Posted in CandyDoll, Catwa, Death Row Designs, Events, Fashion, Home Decor, Jian, N21, RAMA, Second Life, shoes, shopping, Uber SL

Losing It

I remember the first time I saw my mom just lose it. She had spent hours making this cake from scratch, but it tilted so bad and kept sliding, no matter what she tried. Next thing I know she’s screaming and attacks the cakes with her claw like hands and cakes went everywhere. The next time I saw her lose it was when we had borrowed a VW Bug from a friend. It had a stick shift (look it up if you’re too young to know) and she hated them, the clutch would stick, too. It was the first time I heard the F word. *gasps* I think the first time I truly lost it was in high school. It was a really bad hair day and I broke my hair brush. Many times, I’ve felt like throwing all my papers in the air when writing…and once upon a time I did all my writing on paper. *giggles* Most days this is what my brain feels like…someone just threw my life in the air and I’m doing my best to grab it all and make some sense of it.

losing it
The writer stares with glassy eyes —
Defies the empty page,

wearing:
hair: RAMA.SALON – Sonya Hair (*new* @ Shiny Shabby)
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: [theSkinnery]  Iris (Catwa Applier) toffee
Cae :: Zora :: Glasses (*new* @ The Clique)
::GB::Off Shoulder Cardigan (F)/ Gray
{le fil casse} Alysha Dress (*new* @ Uber)
_CD_ Deya Wedge (*new* @ N21)

JIAN Marble Fox (Static – Sleeping L)

pose: Bauhaus Movement

scene:
a lot of books from all over the grid
bookcase and fireplace – DRD – Shadow Box – Series 01 – FEB 2018 – LIGHT

 

Posted in Events, FaMESHed, Fashion, Foxcity, Lybra, Maitreya, RunAway Hair, Second Life, shoes, shopping

Watching Me

There’s something about knowing you’re being watched, but they don’t know you know. Perhaps it’s just me, I mean, I know can’t be the only that feels that way or the song below wouldn’t have become so damn popular. Once upon I couldn’t stand the idea of anyone watching me…..and to be perfectly honest, I’m still not a fan of that in RL. However, believe it or not, I used to get embarrassed in SL.
Then along came a very handsome and interesting neighbor. I discovered his crosshairs on me and realized I didn’t have the privacy set on my land. Instead of setting it, I gave him a show. *laughs* Funny thing is, we’ve been close friends ever since, but we’ve yet to mess around. I say, yet, cuz stranger things have happened.

for you
So much left unspoken
Between the two of us
It’s so much more exciting
To look when you can touch
You could say I am different
And maybe I’m a freak
But I know how to twist ya
To bring you to your knees

Cruel is wearing:
body: [SIGNATURE] Geralt – Mesh Body  *NEW*
tattoo: [ATI] Nightmare…
5.::GB:: Color denib pants / Black

Sady is wearing:
hair:  [RA] Katia Hair (*new* @ WhoreCouture)
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: [theSkinnery]  Saska (Catwa Applier) honey
LYBRA . MISA  (*new* @ FaMESHed)
{Nena} Pantyhose v1
REIGN.- BETTY HEELS

pose created with AnyPose
FOXCITY. K-POP Star 2. (2) So Crazy (Common) (*new* @ Arcade)

Posted in Death Row Designs, E.A.Studio, Second Life, shoes, shopping, Uber SL, unKindness, [ATI] Addicted to Ink, {le fil casse}

Ride or Die

This month my blog celebrates it 2yr anniversary and I can’t thank YOU the readers enough for your support. It continues to amaze me that anyone takes the time to read my words, look at my pictures, or comment. I am so humbled by it all. More than anything I’m grateful to my Ride or Die girls or as I usually refer to them, my cunts.
A strange twist of fate, some rock music, and a barn brought us together in the most unexpected ways, but the formula works. Four of the five of us have been inseparable. Let me explain the mega-important role that each of these girls plays in our little Cunt Cult (that’s what we call ourself and Tracy even made us a logo! No, you can’t join. #sorrynotsorry) We are not the mean girls, but we’ve tried bringing people into our group in the past. It has always backfired and when the cunts turn on you, well, its not pretty.
We do not have a leader, but I suppose some would assume its Kess or me. No, but believe or not, Kess is often our sound of reason. The one that grounds us in reality, points out the reasons one of our latest and greatest ideas is a BAD idea. For those of you that know Kess, please stop laughing. She’s really far smarter than people give her credit for….no, wait, that’s Tracy. Everyone knows that Kess, while being a daft bint, is an amazing and incredible woman that sets a fairly good example for the rest of us. She tends to give us that kick in the ass when we need it. While she’s all of that and a bag of chips….we don’t listen to her for romantic advice, cuz when it comes to men….well, I think she’s finally got a good one, but good lord. She has gone through enough toads, that’s for sure. Its about high time she found some happiness.
Then there’s Tracy….and Rom. Rom is an honorary member, because he’s sorta of been along for the ride with us since the very beginning. Sadly, this post isn’t about Rom, but if you love some artistic photography, please check out Rom’s flickr. Now, back to Tracy, she’s the owner of GingerFish poses. I’m sure you’re all familiar with her store. If not, you should be. She was one of the first pose makes to do bento poses. Her prices are great and she’s an amazing individual. She’s probably the smartest of all the cunts, but you’d never know it to talk to her. *giggles* She’s a crazy ginger that eats the souls of children for breakfast. *grins*
Then there’s Grace! This girl is like my twin. We agree on almost everything, except her choice in men. Tally? Really? *bursts into giggles* Grace and I go back and forth picking at one another. She never judges me ever. No matter what stupid shit I do, she’s probably done the same or something close. If these cunts were angels and demons on my shoulder, Grace would definitely be wearing red…with cow print. I don’t even know how to explain Grace….she’s Irish…wait, North Ireland Irish (that seems to make a difference). Between her shitty internet service and her crazy accent, she can be difficult to understand on voice. However, I love this woman like no one’s business….she’s my twinkie♥There’s another cunt, Ava, but she’s off in the real world being all in love & pregnant. I love her, but I honestly didn’t get to know her that well before she left us for that other platform called Real Life. I love them more than words can express and I refuse to even think of my life without them. They all have Flickrs, so click their names where highlighted to check them out, if you’d like.
These are the first circle of my Ride or Die bitches. I have a 2nd circle and they are the MF’n bomb. Perhaps I’ll talk about them another time, but they are not bloggers and kinda prefer to keep their lives a bit more private.

Ride or Die
I’ll never let you down, I can’t let you down
Because when I couldn’t get my feet on the ground
You’d do anything to help me out
You never let me down
What goes around comes around
I’m just sitting here on my front porch singing
This one’s for my ride or die

Sady is wearing:
hair:  Tableau Vivant \\ Peggy hair  (*new* @ Uber)
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: [theSkinnery]  Saska (Catwa Applier) honey
holding: DRD – Scrappy Helmet – White Check – Loaded (*new* @ Uber)
{le fil casse} Donna Dress (*new* @ Uber)
#EMPIRE – Coreopsis

her pose: Animosity – Cruisin’ set (*new* @ MOM)

Cruel is wearing:
hair: Stealthic – Haunting
hairbase: Stealthic – Male Hairbase
head: CATWA HEAD Daniel
beard: Volkstone Toni Facial Hair
ears: .:E.A.Studio:. Box Ears Falling Star
body: [SIGNATURE] Geralt – Mesh Body  *NEW*
skin: STRAY DOG – SHANE – CATWA
tattoo: [ATI] Nightmare…
holding: DRD – Scrappy Helmet – Rusted Black (*new* @ Uber)
5.::GB:: Color denib pants / Black

his pose:  PM . Bronx (*new* @ MOM)

Scene:
uK – Modern Serenity Home (*new* Feb Builder’s Box)
:Fanatik Architecture: Roads of LISBON
DRD – Scrappy Scooter – White Check (*new* @ Uber)
DRD – Scrappy Scooter – Rusted Black – Loaded (*new* @ Uber)

Posted in Blueberry, Events, Fashion, Foxcity, Kustom9, Maitreya, Second Life, shoes, shopping, The Liaison Collaborative, Uber SL

Nightmare

Yes, I’m on a song kick right now. I can’t know how long it will last, but for now music is speaking volumes more than I’m capable. So, hopefully you’ll discover some new songs or lyrics.

Nyxx – Nightmare

I wanted every part of you
Just you and no one else
You wanted me alone
But never to yourself

You say I’m crazy and I might be
But if you only knew
That there’s something inside me
With it’s sights set on you
It’s kicking, it’s screaming
You’re begging and pleading,
And there’s no escape from me

I am the nightmare
Like you’ve never known
I am the shadow
That follows you home
And I cannot wait baby
To get you alone
The things I’m gonna do to you
The things I’m gonna do to you

You led me to the edge and told me we could fly
You watched me fall into your hands, now I’m alive
You said you wanted me more
I savored every word, now
I thought it was real
But I was wrong

You say I’m crazy and I might be
But if you only knew
That there’s something inside me
With it’s sights set on you
It’s kicking, it’s screaming

I am the nightmare
Like you’ve never known
I am the shadow
That follows you home
And I cannot wait baby
To get you alone
The things I’m gonna do to you
The things I’m gonna do to you

In the deepest darkness–
I’m coming for you
Like a quick, cold hand–
I’m reaching for you
You’ll fear me, feel me–
Just like a chill
I was your black sheep baby–
Now I’m dressed to kill

woven

wearing:
hair: tram G1204 hair (*new* @ Uber)
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: Glam Affair – Imani Applier ( Catwa ) America
tattoo: .Identity. Body Shop – Rise Again
[Atomic] Kitten Collar
::GB::Mini down jacket
.::Dead Dollz::. Basic Underwear (*new* @ TLC)
Blueberry – Tinker Set

FOXCITY. Loco Bento Pose Set (*new* @ K9)
FOXCITY. Photo Booth – Trapped (January Group Gift)

Posted in Events, Fashion, Mina Hair, Second Life, shoes, shopping, Uber SL, United Colors, What if...

Santa’s Helper

What if with women’s rights, we fought for our right to be Santa, too? Naturally, we’d do it much sexier than an old fat man in a beard, but would we stumble along the streets on Christmas eve drunk and pissing in corners, because this is the end of the gig until next year? Nah, we’d make much more money as Santa hookers or strippers…helpers, if you will. *grins*
Regardless of who Santa may or may not be, sober or not, I know my ass will be eating well and sauced up right. Hope your holiday weekend is a happy one♥

drunk santa

wearing:
hair: MINA – Carmen (*new* @ Uber)
head: CATWA HEAD Lilly
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: DeeTaleZ  “Merrylu” Mixedtype
^^Swallow^^ Shiny Ears
**RE** Juliett Pasties Maitreya Red Common
::GB::Mini down jacket (Maitreya) Santa (*new* @ District20)
UC_Mimi_panties
UC_Mimi_boots

pose: Imitation. – Kendra v1 Set
Paparazzi – BACKDROP – Dead End Garage – jade (*new* @ Limit8)

Posted in Events, Fashion, Home Decor, Mina Hair, Phedora, Second Life, shoes, shopping, Uber SL, United Colors

Naughty Girl

I tried to avoid this topic, because Kess Crystal is a cunt! *laughs* When I wrote the blog, “Dangerous Proposition,” I knew that I was taking a big risk by promising to make a post about every topic or question posted on the blog, FB, or sent to me inworld. My darling, bestie Kess went dark and dirty on me. *shakes her head & laughs* Soooo, Kess said, “I would like you to talk about the 3 worst things you have done on Tequila!” I could write a post for each of them if I were to give a lot of details, but I’m not going to do that. I’m going to keep it short-ish.

  1. I was 19 and drank an entire bottle of tequila at a bonfire. I was there with a date, but it was a massive party and I left with some friends to go to another party. At the 2nd party, I apparently had a very long conversation with a tree. We finally make it back to the bonfire party. Everyone has left except my date and some of his friends. I was so drunk I couldn’t walk. I should probably mention that he had gotten a brand new car earlier that day. Yeah, I made a huge mess of his brand new car….inside and out. *hangs her head*
  2. Last year I was drinking tequila on skype with Kess and I’m pretty sure this is why she asked this damn question. I had turned on my camera to show HER my new black bra, but as I did her RL walked by…so he got a great shot of my tits in my new black bra. I’ve been told I was showing other people my bra later that night. I do not remember doing that.
  3. The last time I drank tequila, I was on skype with a handful of people. At one point I got very sick. I didn’t want them to hear me throwing up, but I didn’t have time to mute. I threw my cordless headset in the sink and in between hurling I would yell, “I’m ok!” and “I’m soo sorry.”

So, there ya have it. Tequila makes Sady a very naughty girl. Of course, I can get plenty naughty without alcohol, too. *winks at Josh*

playtime

Josh is wearing:
hair: Barber Shop / David
head: CATWA HEAD Daniel
body: [SIGNATURE] Gianni – Mesh Body
::GB:: Black three-pieces / Stripe Vr.02
::GB::Bai color WT / Black

Josh sitting in Dutchie maledom chair 2.0

Sady is wearing:
hair:  MINA – Eden (*new* @ Kinky)
head: CATWA HEAD Lilly
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: DeeTaleZ *Appliers* CATWA Head “Merrylu” Nordic (*new* @ Uber)
tattoo: Oz Design : MoonWolf Tattoo
UC_I_dare_outfit (*new* @ Kinky)
Phedora ~Elvin the unicorn (*new* @ Kinky)

*~M`n B~* Handcuffs
[Fetch] Spanking Paddle – Cunt

Sady’s pose: Foxcity Balance Set

scene:
Paparazzi BACKDROP – The Room With A View (with raindrops)
Quasi – Playtime – Neon Sign (Red)
Quasi – Kink Toy Shelf
Qausi – Pleasure Box
David Heather-Kneel Table/Wood2
Plethora – Kink Tray (For Her)

Posted in E.A.Studio, Events, Fashion, Phedora, Scandalize, Second Life, Shiny Shabby, shoes, shopping, Uber SL

Great Team

They say you should find someone that makes you a better person. Someone that makes you push yourself to be your best. Someone that believes in you, compliments you and your life. Someone that you do the same for, as well. Afterall, its a two way street, right?

I’m not sure I’ve EVER known that kind of relationship. I’ve either been with people that completely agreed with everything I said or wanted and simply let me have my way. OR I’ve been with assholes that made me think their constant destructive criticisms were actually constructive. Well, until now…I really hope that I encourage Josh the way he does me, though I’m honestly not sure. Of course, I’d like to think so, but I know I tend to be a bit self-centered and easily distracted. I’ve got a thousand legitimate excuses for being the way I am, but that’s not what I’m talking about right now. Right now, I’m gushing about Josh again. Yeah, I know…the love cynic has turned into a pile of mush. *swoons*
Much like a musical instrument added to a beautiful voice, Josh and I make a great team. At least I think so…and I know at least a half dozen others who would agree. You see, I used to think that Josh was always biased about my photos, because he would always tell me my photos were amazing. I still think he’s biased, mind you. I know my photos are not AMAZING, but I do believe I take some shots that are pretty damn awesome. This may or may not be one of them, but I know its better than my original shot which featured both the dress and the shoes in black. Josh pointed out that the details of both were sort of blending with the piano. I took a second look at the picture and he was right. So, I tried a few colors as he watched and grinned like the cheshire cat and waalaaa…here’s the improved photo.
This is also an important lesson for all you shoppers that debate on whether or not to buy the fatpack. You show up wearing the perfect dress, but someone else is wearing the exact same dress? Change the color and a few accessories and BOOM, you look fab AND different. Plus, if you’re like me and always taking photos, you can set the color for the scene. See? So tell those that love to spoil you that you’re a fatpacker. They’ll love you for it and probably buy you one or two or four…*winks*

great team

Sady is wearing:
hair: Magika – 01 – Talk Like That
head: CATWA HEAD Tala
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
Scandalize. Kaylas. (*new* @ Shiny Shabby)
Phedora ~ Alessia Heels (*new* @ Uber)

pose by Di’s Opera

Josh is wearing:
hair: Stealthic – Hysteria
hairbase: [Hipster Style] Rhys Hairbase BROWN
head: CATWA HEAD Daniel
ears: .:E.A.Studio:.  Ears Falling Star
beard: VYC – Neat Scruff Beard HD *GIFT*
body: Slink Physique Male Mesh Body
piercing: 3.::GB:: Lip piercing (Catwa Daniel) Black (Studded)
::GB::slim pants suit Vr.2 / Black
::GB::Bai color WT / Black

pose in the piano

1 Prim Divine Piano
Trompe Loeil – Amelie Pavillion Elevated {A} V1.1

Posted in Artisan Fantasy, Bound Box, CandyDoll, Drunk Panda, E.A.Studio, Events, FaMESHed, Fashion, N21, Narcisse, Phoenix, Second Life, shoes, shopping

Let’s Go Play

“Let’s go play,” he said as he led her to the car.
“Oooh where are we going?” she asked, as she was always so curious.
He smirked, then blindfolded her and growled, “It’s a surprise, Kitten.”

When they arrived, he led her gently through what sounded like very heavy doors. She could hear ethereal music playing and delicious noises. She bit down on her bottom lip wondering where on earth he’d taken her. As he removed the blindfold and her eyes adjusted to the dim lighting, her face beamed with a smile as she pounced on him and whispered in his ear, “Oh yes, Daddy, let’s play!”

when Daddy takes you the club

Josh is wearing:
hair: Stealthic – Hysteria
hairbase: [Hipster Style] Rhys Hairbase BROWN
head: CATWA HEAD Daniel
ears: .:E.A.Studio:.  Ears Falling Star
beard: VYC – Neat Scruff Beard HD *GIFT*
body: Slink Physique Male Mesh Body
-VA-M-VISTA BENTO PROHAND SLINK MALE
piercing: 3.::GB:: Lip piercing (Catwa Daniel) Black (Studded)
DAPPA  – Sorcery Tattoo
[ kunst ] – Devon bracelet
RIOT  / Andrew Tank Top – Prussian
ED. Unknown Pant Black

Sady is wearing:
hair: :::Phoenix::: Carrie Hair (*new* @ September FaMESHed)
head: CATWA HEAD Tala
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
[Atomic] Kitten Collar
Narcisse– Victoria 2in1 Bodysuit
_CandyDoll_ Fate Boots

pose: Drunk Panda-AlwaysHere (*new* @ Limit8)
scene:
anxiety %equinox (*new* @ N21)
*AF* Capturado Cross Blk 1
*AF* Capturado Utility Shelf
tease me – 2 color – red (Bound Box Update Group Gift!)

Posted in Collabor88, Drunk Panda, E.A.Studio, Events, Fashion, Second Life

Hold My Hand

When I saw this pose by Drunk Panda, I knew exactly what I wanted to do and the perfect way to dedicate another post to Josh, because I’m not the best at showing him how much he means to me. He’s always posting these romantic and sexy memes to my page on FB. Sometimes I can’t fight my sarcastic nature and I crack jokes, because the truth is…I’m not used to being loved like this and I never want it to end. I’ve honestly never felt what I feel with him and while I know that nothing last forever…I want this for as long as it can possibly last. I love you, Josh. This song is for you.

Hold My Hand cover (originally by Jess Glynne)

Standing in a crowded room, and I can’t see your face
Put your arms around me, tell me everything’s OK
In my mind, I’m running round a cold and empty space
Just put your arms around me, tell me everything’s OK

Break my bones but you won’t see me fall, oh
The rising tide will rise against them all, oh

Darling, hold my hand
Oh, won’t you hold my hand?
Cause I don’t wanna walk on my own anymore
Won’t you understand? Cause I don’t wanna walk alone
I’m ready for this, there’s no denying
I’m ready for this, you stop me falling
I’m ready for this, I need you all in
I’m ready for this, so darling, hold my hand

Soul is like a melting pot when you’re not next to me
Tell me that you’ve got me and you’re never gonna leave
Tryna find a moment where I can find release
Please tell me that you’ve got me and you’re never gonna leave

Break my bones but you won’t see me fall, oh
The rising tide will rise against them all, oh

Darling, hold my hand
Oh, won’t you hold my hand?
Cause I don’t wanna walk on my own anymore
Won’t you understand? Cause I don’t wanna walk alone
I’m ready for this, there’s no denying
I’m ready for this, you stop me falling
I’m ready for this, I need you all in
I’m ready for this, so darling, hold my hand

Don’t wanna know
That feeling when I’m all alone
So please don’t make me wait, cause I don’t wanna break
No, I don’t wanna fall
When you’re next to me
Can tell I’m not afraid to be
That you don’t make me wait, and never let me break
You never let me fall

Darling, hold my hand
Oh, won’t you hold my hand?
Cause I don’t wanna walk on my own anymore
Won’t you understand? Cause I don’t wanna walk alone
I’m ready for this, there’s no denying
I’m ready for this, you stop me falling
I’m ready for this, I need you all in
I’m ready for this, so darling, hold my hand

forever

Josh is wearing:
hair: Stealthic – Hysteria
hairbase: [Hipster Style] Rhys Hairbase BROWN
head: CATWA HEAD Daniel
ears: .:E.A.Studio:.  Ears Falling Star
beard: VYC – Neat Scruff Beard HD *GIFT*
body: Slink Physique Male Mesh Body
-VA-M-VISTA BENTO PROHAND SLINK MALE
piercing: 3.::GB:: Lip piercing (Catwa Daniel) Black (Studded)
BlankLine MountainPullover
::GB::Straight RollUp Jeans

Sady is wearing:
hair: TRUTH / Athena (September VIP gift)
head: CATWA HEAD Tala
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
erratic / laura – sweater (*new* @C88)
Blueberry – DWL Jeans – Capri Jeans

pose: Drunk Panda-HoldMyHandForever (*new* @ Limit8)

Posted in Chic Moda, Events, Fashion, Mina Hair, Second Life, Self Reflection, shopping

Seeing Red

A run in with a stupid plumber really has me seeing red! Here’s the story or you can skip to the credits. Your call, but I need to vent and its my blog. So, I’ll do what I want! *laughs*
So, the relief valve on our hot water heater has been leaking hot water. We’re catching it in a bucket, letting it cool and using the water for the plants. So that its not a total waste of water. We have American Home Shield which is an insurance that covers appliances…like water heaters. So, we call them, and they send out a plumber. We only have to pay $75 and he should fix it. Easy peasy, right? We already knew what needed to be done, but didn’t know how to replace that valve so that’s why we called.
This moronic plumber shows up and says that we need something called a relief tank that is $375 and not covered by AHS. I’m in the other room with the dog, listening to him try to sell this crap to my mom, right?
So, I step out of the bedroom and start asking questions. He walks out of the house while I’m talking to him. He sits on our patio for a few minutes on the phone, then steps back in and says, “I got another call. I gotta go!” So, I start asking him why he can’t fix this and why his solution makes no sense. This dude gives me the hand and walks out and leaves.
Well, Sady, how do you know he’s wrong, if you’re not a plumber?
I’ll tell you how. For one thing, we’ve lived her over 20 yrs and never needed any release tank before. Secondly, there’s no place for such a thing. Third, I’ve been in over a dozen other condos where we live and NO ONE has such a thing! There’s not freaking room in these condos for such a thing! Furthermore, when we suggested that he simply replace the valve like it suggested online, he said, “Well, I could, but if its leaks again we’ll be right back here in 3 months!” Uhm, wouldn’t that be OUR problem? He tried to tell us that we had to pay him anyway, but in his hasty escape, he forgot his check and never gave us a work order! Good, cuz he didn’t fix anything and shouldn’t get paid.
I’m convinced he’s been unclogging toilets with his mouth, cuz he’s full of shit!
seeing red
wearing:
hair: MINA – Emma (*new* @ Hair Fair 2017)
headCATWA HEAD Kathy
bodyMaitreya Mesh Body – Lara
tattoo:  [White~Widow] DarkTower  (*new* @ Uber)
piercing: 1.::GB::Lip piercing (Catwa Kathy) (Cross chain) RARE (*new* @ Shiny Shabby)

ChicModa // Aly Skirt

pose & background from FOXCITY.