Posted in Events, Fashion, Home Decor, Kustom9, Maitreya, Second Life, shopping, Uber SL

I got this need for you

Looking you over and you don’t know my name yet
But by the time you looked away, already knew I couldn’t fake it

I got this need for you, forming in my beating heart
I knew the meaning right away, we only yesterday were worlds apart

I think I may love you
If you give me some time
Maybe you’ll love me too

I got this thing for you
If you come closer I can whisper in your ear
And if you wanna walk away
I’ll tell you all the things I know you wanna hear
~ Banks – Warm Water

asteroid box refuge

Sady is wearing:
hair:  [monso] My Hair – Julia @ Kustom9
head: LeLUTKA Nova Head 1.0
ears: ^^Swallow^^ Charm Ears
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
skin: [theSkinnery] Ginny (LeLutka&Bom) @ Uber
Ascendant – Defiant Nails @ Kinky
AsteroidBox. Isabelle Lingerie @ Frou Frou (opens Feb 10)

pose: [..::CuCa Designs::..] Midnight Chat Laptop

scene:
Refuge – Sophie Bed

Di’Cor Renee Candelabra [Floor]

BackBone Kinky Toy Rack

PILOT – Adult Toy Box [Valentine]

Posted in Catwa, Events, Fashion, Foxcity, Maitreya, Second Life, Uber SL

To burn with desire

“To burn with desire and keep quiet about it is the greatest punishment we can bring on ourselves.”
― Federico García Lorca, Blood Wedding and Yerma

snapshot_049

 

Basics:
head: CATWA HEAD Catya
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
skin: [Glam Affair] Dee Applier

hair: Exile – Mia
Kibitz – Mosita’s earrings
(Yummy) Grace Ring Set @ Uber
Ascendant – Call me Boss Nails
AsteroidBox. Thallo Lingerie @ FrouFrou

FOXCITY. Cozy Bento Pose Set
OKUMA – TITANIUM – backdrop

Posted in Catwa, Events, Fashion, Foxcity, Lybra, Maitreya, RunAway Hair, Second Life, Shiny Shabby, shopping

The Outlaw

She knew the moment she saw him walk into the bar that she wanted him. He looked wild and untamed. He was an outlaw, it was written in the rugged lines carved into his tanned skin. His tattoos was old and some of them were clearly done behind bars. This was not love at first sight. No, this was a raw savage lust. She’d never known such a need to feel someone else’s skin pressed to hers before. She knew his type and she knew he’d want something simple like whiskey or whatever beer was on tap. She place both in front of him and smiled, “First round is on the house.”
By the end of the night, he was ready to follow her home and she was ready to let him. That was weeks ago, now they had a routine. He would call her whenever he rolled into town to see if she was busy. If she wasn’t busy, he would drop in for the night. Their passion was raw and unbridled. Their affair only lasted the summer, but the urgency with which they made love would be forever etched into her memory.

waitiing for him
Whenever he called, she anxiously waited on the balcony until she saw him ride up on his bike.

wearing:
hair:  [RA] Stacy Hair
head: CATWA HEAD Denice
#Besom Lashes~ Sweetheart Lash
SU!– Osanna Eyes
#ADORED – prizmo shadows – permafrost edition (*new* @ Sultry)
#ADORED – jucci gloss lips – candy princess edition (*new* @ Sultry)
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
skin: #PUMEC – Sophia

**RE** Kitty Pearls Set
(Yummy) Bohemia Ring Set
Ascendant  – Moon Dust Nails (*new* @ Shiny Shabby)
LYBRA . CRISTINA (*new* @ Frou Frou)

pose: FOXCITY. Me Time Bento Pose Set
[Schultz Bros.] Alleyway + Garage Skybox (February Builder’s Box)

Posted in Bad Unicorn, Catwa, Collabor88, Events, Fashion, Foxcity, Gos, Lybra, Maitreya, Second Life, shoes, shopping, TMD, Vanity Event

The Fighter

I’m on a music kick at the moment and I’ve been dealing with more pain than usual….so, I’m letting the music speak for me.

In This Moment – The Fighter

I don’t need you to save me
I don’t need you to cure me
I don’t need you and your antidote for I am my disease
I don’t need you to free me
I don’t need you to help me
I don’t need you to lead me through the light
I will always fall and rise again
Your venomous heroine
‘Cause I am a survivor
Yeah, I am a fighter
I will fall and rise above
And in your hate I find love
‘Cause I’m a survivor
Yeah, I am a fighter
I will not hide my face
I will not fall from grace
I’ll walk into the fire, baby
All my life
I was afraid to die
And now I come alive inside these flames
You don’t want me to love you
You don’t want me to need you
You don’t want to look at me for you will turn to stone
You don’t want me to hurt you
You don’t want me to bite you
You don’t want me or my aching soul
For I will only fall and rise again
Your venomous heroine
I’m a survivor
Yeah, I am a fighter
I will fall and rise above
And in your hate I find love
‘Cause I’m a survivor
Yeah, I am a fighter
I will not hide my face
I will not fall from grace
I’ll walk into the fire, baby.
All my life
I was afraid to die
But now I come alive inside these flames!
I don’t need you to save me
‘Cause I’m a survivor
Yeah, I am a fighter
I will not hide my face,
I will not fall from grace,
I’ll walk into the fire, baby
All my life
I was afraid to die
But now I come alive inside these
Alive inside these
Alive inside these
the fighter
wearing:
hair:   *Besom Hair~ Pixie *Essentials* #8
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
eyes: LOTUS. Balance Eyes 17 (Catwa) RARE (*new* @ Vanity Event)
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
skin: [PUMEC] – Alexa – / May \ – SKIN (*new* @ Vanity Event)
Astralia – Scorpion ring
LYBRA . XL STILETTO NAILS
LYBRA . VIPER FATPACK (*new* @ FrouFrou)
.:Avanti:. Classique Nylons – Black
[Gos] JAdore Pumps (*new* @ C88)
pose: FOXCITY. Leaning (Stand) VOL2 Bento Pose Set
[Bad Unicorn] ‘Blue’ Bowie Backdrop (*new* @ TMD)
Posted in Catwa, Events, Exploration, Fashion, Foxcity, Kustom9, Lamb, Maitreya, Scandalize, Second Life, shopping

Walking Solo

I’ve been asked a few times why I often include the lyrics to the song, instead of just linking the song in my blog. The answer is quite simple. I adore poetry and most song lyrics read like poetry if you take away the music. I’ve explained many time that songs often say what I can and if you do add the melody, it can elevate the feeling behind the picture to an entirely new level.

Oh Wonder – Without You

Step out into the sun
Skies above they radiate me
Lift up, carry the love
Do you know?
That I’ve been out of my mind
This slow life I’m waiting for you
To swing me all of your line
Do you know?
Since I’ve been walking solo
Dreaming you were back home
I find getting down low
Hide until tomorrow
Come back into the good life
Lose these hazy love lies
I’ve been chasing my mind
Lonely in the cold nights
‘Cause I’m kicking up stones without you
Can’t pick up the phone without you
I’m a little bit lost without you
Without you
And I’m digging down holes without you
Can’t be on my own without you
I’m a little bit lost without you
Without you
Step out into the dark
Where were you when I was trying
To lift up, carry the love
Do you know?
That I’ve been closing my eyes
Love me slow, hallucinating
Swinging me all of your light
Do you know?
Since I’ve been walking solo
Dreaming you were back home
I find getting down low
Hide until tomorrow
Come back into the good life
Lose these hazy love lies
I’ve been chasing my mind
Lonely in the cold nights
‘Cause I’m kicking up stones without you
Can’t pick up the phone without you
I’m a little bit lost without you
Without you
And I’m digging down holes without you
Can’t be on my own without you
I’m a little bit lost without you
Without you
Hold me close when it’s over
Life goes slow loving sober
Feel my bones getting older
Sadness grows when you’re cold
‘Cause I am one step heavy and two steps high
Hold it steady with you by my side
One step heavy and two steps high
Two steps high
‘Cause I’m kicking up stones without you
Can’t pick up the phone without you
I’m a little bit lost without you
And I’m digging down holes without you
Can’t be on my own without you
I’m a little bit lost without you
Without you
Without you
Without you
I’m a little bit lost without you
Without you
And I’m digging down holes without you
Can’t be on my own without you
I’m a little bit lost without you
Without you

bikini season

.wearing:
hair:  Lamb. Sunshower (*new* @ Summerfest)
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: Glam Affair – Lily (*new* @ Kustom9)
(Yummy) Free Spirit Rings
Scandalize. Klossy. (*new* @ FrouFrou)

pose: FOXCITY. Sass Bento Pose Set
location: Baja Bay

Posted in Catwa, Events, FaMESHed, Foxcity, Maitreya, Second Life, shopping, [ATI] Addicted to Ink, {le fil casse}

I Won’t Keep Watching

Once in a while we fight doing the right thing, because we’re not sure what that is. Cutting people from our lives is a lot like that. Its hard, because you’re ditching your loyalty. That’s pretty serious, but it would seem that sometimes our loyalty needs to be to ourselves first and foremost. If we don’t treat ourselves the way we want to be treated, how will anyone else even begin to figure out what we want.
I believe I must be at an advantage here, because as a child we moved every 2-3 yrs. So, I was constantly saying goodbye to people and letting go. By the time I grew up, letting go and walking away was far easier for me than others. The challenge for me was to stop walking away. Eventually, I started hanging on to people for dear life. I was scared to death that if I kept walking away, I’d never learn to just be in the here and now. I wasn’t running, I was simply walking away from anyone and anything that didn’t enhance my life. Now, I’m starting to understand what its like for other people and the struggle to let people go. However, one thing I’ll never have to fight or struggle with for long is letting go of some I feel is abusive. That will never be okay and something I outgrew a really long time ago.
There’s a line in the song I’ve attached that really struck a personal chord with me:
I won’t keep watching you
Dance around in your smoke
And flicker out
You’re not the light I used to know

more selfies
That empowering moment when you delete & block them. 

wearing:
hair:  Tableau Vivant \\ Francesca hair (*new* @ FaMESHed)
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
-SU!- Amoret Eyeliner +CATWA APPLIER+
-SU!- Xanthe Lip Gloss +CATWA APPLIER+
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: [theSkinnery]  Saska
hand tattoo: [ATI] Destiny Lite…Maitreya Applier…
nails: Astralia – Compatible nails system (Maitreya Stiletto base)
toksik – Bloom Choker (Group Gift)
{le fil casse} Kassie Ruffle Hearts Top (*new* @ FrouFrou)

pose: [ATI] Destiny Lite Set (*new* @ Suicide Dollz)
FOXCITY. K-POP Star 2 – Because I am The Best (Rez) (2) RARE (*new* @ Arcade)

Posted in Catwa, Events, Fashion, Gingerfish Poses, Maitreya, Phedora, Phoenix, Second Life

This Is NOT a Golden Shower

Sometimes I get on these creative highs and I just can’t stop. I might take six pictures in a day, spend the next day editing…then I’ve got photos and rarely have anything in mind to write. So, I’ll reach out to random friends and ask their opinions or sometimes even a topic. This morning was no different. I’m staring at the photo. I like it. I’m rather proud of it. I had some artistic vision and I managed to see it through. I kinda know what it makes me feel, but I don’t want to talk about that just yet. Its too raw.
Oh look, my dear friend Dusty Wasp is online. I’ll ask him. Afterall, he’s given me songs for photos before and they always worked out great. So, I pass him the photo and ask for help. And this asshole (yeah, I said it) says to me, “given the suggestive setting and the golden hues…” and this is where he stops to chuckle…”yeah, I’ll just leave it at that.”
DUSTY MF’N WASP! THIS IS NOT A GOLDEN SHOWER!!

God, I love my friends!♥

acid rain wash my heart
Fuck you, Dusty!

wearing:
hair: :::Phoenix::: Brittany Hair (*new* @ Mainstore)
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: Glam Affair –- MaryJane – Catwa Mesh Head Applier – Jamaica
(Yummy) Bohemia Ring Set
Phedora / Soley set / 28 C v2 (*new* @ FrouFrou)

pose: GingerFish Poses – Bad at Love (*new* @ eBENTO)

scene:
E.V.E Dancing Poison Rain {Silver}
E.V.E {Poison Rain} Synapses Fishes [M02-W]
E.V.E {Poison Rain} Synapses Fishes [M02-R]
E.V.E {Poison Rain} Synapses Fishes [M02-B]

Posted in Catwa, Collabor88, Cynful, Events, Fashion, Foxcity, RunAway Hair, Second Life, shopping

My Cup

I have been on my death bed for…well, today is day 6 and I swear this has to end soon or I’m going insane for sure. I was gonna try to write about how blessed I am and how my cup runneth over, but I’m not feeling so blessed right now. At the moment, I’m feeling like fresh road kill that’s still twitching. So, the only thing in my cup right now is cold meds, juice, soup, more cold meds, tea…DEATH.
So, yeah, I don’t have a lot to say except, “KMN!”

my cup

wearing:
hair:  [RA]  Shelby Hair (*new* @ C88)
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: Glam Affair –- MaryJane
#17 Sintiklia  – Sweet berry – Choker white
(Yummy) Bohemia Ring Set
[Cynful] Lucid Dream – Bra + Panty set (*new* @ FrouFrou)

I can’t tell you what Leric was wearing, because he’s a butthead and won’t answer questions. I really appreciate his company and his help with this shot.

pose: FOXCITY.. You’re My Cuppa Tea (*new* @ Shop Your Heart Out By Linden Labs)

Posted in Events, Fashion, Lybra, Pretty Mess, Second Life, shopping

Fallen

This post is going to be short and sweet, because sometimes music expresses what I’m feeling more than my own words. So, here’s a song, but this time I’ll let you find the lyrics on your own. I’m just going to quote my favorite part. ♥

“Spend some time with you
I might bend the rules
Cause I’m in love with you
You can see the truth
I will show you soon
Just meet me on the moon”
~Jaden Smith-Fallen

I've fallen and I don't wanna get up

wearing:
hair: TRUTH Montana
head: CATWA HEAD Tala
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
[ kunst ] – Lucy choker
LYBRA . AYDIA BLOGGERS (*new* @ Frou Frou)
Pretty Mess – Lola – Salted Caramel

pose: FOXCITY. Bento Ground Sits VOL1

Posted in 4Mesh, CandyDoll, Collabor88, Events, Exploration, Gingerfish Poses, Second Life, shoes, shopping, {le fil casse}

A Better Day

Once upon a time there was a girl that saw nothing but drama on Facebook all day long. She hated seeing people she cared about at each other’s throats and desperately wanted everyone to get along. She watched insults being flung about carelessly and it made her sad. She knew she was powerless against all the hate and anger. She knew that getting involved or tossing in her two cents would only make things worse. Instead, she decided to close the window and spend more time with herself. She’s never understand why people who clearly didn’t like one another would spend so much time and energy spreading hate. She had enough problems and much bigger ones than picking people apart. She was much happier in her little blogger bubble, decorating and playing dress up. She remembered why she had begun to isolate herself and sighed gratefully for the close friends that she had. As she went to bed that night, she burned her sage wand to rid herself of the day’s negativity and sending love out into the world, hoping that today would be a better day not just for her, but for everyone.

exploring elysion

wearing:
hair: TRUTH HAIR Tyne
head: CATWA HEAD Tala
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
*AvaWay* Jasmine_Bracelet & Ring
Entice – School Girl Crush Top (*new* @ 4Mesh)
{le fil casse} Sharina Mini Skirt (*new* @ Frou Frou)
_CandyDoll_ Yira Heels (*new* @ C88)

pose: GingerFish Poses – Strut set (*new* @ eBento)
location Elysion