Posted in Events, Fashion, Foxcity, GenusProject, Glam Affair, Kustom9, Legacy, Second Life

Marathon of Possibilities

I have a tendency run a complete marathon of possibilities in my head with just about everything. It doesn’t matter if its something I’m excited about or something that scares me. So, if I meet a guy and everything is falling into place, I’m quick to think of all the ways this could work out in good ways, all while waiting for the penny to drop. I make myself absolutely crazy doing this. As I continue my therapy and learning to be mindful, I have been trying really hard not to do this. As it often leads to very hurt feelings for which I have no one to blame but myself. Listen, I’m trying, okay?
So, recently I met someone that has already made some serious improvements to my life. I ran the marathon, of course, and I got excited. Alas, real life has gotten in the way of my virtual dreams and the penny has officially dropped. HOWEVER, I’m super pleased with myself this go round, because I did not fall apart or feel that sense of devastation when the penny dropped. I just accepted the situation for what it is and have decided to just make the most of it. This person offered me some tools that work with my therapy tools and I’m hopeful about my own personal plan for a change. So, I’ve grabbed that silver lining by the tail and I am holding on for dear life. I don’t know how much time I have left on this planet, but I’ll be damned if I’m going to just give up. I’ve survived far too much to let life hold me down now.

Little Fox

hair: –FABIA– Mesh Hair < Elba>
head: GENUS Project – Genus Head – Classic Face W001 – Mocap
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) (1.2)
skin:  [Glam Affair] Josie Applier [ Genus ] @ Access

Wednesday[+] ~ Idoru Eyelashes @ Kustom9
[Heaux] Dolly Eyes

.::Nanika::. Leah Necklace
Little Fox – Sophia @ Anthem

pose: FOXCITY. Playroom Bento Pose Set

scene:
FOXCITY. Photo Booth – Playroom

tres blah– Eclectic Collection – Cat Face Pillow

*Tentacio* melancholy days
-record player
-feel the music

all plants from dust bunny

 

Posted in crate, Events, FaMESHed, Fashion, Legacy, Lelutka, Maitreya, Mina Hair, N21, Second Life, shopping, The Liaison Collaborative, Uber SL, vinyl

Empty Hearts

Oh, glazed eyes, empty hearts
Buying happy from shopping carts
Nothing but time to kill
Sipping life from bottles
Tight skin, bodyguards
Gucci down the boulevard
Cocaine, dollar bills
And
My happy little pill
Take me away
Dry my eyes
Bring color to my skies
My sweet little pill
Tame my hunger
Lie within
Numb my skin
Like a rock I float
Sweat and conversations seep into my bones
Four walls are not enough
I’ll take a dip into the
Unknown, unknown

miu vinyl crate tlc

left
hair: MINA – Gwen @ FaMESHed
head: LeLUTKA Erin Head
ears: ^^Swallow^^ Charm Ears
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) (1.2)
skin: [theSkinnery] Maya (LeLutkaEVO) @ Uber

imbue. plastic heart earrings – pride  Part of the SL Pride mainstore event!
(Yummy) OM Layered Necklace

top: Miu – Eva tank @ FaMESHed
shorts: Miu – Vickie shorts @ FaMESHed

right
hair: –FABIA– Mesh Hair < Valery> @ TLC
head: Genus Head – Classic Face
body: Maitreya
skin: L’Etre – Lana Skin

[ bubble ] Kitty Glasses @ TLC
[ rD ] Linosa Earrings @ TLC
[ rD ] Linosa Necklace @ TLC

top: VINYL – Custard Top @ FaMESHed
shorts: VINYL – Seven Booty Shorts @ N21

pose: Lyrium. Girls Dual Pose 11 @ Pose Fair Market

scene:
Lyrium. Seashore Scene @ Pose Fair Market

crate Beachcomber Bar @ TLC

Posted in Animals, Bueno, Collabor88, Fashion, Kustom9, Legacy, Lelutka, Second Life, shopping, Uber SL

Cruel Summer

Well, its almost summer and many areas the temps are quite convincing that summer has arrived early. Now, with all the social distancing  rules and hopefully common sense in place, I wonder how this is going to affect summer activities. I’ve seen plenty of shots on the news that showcase plenty of activity at the beaches. I really hope that people will stop listening to politicians about this virus, do a little bit of research for themselves, and protect each other. I know people are worried about the economy, but if this virus keeps wiping people out at the rate it’s been going…well, let’s just say, dead people don’t spend money either. No matter what you believe, please stay safe…the virus is real and before its over, we will all have lost someone to this horrific pandemic. Its better to endure ONE cruel summer than lose them all.

bueno swimsuit

hair: –FABIA– Mesh Hair < Elona> @ Access
head: LeLUTKA Lake Head 1.1
ears: ^^Swallow^^ Charm Ears
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) Perky Edition (1.2.1)
skin: [theSkinnery] Shara (LeLutkaEVO) @ Uber

[theSkinnery] Lora Lash Collection (LeLutkaEVOLUTION) @ Access
eyeshadow: IDTTY FACES – – SWEET BABE LELUTKA #4
lipstick: IDTTY FACES – – SWEET BABE LELUTKA #9

Vibing — Vanessa Earrings @ Access
(Yummy) Adel Ring Set @ C88
Ascendant – Silvia Nails @ Access

BUENO-Sari Swimsuit @ Kustom9

pose: Lyrium. Luna Series Group Gift

Paparazzi – BACKDROP – Vapor Heights @ Equal10

KAZZA – CostalPatioSet

Junk Food – Ice Cream Cart (Pink) @ Equal10

O.M.E.N – French Bulldog Life Guard

Posted in Events, Fashion, Glam Affair, Maitreya, Second Life, shopping, The Liaison Collaborative, Uber SL

Felt a little off today

One day you opened up your eyes inside of you
Inside a world inside a universe you didn’t get to choose
You didn’t get to pick the rules or pick the past or set the pace
Or cast the cast and crew you didn’t get to pick your starting place
And though it was a race you didn’t understand
You simply lined up on the blocks and when the pistol popped you ran
And when you tripped and dropped you picked yourself up off the ground
And picked your scabs you knew you had to pick a plan to end what you began
As you got older there were days of cold surrender
Days of shrugged whatevers folded in with days of shocking splendor
But as time advanced the lovely days were covered up from view
By an advancing melancholy haze that hovered near the dew
Yet there were moments
There were these pure arresting moments when you stepped outside your head
Outside your pain outside control, outside the bullshit, out of body, out of rage
Outside the need to get it, get it, you will never get it, that’s okay
Have you felt a little off today
Had a lot to say
But wound up talking to yourself?
Have you hunted for a kindly ear
But couldn’t find one near
And wound up talking to yourself?
Had a little spot where you been going through a lot
Wanna shove it to the bottom but a trouble gonna bubble to the top
Then the bubble gonna pop and the hustle never ever gonna stop
Cause you get up in the morning get ahead then get to bed and then you do it all again until the moment that you drop
You need a plot, what you wanna witness with this life you got
You kicked and fought trynna get up in your skin and pick this lock
That ticking clock lets you know that bitch you got these situations witchu
Issues someone fit to quick should sit you should down to talk
Ever wonder who’s the crazy the one, people walking to work as if nothing is off
But if a person really got it they would be cracking a bottle on somebody’s head and looting from shops
Are there times you’re alone now when nobody’s home but you walk around muttering under your breath second shit saying goddammit goddammit goddammit just whispering soft
Do you ever get lost, deep in your thoughts, tripping when you think about the cost of seeing this through
When you tie your stomach into knots that you don’t know how to undo
But do you ever have another moment after that, when you can see
There’s no one way this has to be? Or maybe that’s just me

addams fabia

head: GENUS Project – Baby Face
SU!– Piercing Set 01
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
skin: [Glam Affair] Rose   @ Uber

FABIA– Mesh Hair < Siera> @ TLC
.::Supernatural::. Dandara Necklace Silver #3
.::Supernatural::. Dandara Necklace Silver #4
.::Supernatural::. Dandara Necklace Silver #6
Ascendant – Wow Effect Nails @ Level
Addams // Friday Tucked Top
Addams // Frida Ripped Jeans

..::THOR::.. Beer Bottle
+ WitchCraft + Litoids v.1

pose: {anc} Cardboard box [natural]
..::THOR::.. Wood Beer Box

Posted in Catwa, Collabor88, Events, Fashion, Maitreya, Second Life, TMD

Fade Into You

“I want to hold the hand inside you
I want to take the breath that’s true
I look to you and I see nothing
I look to you to see the truth
You live your life, you go in shadows
You’ll come apart and you’ll go black
Some kind of night into your darkness
Colors your eyes with what’s not there
Fade into you
Strange you never knew
Fade into you
I think it’s strange you never knew
A stranger’s light comes on slowly
A stranger’s heart without a home
You put your hands into your head
And then smiles cover your heart
Fade into you
Strange you never knew
Fade into you
I think it’s strange you never knew”
~ Mazzy Star – Fade Into You

sweet home alabama

she is wearing:
hair: –FABIA– Mesh Hair < Silvia> (*new* @ Unik)
head: CATWA HEAD Denice
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
skin: #PUMEC – Sophia (*new* @ Cupid Inc)
nails: alme. MS Gold Triangle Tip (*new* @ Belle)

(Yummy) Art Deco Rings (*new* @ C88)
[Aleutia] Betty Top & Panties (*new* @ ROMP)

pose: PURPLE POSES – Couple 692

**his hair: Dura-889 (*new* @ TMD)

for information regarding the background see previous post: Nothing Lasts

Posted in Bondi, Events, Foxcity, Second Life, The Liaison Collaborative, TMD, Vanity Event

Heart Shaped Glasses

“Don’t break
Don’t break my heart
And I won’t break your heart-shaped glasses
Little girl, little girl
You should close your eyes
That blue is getting me high”
~ Marilyn Manson – Heart Shaped Glasses

heart shaped glasses
As if I could blog these glasses and not think of that song…lol.

wearing:
hair: –FABIA– Mesh Hair < Lera> (*new* @ TLC)
head: CATWA HEAD Denice
SU!– Piercing Set 07 Septum & Nose Studs
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
skin: #PUMEC – Sophia (*new* @ Cupid Inc)

BONDI . The Mad Cupid Sunglasses (*new* @ Vanity)
Fortuna – jewelry set Angela (*new* @ Unik)
Astralia – Kitty chain ring
Ascendant – Flirt Nails (*new* @ Cupid Inc)
Yasum*Belinda* (*new* @ Unik)

pose: FOXCITY. Glitz Bento Pose Set
ninety – Odaiba Backdrop (*new* @ TMD)

Posted in Catwa, Events, Exploration, Fashion, Maitreya, Prism Events, Second Life, shopping, Tannenbaum

Strawberry Tarts and A Teapot

Another gauntlet was thrown after reading my Challenge to Challenge was issued. This one came from the very lovely and sweet, Loly Hallison. She had no way of knowing that these two items actually do belong together in a personal memory of my mom. One that I will never forget and it will always bring a smile to my face. It happened years ago, when I was still in my 20s.

My mother and I would meet up about once a month. We’d spend the day together, usually we’d shop until we dropped. This one morning I’d picked her up and we grabbed these amazing little strawberry tarts at a local bakery. I wonder if that place is still open. I’ll have to Google that later. Anyway, we’re sitting in the mall parking lot,  eating our strawberry tarts, and talking. Our conversation turns to death, as it so often does with me, and my mother began telling me that she wanted to be cremated and her ashes sealed in a tea pot. I agreed to her request under one condition and it was that condition that had us looking like two crazy, drugged up teenagers.
Do not come back and haunt me by singing, “I’m a little teapot short and stout….”

soft pink

 

wearing:
hair:  –FABIA– Mesh Hair < Aliya> (*new* @ Tannenbaum)
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
skin: [theSkinnery] Paola

Dead Dollz – Joy Dress

pose: Bauhaus Movement – Aesthetic Perfection 32
location: Winter Moon

Posted in CandyDoll, Catwa, Events, Fashion, Foxcity, Maitreya, Second Life, shopping, The Liaison Collaborative, Uber SL

37 Minutes

Her: ♥

Him: ♥

Her: having a good night?

Crickets

She starts to panic. Did that sound passive aggressive? Of course she wanted him to have a good night. She wanted him to say something. Anything. She wanted to be with him, but her mood…well, he wasn’t ready for that. She didn’t know if he knew that, or just that he wasn’t in the mood for her mood. Either way, it wasn’t looking good. One minute between heartbeats. One minute later…crickets. What did that mean?

8 minutes later…crickets

She sat there as she felt the air being slowly knocked from her chest. She stared at the screen until it have been 11 minutes. She took a deep breath and closed the window. This wasn’t the answer to anything good.

12 minutes, she notices as she opens another page

poke ex on FB

She gulps as she catches herself looking at the time. She sighs and pulls up a Netflix window.

37 minutes

She pops a Xanax and goes to sleep.

37 Minutes

wearing:
hair:  –FABIA– Mesh Hair <Corina> (*new* @ The Liaison Collaborative)
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
skin: [theSkinnery] Paola

_CandyDoll_ Bridgie Dress (*new* @ Uber)

pose: FOXCITY. Selfie VOL2 Bento Pose Set
Toro. 2:35am Backdrop

 

***If you are reading this on any site that suggests this post was originally published anywhere but SadyStyle by anyone other than Sadystika Sabretooth, you are reading a stolen post.