Posted in Events, FaMESHed, Fashion, Kustom9, Legacy, Lelutka, Second Life, [BREATHE], {le fil casse}

Is it hard knowing you’re wrong?

I heard from a friend of a friend
That you’ve been checking back in
‘Cause I said goodbye, moved overnight
And you haven’t heard much since then
Wondering how I’m doing now
It’s none of your business first of all
Wondering how I’m doing now
But if you’ve got to know, well sure
Well sure
You think I’d be lost
Think I’d be lost without you, lost
Is it hard knowing you’re wrong
See I got lots without you
Lots without you

Is it hard knowing you’re wrong?

hair: Tableau Vivant \ Water lily – Dropping @ Arcade
head: LeLUTKA Nova Head 2.5
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) Special Edition (1.3)
skin: PUMEC — SARAH @ Kustom9
tattoo: *Bolson / Tattoo – Antheia @ Anthem

(Yummy) Aaliyah Ring Collection @ Uber
{le fil casse} Mei Collection @ Arcade
(top & panties-black)
[BREATHE]-Sasumi Heels @ FaMESHed

[Rezz Room] Sphynx Animesh @ ManCave

pose: Diversion – Come Back – Pose Set

backdrop: MINIMAL – Natural Nude Backdrop III Spiral @ Kustom9

  • TRIGGERED – Antidepressant Kit (Wine Bottle & glass)

..::THOR::.. Small Radio

dust bunny . hanging plants . cheese plant

hive // hanging devil’s ivy plant . light

Posted in Apple Fall

Casa Paradiso Bath

Don’t faint. I know, its a decor only post and I haven’t done one of those in ages. Trust me, you’ll see it again, cuz I plan on posing with this scene, too. Plus, I never said I wouldn’t blog decor. How could I not, I love decorating. I’m so in love with with the CONCEPT} CASA PARADISO set at Arcade. So, not only will you see this scene again, or at least parts of it. You will also see more from that set. So, without further blabbering, I’m going to start working on something else! HA! Bathroom scenes have always been my most challenging, too. So, here I am trying to do another one. Be nice.

Casa Paradiso Bath

LODE Decor – Lunaria Vase [original] LI:3

+Half-Deer+ Neatly Folded Blankets – Pink Floral LI:1

  1. Lagom – Bathroom clutter [ Loofah Blue ] LI:1 @ TLC
  2. Lagom – Bathroom clutter [ Sponge ] LI:1 @ TLC
  3. Lagom – Bathroom clutter [ Bathbombs ] LI:1 @ TLC

Architect. Macro Shelf (steel) LI:1

Ariskea[Bougee] Fresh Cotton LI:1

CONCEPT} CASA PARADISO. @ Arcade
CONCEPT} 05. CASA PARADISO. Wood Stool LI:2
CONCEPT} 17. CASA PARADISO. House. RARE LI:52
CONCEPT} 18. CASA PARADISO. Wash cabinet LI:5
CONCEPT} 19. CASA PARADISO. Square mirror A LI:1
CONCEPT} 20. CASA PARADISO. Stool A LI:1
CONCEPT} 21. CASA PARADISO. Natural Rug LI:2
CONCEPT} 22. CASA PARADISO.Stool B LI:2
CONCEPT} 23. CASA PARADISO. Big mirror LI:2
CONCEPT} 24. CASA PARADISO. Bath Adult. RARE. copy LI:4

CONCEPT} 12. SAL. Short Hang Lamp LI:1
CONCEPT} 21. SAL. Grey pot LI:1

Concept} 09. Bali Candles LI:5
Concept} Cotton Bottle LI:1
Concept} Cotton Plate LI:1

Compulsion Plant 17 LI:4

DaD “Indoor Olive tree in pot” c/m LI:4 @ UBER

KraftWork Aarhus Bathroom . Hand Soap LI:1

Loft & Aria – Brewer basket With Sandals LI:2
Loft & Aria – Sterling Artwork LI:2

MADRAS 11 Zebra Decor LI:1
MADRAS Elilan Book Stool LI:1
MADRAS Elilan Pot Decor LI:2

Nutmeg. Dacha Crumpled Towel LI:2
Nutmeg. Winter’s Dawn Slippers / L LI:1
Nutmeg. Winter’s Dawn Slippers / R LI:1

O.M.E.N – Ragdoll – Playing – VIP LI:6

TA Lotus Incense LI:4

The Loft & Aria – Linen Storage Box LI:1
The Loft – Lotus Holder LI:1
The Loft – Yoga Tray LI:3

Apple Fall Pampas Grass LI:2
West Village Cotton Tote LI:1

[Merak] – Secrets Room Divider LI:9

dust bunny & con . lauren bathroom . radiator . black LI:2
dust bunny . hanging plants . double planter LI:8
dust bunny . lauren bathroom . cotton ball container LI:1
dust bunny . lauren bathroom . hanging robe . a LI:3
dust bunny . lauren bathroom . qtip container LI:1
dust bunny . lauren bathroom . toothbrush holder LI:1

hive // devil’s ivy overhang plant . dark LI:2
hive // hanging devil’s ivy plant . dark LI:3

Posted in Collabor88, Events, Fashion, Legacy, Lelutka, Second Life, shopping, skin, The Liaison Collaborative

a glimpse into my BPD brain

Ok, so this is a bit off and has absolutely nothing to do with the photo, but since I am prone to sharing my real life or lackthereof here, I figure I might as well share this, too. However, this could be a trigger for some. If you are easily triggered by suicide topics, please have someone else read it first to determine whether or not you should. I’m doing this for me. These are my reasons: 1. to hold myself accountable 2. cuz I think the convo is cute 3. cuz it shows how quickly my state of mind changes
So, what I’m going to do is just copy a conversation between myself and my wifey, Ghoulina Waffles, cuz it pretty much sums things up. Please don’t go nuts and call for welfare checks, I’m fine and I have an appt with my therapist in the morning.

9:24am
Ghoulie: Hope your stint at XXXXXX went okay
Sady: girl, I couldn’t sleep before my shift
I just laid in bed for hours contemplating suicide
then after my shift, I passed the fuck out
and had a nightmare about a failed suicide attempt
Ghoulie: Jesus wammen
Sady: was a rad attempt fail tho
rofl
Ghoulie: you are not allowed to think of suicide when your wifey is this pretty https://flic.kr/p/2kENqCT
oh?
how’s that?
Sady: oooh, I tried to race my car into a busy intersection, but ended up launching my car over it instead, but also flipping it mid way so I was over the intersection upside down screaming “fuck yeah” out the window before turning right side up and crashing into a building
but in my dream, my car was so sturdy it protected me, so I just had a concussion some scratches and bruises
and a bunch of teenagers decided I was a worthy cause and all came to visit me
and then it was kinda over and a giant storm came and mom was passed out on the couch so I sat and watched this amazing storm outside
when it was over we went to target to buy candy
lmao
Ghoulie: WTF, so, you had an action film for a suicide attempt
Sady: ooh and at the store there were all these candy bar flavored pop tart bites….they were new and I was mad that they didn’t have a grab bag with all the flavors
especially since I didn’t want a whole bag of milky way pop tarts
lmao
Ghoulie: I like you, but you’re crazy (said with a gif)
Sady: note to self, do not use car in suicide attempt, cuz if it fails, you only killed your car
Ghoulie: No suicide attempts, okay?
Sady: we’ll see
Ghoulie: your body is already like evil hands rubbing together “Teeheehee we got this”
Sady: RIGHT???
Ghoulie: it’s like surprise suicide, you just can’t plan it
Sady: pretty much…lol

….then we trailed off to discuss our new Linden Labs stilt homes and other things

Again, I repeat, I’m fine now. I was just talking to one of my closest friends. She gets me on a level that most don’t and she knows when to take me seriously, when to worry, etc. She’s not worried and you shouldn’t be either. This is not a cry for help, but just a glimpse into my BPD brain. As my friend, Tracy Redangel, once said, “Depression lies.” I know this and I would not act on a suicidal impulse. Trust that I know myself far better than most and I will be discussing my thoughts with my new therapist tomorrow morning. Meanwhile, I have too much work to do and too many people counting on me to just up and dip out! I PROMISE.

a glimpse into my BPD brain

hair: [monso] Mabel Hair @ C88
head: LeLUTKA Nova Head 2.5
eyes: AG. Mercury Eyes @ Access
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) Special Edition (1.3)
skin: PUMEC – Lillian

[ rD ] – Rayna Cuff & Earrings @ TLC
Rainbow Sundae Callie Bracelet @ TLC
MY BAGS by Mila Blauvelt My Naughty RED
hive // cold brew coffee to go .
Apl.Blossom Genesis @ TLC

pose: an lar [poses] The Sandra Series @ TLC

TROPIX // Time Music BackDrop 01 @ Access

Posted in Collabor88, FaMESHed, Kustom9, Legacy, Lelutka, Second Life, shopping, skin, {le fil casse}

What dirty dishes?

This is how you get out of trouble for not doing the dishes. *grins* You just stand real pretty in something distracting and offer some treats. Now, what significant other could possibly be upset about a few dishes in the sink when they can have hot cocoa, churros, and this? None with a pulse, I can tell you that! *giggles*

hair: TRUTH Brazen
head: LeLUTKA Lily Head 2.5
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) Special Edition (1.3)
skin: — PUMEC – JADWIGA – LELUTKA x BOM

AvaWay LETTER Necklaces Set @ FaMESHed
(Yummy) Eliza Ring Collection @ C88
^^Swallow^^ Princess Belly Piercing @ Kustom9

{le fil casse} Laverne Bralette
{le fil casse} Laverne Shorts

pose: Ana Poses – Her September

scene:
hive // modern farmhouse kitchen
DaD “Rustic Frames
-tres blah- Hodgepodge – Morning Start
-tres blah- Hodgepodge – Dirty Dishes
dust bunny . kitchen clutter . spice rack . black
dust bunny . kitchen clutter . paper towels
dust bunny . kitchen clutter . dish drying rack . white
Hangry – White Glazed Churros @ Kustom9
Hangry – Jolly Hot Cocoa – White @ Kustom9

Posted in Apple Fall, Blueberry, crate, DOUX, Fashion, Home Decor, Jian, Legacy, Lelutka, shoes, shopping, The Liaison Collaborative, Uber SL, [BREATHE]

Sady Stuff!

The moment I saw this sweater, I had to message Annie, “I’m just going to pretend this sweater is named after me!” Annie quickly assured me that it was indeed named after me. I’m honored to have such a beautiful piece named after me. I love how the lines kinda shift around the boobs, like its stretching. It is perfect….the shading, the wrinkles….how the sleeves come down over the wrists as if I’ve been pulling at them and no pokes on the shoulders from being on a hanger in my closet instead of folded on a shelf. *laughs* Seriously, this is one of the most realistic sweaters I’ve seen in SL, like this sweater has been worn….I pushed up the sleeves to do dishes, then I tugged them down over my hands when I took the dog out. For me, this sweater tells a story,
To top off the sweater, Katya named a pose set after me! It’s a perfect set of poses for blogging, too. So, I’ll be using them all eventually. For now, I’m just using one of them to pose pretty in front of this scene composed mostly from two of THOR’s lastest gacha sets.
I’m not going to pretend that I’m not excited over having such awesome creations named after me. It’s an honor anytime a designer names something after you and I am genuinely chuffed. (Can’t tell I have British friends, can you?)

Sady Stuff!

hair: DOUX – Sixty Nine hairstyle @ Level
head: LeLUTKA Fleur Head 2.5
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) Special Edition (1.3)
skin: — PUMEC – JADWIGA – LELUTKA x BOM

Just BECAUSE Sady Sweater @ Uber
Blueberry – Power Play – Jeans
[BREATHE]-Tamito Wedges @ Arcade

pose: an lar [poses] The Sady Series @ The Liaison Collaborative

scene:
..::THOR::.. Homemade Gacha Set – Arcade
..::THOR::.. Spices Grinder LI:1
..::THOR::.. Pot of Mulled Wine LI:3
..::THOR::.. Fryng Pans LI:1
..::THOR::.. Decorative Chair LI:4
..::THOR::.. Homemade Mulled Wine RARE LI:8
..::THOR::.. Old Cooking Stove LI:3
..::THOR::.. Old Kitchen Cabinet lower LI:2
..::THOR::.. Stacked Copper Casseroles LI:1

..::THOR::.. Countryside Gacha Set
..::THOR::.. Box of Cutting Boards LI:2
..::THOR::.. Ceramic Milk Jar – Terracotta LI:1
..::THOR::.. Countryside Centerpiece LI:7
..::THOR::.. Countryside Shelf – Rare LI:7
..::THOR::.. Countryside Sink – RARE 1 LI:4
..::THOR::.. Folk Pot – Orange LI:1
..::THOR::.. Folk Pot – White LI:1
..::THOR::.. Forgotten Clutters LI:3
..::THOR::.. Small Plant – Nut LI:1
..::THOR::.. Small Plant – Vanilla LI:1
..::THOR::.. Vintage Breadbox LI:1
..::THOR::.. Vintage Kitchen Scale – Yellow LI:2
..::THOR::.. Vintage Pitcher – Copper LI:1
..::THOR::.. Vintage Pitcher – Enamel LI:1
.::THOR::.. Ceramic Milk Jar – Vanilla LI:1

Apple Fall Hetton Barn Conversion LI:76

JIAN Countryside Collies :: Companion Pup Tri LI:7
JIAN Countryside Collies :: Family Rug LI:1

Nutmeg. Garden Junk Broom LI:5

Soy. Wooden Beaded Curtain [Long-TypeA] LI:3

[Commoner] Pallet Wall Art / “Perfect for One Another” LI:1

crate Green Gardener Mop Bucket Tree LI:4

dust bunny . hanging plants . ivy planter LI:3
dust bunny . homemade soup . bag of groceries . pattern a LI:4
dust bunny . homemade soup . prep board LI:2
dust bunny . pasta love . grocery basket LI:1

hive // hanging devil’s ivy plant . light LI:3
hive // macrame hanging plant . white LI:2

tarte. hanging marble pothos plant LI:3
tarte. hanging trailing jade plant LI:3

{vespertine} hanging succulents. – string of pearls., LI:5

Posted in Events, Fancy Decor, Fashion, Legacy, Lelutka, poses, Prism Events, Second Life, shoes, shopping, Uber SL

Drunk on Christmas…just like Grace!

This song made think of my friend, Grace….she jokes about drinking in order to put up with her family. Now let’s hope she doesn’t kill me for this…LOL

Christmas is a time, a special time of year
With peace and joy and happiness and, wonderment and cheer
Opening your presents underneath the tree
And spending countless hours with your family

That’s why I’m drinking drinking drinking
I’m gonna drink all day
I’m coming home for Christmas and my family’s insane
Just got to make it through the day
And there’s no other way
I’m gonna get drunk, drunk, drunk on Christmas

Drunk on Christmas...just like Grace!

hair: Tableau Vivant // Puffy hair @ Uber
head: LeLUTKA Fleur Head 2.5
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) Special Edition (1.3)
skin: — PUMEC – JADWIGA @ Kustom9

.::Supernatural::. Kinsley Necklace @ Tannenbaum
SPIRIT – Widow top @ Uber
SPIRIT – Widow skirt @ Uber

[Fetch] Holiday Treats – Vodka RARE @ Arcade

pose: Lyrium. Elise Static & Breathing + Fingers Series @ Dubai

hive // modern farmhouse kitchen

DISORDERLY. / Bundt Xmas / Candycane @ Tannenbaum

[Cinoe] Mannish Danishes @ Arcade

Wednesday[+] ~ December Magic ~ Letters – COMMON @ Arcade
Wednesday[+] ~ December Magic ~ Herborist Book – COMMON @ Arcade
Wednesday[+] ~ December Magic ~ Coffee – COMMON @ Arcade
Wednesday[+] ~ December Magic ~ Wooden Doll – COMMON @ Arcade

Fancy Decor: Satie Coffee Machine
Fancy Decor: Satie Milk Frother
Fancy Decor: Satie Cream & Sugar
Fancy Decor: Satie Coffee Pods



Posted in Animals, Apple Fall, Collabor88, Events, Fancy Decor, Fashion, Home Decor, Kustom9, Lelutka, Second Life

Life is Messy

Life is messy. There’s no doubt about that. Anyone with pets or children will attest to stepping in something questionable in the middle of the night. Nothing will throw off your day faster than cleaning up a mess like that first thing in the morning. Clearly, life isn’t perfect, but rather than compare our lives to those we see on our lovely screens…I think its better to embrace it.
I know my life isn’t what I had hoped it would be and I changed my ideas about my life several times over the course of my life. Not once did I envision my life to be what it is now. I jokingly said I’d be a fat old woman who hates kids and has a bunch of cats. I don’t even have that! I mean, I don’t LOVE kids, but I surely don’t hate them. Ok, I am fat, so I got that goal down easy enough. Wait, was that a goal….oh god, I manifested that shit! Fuck me. Well, ok, so what. I’m fat, I got a grocery list of health problems and no insurance. I’m still here. I have rather decent roof over my head. *looks down at my fat body* Uhm, clearly, I have plenty to eat. *laughs* I have two running cars. I have one tiny feline terrorist and the most perfect smartest dog in all da world. And I still have my wonderful, albeit crazy, Mom. I am freaking blessed! Sure, I struggle financially, but it sure could be worse. My condo and my cars are paid in full. That’s a true blessing.
As Thanksgiving (yes, its a U.S. holiday) comes sliding around the corner, I have a lot to be thankful for and I’m thankful that I do. Whether you celebrate this holiday or not, I think its a nice reminder to take some honest inventory of the blessings in our lives. It’s easy to forget those blessings as we go about our mundane daily routines. If you’re blessed enough to be reading this, it means you’ve been blessed with a little bit of time and the luxury of internet. While, I’m not so sure you need to be grateful for reading my ramblings, I’m pretty sure you’ve got your own plethora of blessings to behold. Oh…and don’t think I forgot you. I am very very grateful that you have taken that little bit of time from your life to read my words. More grateful than I can properly express, but Thank You.♥

Life is Messy

hair: Stealthic – Vigil
head: LeLUTKA Fleur Head 2.5
skin: [theSkinnery] Teo (LelutkaEVO) @ Kustom9
tattoo: Apocalyptic + Becoming a dragon

Mug – Fiona Tank @ Kustom9
Mug – Fiona Thong @ Kustom9

[Rezz Room] Box Pug Adult Animesh (Holdable) @ Kustom9

scene:
hive // modern farmhouse kitchen

-tres blah- Hodgepodge – Refreshments
-tres blah- Hodgepodge – Breakfast Clutter

Apple Fall Times Newspaper
Apple Fall ‘Elvira’ Plate w/ Egg, Avocado & Toast

+Half-Deer+ Cutie Clutter – Spilled Black Coffee

{vespertine} – woodland owly utensil jar.
{vespertine} – woodland cup hanger.

Second Spaces – Well-stocked Pantry – spices

Fancy Decor: Satie Coffee Machine
Fancy Decor: Satie Cream & Sugar
Fancy Decor: Satie Coffee Pods

Fancy Decor: Pour Over Coffee Maker @ C88
Fancy Decor: Kettle @ C88

dust bunny . kitchen clutter . dish drying rack . white
dust bunny . kitchen clutter . paper towels

Posted in Collabor88, Events, Exploration, Fashion, Glam Affair, Lelutka, Reign, shoes, shopping

Snowdrops

My sister, Kess Crystal, opened her winter sim today. It might seem a tad early to some, but in plenty of places around the world…the snow has been on the ground for a while. This sim is absolutely gorgeous and I highly encourage you to check it out. There’s actually activities on the sim, as well. I’m not going to tell you too much about it, because honestly I want you to go check it out for yourself. I know I’ll be coming back to ice skate on this gorgeous ice skating area behind me!

Snowdrops

tram J1028 hair @ C88
LeLUTKA Fleur Head 2.5
[Glam Affair] – Lelutka Applier – Willow @ C88

hive // cold brew coffee to go
(Yummy) Felicity Ring Set
-SU!- Almond Nails

Just BECAUSE Ryanna Dress @ C88
ROULY :: Hung Up Tights
REIGN.- BERNADETTE OVER KNEE BOOTS

location: Snowdrops

Posted in Dahlia, Events, Fashion, GenusProject, Glam Affair, Legacy, Second Life

How ’bout these notions

I hear the birds
When they’re singing
I hear the sirens
When they’re ringing
But I can’t take my mind off of you
A thousand words, pouring out
The distance of over there
Is moving on and out
You said it’d be alright
How ’bout these notions
Hmm, they’re deep as ocean
Calling out my name
Screaming out in vain
Singing hallelujah
Tell your mother, she don’t understand
Tell your mother, she’s not listening
Why don’t you tear my heart
The chain is made of string
I roll the dice
You seal the deal
That don’t matter
Cause pain will heal
I will follow you
Into the dark

Exile BnS Focus

hair:  Exile – Rosalie
head: GENUS Project – Genus Head – Classic Face W001 – Mocap
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) (1.2)
skin:  [Glam Affair] Josie Applier [ Genus ] @ Access

Apocalyptic Heart mandala tattoo
Lowen – Angel Sunglasses
lipstick: IDTTY FACES – GENUS ROYAL FLUSH COLLECTION #6
SU!– Almond Nails

Blossom&Seeds Bea @ Dubai

pose: Focus Poses – Life is Better on the Boat @ Access

Tentacio Fresh sweet. Notebook

hive // flor simple beach towel .

Dahlia – Malarkey – Margarita

[Commoner] THC Gummies / Beach Bliss

DEAD DOLL – Beach Tote

 

Posted in Animals, Collabor88, Dahlia, Events, Home Decor, Jian, Second Life

The Attention it Deserves

I absolutely love decor, but I find myself struggling with decor blogging more and more. I’m definitely to a point in my blogging career that I no longer apply for teams. I might “reapply” for a team I don’t want to leave, but I’m not looking for more. I’m starting to get back to where I started with all this and that was more about blogging exactly what I wanted, when I wanted. Now I have deadlines that rarely match my inspiration. My passion has always been fashion, but I wanted to do it all. I’m not cutting out decor entirely, but I definitely think I will continue to cut back in the upcoming months. It takes much more time than I have and the more jobs I take on in SL, the less time I have for blogging, especially decor scenes that often take me at least a week to finish. In the end, I often feel that I’m not giving decor the attention it deserves. The next time you’re decorating or shopping, zoom in close and appreciate the tiny details that creators put into their work.

serestyle

.peaches. Coira’s Summer Bash Noodle Pile

DEAD DOLL – Beach Tote

Dahlia – Flamingo Float for Deco(c)rate Special Edition

JIAN Beach Party Pointers 10. Shark Wander Pup
JIAN Beach Party Pointers 2. Adult Shorts Wanderer RARE
JIAN Beach Party Pointers 9. Crab Wander Pup
JIAN Beach Party Pointers EPP Sleepy Beach Chair Pup

PILOT – Fishing Poles
PILOT – Vintage Tackle Box [MINT]

Pitaya – Rent a surfboard

Raindale – Littlefalls fire pit for Deco(c)rate Special Edition

Serenity Style– The Beach Shop for Deco(c)rate Special Edition
Serenity Style- The Beach Shop Building
Serenity Style- The Beach Shop- Box of balls
Serenity Style- The Beach Shop- Sign1
Serenity Style- The Beach Shop- Signs2
Serenity Style- The Beach Shop- Swimmers
Serenity Style- The Beach Shop- Umbrellas

Serenity Style– Wooden Path

Sway’s [Shell] beach shells

Trompe Loeil – Rainbow Adirondack Chair @ C88

hive // flor beach accessories pack  @ Anthem
hive // beach ball
hive // flor beach tote
hive // flor simple beach towel . adult
hive // flor tassled beach towel .adult
hive // young coconut drink