Posted in Events, Home Decor, Kustom9, Second Life

A little teaser

Okay, I know I’m an atheist, but I absolutely love Christmas! For the past few years, I’ve been in such a dark place I’ve been oblivious to the holidays for the most part. Not this year! This year, I’ve got the bug and I’m excited about decorating and embracing the spirit of the holiday. I’m not financially capable of giving out gifts the way I’d like to, but I’m definitely full of holiday cheer. So, here’s just a little teaser of things to come. ♥

Barley Nutmeg

Barley – End of Fall Set @ Enchantment
-Barley – End of Fall Wall Decor
-Barley – End of Fall Rocking Chair
-Barley – End of Fall Fir Tree
-Barley – End of Fall Crate
-Barley – End of Fall Boots

Nutmeg. Holiday Clutter Complete Set @ Kustom9
-Nutmeg. Holiday Clutter Books
-Nutmeg. Holiday Clutter Ladder w/Decor
-Nutmeg. Holiday Clutter Stool / 1
-Nutmeg. Holiday Clutter Wooden Angel Bonus Item

Posted in Blueberry, Catwa, Events, Fashion, Foxcity, Home Decor, Maitreya, Second Life, shoes, shopping, unKindness

Decoration

“Join me I deserved it
No time to have you lurking
If I got right then you might like it
You know I dealt with you the nicest
Nobody touch me, in the righteous
Nobody text me in a crisis
I believed all of your dreams are duration
You took my heart and my keys and my patience
You took my heart off my sleeve a decoration
You mistaken my love I brought for you for foundation
All that I wanted from you was to gimme
Something that I never had
Something that you’ve never seen
Something that you’ve never been
But I wake up and everything’s wrong”
~ Rihanna – Work

snapshot_003

wearing:
hair:  tram I0419 hair @ Anthem
head: CATWA HEAD Denice
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
skin: #PUMEC – Sophia

[Aleutia] Meli Shirt @ Enchantment
Blueberry – Frank Jeans
Blueberry – Frank Boots

pose by Del May

male model Dusty Wasp
pose by Foxcity
holding uK – Old Americana Tire Rim

scene:

Serenity Style– Vintage Garage Set @ 6 Republic Event
-Serenity Style- Vintage Garage – Exterior Lamp
-Serenity Style- Vintage Garage -Fluorescent light
-Serenity Style- Vintage Garage Rag with spark plugs
-Serenity Style- Vintage Garage Table
-Serenity Style- Vintage Garage Tires
-Serenity Style- Vintage Garage – Oilcan
-Serenity Style- Vintage Garage – Oil Motor
-Serenity Style- Dirty Serenity Style- Dirty Workwear
-Serenity Style- Vintage Garage Tools Panel RARE
-Serenity Style- Vintage Garage Barrels of Gasoline
-Serenity Style- Vintage Garage – Picture 2
-Serenity Style- Vintage Garage Bench
-Serenity Style- Vintage Garage ULTRA RARE 6

: Junk Food – Snack Vending Machine @ 6 Republic Event

: [Con.] Stepside Pick-up – Rusty Gold RARE

+Half-Deer+ Spilled Liquid – Large Puddle – Water Set
+Half-Deer+ Spilled Liquid – Small Puddle – Water Set

Posted in Bueno, Catwa, Collabor88, Eudora3D, Events, Fashion, Foxcity, Maitreya, Prism Events, Second Life

Christmas Cooties

I’m setting up this scene, when my mom happens by and looks over my shoulder, “That’s interesting. Those balls would make pretty ornaments.”

“They are ornaments, but I’m not ready to do Christmas themed pictures yet,” I mumble.

“Why is she wearing a mask?”

“She doesn’t want to catch Christmas Cooties!”

She rolls her eyes as she walks out of my room, “You need Jesus.”

Et tu, Mater?

Christmas Cooties

wearing:
hair:  DOUX – Air hairstyle
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
skin: [theSkinnery] Paola

6. [CX] Necronomic Mother – Mask – Black
WeArH0uSE [tag earrings]
.random.Matter. – Kitten Collar – ‘Kitten’ – Silver
BUENO-Caro Sweater (*new* @ Collabor88)
[Aleutia] Ashlee Sweats
Eudora3D Belle Heels (*new* @ Enchantment)

pose: FOXCITY. Soulfood Bento Pose Set

scene:
VARONIS – Sector7 Background (*new* @ Access)
E.V.E Ivy M02 No Leaves {Mural-Select Pic}
Can’t Even – Vase Of Balls (Blackl/Silver) (*new* @ Tannenbaum)
DISORDERLY. / Gift of Light / Fancy / v6 (*new* @ Tannenbaum)
DISORDERLY. / Gift of Light / Fancy / v4 (*new* @ Tannenbaum)
[Fetch] Merry Ornaments – Lighted Ball RARE (*new* @ Tannenbaum)

 

***If you are reading this on any site that suggests this post was originally published anywhere but SadyStyle by anyone other than Sadystika Sabretooth, you are reading a stolen post.

Posted in Avenge, Catwa, Eudora3D, Events, FaMESHed, Fashion, Kaithleen's, Lybra, Maitreya, Second Life, shoes, shopping

Remembering Him

Have you ever met someone that altered your life completely? Someone that was only there for just a little while, but forever altered the course of your life? I did…almost married him, in fact. Fortunately, I didn’t, because looking back, I’m quite sure that wasn’t his purpose in my life, but changes were made that forced me to look at myself far deeper than I ever imagined I would. He still crosses my mind and I have no way of knowing if he’s dead or alive. I wouldn’t dare to look him up, for fear of what I might find. Somethings are just better left in the past.

remember him

wearing:
hair: TRUTH / Bewkie
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
skin: [Glam Affair] Austine Applier [ Catwa ] Basic Line FLF

.::Supernatural::. Sora choker White/White Pearl Silver
[Avenge] Pearls earrings
: CULT : His Princess Rings/Silver
LYBRA . XL STILETTO NAILS

Kaithleen’s Pearl Corset (*new* @ Kinky)
Eudora3D Arianne Pumps&Socks (*new* @ Enchantment)

pose by Bauhaus Movement
tarte. old window bed (striped)

Posted in Catwa, Collabor88, Cynful, Events, FaMESHed, Fashion, Maitreya, Mina Hair, Second Life, shopping

Hiding From the World

I recently acquired a homestead and its perfect for me, because though I do share a good bit about myself in my blog. I also enjoy my privacy and I’m quite content spending several days in a row alone. I like having complete control of my land and I love that no one can see who is on my land. I don’t have to worry about seeing someone I don’t care for on my radar because they are somewhere else on the sim. I finally feel truly free to hide away from the world. I can create whatever scenes I like wherever I want and never have to worry about a neighbor putting up some atrocious house with prim trees from 2007. I love my new home, because its the best place to be when I’m hiding from the world.

Dear People

wearing:
hair: MINA – Alison (*new* @ Enchantment)
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: [theSkinnery] Katy (Catwa Applier) toffee (*new* @ C88)
brows: –SU!- Blair Eyebrows +CATWA APPLIER

*LODE* Head Accessory – Juliet [iceberg]
Cae :: Gianna :: Necklace
Cae :: Gianna :: Earrings
Dahlia – Sady Cat Eye Sunglasses (May FaMESHed Go)
[Cynful] Heidi Summer Maxi Dress (*new* @ C88)

pose: an lar [poses] The Yearning Series (*new* @ ROMP)

Posted in Catwa, Chic Moda, Events, Fashion, Gingerfish Poses, Maitreya, Second Life, shopping, The Annex, Tres Chic

Will This Phase Ever End?

I’m so far behind and as I’ve mentioned before, some of my posts get rejected from time to time. So, brace yourself for songs and quotes in the upcoming week as I play catch up.

Nothing More – Jenny

A little sleep, a little slumber
A little folding of the hands
Left you weak, left you hungry
When there’s supply you still demand
You’re beginning to drag the ones you love down
Will this phase ever end?
A thousand arms to hold you
But you won’t reach for any hands
‘Cause I don’t feel like I’m getting through to you
Let me paint this clear, life is short, my dear
See your mother here, her last painful year
I wish you only knew
She stuck around for you
Maybe you should just fall
Leave the world and lose it all
And if that’s what you need
To finally see
I’ll be with you through it all
Bring on the pills, roll that dollar bill
Medicating will never heal
Relapse, rehab, repeat
Always thinking about the me, me, me
Self-destruct, spiral down
Until your want becomes your need
Please get up like I know you can
Or forever love the fall
‘Cause I don’t feel like I’m getting through to you
Let me paint this clear, life is short, my dear
See your mother here, her last painful year
I wish you only knew
She stuck around for you
Maybe you should just fall
Leave the world and lose it all
And if that’s what you need
To finally see
I’ll be with you through it all
I can’t stand to see you down
Strung out, off the wagon, and unwound
Steady, steady, Oh God, Jenny
I can’t bear to hear the sound
Of your body hitting the ground
Oh Jenny Jenny Jenny
Stuck around for you
He stuck around for you
Stuck around for you
Maybe you should just fall
Leave the world and lose it all
And if that’s what you need
To finally see
She loved you through it all
Maybe you should just fall
And if that’s what you need
To finally see
She loved you through it all
I’ll be with you through it all!

I have a story to tell
wearing:
hair:  TRUTH VIP February – Carla
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: [theSkinnery] Saska (Catwa Applier) honey
ChicModa // Cami (*new* @ TresChic)
The Annex – Tessa Thigh Highs (*new* @ Enchantment)

pose: GingerFish Poses – Bad at Love

Posted in Catwa, Events, FaMESHed, Fashion, Foxcity, Kustom9, Maitreya, pr!tty, Second Life, shopping

Therapy Session

So, I don’t write about everything I’m going through, but I do write about a fair bit. Some things are too personal…yes, even I have boundaries. *laughs* I draw my inspiration for words, photos, layouts….from a variety of places. Often it is just a violent mixture of the madness swirling about in my mind, but when my fingers meet the keys and I’m staring at this blank page…somehow I usually find a way to let something out. You see, blogging isn’t a JOB for me. Its a way of life. I’m honored that you’re interested enough to read any of it ever, but I really don’t write for YOU….I write for ME….and I am very well known for having full on arguments out loud with myself.
If all of my sponsors pulled away from me and I was suddenly dismissed from all of my blog manager jobs….none of that would stop me. Actually, my photos would probably take a seriously artistic turn around the corner. I was recently told that I need to be more professional in Second Life. Fuck that. I’m not here to be fake. This is the one place I can be completely free to be me….on every level. I don’t care for your judgement.  I was told not to be friends with my bloggers. I’ve been told I’m too mean. I’m too picky. I’m too soft. I’m too nice. I try too hard. I don’t try hard enough. Here’s the thing though…I’m not here to please anyone but me. Call it selfish, fuck you….what are YOU here for? You here to help humanity? No, you’re not. You might do some good while you’re here, but lets face it…we all found our way to broken toys and those of us that actually live here? We know.
So, if you don’t like me, that’s ok…I don’t always like me either. You think I got issues? No, Baby, I got motherfucking subscriptions and my father owns the publication. *gasps* Yeah, I said it….this is MY therapy session and if you don’t like it….uhm….part of me wants to apologize, but how can I be sorry for being me. I got enough people that love me to know, I’m not that bad…but hey, s’ok…I don’t gotta make you happy. That’s your job, isn’t it? I’ll be over here taking care of mine…maybe our worlds will collide…maybe they’ll mingle and make music. For now, this is the end of this therapy session.

rain brings truth
I mean, I think sometimes people they confuse what I’m doing
I write about life, I write about things that I’m actually dealing with
Something that I’m actually experiencing, this is real for me
Like this is something that personally helps me as well

wearing:
hair: pr!tty – Bellena (*new* @ Enchantment)
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: Glam Affair –- MaryJane – Catwa Mesh Head Applier
[Z O O M] Clymena Glasses (*new* @ FaMESHed)
(Yummy) Bohemia Ring Set
[Cynful] Lioness 2in1 Top (*new* @ FaMESHed)
Legal Insanity  – Myra flared black pants

pose: FOXCITY. Breather VOL2 Animated Pose Set (*new* @ Kustom9)

Posted in Artisan Fantasy, Events, Fashion, Gingerfish Poses, Home Decor, Second Life, shopping, The Annex

Not So Enchanted

aziza

While this post is showcasing items from the latest round of Enchantment, my life atm is anything but enchanted. Its only Tuesday and this is a crazy week. Far too much adulting going on for me! Mom is out of town until Saturday. The husband is sick as a dog, but refuses to stay home from work and rest. I have a repair guy scheduled to come out and fix our oven on Thursday, so no baking this week. I know! No pizza!!! *cries* Oh but to top all of this off, my bathtub faucet has decided to quit on me so precious water is being wasted! So, yesterday morning after wrestling with our budget to see if we could afford it, I called the plumber. He came out last night, gave me an estimate that was better than I expected, and promised to come back today. That means I gotta put on a bra AND pants two days in a row!?!?! WTF!!! Oh and that’s just the RL stuff!
Its the end of the month, so I need to have my derriere in SL these last few days as I’m one of the Liaisons for FaMESHed. Those that have worked behind the scenes at an event know how stressful it can be during set up. I’m fortunate to work with an amazing team and Elvi, the FaMESHed Queen, is also a bit (holds her hands way far apart) OCD, so its quite organized. Aside from that, I’m making sure I met all my blogging requirements for the month, filing those reports and following up with bloggers that I manage.

Real quick I want to touch on the items in the photo, most of the stuff you see is at Enchantment, but I believe that’s shutting down on the 31st, so you’ll either want to hurry over or wait for stuff to find its way to the mainstore. However, this round was certainly one of my favorites so I had to show off some of the goodies and luckily for me, my dear friend, Tracy Redangel, just did a mainstore release of Groove Baby poses. This one just fit perfectly in my opinion. So, happy shopping, and send hair, because I’m pretty sure I’ll be bald by Saturday, if not the end of the day.

aziza

wearing:
hair: +Spellbound+ Shahrazad (*new* @ Enchantment)
head: CATWA HEAD Tala
body: Maitreya Mesh Body

*AvaWay* Jasmine_Bracelet & Ring (*new* @ Enchantment)
The Annex – Noor (*new* @ Enchantment)

pose: GingerFish Poses – Groove Baby set

scene:
*AF* Aziza Collection (*new* @ Enchantment)

Posted in Events, Fashion, Kustom9, ON9, Phedora, Second Life, Self Reflection, shoes, shopping, {le fil casse}

Do Not Be Afraid

“We can easily forgive a child who is afraid of the dark; the real tragedy of life is when men are afraid of the light.”
― Plato

Wow, it has been quite a while since I started post with a quote. Of course, one is never quite sure what they will find when they go to read my blog. Perhaps a song, a story, a poem, a rant, or like today… some thoughts with a hopefully a sprinkle of wisdom. This particular quote hits home, because I look back at my life and see exactly where fear of success derailed my life over and over again. Failure? Nah, I’m good at that. My entire childhood was an education on how I would never be good enough for more than pleasing a man. My mother taught me to surrender to a man’s will. She was old fashioned and believed in standing by even the most monstrous of men. She preferred the comfort of denial that lies created for her. Looking back, I can see so clearly that she’s never been a fan of truth. Even the simplest of stories are exaggerated for no other reason that her apparent allergy to honesty. Don’t get me wrong, I love her and I’d be lost without her, but that doesn’t make her perfect.  My father on the other hand, perversely manipulative and abusive in every sense of the word. Though he told me repeatedly I’d be a whore and a slut in high school, I rarely dated at all and did not lose my virginity until I was 19. Years later when I proudly told him that he was wrong and how I had waited, he smirked and said that was his plan all along. For he knew I was defiant by nature and would prove him wrong. I know now, that was simply more of his manipulation. I think fewer things brought him more joy than messing with my head.

You may be wondering, what all of this has to do with the quote. It’s simple really. If we are taught to fear everything…if we are sheltered from the truth…fear will easily control our life and limit us in ways we never imagined until it is genuinely too late. Living behind a closed door or in the shadows can be so comforting. We cannot get burned by a light we never see, but the truth is in the light. Until we release ourselves from the shadows of fears, both real and imagined, we can never be free. For it is the truth that sets us free and that truth does not hide in the dark, it is us that choose to stay in the dark.

I have often said that I would rather be hurt by the truth than comforted with a lie. The older I get the more I stand by that statement. Do not be afraid of the light just because you outgrew your fear of the dark.

behind the door

wearing:
hair:  [RA] Sherazade Hair (*new* @ Enchantment)
head: CATWA HEAD Tala
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara

{le fil casse}  Madison Dress (*new* @ Whimsical)
Phedora ~Zaidee Platforms (*new* @ Kustom9)

pose: FOXCITY. Cute But Psycho Bento Pose Set (*new* @ ON9)
**slightly edited with AnyPose
taikou / dusk backdrop with materials (*new* @ Kustom9)

Posted in Events, Fashion, Kustom9, Phedora, Second Life, Self Reflection, shoes, shopping, ULTRA

Stick a Knife In It

“The weak can never forgive. Forgiveness is the attribute of the strong.” ~Mohandas Gandhi

This is a lesson that took me ages me to learn. I had to learn that I had more power over how I feel than anyone else. I had to learn that forgiveness does not mean forgetting. I had to learn that holding onto resentments is like carrying rocks in my pocket and that each resentment I carry is just another rock. How many rocks must one soul carry until they learn to start letting them go? I had to learn that anger is a secondary emotion. Its one we choose, because its more comfortable than the fear and/or pain behind it. There will be some that read this and disagree, but that simply means they haven’t learned these lessons yet. Some never will. I know these things to be true. I know them to be as true as my weight and the scars on my skin.
Learning to forgive, despite the pain and/or fear certainly is not easy. It doesn’t mean you have to find love in your heart for those that have scorned you. It means you have to find love in your heart for yourself. Enough love to stop giving more power to those that hurt you. It means taking the power away from those that do not deserve it. I recently found out that someone that I once counted among my closest friends has been telling lies about me. He’s told innumerable people that I was trying to sleep with him and that’s why he quit being my friend. Those that know me…that really know him…they know that simply isn’t true, but there are plenty of people out there that are listening and believing his lies. It hurt. It still does, but there’s nothing I can do about him, his lies, or those that choose to believe him, except forgive him and let it go.
Will I ever trust him again? Will I ever be his friend again? Of course not. Learning to forgive and let go does not color me a fool. It simply strengthens me and lightens the load on my soul. I will never understand his reasons for that lie. He could have simply told the truth. We had an argument, we both felt the other person was unreasonable and he chose to walk away rather than talk it out. He could have said that I threw the friendship away, as that may very well have been his understanding of the situation. However, he chose to spread rumors and lies about me instead. Again, I admit that it hurt.
By forgiving him, I drop those rocks of resentment with his name on them, and I lighten the load on my soul. In the end, I am the stronger one, because by lightening my spiritual load I strengthen it at well. He is but one example of how people have stabbed me in the back. There are many others, but I must forgive them, as well. For its my spirit that I must care for and it is my responsibility to lighten that load. I have far more serious matters going on in my life that worrying about this man and his lies or anyone else that chooses to hate me for no genuine reason. So, to him I say, “I forgive you, here’s my back, stick a knife in it if you must, but you will NOT break my spirit or rape my soul.”

 

hide n seek

wearing:
hair: /Wasabi Pills/ Apple Mesh Hair (*new* @ ULTRA)
bodyMaitreya Mesh Body – Lara
tattoo: [White~Widow] TwinPeaks II – Black (*new* @ Enchantment)
_CandyDoll_ Megan Panties Black (*new* @ Rewind)
Phedora ~ Melissa Strappy heels  (*new* @ Kustom9)
JIAN Jack Russel Terrier :: Companion (Luxe Box May)

pose by Del May

backdrop: RAMA – #selfie_RAMA Cube Photostudio (*new* @ 6 Republic)