion, Lelutka, Maitreya, Second Life, shopping, Uber SL

Conditional Love

There’s a lot to be said about the topic of unconditional love and this is a subject I struggle with quite a bit. I don’t think we can necessarily turn off love as if it were a water fountain or a light switch. However, I do think there are times in our lives that we must distance ourselves from people we love. I have loved a lot of people in my life. Despite what people like to believe, I’m a very loving person with a lot of love to give. With that said, I am not perfect, nor will I continue to show someone that love if they mistreat me or endanger my well being. It has taken me years to get to a place where I’m even close to loving myself as completely as I should. I’ll be damned if I’m going to risk that self love for someone that treats me or themselves like shit.
I wouldn’t say that my love has conditions, but there’s only one person on this planet that I will ever love so completely that no matter what they do (imagine the absolute worst) that I would still love them with all of my heart…and that person is my mother. Everyone else? Well, I love some people more deeply than others, but there are some sure fire ways to kill my love. I’ve walked away from people I loved more than once, because they’re too self centered or delusional. Friendship and love are two way streets, you get what you give with me. So, if you treat me as disposable, I will be leave. If you treat me like an option, I’ll remove myself from the equation. It really is that simple, because I’m not gonna be your ride or die knowing you’re going to jump out of the car before we drive off the cliff.

magika cx cureless

Sady is wearing:
hair:  Magika – Faye
^^Swallow^^ Charm Ears
head: LeLUTKA Nova Head 1.0
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
skin: [the Skinnery] Ashley (Lelutka) @ Uber

[CX] Ziekling’s Tongue
CURELESS[+] Eirisse Set

pose: Diversion – Faded Poses @ Aenigma

Posted in Chic Moda, Events, FaMESHed, Fashion, Maitreya, Second Life, The Liaison Collaborative

Dim Light

This is exactly how I feel when I’m trying to think of something to write about and have zero things on my mind. Damn meditation has me clearing that space way too much these days. Plus, I might not have much of a life. *sighs* Sometimes I just don’t have a lot to say, which is funny to me, because once upon a time people couldn’t shut me up. In fact, I got in trouble for talking in class all through school. After years of being told to shut up, I guess it finally sunk in. My last real romantic partner in SL (over two years ago…just wow) was always saddened by that. Apparently, people that have tried to dim my light have finally succeeded. I might be on a path of recovery with my mental health, but I don’t think I will ever be fully healed. I can change my outlook on life and be grateful, but the one thing I can’t seem to fully do is reignite that light. *shrugs* So goes life…at least mine, anyway.

magika chicmoda tlc

hair:  Magika – Fiona
head: GENUS Project – Genus Head – Classic Face
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
ChicModa  // Bellita Crop Sweater & Pencil Skirt @ FaMESHed

pose: LePoppycock *Writer’s Block* First Lines @ The Liaison Collaborative

 

 

Posted in Bueno, Catwa, Collabor88, Events, Fashion, Glam Affair, Kustom9, Second Life, The Liaison Collaborative

Love is a beautiful thing

My sexuality isn’t something I talk about or advertise in my profile, because I simply don’t feel the need. I try my best not to put myself in some box under some label that someone else came up with, but for some reason if you don’t claim a “team” its automatically assumed that you’re straight. Honestly, I don’t really care that much what people think, but I suppose if I had to assume a label, I’d say I’m pansexual. Now, this is one of those things that people seems to confuse with bisexual, but the its actually a bit different. It simply means that sexuality is fluid and that I love people. The people I have loved over the years have been a variety of things. I’ve loved mostly men, that’s true, but I’ve loved women, too. In Second Life, I’ve loved women that used male avatars. They didn’t identify as men in real life and had no desire to, but they were more comfortable living as men in Second Life. That’s one of the beauties of Second Life. You can be whatever you want….young, old, male, female…thin, fat, tall, short…etc.
So, why say anything about it now? Well, I recently heard someone make a comment about bisexuals & pansexuals being wishy washy and greedy. I have to disagree. I’m VERY picky and you’ll be hard pressed to find anyone on the grid that would say otherwise. I’m not out there sleeping with everyone. I won’t date just anyone to fill that relationship void. Even in my darkest hours, I didn’t do that. The question I have is why does it matter who I love? Why does it matter who anyone loves? Love is a beautiful thing and should be celebrated in all its forms. If you are lucky enough to find someone that you genuinely love and they love you back, then do you and be happy. ♥

asteroidbox x2

hair: Magika – Prudence
head: CATWA HEAD Catya v4.0
skin: [Glam Affair] Maria Applier [ Catwa ]
ears: ^^Swallow ^^ Crusties
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) (1.1)
tattoo: Tattoo “Maneki Neko”_by GoK

(Yummy) Corrine Ring Set
BUENO-Safety Set @ Collabor88
AsteroidBox. Idyia Top @ Equal10
AsteroidBox. Ayla Skirt @ Kustom9

pose: Amitie Lust pack @ The Liaison Collaborative

Posted in Collabor88, Events, Fashion, Glam Affair, Prism Events, Salem, Second Life, Self Reflection

Positive Direction

So, if you’ve read my blog regularly in the past couple of years, you probably know how dark things got for me. How deep in a hole of depression I was sinking and that I felt hopeless to do anything about it. However, recently, I have turned a page. I have found hope for the first time in many years. If it was not for the amazing friends that I have in Second Life, I honestly don’t think I’d be alive today. There were so many times that I wanted to give up, but thanks to an incredible support system I am still here and I am moving forward in the most positive direction I’ve taken in many years. The road ahead is not an easy one, but I have not come all this way, through all this crap, to give up now.

salem addams ga

hair: Magika – Irene
head: LeLutka Bento Head-KORINA
body: -Belleza- Freya
skin: [Glam Affair] Gabbi [ Lelutka ] @ C88

Izzie’s – Whiskey Eyes (lights)
Izzie’s – Festive Shimmer Eye Make-Up
Izzie’s – Glossy Lipstick (LeLutka)
Ascendant – Make Me Melt Nails @ Kinky

Kaithleen’s Rollneck Sweater @ Salem
Addams // Mackenzi Rolled Jeans

pose by Ana Poses
location:  { Corruption }

Posted in Catwa, Events, Fashion, Foxcity, Glam Affair, Home Decor, Maitreya, Second Life, Uber SL

Seasonal Confusion

Well, its still hotter than hell where I live and getting hotter by the day, which is completely insane. The predicted temperatures for September 30th are 95°f/35°c!!! That’s not right!! However, Autumn is setting in over the grid and I am loving it. I am more than happy to decorate and explore, pretending that its Fall…so long as I’m at my desk. *laughs* This cockamamey weather can suck an egg! Of course, I complain about the heat, but come wintertime…while my friend, Dusty, is dealing with 6ft of snow, I’ll be sitting pretty with no ice or snow in sight. Oh it will be cold, no doubt about that, but we won’t be shoveling snow. Even if we get some, it won’t likely last more than a few hours.
In the meantime, I’ll suffer through Mother Nature’s seasonal confusion and wait for the temperature to drop. As soon as it does, I can break out my apple cinnamon candles, my cardigans, and my favorite cozy sweaters.

deaddollz eudora3d rezz room uber

Magika – Sierra
CATWA HEAD Catya v3.2
[Glam Affair] Maria Applier
Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
EarthStones Eye Glasses – The Web @ Uber
**CC** – Glitterati @ Uber
Cae :: Morticia :: Necklace @ Uber
Cae :: Morticia :: Dangle Earrings @ Uber
[ kunst ] – Hazel Rings @ Uber
Dead Dollz – Maple Sweater @ Uber
Eudora3D Rosemary Boots @ Uber

pose: FOXCITY. Loco Bento Pose Set

scene:
hive // start of autumn journal . group gift

NOMAD // AUTUMN LEAVES @ Kustom9
NOMAD // Autumn Leaves
NOMAD // Rake and Basket

NOMAD // Autumn Garden Bench w. Leaves

O.M.E.N – Autumn Harvest Truck – Brown

PLAAKA Ham&CheeseSandwich @ Kustom9
PLAAKA TartanThermos&Tea @ Kustom9

[Rezz Room] Red Fox Up
[Rezz Room] Red Fox Watchout
[Rezz Room] Red Fox Animesh (Companion] RARE

Posted in Collabor88, Events, Fashion, Glam Affair, Maitreya, Second Life

Science Experiment

Sometimes I think that Earth is a giant petri dish or a science experiment conducted by aliens. We’ve surely gone awry. I think that David Bowie must have thought so, too.

There’s a starman waiting in the sky
He’d like to come and meet us
But he thinks he’d blow our minds
There’s a starman waiting in the sky
He’s told us not to blow it
Cause he knows it’s all worthwhile
He told me:
Let the children lose it
Let the children use it
Let all the children boogie
~ David Bowie – Starman

tetra magika

head: GENUS Project – Baby Face
SU!– Piercing Set 01
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
skin: [Glam Affair] Abby @ Belle

Magika – Billie
TETRA – Diva – Top & Shorts @ Collabor88
TETRA – Diva – Pants & Belt @ Collabor88
TETRA – Diva – Boots @ Collabor88

Diversion – Night Light Poses @ Flourish
[BH9] – Cyber City @ Anthem