Posted in Apple Fall, Home Decor, shopping, The Liaison Collaborative

It’s Monday!!

I haven’t been feeling much like myself the last couple of days, but before that I was so busy I didn’t have time to think. Now that things have slowed down just a bit, I feel rather lost and not quite sure what to do with myself. I did take some time away from the pc yesterday. Did some reading and just relaxing.
I was hoping to sit out on my patio, but its been just a bit too chilly and everything is wet from the recent rains. So, I curled up in bed with my book instead. Not a lot going on at the moment, but I swear if I’m not balls to the wall busy…I just feel lost. However, its Monday, so I’ve hit the ground running this morning and I’m off to conquer a new week!

It’s Monday!!

220ML – Bolanos Tequila – DISPLAY LI:4

Apple Fall Aspidistra in Wicker Planter LI:5

Foxwood – Bulldog pup – sit LI:2
Foxwood – Cozy Kitty – Lay Decor LI:3
Foxwood – Tiny Pup – Sleep LI:2

MADRAS Divya Hanging Candle Size C LI:2

Pitaya – Lazy Hanging Planter LI:2

Pitaya – Runner Rug – Messy COPPER LI:3 @ TLC

Serenity Style– Spanish Patio Corner @ Unik
Serenity Style- Allium Pink pot LI:2
Serenity Style- Allium withe pot LI:2
Serenity Style- Spanish garden patio LI:7

Soul2Soul. Seville Set @ TLC
-Soul2Soul. Seville Coffee Table LI:2
-Soul2Soul. Seville Leaf Vase LI:1
-Soul2Soul. Seville Monstera Plant LI:2
-Soul2Soul. Seville Newspaper LI:1
-Soul2Soul. Seville Rattan Chair LI:5
-Soul2Soul. Seville Rattan Chair w/Cushion LI:6
-Soul2Soul. Seville Tassle Cushion – Fatpack LI:1

[IK] Wicker World – Mirror LI:2 @ TLC

[Merak] – Little Wicker Table LI:4

[S.S] Tasty Tacos LI:9 @ TLC

dust bunny . fiddle leaf tree LI:6
dust bunny . potted palm LI:5

hive // hanging devil’s ivy plant . light LI:3

Posted in Cynful, Dahlia, Eudora3D, Events, Fashion, Foxcity, Kustom9, Legacy, Second Life

The walls are closing in

Why do I sabotage everything I love?
It’s always beautiful until I fuck it up
Tell myself I’m safe and lonely
With nobody else to break my heart
Even though I know you’d never
I’m my own worst enemy and think you are
Matches in my back pocket
I’m the queen of burning bridges
I will only let you down
Why do I sabotage everything I love?
It’s always beautiful until I fuck it up
Why do I sabotage everything I love?
The walls are closing in because I built them up
Why can’t I let myself be happy? (Ooh)
Why do I gotta get in my own way? (Ooh)
My shoes are worn out, always runnin’
From the reasons that I really wanna stay

The walls are closing in

hairbase: Tableau Vivant \ leLutka EvoX Hairbase 03
hair: Tableau Vivant – Wrap-up ponytail Add-on
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) Perky Edition (1.4)

Cynful Fishnet Set @ Inithium
Eudora3D Stormy Heels & stockings @ FaMESHed X

pose: Diversion – Come Back – Pose Set

FOXCITY. Photo Booth – City Life

[IK] Wicker World @ TLC
-[IK] Wicker World – Screen
-[IK] Wicker World – Armchair
-[IK] Wicker World – Table
-[IK] Wicker World – Tea Set

hive // hanging bougainvillea plant . pink @ Anthem

Dahlia – Liona – Cat Planter @ Kustom9
Dahlia – Liona – Llama Planter – Right – Green leaves @ Kustom9

Posted in Events, FaMESHed, Fashion, Glam Affair, Legacy, Lelutka, Second Life, [BREATHE]

Is that what our dreams have become?

And how far is halfway there?
I didn’t see you on the trail
Did almost become good enough?
Should a good life be so hard won?
Is that what our dreams have become?
Sometimes when you’re shooting an arrow
It can fly across the sky so proud
I would go all the way to the sun
If I didn’t have to come back down

Is that what our dreams have become?

hair: TRUTH Flirt
head: LeLUTKA Avalon Head 3.0
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) Perky Edition (1.4)
skin: [Glam Affair] Rika Skin [Lelutka EvoX]

(Yummy) The Dreamers Necklace
hive // pink drink on the go . kitty . right hold
LaGyo_Suprema Phone
Seniha. Astrid Set @ FaMESHed
***top & skirt***
[BREATHE]-Mitsuho Heels @ Kinky

pose too altered to credit

[777] Stevie @ Pretty Fair

Posted in Events, Exploration, Glam Affair, Kustom9, Legacy, Lelutka, Second Life, shoes, shopping, skin, Skin Fair, The Liaison Collaborative, Uber SL, [BREATHE]

No lyrics today

No lyrics today, I know, shocking. It’s ok, I’m sure they’ll be back in the next post. But today, I want to tell you about some things! First off, I want to tell you about this badass car! I’m obsessed with all the details. The hood opens, the trunk opens, as well as the doors. However, the interior is incredibly detailed. You have to see it for yourself and you really do want to check this out. If you’ve ever wanted a car in SL, I highly recommend you check out 777 Motors.

The next thing I want to tell you about is the sim! It’s called London for Ara and was done as a gift by my SL nephew, Trouble Dethly. He did this for his girlfriend/partner/wife…whatever they are…lol. What I know is that both of them are incredibly talented people and both have hearts of gold. He’s been kind enough to open the sim to the public, so check it out while you can. I’ve no idea how long he intends to keep it that way, but its a beautiful London setting with stores and parks and so much more. So, go buy a car, go shopping, and go exploring. Now you have weekend plans. You’re welcome.

No lyrics today

hair: tram K0310 hair @ Uber
head: LeLUTKA Avalon Head 3.0 @ Skin Fair
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) Special Edition (1.4)
skin: [Glam Affair] Rika Skin [Lelutka EvoX] @ Skin Fair
Glam Affair – New Body Line
RE Sublime Nose Piercing N9

cheezu. square glasses @ Kustom9
– TRIGGERED – Moon Craft Earrings
Demon Doll – Razor Baby Necklace
(Yummy) Aaliyah Ring Collection
hive // pink drink on the go . kitty @ Kustom9
MILOTA: Branven dress @ Uber
[BREATHE]-Rinoko Heels @ Uber

pose: Diversion – Hello Spring Poses @ TLC
location: London for Ara

car: [777] HORIZON @ Men Only

Posted in Bloom, Glam Affair, Kustom9, Legacy, Lelutka, Pale Girl Productions, Prism Events, skin, Skin Fair, The Liaison Collaborative, Uber SL

It’s only up to me

Something deep down
Something deep down
Something deep down is
Tellin’ me “listen to your gut”
Your instincts, you should always trust
Calling you to run run to and not from
When they think they won won let ’em know what’s to come
‘Cause this time around
I’ma listen to that
Something deep down
Every now and then we lose ourselves going round the bend
Staying put ’cause I’m too afraid it will end
One step back gives me three steps forward
It’s your mistakes bring you closer
The sun will come up but will I, I, I?
It’s written in the stars but do they lie, lie, lie?
It’s only up to me to make it right, right, right
It’s only up to me to make it right, right, right

It's only up to me

hair: bonbon – zoey hair @ Kustom9
head: LeLUTKA Avalon Head 3.0 @ Skin Fair
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) Special Edition (1.4)
skin: [Glam Affair] Rika Skin [Lelutka EvoX] @ Skin Fair
Glam Affair – New Body Line
RE Sublime Nose Piercing N9

ERSCH – Monie Earrings @ Bloom
(Yummy) Aaliyah Ring Collection @ Uber
alme. Mesh Nails – Shabby Spring Collection @ Bloom
hive // pink drink on the go . kitty @ Kustom9
~Nerido~ Ksyu Shirt/Bra @ Bloom
MILOTA: Emmanuel shorts @ Kustom9

pose: Lyrium. Riana Static & Breathing + Fingers Series @ Dubai

Soul2Soul. Jardin Patio Garden @ TLC
-Soul2Soul. Jardin Patio Garden. Pavers Rgt Brownstone
-Soul2Soul. Jardin Patio Garden. Planter Square Lrg Brownstone
-Soul2Soul. Jardin Patio Garden. Pennywort ground cover
-Soul2Soul. Jardin Patio Garden. Planter Low Brownstone A
-Soul2Soul. Jardin Patio Garden. Planter Low Brownstone B
-Soul2Soul. Jardin Patio Garden. Planter Square Brownstone b
-Soul2Soul. Jardin Patio Garden. Planter Low Brownstone A
-Soul2Soul. Jardin Patio Garden. Planter Square Brownstone A
-Soul2Soul. Jardin Patio Garden. Planter Long Brownstone A

URBAN JUNGLE IRREGULAR FENCE KIT @ TLC

B-Made Pizza Kiosk @ TLC
B-Made Donut Store

BALACLAVA!! Honey Vendor @ Bloom

Ariskea[Eve] BeeHive @ Bloom
Ariskea[Eve] Jacynthe Flowers [Blue] @ Bloom
Ariskea[Eve] Jacynthe Flowers [Violet] @ Bloom

Posted in Animals, Events, Home Decor, Second Life

Special Place of Zen

These days, I think we’d all like a spa vacation. Unfortunately, due to the current times, that simply isn’t an option for most of us. However, I have found some tranquility by creating my own spa inworld and simply allowing my avatar to enjoy the setting, while I listen to some soft meditation friendly music. It would seem that the creators in SL have a similar idea, as I was able to use the new Urban Spa set from Atelier Burgundy & Pitaya as my foundation, then added elements from other spa sets in my collection to personalize it. There’s quite a bit that isn’t shown here, to include spring water and a mud bath, but I think this photo gives you an accurate view to grasp the idea. Hopefully, it will inspire you to create you own special place of zen. ♥

Special Place of Zen

(luc) Clay Floral Mandala LI:12

-Pixicat- Bastet.Sphynx (Lazy) LI:2

Atelier Burgundy + Pitaya . Urban Spa @ Anthem
Atelier Burgundy + Pitaya . Urban Spa . Bamboo Vase LI:4
Atelier Burgundy + Pitaya . Urban Spa . Ficus LI:14
Atelier Burgundy + Pitaya . Urban Spa . Fountain LI:3
Atelier Burgundy + Pitaya . Urban Spa . Fruits LI:2
Atelier Burgundy + Pitaya . Urban Spa . Green Pouf LI:2
Atelier Burgundy + Pitaya . Urban Spa . Green Yoga Mat LI:2
Atelier Burgundy + Pitaya . Urban Spa . Green Yoga Mat -rolled LI:1
Atelier Burgundy + Pitaya . Urban Spa . Room Divider LI:2
Atelier Burgundy + Pitaya . Urban Spa . Tea Set Green LI:1
Atelier Burgundy + Pitaya . Urban Spa . Tea Set Grey LI:1
Atelier Burgundy + Pitaya . Urban Spa . White Pouf LI:2
Atelier Burgundy + Pitaya . Urban Spa . White Yoga Mat LI:2
Atelier Burgundy + Pitaya . Urban Spa . White Yoga Mat -rolled LI:1
Atelier Burgundy + Pitaya . Urban Spa . Wood trolley LI:2
Atelier Burgundy + Pitaya . Urban Spa . Chaise Long White LI:10
Atelier Burgundy + Pitaya . Urban Spa . Fabric Divider LI:8
Atelier Burgundy + Pitaya . Urban Spa . Massage table LI:5
Atelier Burgundy + Pitaya . Urban Spa Building RARE LI:62
Atelier Burgundy + Pitaya . Urban Spa.Aromatherapy Diffuser 1 LI:1
Atelier Burgundy + Pitaya . Urban Spa.Aromatherapy Diffuser 2 LI:1

DaD “Mandarin Spa”
DaD “Mandarin Spa Jellyfish floor lamp” LI:4
DaD “Mandarin Spa Sensory rug” gift LI:7
DaD “Mandarin Spa Towel Basket” LI:2
DaD “Mandarin Spa small table A” LI:1

Foxwood – Hanging Plants – Large LI:5
Foxwood – Hanging Plants – Small LI:4

KraftWork Zen Refuge
KraftWork Zen Refuge . Asian Coffee Table Wood LI:1
KraftWork Zen Refuge . Asian Lamp (with projector light) LI:2
KraftWork Zen Refuge . Buddha Vase LI:26
KraftWork Zen Refuge . Candles Path LI:4
KraftWork Zen Refuge . Ceramic Mobile LI:2
KraftWork Zen Refuge . Meditation Table LI:5
KraftWork Zen Refuge . Metal Chimes (no sounds) LI:1
KraftWork Zen Refuge . Spa Candle Set 1 LI:4
KraftWork Zen Refuge . Spa Candle Set 2 LI:5
KraftWork Zen Refuge . Tatami Rug LI:5
KraftWork Zen Refuge . Yoga Poses Banner LI:1

dust bunny . hanging plants . double planter LI:6
dust bunny . lauren bathroom . hanging robe . a LI:3

hive // macrame hanging plant . charcoal LI:2

{vespertine} hanging succulents. – string of pearls., LI:5

Posted in Events, FaMESHed, Fashion, Kustom9, Legacy, Lelutka, Second Life, [BREATHE], {le fil casse}

Is it hard knowing you’re wrong?

I heard from a friend of a friend
That you’ve been checking back in
‘Cause I said goodbye, moved overnight
And you haven’t heard much since then
Wondering how I’m doing now
It’s none of your business first of all
Wondering how I’m doing now
But if you’ve got to know, well sure
Well sure
You think I’d be lost
Think I’d be lost without you, lost
Is it hard knowing you’re wrong
See I got lots without you
Lots without you

Is it hard knowing you’re wrong?

hair: Tableau Vivant \ Water lily – Dropping @ Arcade
head: LeLUTKA Nova Head 2.5
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) Special Edition (1.3)
skin: PUMEC — SARAH @ Kustom9
tattoo: *Bolson / Tattoo – Antheia @ Anthem

(Yummy) Aaliyah Ring Collection @ Uber
{le fil casse} Mei Collection @ Arcade
(top & panties-black)
[BREATHE]-Sasumi Heels @ FaMESHed

[Rezz Room] Sphynx Animesh @ ManCave

pose: Diversion – Come Back – Pose Set

backdrop: MINIMAL – Natural Nude Backdrop III Spiral @ Kustom9

  • TRIGGERED – Antidepressant Kit (Wine Bottle & glass)

..::THOR::.. Small Radio

dust bunny . hanging plants . cheese plant

hive // hanging devil’s ivy plant . light

Posted in Apple Fall

Casa Paradiso Bath

Don’t faint. I know, its a decor only post and I haven’t done one of those in ages. Trust me, you’ll see it again, cuz I plan on posing with this scene, too. Plus, I never said I wouldn’t blog decor. How could I not, I love decorating. I’m so in love with with the CONCEPT} CASA PARADISO set at Arcade. So, not only will you see this scene again, or at least parts of it. You will also see more from that set. So, without further blabbering, I’m going to start working on something else! HA! Bathroom scenes have always been my most challenging, too. So, here I am trying to do another one. Be nice.

Casa Paradiso Bath

LODE Decor – Lunaria Vase [original] LI:3

+Half-Deer+ Neatly Folded Blankets – Pink Floral LI:1

  1. Lagom – Bathroom clutter [ Loofah Blue ] LI:1 @ TLC
  2. Lagom – Bathroom clutter [ Sponge ] LI:1 @ TLC
  3. Lagom – Bathroom clutter [ Bathbombs ] LI:1 @ TLC

Architect. Macro Shelf (steel) LI:1

Ariskea[Bougee] Fresh Cotton LI:1

CONCEPT} CASA PARADISO. @ Arcade
CONCEPT} 05. CASA PARADISO. Wood Stool LI:2
CONCEPT} 17. CASA PARADISO. House. RARE LI:52
CONCEPT} 18. CASA PARADISO. Wash cabinet LI:5
CONCEPT} 19. CASA PARADISO. Square mirror A LI:1
CONCEPT} 20. CASA PARADISO. Stool A LI:1
CONCEPT} 21. CASA PARADISO. Natural Rug LI:2
CONCEPT} 22. CASA PARADISO.Stool B LI:2
CONCEPT} 23. CASA PARADISO. Big mirror LI:2
CONCEPT} 24. CASA PARADISO. Bath Adult. RARE. copy LI:4

CONCEPT} 12. SAL. Short Hang Lamp LI:1
CONCEPT} 21. SAL. Grey pot LI:1

Concept} 09. Bali Candles LI:5
Concept} Cotton Bottle LI:1
Concept} Cotton Plate LI:1

Compulsion Plant 17 LI:4

DaD “Indoor Olive tree in pot” c/m LI:4 @ UBER

KraftWork Aarhus Bathroom . Hand Soap LI:1

Loft & Aria – Brewer basket With Sandals LI:2
Loft & Aria – Sterling Artwork LI:2

MADRAS 11 Zebra Decor LI:1
MADRAS Elilan Book Stool LI:1
MADRAS Elilan Pot Decor LI:2

Nutmeg. Dacha Crumpled Towel LI:2
Nutmeg. Winter’s Dawn Slippers / L LI:1
Nutmeg. Winter’s Dawn Slippers / R LI:1

O.M.E.N – Ragdoll – Playing – VIP LI:6

TA Lotus Incense LI:4

The Loft & Aria – Linen Storage Box LI:1
The Loft – Lotus Holder LI:1
The Loft – Yoga Tray LI:3

Apple Fall Pampas Grass LI:2
West Village Cotton Tote LI:1

[Merak] – Secrets Room Divider LI:9

dust bunny & con . lauren bathroom . radiator . black LI:2
dust bunny . hanging plants . double planter LI:8
dust bunny . lauren bathroom . cotton ball container LI:1
dust bunny . lauren bathroom . hanging robe . a LI:3
dust bunny . lauren bathroom . qtip container LI:1
dust bunny . lauren bathroom . toothbrush holder LI:1

hive // devil’s ivy overhang plant . dark LI:2
hive // hanging devil’s ivy plant . dark LI:3

Posted in Collabor88, Events, Fashion, Legacy, Lelutka, Second Life, shopping, skin, The Liaison Collaborative

a glimpse into my BPD brain

Ok, so this is a bit off and has absolutely nothing to do with the photo, but since I am prone to sharing my real life or lackthereof here, I figure I might as well share this, too. However, this could be a trigger for some. If you are easily triggered by suicide topics, please have someone else read it first to determine whether or not you should. I’m doing this for me. These are my reasons: 1. to hold myself accountable 2. cuz I think the convo is cute 3. cuz it shows how quickly my state of mind changes
So, what I’m going to do is just copy a conversation between myself and my wifey, Ghoulina Waffles, cuz it pretty much sums things up. Please don’t go nuts and call for welfare checks, I’m fine and I have an appt with my therapist in the morning.

9:24am
Ghoulie: Hope your stint at XXXXXX went okay
Sady: girl, I couldn’t sleep before my shift
I just laid in bed for hours contemplating suicide
then after my shift, I passed the fuck out
and had a nightmare about a failed suicide attempt
Ghoulie: Jesus wammen
Sady: was a rad attempt fail tho
rofl
Ghoulie: you are not allowed to think of suicide when your wifey is this pretty https://flic.kr/p/2kENqCT
oh?
how’s that?
Sady: oooh, I tried to race my car into a busy intersection, but ended up launching my car over it instead, but also flipping it mid way so I was over the intersection upside down screaming “fuck yeah” out the window before turning right side up and crashing into a building
but in my dream, my car was so sturdy it protected me, so I just had a concussion some scratches and bruises
and a bunch of teenagers decided I was a worthy cause and all came to visit me
and then it was kinda over and a giant storm came and mom was passed out on the couch so I sat and watched this amazing storm outside
when it was over we went to target to buy candy
lmao
Ghoulie: WTF, so, you had an action film for a suicide attempt
Sady: ooh and at the store there were all these candy bar flavored pop tart bites….they were new and I was mad that they didn’t have a grab bag with all the flavors
especially since I didn’t want a whole bag of milky way pop tarts
lmao
Ghoulie: I like you, but you’re crazy (said with a gif)
Sady: note to self, do not use car in suicide attempt, cuz if it fails, you only killed your car
Ghoulie: No suicide attempts, okay?
Sady: we’ll see
Ghoulie: your body is already like evil hands rubbing together “Teeheehee we got this”
Sady: RIGHT???
Ghoulie: it’s like surprise suicide, you just can’t plan it
Sady: pretty much…lol

….then we trailed off to discuss our new Linden Labs stilt homes and other things

Again, I repeat, I’m fine now. I was just talking to one of my closest friends. She gets me on a level that most don’t and she knows when to take me seriously, when to worry, etc. She’s not worried and you shouldn’t be either. This is not a cry for help, but just a glimpse into my BPD brain. As my friend, Tracy Redangel, once said, “Depression lies.” I know this and I would not act on a suicidal impulse. Trust that I know myself far better than most and I will be discussing my thoughts with my new therapist tomorrow morning. Meanwhile, I have too much work to do and too many people counting on me to just up and dip out! I PROMISE.

a glimpse into my BPD brain

hair: [monso] Mabel Hair @ C88
head: LeLUTKA Nova Head 2.5
eyes: AG. Mercury Eyes @ Access
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) Special Edition (1.3)
skin: PUMEC – Lillian

[ rD ] – Rayna Cuff & Earrings @ TLC
Rainbow Sundae Callie Bracelet @ TLC
MY BAGS by Mila Blauvelt My Naughty RED
hive // cold brew coffee to go .
Apl.Blossom Genesis @ TLC

pose: an lar [poses] The Sandra Series @ TLC

TROPIX // Time Music BackDrop 01 @ Access

Posted in Collabor88, FaMESHed, Kustom9, Legacy, Lelutka, Second Life, shopping, skin, {le fil casse}

What dirty dishes?

This is how you get out of trouble for not doing the dishes. *grins* You just stand real pretty in something distracting and offer some treats. Now, what significant other could possibly be upset about a few dishes in the sink when they can have hot cocoa, churros, and this? None with a pulse, I can tell you that! *giggles*

What dirty dishes?

hair: TRUTH Brazen
head: LeLUTKA Lily Head 2.5
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) Special Edition (1.3)
skin: — PUMEC – JADWIGA – LELUTKA x BOM

AvaWay LETTER Necklaces Set @ FaMESHed
(Yummy) Eliza Ring Collection @ C88
^^Swallow^^ Princess Belly Piercing @ Kustom9

{le fil casse} Laverne Bralette
{le fil casse} Laverne Shorts

pose: Ana Poses – Her September

scene:
hive // modern farmhouse kitchen
DaD “Rustic Frames
-tres blah- Hodgepodge – Morning Start
-tres blah- Hodgepodge – Dirty Dishes
dust bunny . kitchen clutter . spice rack . black
dust bunny . kitchen clutter . paper towels
dust bunny . kitchen clutter . dish drying rack . white
Hangry – White Glazed Churros @ Kustom9
Hangry – Jolly Hot Cocoa – White @ Kustom9