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I Don’t Need Your Attitude

We’ve all seen the shirts and bumper stickers that read, “I don’t need your attitude, I have one of my own.” Such a simple saying, but nothing could more true about me personally. I really had to learn the difference between reacting and responding, because once upon a time I had a terrible temper. For instance, I had such bad road rage that I had three incidents that could have turned out terribly wrong.
One time, this mini van cut me off and almost hit me, so I cussed, yelled, honked my horn, and followed her home. Turned out to be my best friend’s mom. We ended up laughing about it and smoking a joint, but I know I got lucky.
Another time, this chick cut me off at the intersection to get in the turning lane that I was already in. Same thing, cussing, yelling, honking my horn…she turned and pulled into a gas station and I followed. We jumped out of our cars ready to fight, until we realized we knew each other. We had dated the same sorry ass loser the year before. Again, I got lucky, though to be fair, I honestly believe that one would have been nothing more than a fist fight.
The third time, I mentioned above was the worst. This man cut me off, I had to swerve into oncoming traffic to avoid getting hit. It was so scary and I was so pissed that again….cussing, yelling, honking the horn….and I followed him…all the way to the daycare where he was going to pick up his kid. Naturally, I just drove up to him said something menacing about how’s he lucky he pulled into a daycare. When he saw the metal pipe in my hand (yes, I fully intended to beat him or his car with it), he quickly apologized and explained that he was running late, he was in a custody battle, blah blah blah.  I didn’t give a rat’s ass why he almost killed me, but that day my boyfriend at the time was in the car.
He went on to tell me that I scared him and he was seriously worried about my temper. It was a few years before I learned to walk away when I get that upset. I have to walk away and let myself process what’s happened. More often than not, its something I can just let go and ignore. Other times its something I have to address and you can bet that when I do, I come out guns blazing….only my guns are loaded with words.

don't need your attitude

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Let’s Go Crazy

Sometimes the world just doesn’t make sense. I think it’s pretty clear that I’m not the picture of perfect mental health. I’m not sure there even is such a thing to be honest. Hell, mental health has been called all sorts of names throughout history.  Even the names of disorders change….what once was called manic depressive is not called bi-polar. Why? Why did they change the name? Manic depressive was spot on. I think everyone and anyone can catch that disorder on the right day or wrong day as the case might very well be.
Seriously, think about it for a minute.  You are having a great day. You slept great, you woke up right before your alarm went off. The weather is your favorite kind of day. Everything is going well. Catching all the green lights in traffic. Errands go great, you even saved some money unexpectedly. You come home, dinner is great….you slip into your favorite PJs…you’re set. You’re happy as you can be….then it happens. You get a tragic phone call. Something awful has happened to someone you love and there’s absolutely nothing you can do about it. You’re alone with this awful news. That’s going to be a helluva a mood swing, don’t you think?  Say the reverse happens. Whole day has been shit. Slept like shit, overslept, bad hair day, pouring down rain, you get stuck in traffic…you get home, burn dinner…then unexpectedly your best friend calls. She’s coming over and she’s bringing pizza. Your whole day just got better in an instant. Mood swing. *shrugs* Must be bi-polar.
Ever just felt so damn lazy, you just didn’t even want to get out of bed? Ever just want to stay in bed all weekend, veg out with the remote and some junk food? Ever just do it, cuz you want to? Well, you must be depressed, you can’t even drag your ass out of bed. I’m in no way minimizing any diagnosis. I’m more than fully aware that there are varying degrees of each legitimate disorder. I’m not even suggesting to know what is and isn’t legitimate….I’m not a psych-anything….well, maybe psycho, but that’s about where my expertise ends. I’m sure not yelling at Matt Lauder about how mental health is a hoax, while clearly proving that it is very real.
I’m just saying, that the world doesn’t always make sense. So, if you’re a little crazy…so what? Be crazy. Be you. Love drama? Do it up. Hate drama? Stay away from it. Wanna dance? Crank up the music and dance. Who cares? We all have to get through this thing called life one way or another…so if you’re not crazy….why not? C’mon, let’s all go crazy.

melting
Are we gonna let the elevator
Bring us down, oh, no let’s go
Let’s go crazy, let’s get nuts
Look for the purple banana
‘Til they put us in the truck, let’s go
All excited but we don’t know why
Maybe it’s ’cause we’re all gonna die
And when we do, what’s it all for
Better live now before the grim reaper
Come knocking on your door

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White Flag

I’m guessing by now that my regular readers have noticed that I’m trying very hard to get away from posting song links & copy/pasting lyrics. I’ve decided instead to explain why some songs are so special to me and why they’ve ended up on my personal soundtrack. So, now if you’re interested the video is embedded at the bottom of the post and if you right click on it, you can open that up in a new window.
Alright, so Dido’s White Flag….this song means so freaking much to me. It reminds me of a real life relationship I had many years ago with a guy we’ll call Bran. I fell in love with Dido about the same time I fell for him. Sadly, he didn’t quite love me the same way and my love for him was a tad bit unrequited. Though, you couldn’t convince any of our friends that we weren’t a couple. *laughs* Its a much longer story than I care to type out. However, with that said, I did have to finally let go…as I found something rather suspicious on his computer and I was never comfortable around him again. *sighs* At the time that I had such strong feelings for Bran, there’s simply nothing anyone could have said to make me give up, thus this song resonated with me.

seeing dots

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