Posted in Death Row Designs, DOUX, Dubai, Events, Fashion, Glam Affair, Legacy, Lelutka, Second Life, shoes, skin, The Liaison Collaborative, Uber SL, [BREATHE]

The heart beats in its cage

Well, I don’t feel better when I’m fucking around
And I don’t write better when I’m stuck in the ground
So don’t teach me a lesson ’cause I’ve already learned
Yeah, the sun will be shining and my children will burn
Oh, the heart beats in its cage
I don’t want what you want, I don’t feel what you feel
See, I’m stuck in a city but I belong in a field
Yeah, we got left, left, left, left, left, left, left
Now it’s three in the morning and you’re eating alone

Oh, the heart beats in its cage

All our friends, they’re laughing at us
All of those you loved, you mistrust
Help me, I’m just not quite myself
Look around, there’s no one else left

The heart beats in its cage

foundation
hair: DOUX – Nashaly hairstyle @ Dubai
head: LeLUTKA Avalon
head skin: [Glam Affair] Cherry [Lelutka EvoX] @ UBER
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody Perky
body skin: VELOUR: The “Ipanema Body” for Legacy (Chantilly)

fashion
-SU!- Poison Sunglasses
[ rD ] Metarose Necklace @ TLC
Violent Seduction – The Moth for FLF Aug 27, 2021
[BREATHE]-Satsuko Heels @ Kinky

[AYO] feat [Rezz Room] Caged Heart @ Uber

pose:
Diversion – Distant Light – Poses
(altered hand positions slightly)

background:
(Milk Motion) The dark forest road

-Garden- by anc “end of universe” rose
{anc} breath of rose

NOMAD // Black Rose Petals

BALACLAVA!! Ghost Servants

DRD – Funeral Carriage – Hearse

Posted in Death Row Designs, Events, Fancy Decor, Fashion, Glam Affair, Home Decor, Kustom9, Maitreya, Pose Fair, Second Life

Will she?

This picture is probably one of my favorite collaborations yet. First of all, it’s with Kess Crystal, who happens to be one of my absolute best friends. She has single handedly changed my life in so many ways since we’ve met. All of my closest friends have played a huge part in my holding it together, but Kess and I…well, I guess I’ve been closer to her the longest. Granted, its only a few months longer, but those months were spent together crying and laughing daily. Every morning, we had coffee together and each conversation started the same. As soon as I heard her voice, I’d say, “Good morning, Gorgeous.” From there, we’d have our coffee and we’d talk about how she was doing with her wretched break up. I watched her blog begin to blossom and the therapeutic value of it. Less than a year into our true friendship, I was smacked with the biggest betrayal my heart had felt since I was a child. Kess was there (as were others) and she watched as I acted out. She watched me fall apart and completely lose my shit.
When I mentioned that I might want to blog for the same therapeutic value that she had gotten from it, not only did she encourage me, but she mentored me. She helped me grow as a blogger and gave me tips. She helped me find my own blogger identity. Less than a month ago, she stepped up in the biggest way yet. It was like magic, so this photo is perfect for us….the magic, her as the teacher….her as the older one…*smirks*…okay, to be fair, she’s only 8 months older. The point is…SHE is the oldest! *grins* Now, I’ll know I did good if she cries after reading this. Will she?
So, all the details are below and a link to her blog, as well.

deaddollz collab
You’re the oldest, you be the teacher! I’ll be the cute, young student!

Sady (on the right):
hair: Tableau Vivant \\ Eerie Daughter @ Epiphany
head: GENUS Project – Genus Head – Baby Face
skin: [Glam Affair] Mary Applier [Genus ] 007 – 11 RARE @ Epiphany
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara V4.1

Birdy – Hocus Pocus – Spellbook – Gold RARE
Dead Dollz – WItchcraft Academy – Student Top @ Epiphany
Dead Dollz – WItchcraft Academy – Student Skirt @ Epiphany
Dead Dollz – WItchcraft Academy – Student Stocking @ Epiphany
: CULT : Salem Foot Straps @ Kustom9

pose: Diversion – Book Lover Poses @ Pose Fair

Kess (on the left):
Head – LeLutka – Korina
Skin  – Glam Affair – Lena
Piercings – [ kunst ] – Basil set
Hair – /TRUTH/ Elixir /
Dress – Dead Dollz – WItchcraft Academy – Teacher Gown RARE @ Epiphany

Pose – Diversion – My Poison

DRD – MM3 – Mystery Mansion
25 – DRD – MM3 – Broken Lamp B

22769 – Copper Cauldron – COMMON
22769 – The Chair of the Witch – RARE
22769 – The Workplace of the Witch – COMMON
22769 – Potion Bottles – COMMON
22769 – Row of Potions – COMMON
22769 – Spell Book – COMMON
22769 – Witch Hat – COMMON
22769 – Summoning Circle – COMMON

{anc} nebra beads [sungold] pole

Fancy Decor: Caged Candles – gold

+Half-Deer+ Requiem Moon – Witch Broom Decor

Soy. Wall decor [Insect Specimen +Dish]
Soy. Essentials of Witchcraft [Linked]
Soy. Table with Drawers (Aged Dark Wood)

Make sure you check out her version: Glamour Sauce “Summon Me”

Posted in Catwa, Death Row Designs, GingerFish, Gingerfish Poses, Lybra, Maitreya, shopping, The Liaison Collaborative, Uber SL

Outahere

I’ve always envied the people that just pack and move somewhere new with hardly any money in their pockets. I can’t wrap my mind around how they do it. All I can think about is how I’ll need money for deposits and food and rent and gas and…and…and…the list is endless. I’ve known people of all ages that have moved around all over the world with hardly any money to their names. I’ve never thought to ask any of them, how they managed it. Maybe they had more money and resources than they let on. I do know that if I had my life to live over, I would definitely have traveled more. I absolutely love the idea of packing up and just driving until I land somewhere, but that’s simply not an option for me….especially now. *sighs*

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wearing:
hair: Tableau Vivant // Cinder hair (*new* @ Uber)
head: CATWA HEAD Denice
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
skin: #PUMEC – .:Ulyana:.

Kibitz – Harriet’s metal plate collar – kitty LootBox (*new* @ LootBox)
LYBRA . IGGY (*new* @ Uber)

pose: GingerFish Poses – Traveler’s Soul (*new* @ TLC)
DRD – The Pack Rat – Blue

Posted in Apple Fall, crate, Death Row Designs, Events, Fancy Decor, Home Decor, Kustom9, N21, Reign, Second Life, Shiny Shabby, shopping

Boho Decor, Gimme More

I love love love Boho style decor. Some find it to be too messy, but I absolutely love the eclectic style so much. For one thing, you can add just about anything to the room. There are usually lots of colors and fun little hidden gems that can really tell visitors a lot about the resident(s) of the home. Luckily for me, there are lots of great decor styles available in Second Life. The various styles available for our virtual homes is incredible and there’s been no better time in the history of Second Life to add those little details like figurines and plants, that give our virtual spaces a true sense of home.

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West Village by Apple Fall Spring Fauna (*new* @ N21)
West Village Live Basil w/ Terracotta Pot
West Village Spring Tulips – French

Ariskea [Emi] Hedgehog Planter [Yellow]

Bazar Toronto-Bedroom motivation poster

7 – crate Expression Floor Lamp (*new* @ LootBox)
10 – crate Expression Side Table (*new* @ LootBox)
2 – crate Expression Sofa & Ottoman – Lootbox Item (*new* @ LootBox)
1 – crate Expression Pendant Lamp – Lootbox (*new* @ LootBox)
crate Dylan Daze Love In Poster
4 – crate Expression Box Shelf (*new* @ LootBox)
crate Dylan Daze Bong n Buds
crate Dylan Daze 4th Time Around Table
3 – Expression Sideboard – Lootbox Item (*new* @ LootBox)
9 – crate Expression Rug (*new* @ LootBox)
8 – crate Expression Chair (*new* @ LootBox)

DRD – Boho Backyard – Plant
DRD – Boho Backyard – Stack o Pots
DRD – Boho Loft – Tea Tray
DRD – Boho Backyard – Sunflowers

dust bunny . areca palm plant
dust bunny . potted cheese plant
dust bunny . potted dragon tree
dust bunny . pink medinilla plant
dust bunny . fiddle leaf tree
dust bunny . potted sago palm
dust bunny . spotted begonia
dust bunny . giant palm plant

Fancy Decor: Russell Poster B
Fancy Decor: Russell Poster A

Foxwood – Hanging Plants – Large (*new* @ K9)

+Half-Deer+ Goat Bro – FIgurine (Yuki)

Nutmeg. Rattan Tote Carry, Light Blue
Nutmeg. Winter Brunch Packages
Nutmeg. Disarray Clutter (*new* @ Shiny Shabby)
13. Nutmeg. Sketches of you set
Nutmeg. Sneakers Worn White
Nutmeg. Lavender secret package Group Gift
Nutmeg. Vintage Metronome
8. Nutmeg. Vintage Rotary Dial Orange
Nutmeg. Disarray Bag w/ Papers Pink (*new* @ Shiny Shabby)
Nutmeg. Not too shabby flats, Nude

REIGN.- BOOKS AND HEELS- # 22

tarte. woodland room divider (brown)

Peaches ‘N Cream – ‘Emotional Baggage’ Handbag Clutter

.peaches. Wanderlust – Vase no Books
.peaches. Emunah Bed – Magazine Clutter
.peaches. Tap That App – Books
.peaches. Wanderlust – Books
.peaches. Wanderlust – Brown Bun

Posted in Catwa, Dahlia, Death Row Designs, Events, Fashion, GingerFish, Gingerfish Poses, Maitreya, Second Life

You Won’t Stop Me

“How could this man I thought I knew
Turn out to be unjust so cruel
Could only see the good in you
Pretended not to know the truth
You tried to hide your lies, disguise yourself
Through living in denial
But in the end you’ll see
You won’t stop me
I am a fighter and I
I ain’t goin’ stop
There is no turning back
I’ve had enough
‘Cause it makes me that much stronger
Makes me work a little bit harder
It makes me that much wiser
So thanks for making me a fighter
Made me learn a little bit faster
Made my skin a little bit thicker
Makes me that much smarter
So thanks for making me a fighter”

days of yore

wearing:
hair: Tableau Vivant // Didi hair
head: CATWA HEAD Denice
eyes: :Conviction: Viscous Eyes
eyeshadow: UniCult – Isis Catwa/Omega HUD (*new* @ Days of Yore)
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
skin: #PUMEC – Sophia

Dahlia – Demeter – Headpiece – Silver (*new* @ Days of Yore)
Vibing – Carrie Rings (*new* @ Days of Yore)
Ascendant – Najla Bento Nails

Cellar Door Nubia Halter (*new* @ Days of Yore)
Cellar Door Nubia Skirt (*new* @ Days of Yore)
Ama. : The Assassin Leg Straps (*new* @ Days of Yore)

pose: GingerFish Poses – Moon in Aries (*new* @ Zodiac)

DRD– andolys – Hades lair
*paper moon* Roman Incense Burner: Bone (*new* @ Days of Yore)

Posted in Apple Fall, Bueno, Death Row Designs, Home Decor, Second Life, shopping, Silence, unKindness, {what next}

The Foyer

The foyer of a home is like the catch all, when you come in the door and have to bolt for the bathroom. I don’t know about you, but it never fails that I’ve got my arms full and that’s the exact moment that I need to pee! I was so excited about these sets from Silence. Although they were designed for a hallway, I could not help myself. I had to use them to decorate the foyer in my new skybox. I added some clutter to reflect that moment right after I get home from a day of running errands and shopping. Drops my bags on the floor, except the tacos and coffee….those are precious and can’t be trusted on the floor with the cats around. *giggles* It might have a fancy name like the foyer, but I think mine should be called the rush in and catch it room.

the foyer

scene created in Onsu ~ “Maple” Skybox ~ w/ Environment

Silence. – Whittaker Hallway
-Silence. – Whittaker Rug
-Silence. – Whittaker Dresser
-Silence. – Whittaker Frame
-Silence. – Whittaker Gold Accessories
-Silence. – Whittaker Mirror

Silence. – Whittaker Accessory Set (*new* for Go by FaMESHed)
-Silence. – Whittake Bench w/Pillows
-Silence. – Whittaker Canvas Art
-Silence. – Whittaker End Table
-Silence. – Whittaker Table Lamp

{what next} Wall Hanging Plant #1
{what next} Wall Hanging Plant #2
{what next} Wall Hanging Plant #3

Ariskea & Unkindness [Solace] Romarin Plant
Ariskea & Unkindness [Solace] Candle 4

BAZAR – Stockholm-Paper bag (decor)

tres blah– Hodgepodge – What’s in My Bag RARE
-tres blah- Hodgepodge – Catch All

DRD – RK – Free Bonus – Bag of Groceries

BUENO– Taco Bag Deco

MudHoney Larson Wreath

MudHoney Liza Heels – Black

(fd) Cat – 08 Stretching
(fd) Cat – 02 Sleeping Curled

Apple Fall Handbag & Scarf

dust bunny . coat rack

Posted in Catwa, Collabor88, Culprit, Death Row Designs, Events, Fashion, Jian, Maitreya, Pose Fair, Second Life, Uber SL, unKindness, Vanity Event

Muddy Water

I’ve been on a bit of an LP kick as of late. Her voice and her mannerisms just do something to me.  So, when I took this photo, I immediately thought of this song. If you’re not familiar with LP and enjoy this song, I urge you to listen to more.

LP – Muddy Waters

Oh, oh, oh
Oh, oh, oh
We are kneeling at the river’s edge and tempting
All the steps to follow closer right behind
Is it only when you feel a part is empty
That it’s gnawing at the corners of your mind
I will ask you for mercy
I will come to you blind
What you’ll see is the worst me
Not the last of my kind
Ooh
In the muddy water we’re falling
Ooh
In the muddy water we’re crawling
Holds me down
Hold me now
Sold me out
In the muddy waters we’re falling
It is not clear why we choose the fire pathway
Where we end is not the way that we had planned
All the spirits gather ’round like it’s our last day
To get across you know we’ll have to raise the sand
Ooh, I will ask you for mercy
I will come to you blind
What you’ll see is the worst me
I’m not the last of my kind
Ooh
In the muddy water we’re falling
Ooh
In the muddy water we’re crawling
Holds me down
Hold me now
Sold me out
In the muddy waters we’re falling
Ooh
Don’t fail me now
Put your arms around me and pull me out
Ooh
I know I’m found
With your arms around me, oh save me now
Ooh
Oh, oh
Ooh, in the muddy water we’re falling
Ooh
In the muddy water we’re crawling
Holds me down
Hold me now
Sold me out
In the muddy water we’re falling
muddy water
wearing:
hair:  Exile – Aina – Naturals (*new* @ C88)
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: DeeTaleZ *Appliers* CATWA Head “Myra” Eastern (*new*)
Pseudo- #718 Tank Dress Olive (*new* @ Vanity Event)
pose: Valor Poses – Scarlett 2 (*new* @ Pose Fair)
scene:
JIAN Summer River House (*new* @ Uber)
JIAN Firefly Grasses :: Sparkle Jar (Dream)
JIAN Firefly Grasses :: Sparkle Jar (Plain)
uK – Dystopia Ivy Sloped
uK – Raven Creek Hillbilly Jug
:CP: Southern Porch Rocking Chair w/blanket (PG)
Culprit Mojave Trunk
Culprit Mojave Succulent
Culprit Mojave Bedside Table
NOMAD // Sepia Peonies 01
Serenity Style- Scooter Retro Lamp Rust RARE (*new* @ Vanity Event)
DRD MM couch
Posted in Catwa, Death Row Designs, Events, Fashion, Lamb, Maitreya, Scandalize, Second Life, shoes, shopping, Tres Chic

Not For Rent

Whether its an sl rumor, some fake ass hater written post on slsecrets, or a full on Facebook attack, we could all learn something from the celebrities in Hollywood. Stop feeding the trolls. These cyber bullies can only take up space in our heads if we let them and I don’t know about you, but there are no vacancies in mine. The space in my head is not for rent and I’m damn sure not going to let someone take up residence there for free. The only power these wretched people have over you is the power you give them. They feed off your fury, your misery, and your pain. Take that away from them and they will surely starve. They crave that reaction. They crave the attention. No more. Turn on that no vacancies sign and tell these people that space in your mind is not for rent. You’ll be amazed at how quickly they go away.

ready to go

wearing:
hair:  Lamb. Cherry
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
ears: ^^Swallow^^ Ears Silence BLACK
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: [theSkinnery] Katy (Catwa Applier) toffee
brows: –SU!- Blair Eyebrows +CATWA APPLIER

Scandalize.Hanna.TOP (*new* @ TresChic)
Scandalize.Hanna.JEANS (*new* @ TresChic)
Scandalize.HannaHeels (*new* @ TresChic)

pose created using AnyPose

secne:
[MF] Beautiful suitcase closed
DRD – Boho Backyard – Hewett Chair – Two

Posted in Catwa, Collabor88, Death Row Designs, Events, FaMESHed, Fashion, Lybra, Maitreya, Second Life, shopping

Sick Like Me

I posted a meme yesterday that read, “Do you ever have one of those days, where you just want to get drunk, go bat shit crazy and set the world on fire?” Well, yesterday was that day for me. I’m already bat shit crazy, but I drank an entire bottle of wine on an empty stomach. As I suffered through one of the longest and hardest anxiety attacks I’ve had in quite a while, I fantasized about setting the world on fire, stabbing a few people while I watched them bleed out slowly, finding the Louise to my inner Thelma and going out in a blaze of glory. Instead I fell asleep with a cigarette in my hand while watching women in prison make their life look a lot better than men’s prison.
This morning, I find myself blasting In This Moment and remembering why I love this band so much. Recognizing so much of myself in their lyrics. So, here it is…are you sick like me?

In This Moment – Sick Like Me

Is it sick of me
To need control of you?
Is it sick to make
You beg the way I do?
Is it sick of me
To want you crawling on your knees?
Is it sick to say
I want you biting down on me
Are you sick like me?
Am I beautiful
As I tear you to pieces?
Am I beautiful?
Even at my ugliest, you always say
I’m beautiful
As you tear me to pieces
You are beautiful
Even at your ugliest, I always say
You’re beautiful and sick like me
Is it sick of me
To feed the animal in you?
Is it sick to say
I tease the hunter like I do?
Is it sick of me
To watch the wicked way you thrill?
Is it sick to say
I live to break your will
Are you sick like me?
Am I beautiful
As I tear you to pieces?
Am I beautiful?
Even at my ugliest, you always say
I’m beautiful
As you tear me to pieces
You are beautiful
Even at your ugliest, I always say
You’re beautiful and sick like me
Am I beautiful
As I tear you to pieces?
I am beautiful
Even at my ugliest, you always say
I’m beautiful
As I tear you to pieces
Am I beautiful
Even at my ugliest, you always say
You’re beautiful
As I tear you to pieces?
You are beautiful
Even at you ugliest, I always say
You’re beautiful and sick like me

unfinished business

wearing:
hair: #Besom~Gypsy Love
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
ears: ^^Swallow^^ Shiny Ears
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: [theSkinnery] Katy (Catwa Applier) toffee (*new* @ C88)
brows: –SU!- Blair Eyebrows +CATWA APPLIER
(Yummy) Free Spirit Rings (*new* @ C88)

LYBRA . BRIT BLOUSE (*new* @ FaMESHed)
LYBRA . BRIT SKIRT (*new* @ FaMESHed)

pose: M-1 Kara Poses Blogger Pack
DRD – Suicide Booth

Posted in Death Row Designs, Events, Exploration, FaMESHed, Fashion, Maitreya, RAMA, Second Life, shoes, shopping, [BREATHE]

Options

One of the greatest gifts we have is the power of choice. If you ever saw the movie, Dangerous Minds, you probably remember the classroom scene where that topic was discussed. You may not have a choice about the gun pointed at your head, but you can choose how you react/respond. So, when adversity comes your way, you have a choice on how to proceed. There are always options. They might not be options we like. They might not be options you like, but there are always options.
The thing is, when you make you’re forced to make tough decisions where none of the choices are exactly ideal, particularly if you reach out to friends for advice on said options. I think in cases like that, its best to sort it out on your own. Not everything you do requires a second opinion, especially when your dilemma involves doing things that feel right to you, but most certainly will not be understood by others. Occasionally, you just have to do what’s right for you, despite what others may think. So, whatever your quandary may be, think carefully on the outcome of your options before seeking the opinions of others.

options

wearing:
hair: RAMA.SALON – Diana Hair (*new* @ Blush)
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: Glam Affair – Mindy

neve top – surge (*new* @ FaMESHed)
neve short – sass (*new* @ FaMESHed)
[BREATHE]-Setsu Heels (April PocketGacha)

pose in DRD – Boho Backyard – Athena Couch
location: Rustic Retreat