Posted in Catwa, Events, Fashion, Lybra, Maitreya, Second Life, shopping, Uber SL

Two Hearts

“A new love is something painful
Two hearts, unstable
I went numb and ran away
So I wouldn’t be able
To get let down, I was high
To touch the ground from the sky
A new love is somethin’ fatal
And I wouldn’t be able
I wasn’t expecting you
Like a punch that knocks the wind out
I think you’re changin’ everything
‘Cause I’m about to let you in now”

snapshot_073

Basics:
head: CATWA HEAD Catya
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
skin: [Glam Affair] Dee Applier

hair: TRUTH Surrender
LYBRA . JENNY @ Uber

.ARISE. Be Mine Pose 2
anxiety %entertainment skybox

Posted in Avenge, Catwa, Events, Fashion, GingerFish, Gingerfish Poses, Home Decor, Maitreya, Second Life

Believe in Something

Believe in something…live for something…don’t just exist.

It’s difficult to admit that I’ve allowed myself to slip so far down the rabbit hole that I don’t even recognize myself anymore. That I let life get the better of me and relinquished my terms completely. All of my boundaries faded away as I shriveled down into myself. Then I had a conversation with an old friend that really made me think. She suggested that I must have something to look forward to…something to live for…and I couldn’t think of a single one. So, more than a resolution…this is a goal. This year, I will believe in something…might just be that my cat is an asshole, but I will believe in something. I will live for something…not someone…something else…something that’s mine. From there, perhaps I can work on a list other smaller goals I have set for myself. That’s the goal anyway. Happy  New Year and Happy Shopping ❤

believe

wearing:
hair: DOUX – Samantha
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
skin: [theSkinnery] Paola

[Avenge] Sacred Heart necklace
[Avenge] Pearls earrings
Ascendant  – Merry Bento Nails
LYBRA . AMELIE (*new* for Go by FaMESHed)

pose: GingerFish Poses – Not So Basic

For information regarding items in the background, please visit my previous post, Life of the Party.

Posted in Catwa, Events, FaMESHed, Fashion, Lybra, Maitreya, Second Life, shopping

Smoke

Another topic from my Challenge to Challenge post. This one came from Rina Edenflower: a Christmas ornament and a shovel. I immediately thought of how much I hate Christmas this year. I’ve done my best to keep in the spirit for those around me, but with these two items I couldn’t help but imagining digging a giant hole, then dumping the tree and all the ornaments into a big hole. Then lighting the whole thing on fire and watching it burn until there’s nothing left but smoke. Of course, I would never do that, but it sure amuses me to think about it.

Buried Christmas

wearing:
hair: Tableau Vivant \\ Laura hair
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
skin: [theSkinnery] Paola
LYBRA . OLIVIA (@ FaMESHed until Dec 27th)

pose by BauHaus Movement

[BH9] – The Venue (*new* @ Equal10)

 

Posted in Catwa, Chic Moda, Events, Fancy Decor, Fashion, Foxcity, Home Decor, Jian, Lybra, Maitreya, Second Life, shopping, {what next}

Do I Wanna Know?

“Do you ever get the feeling that you can’t shift the tide
That sticks around like something’s in your teeth
And some aces up your sleeve
I had no idea that you’re in deep
I dreamt about you near me every night this week
How many secrets can you keep’
‘Cause there’s this tune I found that makes me think of you somehow
When I play it on repeat
Until I fall asleep”
~ Arctic Monkeys – Do I Wanna Know?

Do I Wanna Know

wearing:
hair:  TRUTH Aislin
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
skin: [theSkinnery] Amber
LYBRA . SIRIA SET (*new* @ X by FaMESHed)
JIAN Beagle Pup (Companion – Add me!)

pose: FOXCITY. Rain Bento Pose Set

scene created on the patio of  DaD DESIGN “Woodpecker Cottage”
ChicModa // Fresno Bench (*new* @ Cosmopolitan)
LISP – Mesh – Newspaper and Coffee – Peach with steam
Fancy Decor: Rain Boots
{what next} Greenwich Rug
{what next} Floor Jar Lantern (stars)
{what next} Snake Plant
{what next} Pothos Plant (trailing)
{what next} Swiss Cheese Plant
{what next} Hanging Heart Decor – Love Grows Here

***If you are reading this on any site that suggests this post was originally published anywhere but SadyStyle by anyone other than Sadystika Sabretooth, you are reading a stolen post.

Posted in Catwa, crate, Death Row Designs, Events, FaMESHed, Fashion, Foxcity, Home Decor, Jian, Kustom9, Lamb, Lybra, Maitreya, Prism Events, Quasi, Salem, Second Life, shopping, ULTRA

Guarantees in Life

There are few guarantees in life, but one thing is for sure. You will get hurt. You will find yourself in some of the darkest places imaginable right in your own head. You will eventually die. And no matter who you are if you have tits bigger than a B cup and you sleep in a tank top, you will wake up with one tit out. It never fails.

waking the dead

wearing:
hair:  Lamb. Meow
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
eyes & shadow: [ Conviction ] Living Dead Doll
face & partial body applier: S.E CATWA + OMEGA RIDE OF THE DEAD MASK APPLY 01 (*new* @ Kustom9) ***includes Diamonds and black crown attachment-not shown

LYBRA . XL STILETTO NAILS
: CULT : Dark Side Rings

*Vanilla Bae* Holly Shirt & Cardi: (*new* @ FaMESHed)
[VALE KOER] WAIST PANTIES
**UTOPIA@Design** – “XILA” (*new* @ X by FaMESHed)

pose: FOXCITY. Bad Kitty Bento Pose Set

scene:
JIAN Spoiled Rotties 12. Skeleton Pup Companion (*new* @ Epiphany)

Quasi – Dripping with Sin – 3D Painting

crate Travelor’s Trolley (*new* @ Blueprint)

Rounded Bed (Adult) CHEZ MOI (*new* @ ULTRA)

[La Baguette] Voodoo doll (deco) (*new* @ Salem)
:::ChicaChica::: Holy blood Cocktail tray REZZ (*new* @ Salem)

drd phantom broken mirror

Fapple– Always Prepared- Side Table
Fapple– BDSM Tool Box

striped mocha – hanging lotuses – black

Posted in Catwa, Collabor88, Events, Fashion, GingerFish, Gingerfish Poses, Lybra, Maitreya, Pose Fair, Second Life, shopping, The Liaison Collaborative

Cold as November

“Oh I say you’re as cold as November
You left when I was crying
And I was crying every time you left
Oh but ain’t it kind of funny how you weren’t laughing when I left
So who’s the real king of pain?”
~ Devil Doll – Queen of Pain

I had to have some fun with this look. I just love the fun, versatility of this dress. Accessories and shoes will determine how it is interpreted. Standing in the abandoned warehouse backdrop…well, I had to do something a little twisted. Afterall, these poses were named after me.

queen of pain

wearing:
hair:   Doe: Bones – Monotone (*new* @ C88)
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
skin: [theSkinnery] Amber (*new* @ C88)
LYBRA . LANA (*new* @ TLC)
=Zenith=Victoria lace gloves
: CULT : Dark Side Rings

GingerFish Poses – Sadystika set (*new* @ Pose Fair)
Salacity – Abandoned Warehouse Photo Background (*new* @ Pose Fair)

Posted in Catwa, Events, FaMESHed, Fashion, Lybra, Maitreya, Second Life, shopping

Better Off

I really have just about given up on the idea of romance. I mean, sex will be had, but its just sex. My sexual needs can be met with toys and tumblr, easily enough. Plus, this is SL, I’m sure if I really wanted a voice in my ear, that too, would be easy enough to find. Meh, I’m just over that. I want more. I deserve more. Will I get more? Not likely. One thing is for sure, though. I will not settle for less than I deserve…not again. I’ve done that repeatedly in the past and regretted it every single time. I have yet to look back on someone I turned away and wished I could have gone back to date them afterall. The funny thing is most of these men I’ve settled for? They’ve barely taken an interest in me as a person. They want an audience. They want arm candy. They want sex. I’m honestly starting to believe that it doesn’t matter what I’m actually about, but rather what I have to offer. I’ve watched my friends lose themselves completely to different partners over the years, while a few have stayed true to themselves….most have surrendered what they truly deserved and settled for…a pretty package, a name in their partner box, an avi to cuddle with, someone they can pretend to be in love with until they hurt so much from depriving themselves of their true needs, that they are broken down to pieces. Each time this happens, they grow more desperate not to let it happen again, but only settling for less and less. Less respect, less attention, less honesty, less of everything. I’m done. I’ve been single long enough now to realize I treat myself way better than any of the men that have been in my life romantically….EVER. Not sure what that says about me, to be honest, but I do know that I seem to be better off alone. Because in the end? I don’t think they really want to know ME at all.

only one right answer

wearing:
hair:   tram G1113 hair / HUD-A
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: [Glam Affair] Dee Applier [ Catwa ] 007 (*new* @ Au Lovely)
**RE** Aliza Collar
LYBRA . SIOFRA (*new* @ FaMESHed)
pose: Purple Poses Trish set
Posted in Bad Unicorn, Catwa, Collabor88, Events, Fashion, Foxcity, Gos, Lybra, Maitreya, Second Life, shoes, shopping, TMD, Vanity Event

The Fighter

I’m on a music kick at the moment and I’ve been dealing with more pain than usual….so, I’m letting the music speak for me.

In This Moment – The Fighter

I don’t need you to save me
I don’t need you to cure me
I don’t need you and your antidote for I am my disease
I don’t need you to free me
I don’t need you to help me
I don’t need you to lead me through the light
I will always fall and rise again
Your venomous heroine
‘Cause I am a survivor
Yeah, I am a fighter
I will fall and rise above
And in your hate I find love
‘Cause I’m a survivor
Yeah, I am a fighter
I will not hide my face
I will not fall from grace
I’ll walk into the fire, baby
All my life
I was afraid to die
And now I come alive inside these flames
You don’t want me to love you
You don’t want me to need you
You don’t want to look at me for you will turn to stone
You don’t want me to hurt you
You don’t want me to bite you
You don’t want me or my aching soul
For I will only fall and rise again
Your venomous heroine
I’m a survivor
Yeah, I am a fighter
I will fall and rise above
And in your hate I find love
‘Cause I’m a survivor
Yeah, I am a fighter
I will not hide my face
I will not fall from grace
I’ll walk into the fire, baby.
All my life
I was afraid to die
But now I come alive inside these flames!
I don’t need you to save me
‘Cause I’m a survivor
Yeah, I am a fighter
I will not hide my face,
I will not fall from grace,
I’ll walk into the fire, baby
All my life
I was afraid to die
But now I come alive inside these
Alive inside these
Alive inside these
the fighter
wearing:
hair:   *Besom Hair~ Pixie *Essentials* #8
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
eyes: LOTUS. Balance Eyes 17 (Catwa) RARE (*new* @ Vanity Event)
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
skin: [PUMEC] – Alexa – / May \ – SKIN (*new* @ Vanity Event)
Astralia – Scorpion ring
LYBRA . XL STILETTO NAILS
LYBRA . VIPER FATPACK (*new* @ FrouFrou)
.:Avanti:. Classique Nylons – Black
[Gos] JAdore Pumps (*new* @ C88)
pose: FOXCITY. Leaning (Stand) VOL2 Bento Pose Set
[Bad Unicorn] ‘Blue’ Bowie Backdrop (*new* @ TMD)
Posted in Catwa, Events, FaMESHed, Fashion, GingerFish, Gingerfish Poses, Gos, Lybra, Maitreya, Second Life, shoes, shopping, The Liaison Collaborative, Vanity Event

Let Me Go

This says everything I have to say and more…

Avril Lavigne – Let Me Go ft. Chad Kroeger

Love that once hung on the wall
Used to mean something, but now it means nothing
The echoes are gone in the hall
But I still remember, the pain of December

Oh, there isn’t one thing left you could say
I’m sorry it’s too late

I’m breaking free from these memories
Gotta let it go, just let it go
I’ve said goodbye
Set it all on fire
Gotta let it go, just let it go

You came back to find I was gone
And that place is empty,
Like the hole that was left in me
Like we were nothing at all
It’s not what you meant to me
Thought we were meant to be

Oh, there isn’t one thing left you could say
I’m sorry it’s too late

I’m breaking free from these memories
Gotta let it go, just let it go
I’ve said goodbye
Set it all on fire
Gotta let it go, just let it go

I let it go and now I know
A brand new life is down this road
And when it’s right, you always know
So this time I won’t let go

There’s only one thing left here to say
Love’s never too late

I’ve broken free from those memories
I’ve let it go, I’ve let it go
And two goodbyes led to this new life
Don’t let me go, don’t let me go

Don’t let me go, don’t let me go, don’t let me go, don’t let me go

Won’t let you go, don’t let me go

lybra and gos

wearing:
hair:  Tableau Vivant // Dakota hair
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
skin: [Glam Affair] Loly

shanghai – Acalia Black Necklace (*new* @ Vanity Event)
LYBRA . MISHA  (*new* @ Kinky)
[Gos] Rockstud T-strap Pumps (*new* @ FaMESHed)

pose: GingerFish Poses Neon Burn stand (*new* @ TLC)
All The Way *RARE* – Jacked Backdrops – The Bearded Guy (*new* @ Vanity Event)

Posted in Catwa, Chic Moda, Collabor88, FaMESHed, Fancy Decor, Fashion, GingerFish, Gingerfish Poses, Home Decor, Lybra, Maitreya, Second Life, shoes, shopping, United Colors

The Classy Cougar

When I was younger, there was this woman, my mother’s age, that lived in my neighborhood that always fascinated me. At the time, I thought how much I’d like to be like her one day. Alas, that was not my destiny. She was beautiful and elegant, at least I thought so. Mind you, I was young and rather impressionable, not to mention naive. I just remember that she wore lingerie whenever you saw her at home. No, not pajamas, but beautiful lingerie, with long sheer, lace robes…some even had that furry stuff around the edges…and heels! Oh, she always had on heels to match. She was quite popular, as I’m sure you can imagine. How does the line in the song go…”She got a lot of pretty, pretty boys, that she calls friends.” She definitely had those.
For a long time, I just watched her in admiration, imagining what life was like inside her apartment. I eventually met her and she was every bit as amazing in person. I went inside her apartment and it was amazing. The colors, the curtains…she had so many beautiful things. I got to know her over the coming months. I could probably write an entire book about her. Instead, I’m sharing a brief memory of a glamorous Nubian queen that I met once upon a time, because when setting up this photo I thought of her. Isn’t it funny the impressions that people sometimes leave on our lives?

Classy Cougar

wearing:
hair:  TRUTH / Gwen
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
skin: [Glam Affair] Austine Applier [ Catwa ] Basic Line FLF

[Atomic] Dysfunctional Collar
: CULT : His Princess Rings/Silver
LYBRA . XL STILETTO NAILS

UC_Enigma_bolero (*new* @ C88)
ChicModa // Toxie bra & panties (*new* @ FaMESHed)
***ArisArisB&W~Alus77~Gardial Clogs

pose: GingerFish Poses – Tristeza set (*new* @ ebento)

scene:
Fancy Decor: Bernard Collection (*new* @ C88)
-Fancy Decor: Bernard Print
-Fancy Decor: Bernard Wall Shelf
-Fancy Decor: Bernard Tray
-Fancy Decor: Bernard Geodes
-Fancy Decor: Bernard Books
-Fancy Decor: Bernard Boxes
-Fancy Decor: Bernard Armchair – Gray
-Fancy Decor: Bernard Side Table

ARIA– Dido Vase With Lillies

tb– Bon Voyage – Clock Radio (Yellow)
-tb- Bon Voyage – Books
-tb- Bon Voyage – Vintage Camera
-tres blah- Hodgepodge – Catch All

Ariskea[Kuva] Cute succulent (*new* Go by FaMESHed)
Ariskea[Kuva] Macrame Rug

.07 [ kunst ] – Canned plant

PILOT – Hanging Planter

*LODE* Decor – Snapdragon Vase Big [dark violet]

dust bunny . fiddle leaf tree