Posted in Bloom, breathe, Events, Foxcity, Kustom9, Legacy, Lelutka, Prism Events, Second Life

Only Girl

Want you to make me feel like I’m the only girl in the world
Like I’m the only one that you’ll ever love
Like I’m the only one who knows your heart
Only girl in the world…
Like I’m the only one that’s in command
Cause I’m the only one who understands how to make you feel like a man (yeah)
Want you to make me feel like I’m the only girl in the world
Like I’m the only one that you’ll ever love
Like I’m the only one who knows your heart
Only one…

Want you to take it, like a thief in the night
Hold me like a pillow, make me feel right
Baby I’ll tell you all my secrets that I’m keepin’, you can come inside
And when you enter, you ain’t leavin’, be my prisoner for the night
~ Rhianna – Only Girl

monso kaithleen's breathe bloom1

wearing:
hair:  [monso] My Hair – Ale @ Kustom9
head: LeLUTKA Lake Head 1.1 @ Skin Fair
body:  [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) (1.2)
skin: [theSkinnery] Ashley (LeLutka)

-SU!- Almond Nails @ Anthem
Kaithleen’s Bloom Bodysuit, harness, & nipple covers @ Bloom
[BREATHE]-Mii Su Heels @ Fetish Fair

pose: FOXCITY. Good Morning Bento Set

Posted in Collabor88, Events, Fashion, Glam Affair, Prism Events, Salem, Second Life, Self Reflection

Positive Direction

So, if you’ve read my blog regularly in the past couple of years, you probably know how dark things got for me. How deep in a hole of depression I was sinking and that I felt hopeless to do anything about it. However, recently, I have turned a page. I have found hope for the first time in many years. If it was not for the amazing friends that I have in Second Life, I honestly don’t think I’d be alive today. There were so many times that I wanted to give up, but thanks to an incredible support system I am still here and I am moving forward in the most positive direction I’ve taken in many years. The road ahead is not an easy one, but I have not come all this way, through all this crap, to give up now.

salem addams ga

hair: Magika – Irene
head: LeLutka Bento Head-KORINA
body: -Belleza- Freya
skin: [Glam Affair] Gabbi [ Lelutka ] @ C88

Izzie’s – Whiskey Eyes (lights)
Izzie’s – Festive Shimmer Eye Make-Up
Izzie’s – Glossy Lipstick (LeLutka)
Ascendant – Make Me Melt Nails @ Kinky

Kaithleen’s Rollneck Sweater @ Salem
Addams // Mackenzi Rolled Jeans

pose by Ana Poses
location:  { Corruption }

Posted in Avenge, Catwa, Eudora3D, Events, FaMESHed, Fashion, Kaithleen's, Lybra, Maitreya, Second Life, shoes, shopping

Remembering Him

Have you ever met someone that altered your life completely? Someone that was only there for just a little while, but forever altered the course of your life? I did…almost married him, in fact. Fortunately, I didn’t, because looking back, I’m quite sure that wasn’t his purpose in my life, but changes were made that forced me to look at myself far deeper than I ever imagined I would. He still crosses my mind and I have no way of knowing if he’s dead or alive. I wouldn’t dare to look him up, for fear of what I might find. Somethings are just better left in the past.

remember him

wearing:
hair: TRUTH / Bewkie
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
skin: [Glam Affair] Austine Applier [ Catwa ] Basic Line FLF

.::Supernatural::. Sora choker White/White Pearl Silver
[Avenge] Pearls earrings
: CULT : His Princess Rings/Silver
LYBRA . XL STILETTO NAILS

Kaithleen’s Pearl Corset (*new* @ Kinky)
Eudora3D Arianne Pumps&Socks (*new* @ Enchantment)

pose by Bauhaus Movement
tarte. old window bed (striped)

Posted in Avenge, Catwa, Death Row Designs, Events, Fashion, Kaithleen's, Maitreya, Mesh Body Addicts, Mesh Body Addicts Fair, Second Life, shopping

See the Reason

“See the mirror in your eyes
See the truth behind the lies
Your lies are haunting me
See the reason in your eyes
Giving answer to the why
Your eyes are haunting me”
~Armin van Buuren feat. Sharon den Adel – In and Out of Love

red hot

wearing:
hair: DOUX – Mya hairstyle
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
SU!– Xanthe Lip Gloss
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: DeeTaleZ *Appliers* CATWA Head “Myra”

[Avenge] Floreal sunglasses (*new* @ Dubai Event)
[Avenge] Sweet Flowers earrings (*new* @ Dubai Event)
[Avenge] Sweet Flowers necklace (*new* @ Dubai Event)
DRD – Gypsy Bangles
: CULT : His Princess Rings/Gold (*new* @ Kinky)
Ascendant – Wish Coffin Bento Nails 05 (*new* @ MBA)
Kaithleen’s Olga Lace Top (*new* for Go by FaMESHed)

pose: [La Baguette] Fiona poses (*new* @ Blush)

Posted in Catwa, Events, Fashion, Kaithleen's, Maitreya, Second Life, Shiny Shabby, shopping, Uber SL

Only Human

The song says it all.

Rag’n’Bone Man ~ Human

I’m only human
I’m only, I’m only
I’m only human, human
Maybe I’m foolish
Maybe I’m blind
Thinking I can see through this
And see what’s behind
Got no way to prove it
So maybe I’m blind
But I’m only human after all
I’m only human after all
Don’t put your blame on me
Don’t put your blame on me
Take a look in the mirror
And what do you see
Do you see it clearer
Or are you deceived
In what you believe
‘Cause I’m only human after all
You’re only human after all
Don’t put the blame on me
Don’t put your blame on me
Some people got the real problems
Some people out of luck
Some people think I can solve them
Lord heavens above
I’m only human after all
I’m only human after all
Don’t put the blame on me
Don’t put the blame on me
Don’t ask my opinion
Don’t ask me to lie
Then beg for forgiveness
For making you cry
Making you cry
‘Cause I’m only human after all
I’m only human after all
Don’t put your blame on me
Don’t put the blame on me
Oh, some people got the real problems
Some people out of luck
Some people think I can solve them
Lord heavens above
I’m only human after all
I’m only human after all
Don’t put the blame on me
Don’t put the blame on me
I’m only human
I make mistakes
I’m only human
That’s all it takes
To put the blame on me
Don’t put the blame on me
I’m no prophet or Messiah
Should go looking somewhere higher
I’m only human after all
I’m only human after all
Don’t put the blame on me
Don’t put the blame on me
I’m only human
I do what I can
I’m just a man
I do what I can
Don’t put the blame on me
Don’t put your blame on me

I'm Only Human

wearing:
hair:   Lamb. Dream (*new* @ Uber)
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: Glam Affair – Willow – Jamaica (*new* @ Uber)
Kaithleen’s Summer Breeze Dress (*new* @ Shiny Shabby)

pose by Del May
SEUL – Elevator Highrise

Posted in Catwa, Collabor88, Essenz, Events, Fashion, Kaithleen's, Maitreya, Second Life, We <3 Role-Play

Walk on Water

If I’m not allowed to give up on my life, because of how bad things are, then I cannot give up on my country either. Many times over the years, I’ve thought to myself that I no longer love America, because there is so much hate. However, the song/video I’m sharing with this post really made me think. I can’t speak for other countries, but just maybe you can find some pride for your own within this song/video. I don’t think most of us are all that different. So, with Independence Day just around the corner, I’ve decided to stand by the U.S.A. and never give up the hope that we will overcome these adverse times. We are not a perfect country, we never will be, and while I don’t think its all that great right now…it has been and will be again someday. It’s up to us whether we allow adversity and diversity to make us come together or stand apart. I choose to stand proudly amidst all the diversity and proudly claim myself an American.

Thirty Seconds to Mars-Walk on Water

Oh oh, oh oh
Oh oh, oh oh
Oh oh, oh oh (do you believe?) walk on water
Oh oh, oh oh
Can you even see what you’re fighting for?
Bloodlust and a holy war
Listen up, hear the patriots shout
“Times are changing”
In the end, the choice was clear
Take a shot in the face of fear
Fist up in the fiery light
Times are changing
Oh oh, oh oh
Do you believe that you can walk on water?
Oh oh, oh oh
Do you believe that you can win this fight tonight?
(Do you believe?)
Look at the sky, see a dying star
White lies, it’s a man on fire
Making love with the devil hurts
Times are changing
A thin line, the whole truth
The far right, the left view
Breaking all those promises made
Times are changing
Oh oh, oh oh
Do you believe that you can walk on water?
Oh oh, oh oh
Do you believe that you can win this fight tonight?
Oh oh, oh oh
Do you believe that you can walk on water?
Oh oh, oh oh
Do you believe that you can win this fight tonight?
Do you believe? Walk on water
Do you believe? Walk on water
Do you believe? Walk on water
Do you believe? Walk on water
Do you believe? Walk on water
Do you believe? Walk on water
Do you believe? Walk on water
Do you believe? Walk on water
Oh oh, oh oh
Do you believe that you can walk on water?
Oh oh, oh oh
Do you believe that you can win this fight tonight?
Oh oh, oh oh (do you believe? Walk on water)
Do you believe that you can walk on water?
Oh oh, oh oh (do you believe? Walk on water)
Do you believe that you can win this fight tonight?
Oh oh, oh oh (do you believe?)
Oh oh, oh oh (walk on water)
Oh oh, oh oh (do you believe?)
Oh oh, oh oh (walk on water)
Walking on Water
wearing:
hair: DOUX – Gabryela hairstyle (*new* @ Access)
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: [theSkinnery] Kailee (*new* @ C88)
*LODE* Head Accessory – Stone Flower [grey]
Kaithleen’s Kala Set (*new* @ We <3RP)
Essenz – Kingston (*new* @ Good Vibes Fair)
pose by Di’s Opera
Posted in Catwa, Collabor88, Events, FaMESHed, Fashion, Gingerfish Poses, Kaithleen's, Maitreya, Pale Girl Productions, RAMA, Second Life, shopping

Yes to Heaven

I don’t have the words, but Lana Del Rey does, so here you go….

Lana Del Rey ~ Yes to Heaven

If you dance I’ll dance
And if you don’t I’ll dance anyway
Give peace a chance
Let the fear you have fall away
I’ve got my eye on you
I’ve got my eye on you
Say yes to heaven
Say yes to me
Say yes to heaven
Say yes to me
If you go I’ll stay
You come back I’ll be right here
Like a barge at sea
In the storm I stay clear
‘Cause I’ve got my mind on you
I’ve got my mind on you
Say yes to heaven
Say yes to me
Say yes to heaven
Say yes to me
If you dance I’ll dance
I’ll put my red dress on again
And if you fight I’ll fight
It doesn’t matter, now it’s all gone
I’ve got my mind on you
I’ve got my mind on you
Say yes to heaven
Say yes to me
Say yes to heaven
Say yes to me
I’ve got my eye on you
I’ve got my eye on you
I’ve got my eye on you
I’ve got my eye on you

yes to heaven

wearing:
hair: RAMA.SALON  – Caroline (*new* @ equal10)
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: Glam Affair –  Rayna (*new* @ C88)
*AvaWay* CARRIE Necklaces
(Yummy) Sea Treasures Ring Set (*new* @ C88)
Kaithleen’s Ellie Boho Maxi Skirt (*new* @ FaMESHed)

pose: GingerFish Poses – Moonlight and Martinis set (*new* @ Vintage Fair)

location: {mystical fae}

Posted in Second Life

FMD Membership

Y’all should know by now that I’m a freak with a wide range of interests. Therefore, it should come as no surprise that I absolutely love FMD. It really doesn’t matter which name you use, Fuck Me Daddy or Feed My Desire, FMD is the classiest adult club on the grid. You may have read about it on slsecrets, but as those of us with a brain know….haters are a sign of success. FMD does have private membership, but this club is so laid back that it opens on weekends to the public. That’s right, you do not need a membership to enjoy this amazing club.
However, here’s what you can enjoy with a membership:
1. Gifts, that’s right there are group gifts from sponsors just like this lingerie I’m wearing from Kaithleen’s.
2. You will meet thousands of like minded people.
3. There are game rooms, sex rooms, sitting areas, this is truly a classy place.
4. It’s a safe place to go during the week. There’s no events or spam, just groups of people, some are afk, some are talking on voice, some are sitting around enjoying one another’s company.
5. You get to see some of the most beautiful avatars on the grid.
6. You are guaranteed to make some incredible friends and nudity isn’t an issue for anyone.

If you’re unsure about whether or not you’re interested in joining. Come to one of the themed parties on a Saturday night. You can keep up with the club by watching their flickr or their Facebook page.

fmd vip gift

wearing:
hair:  Lamb. Boyfriend (*new* in mainstore)
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: Glam Affair – Viktoria Applier

SU!– Piercing Set 06 Septum
SU!– Piercing Set 06 Spiked Nose Studs
SU!– Piercing Set 06 Snakebites
::Axix:: Noct.Collar
**RE** Evva Body Piercing – Maitreya – Arms
(Yummy) Free Spirit Rings
Kaithleen’s Modest Lingerie – Aqua (FMD Group Gift)
[Cynful] Stripper Body Dust

pose by Bauhaus Movement
Stockholm&Lima:Better With You Platform Bed

Posted in Avenge, Catwa, Events, Fashion, Jian, Kaithleen's, Mina Hair, Second Life, Shiny Shabby, shopping, Uber SL

Not This Time

Each time  some one hurts me, each time my heart is broken, and left scarred…it gets harder and harder to even believe in true love, at least not for me. My close friends know what a hard time I’m having in the real these days. Yes, SL is my escape. Yes, my real life is pretty sad and a whole lot of scary right now. My husband and I have been separated but sharing a home for over two years. He had his room, I had mine. There were times that I was hopeful that we might could work it out. He has recently moved out and moved in with the woman with whom his affair was the end of our marriage.
There are times when I am grateful for what I have and do my best to stay positive. There are times that I take great comfort in violent fantasies. Most of all I wake up each day disappointed that it not just a bad dream. This nightmare is my reality.
I’m dealing with a grocery list of health issues that will never get better. I live in constant physical pain. I’m not writing this to complain or whine. I’m writing this to explain why I’ve decided to live the remainder of my days as a free spirit. I refuse to be tied down to things I no longer believe in.
I never wanted to get married, because I’ve never seen a successful marriage. I suck at relationships, ask any of my exes, they’ll agree. I can and do love, very deeply. Its being loved that I struggle with and it never fails that the minute I start to believe that I might just be worthy of that same love in return that I am proven wrong, each and every time. I’ve been drawn to relationships all my life. I hate feeling lonely, but the truth is…I’m not alone. I have some wonderful friends. That’s all I need. I will not seek out another romantic relationship, not this time.
Yes, I am broken, but I am broken beyond mending. I’ve accepted that and the people that I’m closest to are aware of it, too. I’ve accepted my plight and learning to let go of a dream is one of the hardest things I’ve ever done, but I’m awake now. I won’t repeat my mistakes again and again…not this time…well, not for a very long time, at least. *sighs* I really mean this stuff when I say it, you know?
Deva, stop laughing. Dusty, stop rolling your eyes…I swear they’re going to roll right out of your head one day. Sora, distract him, will ya? Tracy, Grace, Kess….you cunts, just shut the hell up. *sighs* I hear you giggling, Luca. Ame, whoop her, will ya? Nikole, get the duct tape, you get it, right?
4in1
We started out as lonely hearts
We started with a promise built on highs
You said I was the missing part
Looked into my eyes said
“You’re my fix for life”

wearing:
hair: MINA – Noah  (*new* @ Uber)
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: Glam Affair – Viktoria Applier
[Avenge] Rosary necklace double (F) – pearls (*new* @ MOM)
JIAN Chinchilla :: Hand Held
Kaithleen’s Irina Top (*new* @ ShinyShabby)

pose: an lar [poses] The Cordelia Series
taikou / summer night backdrop (*new* @ Uber)

 

 

Posted in Events, FaMESHed, Mesh Body Addicts Fair, Second Life, shopping, Uber SL

Something There

It had been such a long day at work. All she could think about was going home, letting her hair down and getting in the pool. She loved nothing more than lounging around the pool in evenings and tonight would be no exception. She even had a new bikini, not that anyone was going to see it…well, unless her hot new neighbor happened to join her. She still wasn’t sure if her neighbor was even into girls, but the company would be nice either way. A few drinks might bring out the truth and she had plenty to choose from, there was something there…whether her neighbor felt it or not, she sure as hell did.

its been a long day

wearing:
hair: TRUTH Margarita (*new* @ Uber)
headCATWA HEAD Kathy
skin: DeeTaleZ *Appliers* CATWA Head “Face Miriam”
eyeshadow: –SU!– Smokey Eyeshadow +CATWA APPLIER+
bodyMaitreya Mesh Body – Lara

[ kunst ] – Lucy choker (*new* @ Uber)
::SG:: RingQueen Nai MAITREYA (*new* @ MBA Fair)
Kaithleen’s Bikini (*new* @ MBA Fair)

pose by Foxcity edited with AnyPose
scene:
Trompe Loeil – Zohra Oasis
:CP: RollerDisco Slush
:CP: Natalie Patio Palm Plant
:CP: Natalie Table
{what next} Palisades Drinks Tray
:CP: S’mores Camp Lounger 1
Ariskea [ Porcelain] Tropical Plant 2