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Way Down We Go

“Father tell me, we get what we deserve
Oh we get what we deserve
And way down we go
Way down we go
Say way down we go
Way down we go
You let your feet run wild
Time has come as we all oh, go down
Yeah but for the fall oh, my
Do you dare to look him right in the eyes?”
~Kaleo – Way Down We Go

How many of us truly belong in karma or some sort of divine justice? We’ve all heard people say, “there’s a special place in hell for people like that.” Some of us have even thought it or said it ourselves. So, while we sit in judgement of others, regardless of their offense, how many of us want the karma or divine justice we deserve? How many of us have taken a friend or lover down with us?
I think that its far too easy and convenient to point the fingers at others. I think that most of us revel in the crimes of the obscene, for it relieves us of some of the guilt we carry within our hearts. However, what if there’s a special place in hell for people like us? Does karma just skip the little stuff? Just food for thought.

going down

wearing:
hair: [monso] My Hair – Nako (*new* Go! by FaMESHed)
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
skin: [Glam Affair] Loly (*new* @ K9)
tattoo: [White~Widow] Soorma

Pseudo- Trucker Jacket Black (*new* @ K9)
{le fil casse} Trinity Bustier Top (*new*  @ ULTRA)
BUENO-Happy Skirt (*new* @ K9)

**pose is in a hud that comes with the jacket

anxiety %chicago build1

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Perspective

What I have is a malevolent curiosity. That’s what drives my need to write and what probably leads me to look at things a little askew. I do tend to take a different perspective from most people. David Bowie

perspectives

wearing:
hair: RAMA.SALON – Brigit Hair  (*new* @ FaMESHed)
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: [theSkinnery]  Iris (Catwa Applier) toffee
{le fil casse} Jessica Dress (*new* @ Blush)

pose: GingerFish Poses – Invigorate set (*new* @ Pose Fair)
background: OKUMA – Something Deep – backdrop / violet

Posted in CandyDoll, Catwa, Death Row Designs, Events, Fashion, Home Decor, Jian, N21, RAMA, Second Life, shoes, shopping, Uber SL

Losing It

I remember the first time I saw my mom just lose it. She had spent hours making this cake from scratch, but it tilted so bad and kept sliding, no matter what she tried. Next thing I know she’s screaming and attacks the cakes with her claw like hands and cakes went everywhere. The next time I saw her lose it was when we had borrowed a VW Bug from a friend. It had a stick shift (look it up if you’re too young to know) and she hated them, the clutch would stick, too. It was the first time I heard the F word. *gasps* I think the first time I truly lost it was in high school. It was a really bad hair day and I broke my hair brush. Many times, I’ve felt like throwing all my papers in the air when writing…and once upon a time I did all my writing on paper. *giggles* Most days this is what my brain feels like…someone just threw my life in the air and I’m doing my best to grab it all and make some sense of it.

losing it
The writer stares with glassy eyes —
Defies the empty page,

wearing:
hair: RAMA.SALON – Sonya Hair (*new* @ Shiny Shabby)
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: [theSkinnery]  Iris (Catwa Applier) toffee
Cae :: Zora :: Glasses (*new* @ The Clique)
::GB::Off Shoulder Cardigan (F)/ Gray
{le fil casse} Alysha Dress (*new* @ Uber)
_CD_ Deya Wedge (*new* @ N21)

JIAN Marble Fox (Static – Sleeping L)

pose: Bauhaus Movement

scene:
a lot of books from all over the grid
bookcase and fireplace – DRD – Shadow Box – Series 01 – FEB 2018 – LIGHT

 

Posted in Catwa, Events, FaMESHed, Foxcity, Maitreya, Second Life, shopping, [ATI] Addicted to Ink, {le fil casse}

I Won’t Keep Watching

Once in a while we fight doing the right thing, because we’re not sure what that is. Cutting people from our lives is a lot like that. Its hard, because you’re ditching your loyalty. That’s pretty serious, but it would seem that sometimes our loyalty needs to be to ourselves first and foremost. If we don’t treat ourselves the way we want to be treated, how will anyone else even begin to figure out what we want.
I believe I must be at an advantage here, because as a child we moved every 2-3 yrs. So, I was constantly saying goodbye to people and letting go. By the time I grew up, letting go and walking away was far easier for me than others. The challenge for me was to stop walking away. Eventually, I started hanging on to people for dear life. I was scared to death that if I kept walking away, I’d never learn to just be in the here and now. I wasn’t running, I was simply walking away from anyone and anything that didn’t enhance my life. Now, I’m starting to understand what its like for other people and the struggle to let people go. However, one thing I’ll never have to fight or struggle with for long is letting go of some I feel is abusive. That will never be okay and something I outgrew a really long time ago.
There’s a line in the song I’ve attached that really struck a personal chord with me:
I won’t keep watching you
Dance around in your smoke
And flicker out
You’re not the light I used to know

more selfies
That empowering moment when you delete & block them. 

wearing:
hair:  Tableau Vivant \\ Francesca hair (*new* @ FaMESHed)
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
-SU!- Amoret Eyeliner +CATWA APPLIER+
-SU!- Xanthe Lip Gloss +CATWA APPLIER+
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: [theSkinnery]  Saska
hand tattoo: [ATI] Destiny Lite…Maitreya Applier…
nails: Astralia – Compatible nails system (Maitreya Stiletto base)
toksik – Bloom Choker (Group Gift)
{le fil casse} Kassie Ruffle Hearts Top (*new* @ FrouFrou)

pose: [ATI] Destiny Lite Set (*new* @ Suicide Dollz)
FOXCITY. K-POP Star 2 – Because I am The Best (Rez) (2) RARE (*new* @ Arcade)

Posted in Events, FaMESHed, Fashion, Foxcity, Gos, pr!tty, Second Life, shoes, shopping, Uber SL, {le fil casse}

Not a Gift

Every year at Christmas we are bombarded with ads for new cars. We see some weeping wife come out to a car with a giant bow on top. We might see a husband come outside all delighted to the same thing. Occasionally, its a teenager, but here’s the thing that kills me. These commercials rarely tell you the actual cost of the car, its all about the financing. Zero percent down, zero interest for this long, blah blah blah. I’m sorry to inform you, but if its not paid for then its not a gift. Its a loaner with a promise.
You see, many many years ago, I was in a relationship with a man that bought me the most beautiful living room suit for my birthday. I was over the moon. It was leopard print and had this gorgeous elephant coffee table. I went crazy decorating with all sorts of jungle themed touches. It was that same birthday that he took me to a party of some girl he worked with and we had a good time. A couple of weeks later I find out he’s been cheating on me with THAT girl. Needless to say that relationship came to an abrupt halt. A few weeks later, some men showed up with a moving truck to reclaim my living room suit, because it had been financed and wasn’t paid off! The one good thing I thought I had gotten from that relationship was being ripped out from under me and now I had no furniture at all. Why? Because I had given mine away when he surprised me with the new stuff.
So, dear car dealers, unless Mom, Dad, Wifey, Hubby, etc are coming in with the full cost of the car….that is NOT a gift!

a new car

wearing:
hair: pr!tty – Chae – :rigged: (*new* @ Gacha Gardens)
head: CATWA HEAD Uma
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: DeeTaleZ  “Merrylu” Mixedtype
tattoo: [White~Widow] Chocolat – Black
**RE** Raven Collar – Lock
{le fil casse} Sheena Top (*new* @ Uber)
=Zenith=Leather Belt Gloves
Astralia – Compatible mesh nails system
GingerFish -Nail Applier-Astralia-Bloody Kisses
Blueberry – Poppy Leggings
[Gos] Boutique – Monza Belted Boots (*new* @ FaMESHed)

pose: Foxcity Souffle Set

scene:
taikou / late night tunnel backdrop (lights on)
! [MiChIGaN’s ShAcK!] Hard Driven – Premium Edition

Posted in Apple Fall, Bueno, CandyDoll, Events, Fashion, Second Life, shoes, shopping, TMD, {le fil casse}

In Between

Kelsea Ballerini – In Between

In between just a flame and a ring
In between an apartment and a frontporch swing
In between cheap and fancy a guitar and a Grammy
In between reckless and responsibility
Sometimes I’m my mother’s daughter, sometimes I’m her friend
Sometimes I play grown up and sometimes I play pretend
Sometimes I’m a princess dressed all ribbons and all curls
And sometimes I just wanna scream “I’m not a little girl!“
Dumb enough to think I know it all
Smart enough to know I don’t
Young enough to think I’ll live forever
Old enough to know I won’t
In between
In between beer and basement
And Napa Valley vacation
In between hometown and a neon city
In between underestimated and overexpectated
Who I was and who I’m gonna be
Sometimes I’m my mother’s daughter, sometimes I’m her friend
Sometimes I play grown up and sometimes I play pretend
Sometimes I’m a princess dressed all ribbons and all curls
And sometimes I just wanna scream, “I’m not a little girl“
Dumb enough to think I know it all
Smart enough to know I don’t
Young enough to think I’ll live forever
Old enough to know I won’t
I know I won’t
I’m half head up in the clouds, half feet down on the ground
‘Cause it ain’t that simple
As an adult sittin’ on that page when they say, “Act your age“
But you’re stuck there in the middle
Sometimes I’m my mother’s daughter, sometimes I’m her friend
Sometimes I play grown up and sometimes I play pretend
Sometimes I’m a princess dressed all ribbons and all curls
And sometimes I just wanna scream “I’m not a little girl!“
Dumb enough to think I know it all
Smart enough to know I don’t
Young enough to think I’ll live forever
Old enough to know I won’t
In the in between
Yeah
In the in between
hey sweetpea it’s mama
Just wanna let you know that I love you
Thinkin’ about you, missin’ you while I’m on the road
Can’t wait to see you when I get back

sight seeing

wearing:
hair: /Wasabi Pills/ Chai Mesh Hair
head: CATWA HEAD Lilly
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
{le fil casse} Soraya Dress
_CandyDoll_ Soraya Coat
_CandyDoll_ Soraya Boots

pose: an lar [poses] The Alisha Series

scene:
MINIMAL – Sevilla Backdrop //2// (*new* @ TMD)
[DDD] Twinkling Ivy
BUENO-Bike -Pink
Apple Fall Wrought Iron Chair RARE (Dec Pocket Gacha)
Apple Fall Wrought Iron Table (Dec Pocket Gacha)
Apple Fall Crumpled Newspaper

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Ribbons & Detours

Sadly, I just do not have it in me to write something creative at the moment. My heart is heavy, so I give you a song and some lyrics. I hope you’ll enjoy it.

Silverspun Pickups – Ribbons & Detours

I can’t believe it
You of all things
It’s been a while
Memories teem
Some kind of ending
Lingering
In my tresedo
Internally
Ribbons and Detours mean nothing to me
Swaying the sentiments pulling the strings
Tempting me softly but killing the dream
You say it’s over but maybe.
It’s the same old thing.I can’t believe it
You of all things
Counting the moments
Deviously
In-turning our parts
Reconnecting
Tranquilized slowly
Inside of me
Ribbons and Detours mean nothing to me
Swaying the sentiments pulling the strings
Tempting me softly but killing the dream
You say it’s over but maybe.
It’s the same old thing
I gave the softest smarts
Trapped by the darkest parts
Whispered the tendered thoughts
Made of alderestic scenes
Ribbons and Detours mean nothing to me
Swaying the sentiments pulling the strings
Tempting me softly but killing the dream
You say it’s over but maybe.
It’s the same old thing
It’s the same old thing
It’s the same old thing
It’s the same old thing

cut the ties that bind you

wearing:
hair: [DUE] Kenin // Ombre 1 (*new* @ SaNaRae)
head: CATWA HEAD Tala
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
{le fil casse} Everly Headband Black RARE
**RE** Bad Kitty Collar
**RE** Deah Gloves
{le fil casse} Minnie Collection Dress Maitreya RARE (*new* @ LootBox)
_CandyDoll_ Carolina Heels (*new* @ Shoetopia)

pose & backgroun w/ribbons: Sari-Sari – Puppet Skybox

Posted in Kustom9, N21, Phoenix, Pretty Mess, Second Life, Shiny Shabby, {le fil casse}

Before Tequila

She hears the word tequila and a wry smile forms on her face. She doesn’t care what the reason if tequila is involved, she’s in! There’s just one little problem…when it comes to tequila she doesn’t know when to quit. Dun dun dunnnnn….you might want to check back on her later…there’s bound to be a story. (…to be continued later today/tonight…meh, timezones!)

tequila

wearing:
hair: :::Phoenix::: Corinna
head: CATWA HEAD Tala
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
SEUL – Open Metallic Knit – Onyx (*new* @N21)
{le fil casse} Miranda Bralette (*new* @ Shiny Shabby)
Pretty Mess – Kelvana Skirt (*new* @N21)

pose: FOXCITY. Stairs Bento Pose Set
[ zerkalo ] Bar Z – Tequila Neon Sign (*new* @ Kustom9)
MINIMAL – Underground Background -3-

Posted in Events, Fashion, Kustom9, ON9, Phedora, Second Life, Self Reflection, shoes, shopping, {le fil casse}

Do Not Be Afraid

“We can easily forgive a child who is afraid of the dark; the real tragedy of life is when men are afraid of the light.”
― Plato

Wow, it has been quite a while since I started post with a quote. Of course, one is never quite sure what they will find when they go to read my blog. Perhaps a song, a story, a poem, a rant, or like today… some thoughts with a hopefully a sprinkle of wisdom. This particular quote hits home, because I look back at my life and see exactly where fear of success derailed my life over and over again. Failure? Nah, I’m good at that. My entire childhood was an education on how I would never be good enough for more than pleasing a man. My mother taught me to surrender to a man’s will. She was old fashioned and believed in standing by even the most monstrous of men. She preferred the comfort of denial that lies created for her. Looking back, I can see so clearly that she’s never been a fan of truth. Even the simplest of stories are exaggerated for no other reason that her apparent allergy to honesty. Don’t get me wrong, I love her and I’d be lost without her, but that doesn’t make her perfect.  My father on the other hand, perversely manipulative and abusive in every sense of the word. Though he told me repeatedly I’d be a whore and a slut in high school, I rarely dated at all and did not lose my virginity until I was 19. Years later when I proudly told him that he was wrong and how I had waited, he smirked and said that was his plan all along. For he knew I was defiant by nature and would prove him wrong. I know now, that was simply more of his manipulation. I think fewer things brought him more joy than messing with my head.

You may be wondering, what all of this has to do with the quote. It’s simple really. If we are taught to fear everything…if we are sheltered from the truth…fear will easily control our life and limit us in ways we never imagined until it is genuinely too late. Living behind a closed door or in the shadows can be so comforting. We cannot get burned by a light we never see, but the truth is in the light. Until we release ourselves from the shadows of fears, both real and imagined, we can never be free. For it is the truth that sets us free and that truth does not hide in the dark, it is us that choose to stay in the dark.

I have often said that I would rather be hurt by the truth than comforted with a lie. The older I get the more I stand by that statement. Do not be afraid of the light just because you outgrew your fear of the dark.

behind the door

wearing:
hair:  [RA] Sherazade Hair (*new* @ Enchantment)
head: CATWA HEAD Tala
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara

{le fil casse}  Madison Dress (*new* @ Whimsical)
Phedora ~Zaidee Platforms (*new* @ Kustom9)

pose: FOXCITY. Cute But Psycho Bento Pose Set (*new* @ ON9)
**slightly edited with AnyPose
taikou / dusk backdrop with materials (*new* @ Kustom9)

Posted in Collabor88, Events, Fashion, Phedora, Second Life, shoes, shopping, {le fil casse}

Thinking Bout You

Yes, I know…another music post, Sady? Really? Yes, cuz its my blog and sometimes that’s where my mind is. Its times like these, photos like these…the music says it so much better than I can. I can only hope you’ll relate, appreciate the tunes, the photo, and above all the gorgeous creations from some incredibly talents designers. As always, lyrics and YouTube link provided below.

Thinking Bout You by Ariana Grande

I’ve been thinkin’ bout you
Yeah, I’ve been missing you
Where the hell are you, oh, when I need you?
I could still hear your voice
I ain’t got no choice
‘Cause I’m here all alone
I know I can’t wait ’til you get home

Oh, I don’t have you here with me
But at least I have the memory
I try to make it through the night
But I can’t control my mind

I’m just thinkin’ bout you
I’m thinkin’ bout you, I’m thinkin’ bout you
I’m just thinkin’ bout you
I’m thinkin’ bout you, I’m thinkin’ bout you

Got these thoughts in my head
Ain’t no way to forget
Got me losing my breath
Nobody got me the way that you did
Had my eyes rolling back
Had me arching my back
Now you love me so good
I wish you would hurry up and come back

thinking

wearing:
hair:  Stealthic – Sensual (*new* @ C88)
headCATWA HEAD Tala
skinDeeTaleZ *Appliers* CATWA Head “Face Miriam”
bodyMaitreya Mesh Body – Lara
tattoo.Identity. Body Shop – Reborn Wild

Schadenfreude Tear Dermal Piercing,la passionnee(cheekbone)
-SU!- Bento Piercing Set 03
EF: Janus Choker
Amala – The Daddy’s Necklace

{le fil casse} Siouxsie Dress (*new* @ Rewind)
Phedora ~ Jessica boots ~ 28 C (*new* @ Fetish Fair)

pose by Foxcity
scene:
SAYO SCENES – Moderna Courtyard – COMMON
+Half-Deer+ Sakura Petals