Posted in Bueno, Collabor88, Cosmopolitan, Events, Fashion, Kustom9, Legacy, Lelutka, Second Life

What’s left to prove?

Only give me love when I’m giving it back
But you say you’ll never be my friend
Always on the train, never on the track
So I’m jumping before the crash
And I know you’re just trying to scare me
But you lost all of your effect
You can bark like a dog, baring your teeth
But I’m never going back again
No, I’m never going back again
Babe, it’s true
I’m in love with what we were
But not with you
What’s left to prove?
Tried so many damn times to cut you loose
Now I’m way too far away to be hurt by you
~ Donna Missal – Hurt By You

hair: Exile – Soleil @ Equal10
head: LeLUTKA Fleur Head 2.0
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) (1.2)
skin: [theSkinnery] Dalia (LeLutkaEVO) @ C88

[Heaux] Chilled Eyes
eyeshadow: IDTTY FACES – LELUTKA DIRTY BABE COLLECTION #3 @ Cosmopolitan
lipstick: IDTTY FACES – LELUTKA DIRTY BABE COLLECTION #8 @ Cosmopolitan

BUENO-Bella Necklace @ Kustom9
VOBE – Debbie Earrings

Posted in Chic Moda, Events, FaMESHed, Fashion, Legacy, Lelutka, Second Life

I don’t want to love no more

I learnt to grow old when I was younger
Scared of staying young
Afraid of the thoughts that I had conjured
That sat atop my tongue
Knowing I’d change the worlds opinion
If they would just, listen up
But they won’t, now
I feel worthless
Maybe I should open the drawer
Burn the pages
Write poems with the ash on the floor
Pour the ink, into the sink
And watch it drain from the shore
I don’t want love no more
Though it’s the one thing I’ve been searching for
Though it’s the one thing that I miss the most
Now, I’m afraid to be alone (I’m afraid to be alone)
To Be Alone
Looking in the mirror like
Maybe I will find myself tonight
I ask for a better mind
Then tap into the site through my third eye
I had never realized
I thought I had a chosen my design
I thought I was broken all this time
I don’t want love no more
Though it’s the one thing I’ve been searching for
Though it’s the one thing that I miss the most
Now, I’m afraid to be alone

idtty empress

hair: TRUTH Alias
head: LeLUTKA Fleur Head 2.0
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) (1.2)
skin: DeeTaleZ *SKINS* for LELUTKA HEADS (EVO.) – Flora

*LODE* Head Accessory – Royalty Wreath [black horse]
eyeshadow: IDTTY FACES – LELUTKA THE EMPRESS COLLECTION #1 @ Kinky
lipstick: IDTTY FACES – LELUTKA THE EMPRESS COLLECTION #6 @ Kinky

.::Supernatural::. Dune Necklace
.::Supernatural::. Ebe Necklace

ChicModa // Carrie Dress @ FaMESHed

pose: – space cadet – modge podge set

The End Forest *RARE* – Sinister Night – The Bearded Guy

{anc} colorful rain (clearlysky) [wide] 1Li

Lyrium.Turning Pages – Flying Pages 2 Decor

KraftWork Once Upon a House . Scattered Papers

:::ChicChica::: Precious Rose Platinum REZZ

chicmoda sc

Posted in accessories, Cosmetics, DOUX, Events, Fashion, GenusProject, Glam Affair, Legacy, poses, Second Life, Shiny Shabby, shopping

Closing this chapter

Well, so long, Genus. I’m not turning my back on you because of the dmca or any of that. I have a new head now and I will be featuring it soon. For now, I dedicate this post to the look I grew to love very much while wearing this head. I absolutely adore the look of the Genus heads, but the huds frustrate me to no end and I never can get the neck quite right with the legacy body. So, one final close up as I close the chapter on this look. I will always love the looks I achieved with Genus, but its time to embrace the new.

doux idtty rise gingerfish

hair:  DOUX – Dua hairstyle
head: GENUS Project – Genus Head – Classic Face W001 – Mocap
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) (1.2)
skin:  [Glam Affair] Josie Applier [ Genus ] @ Access

eyeshadow:  IDTTY FACES – GENUS ROYAL FLUSH COLLECTION #4 @ Shiny Shabby
lipstick: IDTTY FACES – GENUS ROYAL FLUSH COLLECTION #7 @ Shiny Shabby
SU!– Almond Nails

[ rD ] Omni Necklace @ Belle

pose: GingerFish Poses – Give Good Face

background: Ocean Lighs – Arcane Depths – The Bearded Guy

Posted in Dahlia, Events, Fashion, GenusProject, Glam Affair, Legacy, Second Life

How ’bout these notions

I hear the birds
When they’re singing
I hear the sirens
When they’re ringing
But I can’t take my mind off of you
A thousand words, pouring out
The distance of over there
Is moving on and out
You said it’d be alright
How ’bout these notions
Hmm, they’re deep as ocean
Calling out my name
Screaming out in vain
Singing hallelujah
Tell your mother, she don’t understand
Tell your mother, she’s not listening
Why don’t you tear my heart
The chain is made of string
I roll the dice
You seal the deal
That don’t matter
Cause pain will heal
I will follow you
Into the dark

Exile BnS Focus

hair:  Exile – Rosalie
head: GENUS Project – Genus Head – Classic Face W001 – Mocap
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) (1.2)
skin:  [Glam Affair] Josie Applier [ Genus ] @ Access

Apocalyptic Heart mandala tattoo
Lowen – Angel Sunglasses
lipstick: IDTTY FACES – GENUS ROYAL FLUSH COLLECTION #6
SU!– Almond Nails

Blossom&Seeds Bea @ Dubai

pose: Focus Poses – Life is Better on the Boat @ Access

Tentacio Fresh sweet. Notebook

hive // flor simple beach towel .

Dahlia – Malarkey – Margarita

[Commoner] THC Gummies / Beach Bliss

DEAD DOLL – Beach Tote

 

Posted in Bueno, DOUX, Events, Foxcity, GenusProject, Glam Affair, Kustom9, Legacy, Second Life

Way too good at camouflage

Flippin’ through all of these magazines
Tellin’ me who I’m supposed to be
Way too good at camouflage
Can’t see what I am, I just see what I’m not
I’m guilty ’bout everything that I eat (Every single thing)
Feelin’ myself is a felony
Jedi level sabotage
Voices in my head make up my entourage

‘Cause I’m a black belt when I’m beating up on myself
But I’m an expert at giving love to somebody else
I, me, myself and I don’t see eye to eye
Me, myself and I

Oh, why do I compare myself to everyone?
And I always got my finger on the self-destruct
I wonder when I love me is enough (Yeah, yeah, yeah)
I wonder when I love me is enough (Yeah, yeah, yeah)
Why am I always looking for a ride or die?
‘Cause mine’s the only heart I’m gonna have for life
After all the times I went and fucked it up (All the times I went and fucked it up)
I wonder when I love me is enough, mmm (Yeah, yeah, yeah)
~ Demi Lovato – I Love Me

bueno idtty foxcity bearded guy

hair:  DOUX – Jennie hairstyle @ Dubai
head: GENUS Project – Genus Head – Classic Face W001 – Mocap
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) (1.2)
skin:  [Glam Affair] Josie Applier [ Genus ] @ Access

Wednesday[+] ~ Idoru Eyelashes @ Kustom9
eyeshadow: IDTTY FACES – GENUS HUSH HUSH COLLECTION #5
lipstick: IDTTY FACES – GENUS HUSH HUSH COLLECTION #10

BUENO-Refrain Top @ Kustom9

pose: FOXCITY. Higher Bento Pose Set

backdrop: Come My Way *RARE – Just Like – The Bearded Guy

Posted in Cosmetics, Events, Fashion, GingerFish, Glam Affair, Legacy, Lelutka, Second Life, skin

Just Wear It

I’ve tried to avoid doing photos with masks. I didn’t want to offend anyone or make light of our current situation. However, since I found out that this is no longer a one and done disease. Not only can you contract this disease twice, but the numbers are getting insanely higher by the day. So, it seems that for those of us not wanting to get sick, masks are going to be part of our lives for quite some time. Ladies are going to save a ton on lipstick!
However, I’m looking at this as an opportunity for us to really showcase our eyes. We can get super creative with our masks and matching eye shadow combinations! Okay, sure we might not do our hair with branches sticking out, but the mask and eye shadow combo are brilliant and you know it! Plus, if we have to wear masks for a while, they might as well be fashionable. Maybe if we make them cute enough we can get everyone to wear them, even those selfish assholes that think they’re too good to wear a mask.

tableau idtty gaeg

hair: Tableau Vivant  \\ Fruit of the Bloom [bare] Reward
head: LeLUTKA Lake Head 1.2
eyes: –SU!– [CATWA & OMEGA HUD] Astrid Eyes (Fatpack)
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) (1.2)
skin: [Glam Affair] Mara Skin [ Lelutka ] @ C88

lashes: MICHAN – Lilith Lashes Fatpack [Lel EVO] @ TLC
eyeshadow: IDTTY FACES – LELUTKA SUNNY DAYS COLLECTION #1 @ Summer Camp

Apocalyptic – Awakening the eye black @ Belle
(Yummy) Cleopatra Nose Ring – Silver
SU!– Almond Nails
[GA.EG] Lace Face Mask @ Kinky

pose: GingerFish Poses – Give Good Face

backdrop: Los Muertitos – DeadlySacrifice – The Bearded Guy

Posted in Collabor88, Events, Fashion, Gingerfish Poses, Glam Affair, Legacy, Second Life

another layer of armor

I don’t know when I got scared
Scared of my imagination
Used to see beautiful things
Now I got this sick fixation

I’m playing out every single fear I’ve ever had
Scrolling through the pictures, seeing all I don’t have
Believing every negative feeling is a fact
I don’t wanna get used to that

Why do I beat myself up and tear myself down?
I’m so good at being critical
I guess I’ll learn it’s hard to get hurt
When you’re good at being cynical

I’m jealous of when I was young
And everything was right there waiting
Wanted the sky, aimed so high
Instead of lowering my expectations

I don’t know how else to keep my feet on the ground
And stop the voices in my head from getting too loud
I think I’m realizing no one figures it out
And I gotta get used to that

Why do I beat myself up and tear myself down?
I’m so good at being critical
I guess I’ll learn it’s hard to get hurt
When you’re good at being cynical

If I hope and it doesn’t work, then
I know, it’s gonna hurt, so I’ll
Make a joke, act like nothing wrong
And put another layer of armor on

Why do I beat myself up and tear myself down?
~ Katelyn Tarver – Cynical

tableau idtty

hair: Tableau Vivant \\ BunB*tch [Add-on+HB]
head: LeLUTKA Lake Head 1.2
eyes: -SU!- [CATWA & OMEGA HUD] Astrid Eyes (Fatpack)
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) (1.2)
skin: [Glam Affair] Mara Skin [ Lelutka ] @ C88

lashes: MICHAN – Lilith Lashes Fatpack [Lel EVO] @ TLC
eyeshadow: IDTTY FACES – LELUTKA DEJA VU COLLECTION #4 @ Black Fair
lipstick: IDTTY FACES –  LELUTKA DEJA VU COLLECTION #8 @ Black Fair

Apocalyptic – Awakening the eye black @ Belle
(Yummy) Cleopatra Nose Ring – Silver
Kibitz – Leove’s earrings
SU!– Almond Nails

pose: GingerFish Poses – Doll Face

backdrop: No Show – Black Vibes – The Bearded Guy

Posted in accessories, Bueno, Collabor88, Cosmetics, Events, Fashion, Glam Affair, Legacy, Lelutka, Second Life, shopping, skin, tattoo, The Liaison Collaborative

From the ashes

“All that is gold does not glitter,
Not all those who wander are lost;
The old that is strong does not wither,
Deep roots are not reached by the frost.

From the ashes a fire shall be woken,
A light from the shadows shall spring;
Renewed shall be blade that was broken,
The crownless again shall be king.”
― J.R.R. Tolkien, The Fellowship of the Ring

tram idtty ga bueno

hair: tram J0630 hair @ C88
head: LeLUTKA Lake Head 1.2
eyes:  .euphoric ~Kitty Eyes Applier ~[LeLutka]
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) (1.2)
skin: [Glam Affair] Mara Skin [ Lelutka ] @ C88

lashes: MICHAN – Lilith Lashes Fatpack [Lel EVO] @ TLC
eyeshadow: IDTTY FACES – LELUTKA BEAUTY BOOM COLLECTION #1 @ Level
lipstick: IDTTY FACES –  LELUTKA BEAUTY BOOM COLLECTION #6 @ Level

Apocalyptic – Awakening the eye black @ Belle
(Yummy) Cleopatra Nose Ring – Silver
= DAE = Flame pearl earrings
Ascendant – Vip List Nails
BUENO-Royal Necklace @ C88

Posted in accessories, Collabor88, Cosmetics, Cosmopolitan, DOUX, Events, FaMESHed, Fashion, Glam Affair, Legacy, Lelutka, Second Life, shopping, skin, tattoo, The Liaison Collaborative

my blood couldn’t keep you

I’m sorry but your story isn’t adding up
Think your religion is a lie to keep my mouth shut
So I won’t testify the crimes you’re keeping score of
Why don’t you throw me to the wolves I thought you were one

You were standing there like an angry god
Counting out my sins just to cross them off
Saying that my tongue was too loud to trust
And that my blood couldn’t keep you

My dear, you’re not so innocent
You’re fooling Heaven’s gates
So you won’t have to change
You’re no saint, you’re no savior

Your revelations don’t look nothing like the pictures
You read between the lines and don’t stick to the scriptures
You only follow rules if others follow with you
That doesn’t sound so holy only playing victim
~ Echos – Saints

doux ga idtty rd

hair: DOUX – Alaska hairstyle @ LeVeL
head: LeLUTKA Lake Head 1.2
eyes:  .euphoric ~Kitty Eyes Applier ~[LeLutka] @ Cosmopolitan
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) (1.2)
skin: [Glam Affair] Mara Skin [ Lelutka ] @ C88

lashes: MICHAN – Lilith Lashes Fatpack [Lel EVO] @ TLC
eyeshadow: IDTTY FACES – LELUTKA SWEET TEMPTATION COLLECTION #2 @ Kinky
lipstick: IDTTY FACES – LELUTKA SWEET TEMPTATION COLLECTION #7 @ Kinky

Apocalyptic – Awakening the eye black @ Belle
(Yummy) Cleopatra Nose Ring – Silver
[ rD ] – Antares Necklace @ FaMESHed

Posted in Blueberry, DOUX, Events, Fashion, Legacy, Lelutka, Second Life, Shiny Shabby, shopping, Uber SL

That’s that.

I woke up this morning with a tremendous headache and it has been one helluva week. Today, I’m taking some much needed time for myself. I want to enjoy my newly landscaped sim. I want to dedicate some time to adding some finishing touches and decorating my house. I’m sure I’ll take a blog picture, but my blog is more for me than anyone else anyway…sorry, not sorry. I love that people read it and enjoy it…all five of you..lol, but at the end of the day, I have always blogged because its something I’ve wanted to do. However, there are days that I honestly don’t even want to bother with it. I guess that’s natural after four years of blogging almost daily.
In real life, I’m smoking a cigarette with my coffee, but I sure wish it was a blunt. This headache is not fun and while I know that looking at a screen is not conducive for a headache, neither is that bright ass sun blaring through my window. *hisses* Alas, this is going to be a good day. I’ve decided and that’s that.

doux heaux idtty bb sc

hair: DOUX – Alaska hairstyle @ LeVeL
head: LeLUTKA Lake Head 1.2
eyes:  [Heaux] Piper Eyes @ Anthem
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) (1.2)
skin: [Glam Affair]  LIllian Skin [ Lelutka ] @ Uber

lashes: MICHAN – Lilith Lashes Fatpack [Lel EVO] @ TLC
eyeshadow: IDTTY FACES – LELUTKA HALF TIME COLLECTION # 5 @ ShinyShabby
lipstick: IDTTY FACES – LELUTKA HALF TIME COLLECTION #10 @ ShinyShabby
nails: -SU!- Almond Nails

Rebel Gal – Charm Necklace
(Yummy) Adel Ring Set
Blueberry – SL17B – Lace Trim Top
Blueberry – FLF – Valentines – Panties

pose: – space cadet – weed&coffee ladies
the pose comes with a blunt/joint & a cup, but I used my own mug which was a gift from my dear friend, Harlow Heslop
e.marie // True Love Mug – Cats