Posted in CandyDoll, Catwa, Events, FaMESHed, Fashion, Lamb, Maitreya, Second Life, shoes, shopping

Selective

A friend of mine admitted something rather alarming to me recently. She said that before she got to know me, she was intimidated, almost afraid of me. *laughs* I kinda like the idea that people are afraid of me, but to be fair, I’m not sure why they would be unless its just my name. *laughs* On the other hand, my closest friends seem to forget my name and are shocked when I say awful things. The only way my name could have been more accurate would have been to call myself, “Filterless.” I’m true to myself and I don’t put on airs to impress other people. That can work for me and against me.

I think what happens is that people say they want the truth, but sometimes the truth isn’t always beautiful. Thus, many people find my honesty refreshing, while others find it off putting. It has taken my mother ages to accept that this is just who I am. She spent most of my life worrying about how I made her look. Honestly, I don’t think people were even thinking about her nearly as much as she thought they did.

While I am very selective about those I get close to, I am no one to be afraid of…well, unless you piss me off. Even then, its just a lot of words you’ll get from me, some of it might be brutal, I suppose, but at the same time, I’m not really that confrontational. I just walk away from people and don’t look back. I’ve been that way my entire life. I’m not going to kiss anyone’s ass in the hopes they’ll be my “friend.” We either are or we aren’t, time will tell. Disagreements might come up, but if we can’t approach them like adults then really, what kind of friendship did we have? And if you dismiss my friendship without explaining why, then again, I know that I meant nothing to you from the beginning and vice versa.

Your maturity really shows AFTER a friendship ends. Do you run about talking shit about them? Do you just dismiss it and let it go? Do you pester someone for answers? Do you insult them in hopes to get a reaction? I’m curious how other people handle things like this and I will definitely be writing more about this in the future.

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wearing:
hair:  Lamb. Luxe @ FaMESHed
head: CATWA HEAD Denice
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
skin: #PUMEC – Sophia

_CandyDoll_ Sheri Shirt @ Kinky
_CandyDoll_ Sheri Skirt @ Kinky
_CandyDoll_ Sheri Heels @ Kinky
SEmotion Libellune Sweet Kitten #18 UNCOMMON @ Limit8

pose w/props: Le Poppycock *Versions of April* Fair Flora

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Posted in CandyDoll, Catwa, Collabor88, Events, Exploration, Fashion, Foxcity, Second Life, shoes, shopping

Diamonds & Mud

Yes, I’m still processing challenges from my Challenge to Challenge post. Today I’m addressing RubyStarlight Writer‘s challenge. She suggested diamonds & mud. Unfortunately, I’m very sick in RL and all I can think of is that a stripper named Diamonds is a star mud wrestler. Yeah, I know, its weak, but so am I atm. I’m sorry, Ruby. Right now, I just want to crawl into a grave and pull a blanket of dirt over me.

sounds like a fairy tale

wearing:
hair: DOUX – Zoe hairstyle
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: –Belleza– Freya
skin: [theSkinnery] Paola

.random.Matter. – Moonbul Glasses
_CandyDoll_ Izzy Blouse (C88 until Jan 6th)
_CandyDoll_ Izzy Leggings
_CandyDoll_ Izzy Boots

pose: FOXCITY. Loner Bento Pose Set (*new* @ Limit8)
location:  The Forty Thieves Hideaway

Posted in Catwa, Events, Fashion, Foxcity, Kustom9, Lybra, Maitreya, Second Life, shopping, The Liaison Collaborative

Paper Love

“Oh, I know that boy’s gonna rip me up
‘Cause he ain’t that nice, he won’t do right
He’ll leave a nasty cut
Oh, I cry until I just dissolve
Come on watch my heart turn to pulp
Like paper (paper-paper)
Paper Love
(Paper, paper, paper, paper love)”
~ Allie X – Paper Love

Paper Love

wearing:
hair:  #Foxy – Teddy Hair (*new* @ Kustom9)
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
skin: [theSkinnery] Paola
LYBRA . KATYA BLACK PATTERN (*new* @ TLC)

pose: FOXCITY. Loner Bento Pose Set (*new* @ Limit8)

Posted in Avenge, Catwa, Eudora3D, Events, Fashion, Foxcity, Maitreya, Second Life, shoes, shopping, Uber SL, {le fil casse}

Finally Unplugged

The familiar chime of an incoming text message made her instantly look at her phone, as if trained like Pavlov’s dog. She sighed as she saw that it was him again. She chastised herself mentally, “I knew I should have left this damn phone in the room.”
She had taken a brief vacation to get away from the hustle and bustle of her daily life. She was pretending to be someone else, as she wanted a complete escape, yet here she was chained to reality by this electronic leash called a smart phone.
She lit a cigarette as she read his latest tirade. She was so sick of his shit. She had come on this trip to get away from him, but here he was nagging at her from a thousand miles away. She decided enough was enough. Texting her sister with the information for where she was staying in case of absolute emergency, she turned her phone off, finished her cigarette and went back into the quaint little beach side pub to finish her wine. She was finally unplugged…at least for a few more days.

haters flatter me

wearing:
hair: Tableau Vivant // Lordie hair (*new* @ Uber)
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
skin: [Glam Affair] Loly (*new* @ K9)
tattoo: .:::G.ID:::. Muse Tattoo

[Avenge] Anellum earrings (*new* @ Limit8)
[Avenge] Anellum bracelets (*new* @ Limit8)
(Yummy) Curator Rings Set
Ascendant – Kozma Bento Nails (*new* @ Dubai Event)

{le fil casse} Carmela Dress (*new* @ ACCESS)
Eudora3D Silao Wedges (*new* @ Uber)

pose: FOXCITY. Night Owl Bento Set
location: Achill Island

Posted in Avenge, Catwa, Events, FaMESHed, Fancy Decor, Fashion, Foxcity, Maitreya, Mina Hair, Narcisse, Second Life, shoes, shopping, Uber SL, unKindness, [BREATHE]

Selfies or Desire

Okay, so I was struggling with ideas for what to write about with this photo, because this one just kinda happened all on its own. That happens to me a lot. Sometimes I start with looking for a pose to show off an outfit or item and from there I end up building a scene around myself. I just woke up from a nice long sleep and I’m thrashing about for an idea. So, I take the internet and start looking for quotes about selfies and desire. Lord, the quotes about selfies are not very nice. So, with the sexy look of the photo and the neon sign, I decided to look for quotes about desire. Instead of finding something hot or deep, I found myself drawn to quotes that made me chuckle. So, I’m just gonna share a few below, cuz why the hell not?

Every time I look at you I get a fierce desire to be lonesome. Oscar Levant

Boredom: the desire for desires. Leo Tolstoy

Love is an irresistible desire to be irresistibly desired. Robert Frost

On some great and glorious day the plain folks of the land will reach their heart’s desire at last, and the White House will be adorned by a downright moron. H. L. Mencken

one more time

wearing:
hair:   MINA – Carissa (*new* @ FaMESHed)
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: DeeTaleZ *Appliers* CATWA Head “Myra”
tattoo: [White~Widow] Soorma (*new* @ Dubai Event)
Narcisse– Roxbury Lace up Panties (*new* @ Kinky)
[BREATHE]-Lenora Heels (*new* @ FaMESHed)

pose: FOXCITY. Selfie VOL2 Bento Pose Set

scene:
Fancy Decor: Roux Collection (*new* @ FaMESHed)
-Fancy Decor: Roux Sideboard (white)
-Fancy Decor: Roux Facial Mist
-Fancy Decor: Roux Lotion Bottle
-Fancy Decor: Roux Sink
-Fancy Decor: Roux Soap Tray
-Fancy Decor: Roux Mirror
-Fancy Decor: Roux Towel Holder

uK – Posh Living Settee Cloud GA (*new* @ Uber)

[Avenge] Hold me, Kiss me, Love neon – purple (*new* @ Limit8)

Posted in Avenge, Catwa, Events, FaMESHed, Fashion, Foxcity, Maitreya, Red Fish, Second Life

Accessories

I’m a girl that loves her accessories. Oddly enough, I rarely blog accessories. I’m not sure why. Perhaps its because I wasn’t comfortable taking close up shots. However, whenever I go out to an event, I will spend an hour putting the right accessories with it. So, I’ve decided I’m going to try to focus a bit more of my blogging photography on accessories. By the way, this dress from Dead Dollz is amazing, so hurry over to FaMESHed before it closes for the month to get yours. This dress is amazing, there are options to make it solid, semi-sheer, and quite sheer. I’m showing the semi-sheer below. This is truly a sexy dress that has some chains attached with options to change the colors of those. I’ve added the necklace and earrings from Avenge to give it a more unique look, that I’m quite happy with. I’m rambling, because I’m avoiding what’s really on my mind. So, I’ll shut up and just encourage you to go shopping and have creating you own looks.

key to my soul

wearing:
hair:  Wasabi // Oops Mesh Hair
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
ears: .:[PUMEC] :. – / Mesh Ears\ – 4 -POINT INDUSTRIAL
facial piercings: –SU!– Piercing Set 07 (*new* @ Access)
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: Glam Affair – Lily (*new* @ Kustom9)
tattoo: RedFish – Sexy flower Tattoo

*katat0nik* (silver) Anima Eyepatch & Psyche Hole
[Avenge] Fashion necklace (*new* @ Limit8)
[Avenge] Fashion earrings (*new* @ Limit8)
**RE** Julia Belly Chain
.::Dead Dollz::. Isla Outfit (*new* @ FaMESHed)

pose: FOXCITY. Breather VOL2 Animated Pose Set

Posted in Catwa, Events, Fashion, Gos, Maitreya, Second Life, shoes, shopping, Uber SL, [BREATHE]

Say Something

They say karma is a bitch, but I say karma is only a bitch if you are. However, being that none of us are perfect. I think we’re all going to deal with some sort of karma along the way. Perhaps not in the traditional sense, but I do believe that the energy you put out there will always find it’s way back to you. There are consequences for all of our actions, from the biggest to the smallest. So, instead of walking through life looking over your shoulder, why not just do right and put out your best energy?

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“Sometimes the greatest the way to say something is to say nothing at all”

wearing:
hair: DOUX – Yonce
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: Glam Affair – Viktoria Applier

[Gos] Bella Crop Top & Shorts (*new* @ Uber)
[BREATHE]-Tomoyo Heels (*new* @ Uber)

pose by Del May
OKUMA – YIN YANG – backdrop / red/white (*new* @ Limit8)

Posted in Second Life

Topless Tuesdays & Vanilla Bae

So, a lot of clubs in SL, especially adult ones, have Topless Tuesdays, but I’ve found no other club that makes it as fun as FMD. Naturally, you all know I hang out there quite a bit and that I’m a kinky bitch. Thus, it cannot surprise you that I look forward to Tuesdays. However, as I do have other responsibilities, it is sometimes difficult or just a pain in the arse to change tops every time I need to run elsewhere on a Tuesday. Lo and behold, I have found the most delicious solution. Thanks to Vanilla Bae, we now have a selection of interactive clothing that allows us to go from topless, back to modest with the click of a button. To make it even better, you can set it to private or public, or even assign users. How freaking cool is that? Its not just for tops either, this outfit I’m wearing will slide the panties over, too. Talk about convenience!!
So, if you’re a member at FMD, grab you some Vanilla Bae and c’mon over! If you’re not, I really think you should be. It’s an awesome club, plus I hang out there….duh, so you know its gotta be awesome! Oh and did I mention that Vanilla Bae is one of the sponsors at FMD? So, come to one of our parties on a Saturday night, make sure you dress in theme, you might just win!

topless tuesdays

wearing:
hair:  #Foxy – Sugar Hair
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
ears: ^^Swallow^^ Ears Silence BLACK
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: [theSkinnery] Katy
brows: –SU!- Blair Eyebrows +CATWA APPLIER

SU!– Piercing Set 05 Bridge
SU!– Bento Piercing Set 03 Nose Rings
CODE-5 Pamerale
(Yummy) Free Spirit Rings
SECRETS– Danita Nipple Chain
e.marie // Flask – Vodka

Tee*fy Eden Shrug – Black
* Vanilla Bae * Lauren Top & Panty (*new* @ equal10)

pose by Del May

Paparazzi – Slum Riverside – BACKDROP – green (*new* @ Limit8)

Posted in Avenge, Catwa, Chic Moda, Collabor88, Events, Fashion, Second Life, Tres Chic

I Tried

When I tell someone that I don’t believe I have a true love or that you no longer have a heart to give, they immediately feel sorry for me. They want to save me and convince m that there is a true love out there for me somewhere.  Meanwhile, I have a man telling me that anyone would be a fool not to love me, but does he? How could he when he is with another? I have tried to believe that there is something special out there for me, but I’ve surrendered to my fate. I know now that my place is in the shadows. I know that my place is a secret hideaway, for it in the dark that the truth hides. Whatever there is about me that people find so lovable, there must be something equally wretched that sends them away. And that’s ok. I know now that I tried. That is not my life. Love has eluded me repeatedly and now? I’m done. I tried.

I tried
Sometimes I feel that I am what I deserve
A hundred crimes, no way to pay them off
So when quiet fills the night and you hurt
Know I am sorry for all that you lost

wearing:
hair: no.match_ ~ NO_WONDERLAND (*new* @ Enchantment)
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
ears: ^^Swallow^^ Shiny Ears
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: [theSkinnery] Katy (Catwa Applier) toffee (*new* @ C88)
brows: –SU!- Blair Eyebrows +CATWA APPLIER

[Avenge] Universe necklace (long) (*new* @ TresChic)
[Avenge] Universe earring (*new @ TresChic)
ChicModa&e.marie // Knot Dress (*new* @ Whimsical)

pose by Del May
Paparazzi – Slum Riverside – BACKDROP – green (*new* @ Limit8)

Posted in Aphorism, Avenge, Catwa, Events, FaMESHed, Maitreya, Phedora, pr!tty, Second Life, shoes, shopping

Can They Truly Be Separate?

I’m a big profile perv. I love to see what people share, how they talk, or whether they’ve decided to keep it blank. Either way, I tend the find the 1st Life tab the most interesting, as so many will put something about keeping RL separate from SL. I assume they mean that they prefer to keep the details of their real lives a secret and quite possibly their second lives are a secret from those in their real lives, as well. However, I am always left wondering does anyone truly believe that its possible to keep them entirely separate?
Isn’t the real you the one typing on the keyboard? Isn’t every thought you share in SL coming from the brain (or lack there of) in your real life head? Don’t you dress to appeal to yourself? How is it possible to be so completely separate unless your entire existence here is a complete and total lie? Even then, you are bound to have a few honest thoughts slip through the cracks. Even a catfish tends to share some truths about themselves.
I suppose its not really important. It’s just something I wonder about from time to time and always makes me look at the people that write that as kind of odd. Why do you need to announce to the world that you’re keeping a secret? As a person with major trust issues, it tends to make me leery of them regardless of their intent and pull away.

aphorism phedora cae prtty

wearing:
hair: pr!tty – Juny – -Short (*new* @ SaNaRae)
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: Glam Affair – Mindy

Cae :: Arden :: Necklace (*new* @ FaMESHed)
!APHORISM! Callie Dress (*new* @ FaMESHed)
Phedora ~ Meliantha heels v2 (*new* @ Kinky)

pose: oOo Studio: Ottoman Group Gift

scene:
[Avenge] Total White backdrop (*new* @ Limit8)
[ keke ] peony . group gift spring 2018 (*new* @ FaMESHed)
Ariskea[Cocoli] Outdoor Seat[Green] (*new* @ FaMESHed)
Ariskea[Cocoli] Banana Plant (*new* @ FaMESHed)