The last few days have been busy busy busy, as are the first few days of every month. *laughs* This is nothing new. However, yesterday I had to leave the house and that’s always an anxiety attack. Luckily, I wasn’t in the voting line too long. My mother used to work the polls and she knew the best time for us to go. She picked the absolute best time, too. There wasn’t much of a line when we got there, but as we left there was a line going quite a ways down the sidewalk outside. It was really odd seeing so much security surrounding the premises, but I suppose it was good to err on the side of caution. I’ll admit that I was a bit nervous as I live in a very very red state and I am quite blue. And that’s the extent of what I will discuss about politics. I won’t unfriend those that disagree with me, as I feel we all have our reasons for feeling the way we do. I have family that is red and while I don’t agree with them, I can still love them….from a distance. *grins*
DOUX – Tegan hairstyle LeLUTKA Fleur Head 2.0 Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara V5.0 [theSkinnery] Karima @ Uber
I’ve been actively blogging for almost five years and while I very much enjoy taking photos, I’ve grown quite weary of my actual blog site. I know that a few of you actually read what I write, but for the most part I have found that most of my followers tend to look at the photos. If they want something in the photo they see on flickr, they will click the link to my blog and scroll straight to the credits. I’m also running out of space for my blog photos on this site. With that said, if I want to continue using this site, I will not only need to renew my subscription, but upgrade it, as well. The upgrade will more than double the yearly amount that I’m paying now. While, I’d have more than enough room for photos after the upgrade, I can’t really justify the expense. This is something that has been on my mind for several months now. I’ve wrestled with the idea of retiring completely from blogging, but let’s face it, I’m always going to take photos. I might as well list the items I’m wearing and that is easily done on Flickr. I can even hyperlink on flickr to provide slurls. Essentially, I can do everything on flickr that I do hear, aside from writing long drawn out posts. After sitting down and going over my pros&cons list, I have decided that I will be migrating my blog…or downsizing it so that I’m working more from flickr and less on wordpress. Eventually, this page will disappear, because I won’t be paying to keep the site up if I’m no longer using it. I’ll have to reach out to my sponsors, of course, as they took me on with an actual blog page in place. They may not want to continue on with me if I’m micro blogging and that’s okay. I completely understand that. So, watch my flickr for micro blogs…I’ll still post here from time to time, as its paid for through January, but the time is near and I’m definitely going to make that move.
I have found that whenever you look outside yourself for something or someone to make you happy, you are simply looking in the wrong place. Happiness definitely comes from within and you have to truly want it in order to achieve it. To truly want something, you have to be willing to work for it. Too many people with mental illnesses refuse to accept that and it breaks my heart. I’ve been there and I know its not an easy path. By no means am I cured. I still suffer from mental illness, but I am getting help and it is working. It works, because I’m following suggestions and taking advice that I don’t always like. I know its working, because I feel better more often than I don’t. I no longer sit and wallow in self pity or self loathing. I no longer envy what other people have, because I have beyond what I absolutely need in this life. I’m not looking at what I don’t have. Instead, I’m counting my blessings for everything I do have and I’m appreciating it all a bit more. I know it could all be gone in an instant. I don’t want to wait until its gone to enjoy it or appreciate the blessing bestowed upon me.
Time goes by and still I’m stuck on you
Yeah, time goes by and still I’m stuck on you, ooh, you, ooh
I been afraid, don’t wanna fade out of my body
I been astray, barely awake, floating above me
Covered in red, what can I say? I’ve been a zombie
I’m feeling like I’ve been locked in a grave
You were the laugh, you were the life, you were the party
You were the brave, I was the weak, you were the army
You were the faith, you were the truth, I was the sorry
I’m feeling like you’ve been taking away
You were my one, you were my one
When all has been said, all has been done
You were my one, you were my one
Now I am left reaching above me, oh, oh
Time goes by and still I’m stuck on you, ooh, you, ooh (whoa oh)
Well time goes by and still I’m stuck on you, ooh, you, ooh
Why did you leave? Why did you go leaving me lonely?
Didn’t you know you were the home, you were the only?
Where did you go? Where did you go? Where did you go?
Come back to me