Posted in breathe, Bueno, Collabor88, Events, FaMESHed, Fashion, GingerFish, Gingerfish Poses, Glam Affair, Kustom9, Legacy, Lelutka, Second Life

Taking It Easy

It’s kinda funny that my left arm is rather limp in this photo, because last night my dog nearly ripped my left arm out of the socket. She got so excited when she saw a man and his two kids walking across the yard. I wasn’t even looking, because I was talking to my neighbor. Then suddenly I’m yanked backwards by the leash in my left hand. I’m really proud of myself for not screaming out a string of curse words. I simply screamed. Today, I’m taking it easy. My shoulder is killing me…the rest of my body is hurting, too. There’s been a storm brewing in the sky for two days now and tomorrow the rain will be here. So, with my fibromyalgia along with my new shoulder pain…yeah, I’ll be taking it easy.

tableau lil fox bueno breathe gingerfish rd

wearing:
hair:  Tableau Vivant // Allison @ Kustom9
head: LeLUTKA Lake Head 1.1 @ Skin Fair
body:  [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) (1.2)
skin: [Glam Affair] Heidi Skin [Lelutka] @ Kustom9

^^Swallow^^ Charm Ears
[ rD ] – Tresor Set (necklace & earrings) @ FaMESHed
SU!– Almond Nails @ Anthem
Little Fox – Taylor cropped turtleneck
BUENO-Alma Leather Pants @ Kustom9
[BREATHE]-Min Seo Heels @ C88

pose: GingerFish Poses – S’il Vous Plait @ ebento

hive // worn windsor rocking chair . floral
hive // jolly coffee table chest

Posted in Events, Fashion, GenusProject, GingerFish, Gingerfish Poses, Kustom9, Maitreya, Second Life

I could

It’s Monday. I’m on new meds. I’m still waking up. *sighs* I’m sitting here wondering what to write about, because everything on my mind is far too private to share. I could talk about the wonky weather. Meh. I could talk about the bruise on my hip in the shape of a paw print from my cat walking across me all night. I could write about my adventures in PhotoShop that really are not fascinating to anyone but me. *laughs* I could talk about how my mom farted in the bathtub so loudly last night that it sounded like a jackhammer was coming through the wall. I got so tickled with the idea that she was in there making a jacuzzi for herself. (That’s a movie reference for those of you that don’t get it.) *giggles* Alas, I’m just typing while I think and I’ve come to the conclusion that I just don’t have much to say this morning. So, I’m just gonna post this and hope you like the picture. *strikes a pose*

Moon TBG CX

hair:  Moon. Hair. // Smile @ Kustom9
head: GENUS Project – Genus Head – Baby Face
^^Swallow^^ Charm Ears @ Kustom9
SU!– Best Of Red Lipstick Set -Genus @ Access
skin: L’Etre – Lana Skin
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
Izzie’s – Aged Claw Scars
Insomnia Angel . Rose pickled blood pack

[CX] Osseous Species Collar – Onyx
[CX] Hinata – Black
Moon Elixir – Sabrina – Lara – Thong
[CX] LSD Fishnets – Black

pose: GingerFish Poses – Sugar Rum Cherry @ eBento
***right arm position alters by holding pose for blood pack**

Meow – Neon Drive – The Bearded Guy @ YungIcon

[Black Bantam] Hold Me Naked Sphynx ALL RARE

KraftWork Cat Lover Marquee Frame White Blink

Posted in Catwa, Collabor88, Events, Exploration, Fashion, GingerFish, Gingerfish Poses, Glam Affair, Maitreya, Second Life

Don’t waste it always doing what you’re told

“My friends always tell me I get carried away
Sometimes I spit when I talk cause I have so much to say
They don’t seem to hear me, but I guess it’s okay
It’s not their fault my mind is working overtime with no pay
They always say the same thing and it’s starting to get old
That my head can’t get sick, that it can’t catch a cold
I scratch and I pick, my insecurities poke,
My fears, my anxiety, a voice that provokes
Take a walk, clear your head, breath in, count to ten
Cause on the first page of life written in red
You’ll never make it here if you don’t learn how to bend
Don’t speak unless you’re spoken to, little girl
Someday you will find your place in the world
But a lady don’t get dirty
Someday you’ll learn to fill the empty space with empty faith
Everyday feels like a battle and I always get hurt
I was frequently told violence was never the answer
But life doesn’t abide by the rules of a child
I don’t know how to fight, only taught how to surrender
There is a certain kind of darkness that does the reaping
It usually take you right before you are sleeping
Is it the crack in the door that it finds a way to creep in
Or the crack in your brain that want you to drop dead
I don’t remember what it’s like to see with clear vision
I awake every morning like the dead has arisen
I don’t have to think this body of mine is a prison
You don’t control me, I just got to find my lights switch
But the more that I look, the further it gets
Your the only thing about me that needs to be fixed
Cause on the first page of life written in fine print
Stop looking for light, live it instead
Don’t speak unless you’re spoken to, little girl
Someday you will find your place in the world
But ladies don’t get dirty
Someday you’ll learn to fill the empty space with empty faith
My mind is a mess, but I love it nonetheless
They told me to hush, but my words are all that’s left
So on the last page of life written in gold
Don’t waste it always doing what you’re told”

kuni addams

Basics:
head: CATWA HEAD Catya
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
skin: [Glam Affair] Carla @ Collabor88

hair: KUNI – Angelina @ Equal10
[ kunst ] – Lucy earrings
[ kunst ] – Lucy choker
Ascendant – Smoothie Nails
Addams // Caroline Flare Shirt
Addams // Caroline Denim Shorts

pose: GingerFish Poses – Dancing with a Stranger @ eBento
location: Author’s Point

Posted in Blueberry, Catwa, Collabor88, Events, Fashion, GingerFish, Gingerfish Poses, Maitreya, Second Life, shopping

To Survive

“You have to be kind to yourself to survive in the world.” ~ Paul Dini

berry go round

wearing:
hair: Tableau Vivant // Susan hair @ C88
head: CATWA HEAD Denice
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
skin: #PUMEC – Sophia

Blueberry – Elise – Crochet Top
Blueberry – Elise – Boho Belt
Blueberry – Elise – Denim Skirt

pose: GingerFish Poses – Voulez Vous @ eBENTO

KraftWork Old Brooklyn Carousel

Posted in Bondi, Catwa, Events, Fashion, GingerFish, Gingerfish Poses, Maitreya, Second Life

Middle Fingers

“I don’t like the music other people tend to share
Hate your loser lyrics, middle fingers in the air
I’m a starving artist nowhere close to millionaire
I prefer my Kia, middle fingers in the air
I’ll just keep on throwing middle fingers in the air
I’ll just keep on throwing middle fingers in the air”
~ Missio – Middle Fingers

addams

wearing:
hair:  #Foxy – Ari Hair
head: CATWA HEAD Denice
^^Swallow^^ Crusties Ears 2.0
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
skin: #PUMEC – Sophia

Ascendant – Camo Day Nails
BONDI . The Dude Sunglasses @ ManCave
Vibing – Elizabeth Necklace

Addams // Mackenzi Crop Top
Addams // Mackenzi Rolled Jeans

pose: GingerFish Poses – Birdy 2.0 @ eBENTO
MINIMAL – Cuba Car -10- Orange

Posted in Catwa, Events, Fashion, Maitreya, Reign, Second Life

You Do You, Boo!

Y’all know I love some Facebook drama, but rarely do I get involved. I like to just grab the popcorn and watch the showdown. The latest controversy I found was from a fellow blogger that stated there were simply too many events on the grid and she was getting disgusted by the entire scene. (I’m paraphrasing.) Oh the comments that ensued were about the best I’ve seen yet. There was no yelling or cursing or name calling! I know, its shocking right? It was almost scary as if the apocalypse was upon us and everyone had buckled down to offer suggestions. For a moment, I even thought there was going to be a winner or a leader chosen! Okay, I’m being a little melodramatic, but only because it amuses me.
Let me point out that I believe it is everyone’s right to put whatever the hell they want on their Facebook page, provided it falls within the TOS of FB. With that said, I think it can be detrimental to a blogger who depends on sponsors (for the lack of a better term) to attack (even gently) either side of the shopping community. However, the gauntlet was thrown and sides were taken. What I saw was that some bloggers have cut back, because its too much for them to keep up with. I saw creators say they no longer participated in events, because they preferred main-store traffic. I saw event organizers defend their events. I saw creators defending events.
The beacon of light was a comment about how these events would not survive without a thriving Second Life community. THAT made me smile. I have friends who own events, help run events, hell I’m the manager of one myself. I have friends that are creators, bloggers, and shoppers. I’ve been on the grid since late 2006 and I remember paying L$900 for a pair of boots that were made from nothing but prims. Sculpties did not exist yet. Flexi wasn’t even a thing yet! There were only a handful of “decent” stores and now our cups runneth over.
Rest assured my friends, there’s room for everyone. It’s all about what YOU want to do with your lindens and your time. No one is going to force to work or shop at an event, much less blog it. And to my blogger friends, I urge you to stay true to who you are and what you want to represent. In other words, “You do you, Boo!”

Valley of sickness

wearing:
hair: [ session ] Snapback cap and hair @ eBento
head: CATWA HEAD Denice
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
skin: #PUMEC – .:Ulyana:.

ROSSI. Circle of Life Earrings
Lunar – Luna Top @ Equal10
Lunar – Luna Pants @ Equal10
REIGN.- JUNE SNEAKERS

{Imeka} Sits 06 – Pose Pack
location: Hope

Posted in Catwa, Collabor88, Events, Exploration, Fashion, GingerFish, Gingerfish Poses, Maitreya, RunAway Hair, Second Life, shopping, The Liaison Collaborative, Vanity Event

Oceans

“I feel worthless,
Maybe I should open the drawer,
Burn the pages,
Write poems with the ash on the floor,
Pour the ink, into the sink,
& Watch it drain from the shore…
I don’t want love no more,
Though it’s the one thing I’ve been
searching for,
Though it’s the one thing that I miss the most,
Now I’m afraid to be alone…
I learnt to grow old when I was younger,
Scared of staying young,
Afraid of the thoughts that I had conjured,
That sat atop my tongue,
Knowing I’d change the worlds opinion,
If they would just, listen up…
But they won’t, now…”

beautiful planet

wearing:
hair: [RA] Pia Hair – (*new* @ Salon52)
head: CATWA HEAD Denice
IDTTY Faces – Spicy Lipstick (*new* @ TLC)
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
skin: #PUMEC – Sophia

: CULT : His Princess Rings/Gold
Ascendant – My Garden Nails  (*new* @ Vanity)

TETRA – Lifeline Jacket (*new* @ C88)
TETRA – Lifeline Skirt (*new* @ C88)

pose: GingerFish Poses – eBENTO March 2019
location: Baja Tides

Posted in Catwa, Events, Fashion, GingerFish, Gingerfish Poses, Kustom9, Lamb, Maitreya, Second Life, shopping, United Colors

all that remains

“A heart will swell before it’s hardened
With the flick of the hair, it can make you old
Another hole to dig my soul in
I’ll leave anything bare that keeps me soul
A physical kiss is nothing without it
And you close your eyes to see what it’s done
The body that lies is built up on looking
‘Cause all that remains before it’s begun”

eclipse & uc

wearing:
hair: Lamb. Gossip
head: CATWA HEAD Denice
#Besom Lashes~ Sweetheart Lash
SU!– Osanna Eyes
[ Conviction ] Piercing Set 01 (*new* @ Eclipse)
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
skin: #PUMEC – Sophia

eyeshadow: Veechi  – Romy Shadow
lipstick: –SU!– Leandra Lipstick 01

SU!– Dagger Earrings (*new* @ Eclipse)
(Yummy) Art Deco Rings
Ascendant – Brighten Stars Nails
UC_Jessy_underwear (*new* @ Kustom9)

pose: GingerFish Pose Lush (*new* @ eBENTO)

Posted in Catwa, Events, Fashion, GingerFish, Gingerfish Poses, Maitreya, RAMA, Second Life, {le fil casse}

People DO Change

I really hate the phrase, “A leopard never changes its spots.” I disagree with the meaning behind it, completely. If meant literally, then its just a fact. However, it is rarely said with literal intent. It refers to people not being able to change their true character. I just do not believe that’s true. I believe that people can and do change, especially with age. Now, I understand that the phrase is actually refers to people’s innate traits, but again, I know that people DO change. I know they do, because I have…several times. The older I get, the more I evolve and change. I think that’s true about most people. No matter how old you, think back to who you were 7-10 yrs ago. I certainly hope you changed. We learn and we grow, to suggest otherwise is simply ridiculous to me. To suggest that someone cannot or will not change is really quite an insult. It’s like suggesting there’s no hope or reason to continue living and learning.

the garden
Then again, what do I know, I’m just another sexy avatar in a gorgeous leopard print bodysuit. *winks*

wearing:
hair: Navy+Copper – Ivy (*new* @ Belle)
head: CATWA HEAD Denice
ears: .:[PUMEC] :. – / Mesh Ears\ – Winter Flower
SU!– Piercing Set 07 Septum & Nose Studs
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
skin: #PUMEC – Sophia

{le fil casse} Payton Bodysuit (*new* @ ROMP)

pose: GingerFish Pose Lush set (*new* @ eBENTO)

#selfie_RAMA – Festival Flower Wall RARE

Posted in Blueberry, Bueno, Catwa, Collabor88, Events, Fashion, GingerFish, Gingerfish Poses, RunAway Hair, Second Life, shopping

I was the brightest light you ever knew

“I said hey you, with your world painted blue
I said fuck you, I was the brightest light you ever knew”
~ Kailee Morgue – F**k U

I’ve wasted so much of my life giving the best parts of me to people who only pretend to appreciate it, but in the end they never do. They prove time and time again that they are just another liar…another disappointment…another fake friend…another user. I’m over that now. I’m going to live my life for me and only me going forward. Its time for me to take my life back and I’m done bowing down before some undeserving asshat.
I’m always saying that I do what I want, but apparently what I wanted was to sell my soul just to hear two words that now ring through my ears like a bitter lie and the three words? Well, I’m not even going there. I’m pissed off and I’m tired of being disrespected. I’m tired of disrespecting myself. Now is the time for my “friends” to decide if they are real or not, because I’m done dealing with fake people and liars just for the sake of someone else. Those of you out there talking shit behind my back? Knock yourselves out. Your hate gives me power I never sought, but if your feelings for me are that strong…well, as the song says, “F**k U!”
Oh and before you fuckers get all paranoid about who is telling what? Well, its like this…I am an energy reader and I feed off energy like a vampire. So, when your energy is bitter and makes me sick to my stomach, I know what you’re about. I see through you and your lies. Oh and you lost out on one of the best friends you could’ve ever had. And ya know what? If you even THINK that I’m talking to/about you, then I damn sure am or you wouldn’t even think that.

beautiful
Sadly, the people addressed in this blog probably won’t even read it, but that’s ok…I really wrote it for me.

wearing:
hair: [RA] Melly Hair  (*new* @ Salon 52)
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: –Belleza– Freya
skin: [theSkinnery] Emmy (*new* @ C88)

:::ChicChica::: Unisex bong
Blueberry – Evie – Crop Top
Blueberry – Felicity – Shorts
Izzie’s – Fishnet Stockings
Izzie’s – Overknee Socks

pose: GingerFish Poses – Aperture Set (*new* @ eBENTO)
BUENO-Le Happy Building-Grunge (*new* @ C88)