Posted in Collabor88, Fashion, Foxcity, Glam Affair, Legacy, Lelutka, Second Life

Confidently Lost

I’m alone but I’m not lonely
Comfortably indulging
And tryna get to know me
I’m just an outline of what I used to be
Constantly evolving
Steadily revolving
I am confidently lost
I don’t need you to find me
You don’t define me
I am confidently lost
I don’t need you to find me
‘Cause I’m not hiding
Anything
Anything
Made up of hope and meditation
Love, imagination
Water my creations
Baby, it’s amazing
All the days I’m facing
Nothing seems to phase me

Confidently Lost

hair: tram K0328 hair
head: LeLUTKA Avalon Head 3.0
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) Perky Edition (1.4)
skin: [Glam Affair] Mia Skin [Lelutka EvoX] @ C88

Seniha. Margot Set @ Equal10

pose: Diversion – Spring Glow Poses

FOXCITY. Photo Booth – Lost City

Posted in accessories, Animals, Bueno, Collabor88, DOUX, Events, Fashion, Glam Affair, Kustom9, Legacy, Lelutka

I’m living and I’m dreaming

Today went really well
I didn’t wake up in a panic spell
It was fine, even though I fell
Deeper and deeper in a manic hell
Whoa, I’m living and I’m dreaming
Trying to stay even, oh
Whoa, I’m training for no reason
Apologize, no feelings, oh
No, I don’t need your help
To make me sick, to make me ill
I don’t need anybody else
‘Cause I can break my heart myself
I don’t need your help
Getting off of this carousel
I don’t need anybody else
‘Cause I can break my heart myself

I'm living and I'm dreaming

hair: DOUX – Miyeon hairstyle
head: LeLUTKA Avalon Head 3.0
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) Perky Edition (1.4)
skin: [Glam Affair] Mia Skin [Lelutka EvoX] @ C88

Tentacio Fuck reality headpiece pink @ Kustom9
Tentacio Fuck reality tape pink @ Kustom9

(Yummy) Layered Rose Necklace @ Kustom9
(Yummy) Plumage Ring Set @ C88
EQUAL – Rose Nails French @ Access
MVT – Rich bitch wallet – Rose @ Equal10
purse: [DDL] Fearless @ Access
Just BECAUSE Kyrene Dress – TSS May 8, 2021

[Rezz Room] Siberian Husky Adult Animesh

pose: Lyrium. Elena Static & Breathing + Fingers Series @ Access

MINIMAL – La Venelle Scene

Serenity Style– Elisabeth spring bicycle [decor]
BUENO– Shining Scooter-Cream
[777] Motors MIA

Posted in Collabor88, DOUX, Events, FaMESHed, Fashion, Foxcity, Glam Affair, Legacy, Lelutka

Doing my best

I have been sick af the last couple of days. A lot of my symptoms could easily be stress related…like IBD & Fibromyalgia. Both have been flaring up, which in turns affects other issues, like back pain and headaches. However, I’ve spent a good amount of time in bed, mostly because I have no choice, and I’m trying very hard to reduce my stress. Honestly, I don’t feel that stressed. I know I have a lot on my plate, but I don’t feel stressed. I feel like I have things under control. So, I’m not sure what’s going on. Perhaps it’s something else entirely. Perhaps it’s some sense of impending doom lingering in the back of my mind somewhere, because I still struggle with the concept of being content, happy, and actually loving myself. Thanks to not having insurance and living in the great U.S. of A…I’m just going to need to suffer through whatever it is. In the meantime, I’ll be doing my best to carry on.

Doing my best

hair: DOUX – Chi hairstyle
head: LeLUTKA Avalon Head 3.0
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) Perky Edition (1.4)
skin: [Glam Affair] Mia Skin [Lelutka EvoX] @ C88

NaaNaa’s Sama Necklace @ FaMESHed
e.marie // Erika Bracelet
(Yummy) Plumage Ring Set @ C88
LOTUS. Chrome Nails 01 @ Access
Seniha. Kim Top @ FaMESHed
Seniha. Kim Joggers @ FaMESHed

[Rezz Room] Cat Bengal Adult Animesh @ Equal10

pose: FOXCITY. Hanging Lounger

Posted in Collabor88, DOUX, Events, FaMESHed, Fashion, Glam Affair, Legacy, Lelutka, poses

True love finally happens when you by yourself

‘Cause I’m my own soulmate (Yeah, yeah)
I know how to love me (Love me)
I know that I’m always gonna hold me down
Yeah, I’m my own soulmate (Yeah, yeah)
No, I’m never lonely (Lonely)
I know I’m a queen but I don’t need no crown
Look up in the mirror like damn she the one
One, one, one, one, one, one (The one)
Like damn she the one
One, one, one (The one)
That bitch in the mirror like yeah, I’m in love
Love, love, love, love, love, love (In love)
Like yeah, I’m in love
Love, love, love (In love)
Look up in the mirror like damn she the one
And she never tell me to exercise
We always get extra fries
And you know the sex is fire
And I gotta testify
I get flowers every Sunday
I’mma marry me one day
True love ain’t something you can buy yourself
True love finally happens when you by yourself
So if you by yourself, then go and buy yourself
Another round from the bottle on the higher shelf

**special thanks to my wifey, Ghoulie Waffles, for introducing me to this song**

https://www.flickr.com/photos/sadystikasabretooth/51173877361/in/dateposted/

hair: DOUX – Dana hairstyle @ Equal10
head: LeLUTKA Avalon Head 3.0
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) Perky Edition (1.4)
skin: [Glam Affair] Mia Skin [Lelutka EvoX] @ C88
tattoo: Ladybird. // Tavi @ Equal10

NaaNaa’s Sama Necklace @ FaMESHed
(Yummy) Plumage Ring Set @ C88
LOTUS. Wings Nails 11 (Legacy) RARE @ Equal10
:::ChicChica::: Wine glass @ C88
Lunar – Nite @ Equal10
** Bralette, garters, panties, & robe**

pose: Lyrium. Get Glam – Make-Up Set @ Equal10

Decor: ..::THOR::.. Lazy Days Gacha Set @ Anthem

Posted in Bueno, Collabor88, Events, FaMESHed, Fashion, Glam Affair, Legacy, Lelutka

even if our dreams never came true

Writing when I’m content or happy has always been a struggle for me. I used to write poetry daily. It’s as if the concept of being content or happy is so foreign to me that I can’t properly describe it. I think that’s a common thread amongst artists. The songs that move us the most are the sad songs. The art that moves us the most, tend to be that that makes us uncomfortable or stirs a strong emotion from within. What is stronger than pain? So, here I am trying to find the words to express that I’m in a pretty good place at the moment. Perhaps the biggest part of that is my perception, but whatever it is…I don’t want to only write about the bad times and bad feels anymore. The world doesn’t need more pain or misery, we all need to know there is goodness out there and how to achieve it, even if our dreams never came true.

even if our dreams never came true

hair: tram K0425 hair @ C88
head: LeLUTKA Avalon Head 3.0
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) Perky Edition (1.4)
skin: [Glam Affair] Mia Skin [Lelutka EvoX] @ C88
tattoo: Ladybird. // Tavi @ Equal10

NaaNaa’s Sama Necklace @ FaMESHed
(Yummy) Plumage Ring Set @ C88
LOTUS. Wings Nails 11 (Legacy) RARE @ Equal10
Tentacio Funny life Planning life pink
Tentacio Funny life Mom call me
BUENO-Geena Tops @ C88

Decor: KraftWork + Pitaya .Blume. Gacha @ Epiphany

Posted in Collabor88, Cynful, DOUX, Glam Affair, Kustom9, Legacy, Lelutka, poses, Second Life, The Liaison Collaborative, Tres Chic, [BREATHE]

F.F.F.

Friends come and go, friends come and go
Go like the seasons
I never know, I never know what to believe in
And it’s getting old, it’s getting old
But no hard feelings
‘Cause friends come and go, friends come and go without a reason
And I, I’ve been in L.A. for way too long
Can’t get this air inside my lungs
It feels like I’m suffocatin’ from all the lack of the realness here
Is there anybody real out here?
Got my middle, middle up while I’m singing
Fuck fake friends, we don’t need ’em
Only thing they’re good for is leaving
Fuck fake friends, we don’t need ’em
I’ve had it up to the ceiling
Fuck fake friends, we don’t need ’em
Only thing they’re good for is leaving
And I ain’t got the time, money on my mind (yeah)
I’ll say it to your face, fuck fake friends

F.F.F.

hair: DOUX – Lia hairstyle @ TresChic
head: LeLUTKA Avalon Head 3.0
eyes: A R T E – Sweet Brown Eyes @ TLC
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) Perky Edition (1.4)
skin: [Glam Affair] Rika Skin [Lelutka EvoX]
eyebrows: Glam Affair – Vip HD BROWS – Lelutka @ TLC
Glam Affair – EVOX Smoky Makeup 01 B for FLF April 16, 2021

[ rD ] – Hydra Set @ TLC
(choker & earrings)
^^Swallow^^ Earrings H01/E01 for lel Evo X Ears @ Kustom9
(Yummy) Spring Butterfly Ring Collection @ C88
Cynful Savi Leather Top + Savi Leather Shorts @ Equal10
[BREATHE]-Konoka Heels @ Epiphany

pose: Diversion – Disconnected – Pose Set

[Bad Unicorn] Meir Red Lounge Backdrop

Fancy Decor: Fuck Throw Pillow

-SU!- The Moon Cat Cushion #01

Posted in Collabor88, DOUX, Glam Affair, Kustom9, Legacy, Lelutka, Second Life, The Liaison Collaborative

What’ll be will be

What’ll be will be
What you say it always goes and in the end
In the end you always get what you want
Baby I try too much
I’m living without your love again
But I’ll never stop trying
Well let me know
If you would ever love me I can show
The way your body should be, should be touched
Should be held, let me watch your body melt into mine
Down the line

What'll be will be

hair: DOUX – Karol hairstyle @ Kustom9
head: LeLUTKA Avalon Head 3.0
eyes: A R T E – Sweet Brown Eyes @ TLC
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) Perky Edition (1.4)
skin: [Glam Affair] Rika Skin [Lelutka EvoX]
eyebrows: Glam Affair – Vip HD BROWS – Lelutka @ TLC
Glam Affair – EVOX Smoky Makeup 01 B for FLF April 16, 2021

Kibitz – Felicity’s necklace @ Equal10
(Yummy) Spring Butterfly Ring Collection @ C88
Seniha. Dulce Jacket @ Equal10
Seniha. Dulce Thong @ Equal10

pose: Lyrium. In Bloom Series @ Access

Posted in Collabor88, Events, Glam Affair, Legacy, Lelutka

It won’t kill me

Don’t say that I should know better
No shame, messed up, broken mirror
Don’t know why I’m drawn to fear
Hm

Walking downtown, smiling stranger
Light up, burnt out, thought I knew ya
I’ll pretend I don’t see through ya
Hm

Off the safety, I shoot the gun and I, and I, and I go again
Off the rails and I’m on the run and here, here, here we go again
Flip the switch and I’m in the mode, but I’m in control
Just so you know. And I, and I go again

Dark night, bright light, self-destruction
Blow my phone up, your obsession
I don’t need another lesson
Hm

It won’t kill me
Treading lightly
Please don’t hate me
Smarter than you think

It won't kill me

hair: Exile – Valentina @ C88
head: LeLUTKA Avalon Head 3.0
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) Perky Edition (1.4)
skin: [Glam Affair] Rika Skin [Lelutka EvoX]

Kibitz – Felicity’s necklace @ Equal10
(Yummy) Spring Butterfly Ring Collection @ C88
Tentacio I miss you bouquet @ Kustom9
Sweet Art – Cute Bag @ Equal10
Just BECAUSE Elizabeth Bralette
Just BECAUSE Elizabeth Pants

pose: – Sweet Art – Rubi Bento Poses @ Equal10
**altered cuz of the things I’m holding**

Posted in Collabor88, Cynful, DOUX, Fashion, Glam Affair, Legacy, Lelutka, The Liaison Collaborative

I’ll bet there’s somebody else out there

Baby (Baby)
You’ve been so distant from me lately (Lately)
And lately (And lately)
Don’t even want to call you baby (Baby)
Saw us getting older (Older)
Burning toast in the toaster
My ambitions were too high (High)
Waiting up for you upstairs (Upstairs)
Why you act like I’m not there?
Baby, right now it feels like
It feels like you don’t care
Oh, why don’t you recognize I’m so rare?
Always there
You don’t do the same for me
That’s not fairI don’t have it all
I’m not claiming to
But I know that I’m special (Special)
Yeah
And I’ll bet there’s somebody else out there
To tell me I’m rare
To make me feel rare

I’ll bet there’s somebody else out there

hair: DOUX – Mishi hairstyle
head: LeLUTKA Avalon Head 3.0
eyes: AG. Elegance Eyes (Arctic) @ Access
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) Perky Edition (1.4)
skin: [Glam Affair] Rika Skin [Lelutka EvoX] Honey
tattoo: [Addicted To Ink] Heather…

-SU!- Almond Nails
(Yummy) Spring Butterfly Ring Collection @ C88

Cynful Fashionista Bikini – Flf Special April 16, 2021

pose: Lyrium. Eve Static & Breathing + Fingers Series @ Equal10

Serenity Style– Sady Moon Dream Scene @ TLC

Posted in Collabor88, Events, Fashion, Glam Affair, Legacy, Lelutka, Second Life, [BREATHE]

Don’t say anything just go away

I try to make it through my life, in my way, there’s you
I try to make it through these lies, and that’s all I do
Just don’t deny it
Don’t try to fight this, and deal with it
And that’s just part of it
If you were dead or still alive
I don’t care, I don’t care
Just go and leave this all behind
‘Cause I swear (I swear) I don’t care
I try to make you see my side
I always try to stay in line
But your eyes see right through
That’s all they do
I’m getting buried in this place
I got no room, you’re in my face
Don’t say anything just go away

Don’t say anything just go away

hair: tram K0328 hair @ C88
head: LeLUTKA Avalon Head 3.0
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) Perky Edition (1.4)
skin: [Glam Affair] Rika Skin [Lelutka EvoX]

AsteroidBox. Cara Dress @ Equal10
ROULY :: Hung Up Tights
[BREATHE]-Miiya Heels @ FaMESHed X

pose: Amitie Room Cola Woman Co. @ Equal10
Junk Food – Snack Vending Machine