I have been sick af the last couple of days. A lot of my symptoms could easily be stress related…like IBD & Fibromyalgia. Both have been flaring up, which in turns affects other issues, like back pain and headaches. However, I’ve spent a good amount of time in bed, mostly because I have no choice, and I’m trying very hard to reduce my stress. Honestly, I don’t feel that stressed. I know I have a lot on my plate, but I don’t feel stressed. I feel like I have things under control. So, I’m not sure what’s going on. Perhaps it’s something else entirely. Perhaps it’s some sense of impending doom lingering in the back of my mind somewhere, because I still struggle with the concept of being content, happy, and actually loving myself. Thanks to not having insurance and living in the great U.S. of A…I’m just going to need to suffer through whatever it is. In the meantime, I’ll be doing my best to carry on.
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I do my makeup in somebody else’s car We order different drinks at the same bars I know about what you did and I wanna scream the truth She thinks you love the beach, you’re such a damn liar Those great whites, they have big teeth Hope they bite you Thought you said that you would always be in love But you’re not in love no more Did it frighten you How we kissed when we danced on the light up floor? On the light up floorBut I hear sounds in my mind Brand new sounds in my mind But honey I’ll be seein’ you ‘ever I go But honey I’ll be seein’ you down every road I’m waiting for it, that green light, I want it ‘Cause honey I’ll come get my things, but I can’t let go I’m waiting for it, that green light, I want it Oh, I wish I could get my things and just let go I’m waiting for it, that green light, I want it
When, when we came home Worn to the bones I told myself, “this could get rough” And when, when I was off, which happened a lot You came to me and said, “that’s enough” Oh I know that this love is pain But we can’t cut it from out these veins, no So I’ll hit the lights and you lock the doors We ain’t leaving this room ’til we bust the mold Don’t walk away, don’t roll your eyes They say love is pain, well darling, let’s hurt tonight When, when you came home Worn to the bones I told myself, “this could be rough” Oh, I know you’re feeling insane Tell me something that I can explain, oh I’ll hit the lights and you lock the doors Tell me all of the things that you couldn’t before Don’t walk away, don’t roll your eyes They say love is pain, well darling, let’s hurt tonight If this love is pain, well darling, let’s hurt, oh tonight So you hit the lights and I’ll lock the doors Let’s say all of the things that we couldn’t before Won’t walk away, won’t roll my eyes They say love is pain, well darling, let’s hurt tonight If this love is pain, then honey let’s love tonight
I don’t wanna talk about it, there isn’t much to say I don’t have an excuse to why I won’t come to your party And I don’t want my picture taken, I’d hate it anyway No, I don’t wanna spoil your night, just go have fun without meI’m pushing food around my plate ‘Cause my father said I’m overweight Well, maybe he’d feel better If I just disappeared altogether and I Got so good at faking smiles I can do it for a little while Just don’t ask me if I’m okay ‘Cause I’m not okay, noIt’s hard to show you something invisible No tears, no scars, no bruises, It’s not physical It’s covered up and hidden tight Beneath the skin, inside the mind You wouldn’t even notice, you wouldn’t even know Invisible, invisible, invisible ~ Grace Davies – Invisible
I woke up this morning with a tremendous headache and it has been one helluva week. Today, I’m taking some much needed time for myself. I want to enjoy my newly landscaped sim. I want to dedicate some time to adding some finishing touches and decorating my house. I’m sure I’ll take a blog picture, but my blog is more for me than anyone else anyway…sorry, not sorry. I love that people read it and enjoy it…all five of you..lol, but at the end of the day, I have always blogged because its something I’ve wanted to do. However, there are days that I honestly don’t even want to bother with it. I guess that’s natural after four years of blogging almost daily.
In real life, I’m smoking a cigarette with my coffee, but I sure wish it was a blunt. This headache is not fun and while I know that looking at a screen is not conducive for a headache, neither is that bright ass sun blaring through my window. *hisses* Alas, this is going to be a good day. I’ve decided and that’s that.
I went on a SL date last night and we were talking about the different things we like to do in Second Life. He mentioned surfing and I realized that its one of the few things that I have never done in SL. I did windsurfing once and that was hilarious, but I’ve never actually tried surfing. So, I thought it was only appropriate that I do a surfing picture today as I’m adding this activity to my SL bucket list. Hopefully, the handsome man that took me out for sushi last night will take me surfing someday. *smiles*
I’m a little bit off today, something down inside me’s different
Woke up a little off today, I can tell that something’s wrong
I’m a little thrown off today, there’s something going on inside me
I’m a little bit off today, a little bit off today
(I’m a little bit off today, a little bit off)
See, I’m a little bit off today, I cannot put my finger on it
Got up a little off today, just to play that same old song
I don’t really wanna try today, I see nothing in my reflection
I’m a little bit dry today, feel like I could die today
~ Five Finger Death Punch – A Little Bit Off
Once upon a time, Sady adopted the most wonderful young woman as her daughter in Second Life. This beautiful young lady was very quick to point out all the adult toy boxes that Sady was putting in her photos. Then one day out of the blue, Sady logged in to receive her very own vending machine full of adult toys. This was an amazing gift from her naughty daughter who said, “Now you have a real toy box!” *laughs* Well, like mother like daughter, my sweet Chickadee is a brat!! I know, shocking! God, I love that girl!
This place didn’t have an extensive menu, but what they did have was simply delicious. It was a food truck permanently parked on a small peninsula off the coast of Achill Island What she loved the most was that they has hooked up small electric heaters between all the tables so even on a cool day like today, you could eat outdoor and be comfortable. She was especially grateful for this today as she planned to meet her dear friend, Grace, for lunch. It had been far too long since they had sat down and dished.