Posted in Catwa, GingerFish, Gingerfish Poses, Maitreya, Second Life, {le fil casse}

Yesterday

“Here’s to my future
Here’s to my yesterday
Here’s to change
Oh, here’s to my yesterday
No tomorrow without a yesterday
Here’s to my future
Goodbye to yesterday
Yesterday”
~ Imagine Dragons – Yesterday

yesterday

wearing:
hair:  no.match_ ~ NO HIDE (*new* @ Salon 52)
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
skin: #20 [PUMEC] – MIA – JUNE (*new* @ Epiphany)

:::ChicChica::: Magic 8 ball
.:villena:. – Rose Bud Fur Jacket
{le fil casse} Ellie Dress (*new* @ Kustom9)
!:Lybra:! Liza Leggings
[Enchante‘] – Virginie boots

pose: GingerFish Poses – Diamonds set

Posted in Catwa, Events, Fashion, Lamb, Maitreya, Narcisse, Second Life, shopping, {le fil casse}

Yes, I Am

I don’t know too many women that don’t relate to this song, at least parts of it. The only thing I’d change is the part about being a mother, unless you count my fur babies. I’m not a mother and I don’t want to be. I’ve already raised one woman’s son and that didn’t fair too well for me. I won’t do that again. I learned that lesson the hard way. Make no mistake, I’m very much a brat, so we can just replace mother with brat and this fits me to a tee. Youtube link is at the bottom of the page, but here are the lyrics.

Meredith Brooks ~ Bitch

I hate the world today
You’re so good to me
I know but I can’t change
Tried to tell you
But you look at me like maybe
I’m an angel underneath
Innocent and sweet
Yesterday I cried
Must have been relieved to see
The softer side
I can understand how you’d be so confused
I don’t envy you
I’m a little bit of everything
All rolled into one
I’m a bitch, I’m a lover
I’m a child, I’m a mother
I’m a sinner, I’m a saint
I do not feel ashamed
I’m your hell, I’m your dream
I’m nothing in between
You know you wouldn’t want it any other way
So take me as I am
This may mean
You’ll have to be a stronger man
Rest assured that
When I start to make you nervous
And I’m going to extremes
Tomorrow I will change
And today won’t mean a thing
I’m a bitch, I’m a lover
I’m a child, I’m a mother
I’m a sinner, I’m a saint
I do not feel ashamed
I’m your hell, I’m your dream
I’m nothing in between
You know you wouldn’t want it any other way
Just when you think, you got me figured out
The season’s already changing
I think it’s cool, you do what you do
And don’t try to save me
I’m a bitch, I’m a lover
I’m a child, I’m a mother
I’m a sinner, I’m a saint
I do not feel ashamed
I’m your hell, I’m your dream
I’m nothing in between
You know you wouldn’t want it any other way
I’m a bitch, I’m a tease
I’m a goddess on my knees
When you hurt, when you suffer
I’m your angel undercover
I’ve been numb, I’m revived
Can’t say I’m not alive
You know I wouldn’t want it any other way

yes I am

wearing:
hair:  Lamb.. Wait (*new* in mainstore)
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: Glam Affair – Viktoria Applier

{le fil casse} Midnight Bodysuit (*new* @ The Fantasy Collective)
Narcisse– Taylor Skirt (FaMESHed Go)

pose by Bauhaus Movement (edited with AnyPose)

[Kres] Love Lights – Brat

Posted in Catwa, Events, Foxcity, Maitreya, RAMA, Second Life, shoes, shopping, [ATI] Addicted to Ink, {le fil casse}

Three Phobias

I have three phobias which, could I mute them, would make my life as slick as a sonnet, but as dull as ditch water: I hate to go to bed, I hate to get up, and I hate to be alone. ~Tallulah Bankhead

I chose this quote, because I’ve grown up hearing about Tallulah Bankhead as she was born in Huntsville, AL, which is pretty much where I grew up. She’s got an amazing and very interesting history and if you’re at all interested you can read more about here on Wikipedia or simply Google her. She was definitely a woman to be reckoned with and certainly not considered to be well behaved in her time.
So, when I was asking my dear friend, Dusty, for help with what to write about for this photo, he asked me what did this picture make me feel. Immediately, I thought of women from history that stood out as mis-behaved during their time. It was at that moment that I exclaimed him a genius, while he had no idea what I was talking about until I told him a bit about Tallulah. Had he not made this so obvious to me, I most likely would have posted a song with this picture. Instead, I’ve reignited my fascination with a local legend that passed away shortly before I turned 3 months old.

Jukebox

wearing:
hair: RAMA.SALON – Grace Hair (*new* @ Epiphany)
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: Glam Affair – Mindy
tattoo: [ATI] Zyra…
EF: Sophistique Choker
EF: Sophistique Cuffs
{le fil casse} Rosario Top Maitreya Black (*new* @ Epiphany)
{le fil casse} Rosario Sleeves Maitreya Black (*new* @ Epiphany)
{le fil casse} Rosario Tie Shorts Maitreya RARE (*new* @ Epiphany)
[BREATHE]-Selena Heels

pose: FOXCITY. Higher Set

scene:
FOXCITY. Tasty AF – Diner RARE (*new* @ Epiphany)
FOXCITY. Tasty AF – Modern Jukebox RARE (*new* @ Epiphany)

 

Posted in Second Life, Seven Emporium, shoes, shopping, Uber SL, {le fil casse}

Empty and Estranged

I tried to count my blessings, I knew it wouldn’t end well. I knew it wouldn’t last forever after. Yet, now as I sit in the ruins of my disaster and look out at another sunset alone, I find it impossible to let go of my pain.  Staring out the window, raindrops cling to the glass like tears on my heart and I wonder, will I always feel this way? All the mornings I wake up looking for a sign that he still loves me, then I remember it doesn’t matter. I am tired, just so tired of hurting. My bones brittle, my heart cracked, and my soul is getting dusty. I wander a path of memories falling like leaves. I know the love we had was beautiful and they applauded us. Our quiet little life on the beach is now washed out to sea. Looking in the mirror, its the demons reflected in my eyes that remind me that when I bare my soul and open my heart, that is when I will be destroyed. Time and again, I’ve lived this hell of broken hearts and pain that would kill a lesser man. I do my best to hide the hurt, put on the happy face, ignoring the shadows of doubt that haunt me, but the truth of it is…People lie, people disappoint, people hurt, and people fuel the fire that keeps my demons alive. I suppose I will always feel this way…empty and estranged. I suppose, I always have.
Empty & Estranged
wearing:
hair: tram G1025 hair
head: CATWA HEAD Lilly
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
{le fil casse}Rowella Dress (*new* @ Uber)
N-core ABBY
pose: Foxcity GSits Vol2 Set
MINIMAL – Futuristic Backdrop (*new* @ Kustom9)
7 – Mini Hot Box Heater

Posted in Events, FaMESHed, Jian, N21, Phedora, pr!tty, Second Life, shoes, shopping, {le fil casse}

I Can Not Find the Words

It’s funny. I have a few friends that say to me, “I don’t know how you always come up with ideas for pictures and something to write about on your blog.” The pictures are no problem. I’m a very visual person, but the words fail me often and I think its obvious. I do so many posts that are barely anything written or simply a song link with lyrics. Today is one of those days, that I simply cannot find the words. However, since the picture makes me look like I’m seeking something off in the distance, being unable to find the words actually kinda fits. *laughs* So, there ya have it….I can not find the words.

on the lookout

hair: pr!tty – Bella  (*new* @ Gacha Gardens)
head: CATWA HEAD Tala
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: DeeTalez
nose piercing: –SU!– Piercing Set 05 Bridge (Catwa Tala)
lip piercing: –SU!– Piercing Set 05 Snakebites (Catwa Tala)
tattoo: .Identity. Body Shop – Deep Within
Dahlia – Natalie – Necklace (*new* @ FaMESHed)
:::NOIR::: Infinite Bracelets
(Yummy) Nightmare Ring Set
{le fil casse} Laetitia Bra Top Maitreya Black (*new* @ N21)
{le fil casse} Laetitia Skirt Maitreya RARE (*new* @ N21)
Phedora ~ Harley Boots ~ 28 C. (*new* @ Kinky Monthly)

pose: FOXCITY. On Point VOL2 Bento Pose Set
MINIMAL – VIBE Backdrop *4* (*new* @ Epiphany)
JIAN Broken Spider Pot

Posted in 4Mesh, CandyDoll, Collabor88, Events, Exploration, Gingerfish Poses, Second Life, shoes, shopping, {le fil casse}

A Better Day

Once upon a time there was a girl that saw nothing but drama on Facebook all day long. She hated seeing people she cared about at each other’s throats and desperately wanted everyone to get along. She watched insults being flung about carelessly and it made her sad. She knew she was powerless against all the hate and anger. She knew that getting involved or tossing in her two cents would only make things worse. Instead, she decided to close the window and spend more time with herself. She’s never understand why people who clearly didn’t like one another would spend so much time and energy spreading hate. She had enough problems and much bigger ones than picking people apart. She was much happier in her little blogger bubble, decorating and playing dress up. She remembered why she had begun to isolate herself and sighed gratefully for the close friends that she had. As she went to bed that night, she burned her sage wand to rid herself of the day’s negativity and sending love out into the world, hoping that today would be a better day not just for her, but for everyone.

exploring elysion

wearing:
hair: TRUTH HAIR Tyne
head: CATWA HEAD Tala
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
*AvaWay* Jasmine_Bracelet & Ring
Entice – School Girl Crush Top (*new* @ 4Mesh)
{le fil casse} Sharina Mini Skirt (*new* @ Frou Frou)
_CandyDoll_ Yira Heels (*new* @ C88)

pose: GingerFish Poses – Strut set (*new* @ eBento)
location Elysion

Posted in Fashion, Second Life, Self Reflection, shopping

Head in the Clouds

Head in the clouds
Got no weight on my shoulders
I should be wiser
And realize that I’ve got
One less problem without ya!
Ariana Grande Problems

head-in-the-clouds-2
How often do we resolve to let go of someone or something, only to keep grabbing it at, to keep talking about it…even a year, sometimes even years, after the fact? We know life is better, yet we keep diving into that memory bank forcing ourselves to relive or romanticize the past.  I’m not pointing fingers at anyone, trust me that I don’t know a single person that doesn’t do this to some degree. We all have at least one ex that did a real number on us and permanently altered our outlook on life. I’m not talking about that feeling of falling backwards through some musical portal because of an unexpected song. I’m talking about still making decisions hoping that someone is still watching. With all the social media at our fingertips its easier than ever to keep tabs on ex friends and lovers. Easier for us to be stalked, too.

William Shakespeare said, “All the world’s a stage, and all the men and women merely players: they have their exits and their entrances; and one man in his time plays many parts, his acts being seven ages.”

I can only imagine what he would think of said stage with all of the ways we put on a show these days. One look at YouTube will prove that anyone can be on film these days. So, back to what I was saying…why? Why do we insist on parading our lives about like peacocks displaying our plumage? I can tell you that peacocks are showing off in the hopes of getting laid…so what’s our excuse? Most of us would immediately jump to the defense and deny that we’re trying to seduce an ex. So why are we seeking their attention? What are we hoping to gain? Oh look what you lost. If our value was recognized, it wasn’t for the photos or actions done after the break. Not to mention that what we’re doing is pretty damn obvious to everyone around us. I can only come up with one answer: We didn’t honestly let go…we’re simply swinging in and out of the past. When we’re truly ready to let go we’ll soar high and leap from that swing and move on to another area of our proverbial playground without looking back. Gawd, my brain hurts sometimes…*facepalms*
In the meantime, may we all get the attention we seek and get even closer to leaping off the swings, running across the playground and sliding into our future. Nothing wrong with having our head in the clouds, so long as we keep our feet on the ground. I’ll see you at the playground! *winks*

wearing:
hair: pr!tty – Kyla (*new* @ The Forest)
CATWA HEAD Dyana
Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
L’Etre – Hestia Mesh Ears
^^Swallow^^ Ear Cuff Cross
*MUKA* Collar Love
*MUKA* Cuff Love
[HoR] Tease Bodysuit for Her  (*new* @ SWANK)
{le fil casse} spring leg cage
[BREATHE]-Tango Heels (*new* @ The Forest)

scene:
pose in featured image: shi.s.poses dreamy clouds #4 complete w/background & attachments (*new* @ You.Gatcha Event )
{anc} cirque de reverie .15/ blanc / balloon stands

close up pose by Del May