Posted in Bad Unicorn, Catwa, Collabor88, Events, Fashion, Foxcity, Gos, Lybra, Maitreya, Second Life, shoes, shopping, TMD, Vanity Event

The Fighter

I’m on a music kick at the moment and I’ve been dealing with more pain than usual….so, I’m letting the music speak for me.

In This Moment – The Fighter

I don’t need you to save me
I don’t need you to cure me
I don’t need you and your antidote for I am my disease
I don’t need you to free me
I don’t need you to help me
I don’t need you to lead me through the light
I will always fall and rise again
Your venomous heroine
‘Cause I am a survivor
Yeah, I am a fighter
I will fall and rise above
And in your hate I find love
‘Cause I’m a survivor
Yeah, I am a fighter
I will not hide my face
I will not fall from grace
I’ll walk into the fire, baby
All my life
I was afraid to die
And now I come alive inside these flames
You don’t want me to love you
You don’t want me to need you
You don’t want to look at me for you will turn to stone
You don’t want me to hurt you
You don’t want me to bite you
You don’t want me or my aching soul
For I will only fall and rise again
Your venomous heroine
I’m a survivor
Yeah, I am a fighter
I will fall and rise above
And in your hate I find love
‘Cause I’m a survivor
Yeah, I am a fighter
I will not hide my face
I will not fall from grace
I’ll walk into the fire, baby.
All my life
I was afraid to die
But now I come alive inside these flames!
I don’t need you to save me
‘Cause I’m a survivor
Yeah, I am a fighter
I will not hide my face,
I will not fall from grace,
I’ll walk into the fire, baby
All my life
I was afraid to die
But now I come alive inside these
Alive inside these
Alive inside these
the fighter
wearing:
hair:   *Besom Hair~ Pixie *Essentials* #8
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
eyes: LOTUS. Balance Eyes 17 (Catwa) RARE (*new* @ Vanity Event)
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
skin: [PUMEC] – Alexa – / May \ – SKIN (*new* @ Vanity Event)
Astralia – Scorpion ring
LYBRA . XL STILETTO NAILS
LYBRA . VIPER FATPACK (*new* @ FrouFrou)
.:Avanti:. Classique Nylons – Black
[Gos] JAdore Pumps (*new* @ C88)
pose: FOXCITY. Leaning (Stand) VOL2 Bento Pose Set
[Bad Unicorn] ‘Blue’ Bowie Backdrop (*new* @ TMD)
Posted in Blueberry, Catwa, Events, Exploration, Fashion, Foxcity, Maitreya, Second Life, shopping, Vanity Event

A Thousand Years

As much as I try, I cannot beat the power that music and lyrics deliver. So, here I stand again…letting someone else’s words speak for me….letting someone else’s melody deliver the message in my heart…even if no one is listening.

Christina Perri ~ A Thousand Years

Heart beats fast
Colors and promises
How to be brave?
How can I love when I’m afraid to fall
But watching you stand alone?
All of my doubt suddenly goes away somehow
One step closer

I have died everyday waiting for you
Darling don’t be afraid I have loved you
For a thousand years
I’ll love you for a thousand more

Time stands still
Beauty in all she is
I will be brave
I will not let anything take away
What’s standing in front of me
Every breath
Every hour has come to this
One step closer

I have died everyday waiting for you
Darling don’t be afraid I have loved you
For a thousand years
I’ll love you for a thousand more

And all along I believed I would find you
Time has brought your heart to me
I have loved you for a thousand years
I’ll love you for a thousand more
One step closer
One step closer

I have died everyday waiting for you
Darling don’t be afraid I have loved you
For a thousand years
I’ll love you for a thousand more

And all along I believed I would find you
Time has brought your heart to me
I have loved you for a thousand years
I’ll love you for a thousand more

blueberry & vanity

wearing:
hair:  Tableau Vivant // Falling hair Gacha – Shortfall  (*new* @ Arcade)
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
eyes: LOTUS. Balance Eyes 17 (Catwa) RARE (*new* @ Vanity Event)
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
skin: [PUMEC] – Alexa – / May \ – SKIN (*new* @ Vanity Event)
YKON – Patches Tattoo (*new* @ Vanity Event)

Rebel Gal – Diamond Sexy Choker  (*new* @ Vanity Event)
MICHAN – Lala Necklace (*new* @ Vanity Event)
Ascendant – Plastic Bento Nails (*new* @ Vanity Event)

Blueberry – Felicity – Top *NEW*
Blueberry – Felicity – Shorts *NEW*

pose: FOXCITY. Surface Set
location: Achill Island

Posted in Blueberry, Catwa, Events, Exploration, Fashion, Foxcity, Maitreya, Second Life, shopping

Summer Breeze

When I was taking this photo over at Achill Island, this song stayed in my head and every single time I look at this picture…that song is right back in my head. Plus this Jolene top and jeans from Blueberry really takes me back. So, I really had no choice but to share my trip down memory lane with you. I’d love to know what thoughts you have when you look at the photo, but I’m at a loss for any other words….just a song. Happy shopping and keep on groovin!

Summer Breeze ~ Seals & Croft

Summer Breeze

wearing:
hair:  Tableau Vivant \\ Wispers in the wind – Blonds
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
skin: [Glam Affair] Loly

(Yummy) Free Spirit Rings
(Yummy) – Kozma Bento Nails (Dubai Event)
Blueberry – Jolene – Top
Blueberry – Jolene Jeans

pose: FOXCITY. Late Night Bento Pose Set
location: Achill Island

Posted in Catwa, Cynful, Events, FaMESHed, Fashion, Foxcity, Kustom9, Maitreya, Second Life, shopping, Uber SL

Keeping My Head Up

This was my final picture on my homestead sim. I was so looking forward to opening up a literal field of creativity. Having my friends come in an create scenes like this one, so that we could all enjoy one another’s work. Alas, I could not in good consciousness continue to pay for a sim in a virtual world, when I so desperately need money in real life. People think I work all the time in SL, but that’s not true. I have plenty of time for more jobs and it is the pay I make from those jobs that help to keep me afloat in real life. Sometimes life is hard and it forces us to make decisions we don’t want to make. I may not be rich financially, but I am rich with blessings. I have the greatest friends I could ever hope to have and that is something money cannot buy. Luckily, I make enough in sl, to pay for my internet and a few other essentials. My needs are met in SL and as far as RL goes…well, as long as I’m online, I must be ok, because while it might feel like a necessity…being online is technically a luxury. Plenty of happy people live without it. So, no matter what, I’ll be keeping my head up and looking forward.

dion

wearing:
hair:  TRUTH Daphne  (*new* @ Uber)
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
skin: [Glam Affair] Loly (*new* @ K9)

(Yummy) Curator Rings Set
Ascendant – Kozma Bento Nails (*new* @ Dubai Event)
Cae :: Scarlett :: Eyeglasses
[Cynful] Dion Set (*new* @ FaMESHed)

pose by Foxcity
location: private

Posted in Avenge, Catwa, Eudora3D, Events, Fashion, Foxcity, Maitreya, Second Life, shoes, shopping, Uber SL, {le fil casse}

Finally Unplugged

The familiar chime of an incoming text message made her instantly look at her phone, as if trained like Pavlov’s dog. She sighed as she saw that it was him again. She chastised herself mentally, “I knew I should have left this damn phone in the room.”
She had taken a brief vacation to get away from the hustle and bustle of her daily life. She was pretending to be someone else, as she wanted a complete escape, yet here she was chained to reality by this electronic leash called a smart phone.
She lit a cigarette as she read his latest tirade. She was so sick of his shit. She had come on this trip to get away from him, but here he was nagging at her from a thousand miles away. She decided enough was enough. Texting her sister with the information for where she was staying in case of absolute emergency, she turned her phone off, finished her cigarette and went back into the quaint little beach side pub to finish her wine. She was finally unplugged…at least for a few more days.

haters flatter me

wearing:
hair: Tableau Vivant // Lordie hair (*new* @ Uber)
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
skin: [Glam Affair] Loly (*new* @ K9)
tattoo: .:::G.ID:::. Muse Tattoo

[Avenge] Anellum earrings (*new* @ Limit8)
[Avenge] Anellum bracelets (*new* @ Limit8)
(Yummy) Curator Rings Set
Ascendant – Kozma Bento Nails (*new* @ Dubai Event)

{le fil casse} Carmela Dress (*new* @ ACCESS)
Eudora3D Silao Wedges (*new* @ Uber)

pose: FOXCITY. Night Owl Bento Set
location: Achill Island

Posted in Catwa, Collabor88, Cynful, Events, Fashion, Foxcity, Kustom9, Maitreya, pr!tty, Second Life, shopping, United Colors

Shady AF

There are people in this world that will do anything to make others look bad. Sadly, these miserable people will smile in your face then turn to their next friend and stab you in the back. Sometimes they make false accusations. Other times, they exaggerate the truth. Here’s the thing, when the only dirt someone can find on you is something that you’ve never denied or even attempted to keep a secret…well, its kinda sad, not to mention pathetic. I personally find haters to be flattering. However, not everyone is as amused by them as I am. Here’s the thing and I’ve said it before, I never asked to take up so much space in their empty little heads. The only reason they are getting any attention from me now is because I’d like to thank them for the recognition. You see, since the “secret” came out, I’ve had people reach out to me that I haven’t heard from in a while. Others have stepped forward with stories of their own haters and we’ve formed a bond of solidarity. We all agree that our haters aren’t worth confronting and by next week, the “secret” and all the energy they put into it will have been forgotten. So, if you’re going to be shady as fuck, learn some new tricks, because your old ones are boring….and no one is entertained by boring.

trying to think

wearing:
hair: pr!tty – Jes
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
skin: [Glam Affair] Loly (*new* @ K9)
tattoo: [White~Widow] Soorma
=Zenith=Buckle Gloves  (August C88)
UC_Milda_leather_top (*new* @ K9)
[Cynful] Nienor’s Leather Skirt *new*

pose: FOXCITY. Spot On Bento Pose Set

anxiety %apt78 skybox
anxiety %apt78 fridge
anxiety %apt78 beercrates

Posted in CandyDoll, Catwa, Collabor88, FaMESHed, Kustom9, Maitreya, Reign, Second Life, shoes, shopping

Damn Earworms!

So, as much as I’ve been trying not to do this…I woke up with this song stuck in my head and no matter how hard I tried, I can’t get it out. So, its going in this post. Damn earworms. At least its a good song. ♥

Bread ~ Baby I’m-a want You

Baby I’m-a want you
Baby I’m-a need you
You’re the only one I care enough to hurt about
Maybe I’m-a crazy
But I just can’t live without
your lovin’ and affection
Givin’ me direction
Like a guiding light to help me through a darkest hour
Lately I’m a-prayin’
That you’ll always be a-stayin’ beside me
Used to be my life was just emotions passing by
Feeling all the while and never really knowing why
Lately I’m a-prayin’
That you’ll always be a-stayin’ beside me.
Used to be my life was just emotions passing by
Then you came along and made me laugh and made me cry
You taught me why
Baby I’m-a want you
Baby I’m-a need you
Oh, it took so long to find you, baby
Baby I’m-a want you
Baby I’m-a need you

Baby, I'm a want you

wearing:
hair: MURRAYxRevoul- Demi Hair (August FaMESHed)
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
skin: [Glam Affair] Loly (*new* @ K9)

_CandyDoll_ Kianna Top (August C88)
_CandyDoll_ Kianna Skirt (August C88)
REIGN.– LOTTIE WEDGES

pose: FOXCITY. Naughty & Nice Bento Pose Set
anxiety %restless gas station

Posted in Blueberry, Bueno, Catwa, Eudora3D, Events, FaMESHed, Fashion, Foxcity, Jian, Second Life

Hello Darkness

“Hello darkness, my old friend
I’ve come to talk with you again
Because a vision softly creeping
Left its seeds while I was sleeping
And the vision that was planted in my brain
Still remains
Within the sound of silence”
~Paul Simon

I grew up listening to songs like this one, but for me…this particular song speaks to the creative part of me, the dreamer within me. It is late at night when the rest of the world is seemingly sleeping that my creative energy is at its best. I’ve written my best poems in the middle of the night and I can almost promise you that my best photos have been conceived of, or flowed along organically under the veil of night.
I remember living in Illinois when I was 21/22 and walking down to the river in the middle of the night, with my headset, pen and paper, and tissues. I almost always cried. No matter how hot or cold (and sometimes it was icy fucking cold) I could sit there on this private dock in a posh neighborhood that I had no business being in…and somehow feel like I was home. The river flowing past me, losing myself in either the music or the quiet flow of the water. It was a place that I could go to recapture my ideas and put them in order.I imagine now, the entire process would take place with a smart phone, but back then…depending on the moon for my light? I don’t know, there was something romantic about it. I suppose I’m rambling at this exact moment, as I feel myself getting lost in memories or yesteryear and I’ve got shopping to do in SL, because this creative mind of mine is alive and well at 12:30 am…there are ideas brewing!

Daydreaming

wearing:
hair: :::Phoenix::: Mishon Hair (*new* Go by FaMESHed)
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
skin: [Glam Affair] Austine Applier [ Catwa ] Basic Line FLF

Blueberry – Helena – Coin Top
Blueberry – Helena – Front Tied Shorts
Eudora3D Basmah Heels (*new* @ FaMESHed)

pose: FOXCITY.Soulfood Bento Pose Set

scene:
anxiety %chicago build1
JIAN Golden Lab Pupper Basket
BUENO-Cat Phone -White
// SEUL \\ – Cocky Biscuits – Strawberry
tres blah– Coffee To Go

Posted in Catwa, Collabor88, Events, FaMESHed, Fashion, Foxcity, Mesh Body Addicts, Scandalize, Second Life, shopping

Devil in Me

“All I wanted was you
The fairytale you sold me
A taste of what you had told me
You put the stagger in me
You wanna see if I bleed
I leave a dagger in you
Now who sings those blues”
~Gin Wingmore-Devil in Me

Shattered

wearing:
hair:  Exile – Storm (*new* @ C88)
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: [Glam Affair] Maze Applier [ Catwa ] 007 (*new* @ C88)
piercings: –SU!– Piercing Set 07 Septum & Nose Studs
LaGyo_Sumatra Chocker – Black (*new* @ FaMESHed)
SCANDALIZE. Aldara (*new* @ MBA)
pose: FOXCITY. Soulfood Bento Pose Set
Posted in Avenge, Catwa, Events, FaMESHed, Fancy Decor, Fashion, Foxcity, Maitreya, Mina Hair, Narcisse, Second Life, shoes, shopping, Uber SL, unKindness, [BREATHE]

Selfies or Desire

Okay, so I was struggling with ideas for what to write about with this photo, because this one just kinda happened all on its own. That happens to me a lot. Sometimes I start with looking for a pose to show off an outfit or item and from there I end up building a scene around myself. I just woke up from a nice long sleep and I’m thrashing about for an idea. So, I take the internet and start looking for quotes about selfies and desire. Lord, the quotes about selfies are not very nice. So, with the sexy look of the photo and the neon sign, I decided to look for quotes about desire. Instead of finding something hot or deep, I found myself drawn to quotes that made me chuckle. So, I’m just gonna share a few below, cuz why the hell not?

Every time I look at you I get a fierce desire to be lonesome. Oscar Levant

Boredom: the desire for desires. Leo Tolstoy

Love is an irresistible desire to be irresistibly desired. Robert Frost

On some great and glorious day the plain folks of the land will reach their heart’s desire at last, and the White House will be adorned by a downright moron. H. L. Mencken

one more time

wearing:
hair:   MINA – Carissa (*new* @ FaMESHed)
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: DeeTaleZ *Appliers* CATWA Head “Myra”
tattoo: [White~Widow] Soorma (*new* @ Dubai Event)
Narcisse– Roxbury Lace up Panties (*new* @ Kinky)
[BREATHE]-Lenora Heels (*new* @ FaMESHed)

pose: FOXCITY. Selfie VOL2 Bento Pose Set

scene:
Fancy Decor: Roux Collection (*new* @ FaMESHed)
-Fancy Decor: Roux Sideboard (white)
-Fancy Decor: Roux Facial Mist
-Fancy Decor: Roux Lotion Bottle
-Fancy Decor: Roux Sink
-Fancy Decor: Roux Soap Tray
-Fancy Decor: Roux Mirror
-Fancy Decor: Roux Towel Holder

uK – Posh Living Settee Cloud GA (*new* @ Uber)

[Avenge] Hold me, Kiss me, Love neon – purple (*new* @ Limit8)