We could get lost in the purple rain Talk about the good old days We could get high on some pink champagne Baby, let me count the waves Let me love you like a woman Let me hold you like a baby Let me shine like a diamond Let me be who I’m meant to be Talk to me in songs and poems Don’t make me be bittersweet Let me love you like a woman
Well, this year isn’t over yet and its just gonna keep dumping on some of us right until the bitter end. I just want to crawl into a hole and hide sometimes. Not just from this year, but from the world in general. There’s just so much happening around me and its a bit overwhelming. The diabetes thing is sooooo hard this late in life. I’m a creature of habit. Granted most of my habits are not good ones. Don’t you judge me! *winks* I guess for once in my life I am making resolutions, but not because I really want to. I have to! Time to work on that vision board, I reckon. *laughs* Y’all forget that I really am a Southern girl at heart. I’m doing my best to not get too stressed over all of this. Lots and lots of people live with diabetes and I will, too! I can do this. I will do this!
hair: Stealthic – Always head: LeLUTKA Lily Head 2.5 body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) Special Edition (1.3) skin: — PUMEC – JADWIGA – LELUTKA x BOM
This has not been a merry holiday season for me. It has been more of a medical season. First I was diagnosed with a genetic heart disease that puts me at risk for sudden death and now diabetes. I don’t know the details on the diabetes yet, I’ll find out more about that next week. Yay. -_- I am exhausted and we’re not even half way into the month yet. When I took this picture I was thinking about how exhausting the holidays can be in general. I was inspired by the Christmas Fails Gacha colleciton at Tannenbaum, cuz that’s my kinda luck. However, after my appointment this morning, the only thing that’s really on my mind is my health. *sighs* I guess 2021 is literally going to be a new life for me. I have to change so many things about my life going forward. As my sister has pointed out, I’m not going to war. So, there’s a silver lining. *laughs*
hair: tram J1201 hair @ C88 head: LeLUTKA Fleur Head 2.5 body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) Special Edition (1.3) skin: — PUMEC – JADWIGA – LELUTKA x BOM
(Yummy) Eliza Ring Collection @ C88 Tulssy – Abstract Fatpack Coffin
It never snows in LA You’d never know it was a holiday I don’t believe that Jesus Christ was born to save me That’s an awful lot of pressure for a baby But here we are again, with family or friends Some extra time to spend and I’m not mad about it Don’t waste a dime on me, just want your company Beside a Christmas tree, if the dog allows it –Finneas – Another Year
hair: [monso] Yaska Hair @ C88 head: LeLUTKA Fleur Head 2.5 body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) Special Edition (1.3) skin: — PUMEC – JADWIGA – LELUTKA x BOM ears: — PUMEC – / Mesh Ears\ – Dance of evil genius
cat ears, eyes, eyeshadow, & lipstick: — PUMEC – MURKA – BEAUTY SET (LELUTKA) @ Santa Inc Tulssy – Abstract Fatpack Coffin (Yummy) Eliza Ring Collection @ C88
AvaWay LETTER Necklaces @ FaMESHed ChicModa // Fiona Top & Pants
So this is the same outfit I wore in my previous post, It’s Tannenbaum Time, but I changed the colors to a less festive theme. *laughs* Y’all know I couldn’t get out of that green & red fast enough, right? This is why fatpack is my favorite color! I’ll keep this one short & sweet…its going to be a long week! There’s going to be a lot of sales out there this week in both worlds, so please stay safe and Happy Shopping♥
I recently broke down and got the Audible app. While I do enjoy the soothing tone of certain voices reading to me, I know how to listen to a sample of the narrator to know whether or not I should listen to a book or actually read it. There’s just nothing quite like the actual reading of a book while enjoying a cup of coffee or tea, along with the occasion petting of an insistent cat. I adore books. Not just the reading of them, but the possession of them as well. The distinct smell of an old library, a used book store…even a new book store with a built in coffee chain offering overpriced drinks and stale pastries…each place holds its own nuance. Well, I could ramble about this all day. What I really want to tell the ladies reading my blog today is to check out this outfit from Seniha. OMG, I love it so much, I’ve worn it for three days. Get the fatpack and have fun with it. I’m pretty sure you won’t want to take it off either.♥
hair: DOUX – Olga hairstyle head: LeLUTKA Fleur Head 2.5 skin: — PUMEC – JADWIGA RARE 1 -BOM – LELUTKA / LEGACY – MARCH @ Kustom9
“The wolf said, “You know, my dear, it isn’t safe for a little girl to walk through these woods alone.”
Red Riding Hood said, “I find your sexist remark offensive in the extreme, but I will ignore it because of your traditional status as an outcast from society, the stress of which has caused you to develop your own, entirely valid, worldview. Now, if you’ll excuse me, I must be on my way.” ― James Finn Garner, Politically Correct Bedtime Stories
Tableau Vivant \ Grim[m]Tales – Red Riding Hood @ Uber LeLUTKA Fleur Head 2.0 Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara V5.0 [theSkinnery] Karima @ Uber
I woke up this morning and was soooo cold. Like chilled to the bone cold. I immediately opened my curtains to let the warmth of the sun in and grabbed my favorite sweater. Here I sit all bundled up with my coffee…shivering…I look at my phone to check the temperature thinking it must be below freezing, right? WRONG. It’s 52°F/11°C. Mind you, we had the air conditioner on two days ago and its set to only come on when the temp is above 78°F/26°C. While its certainly a lot colder than two days ago, I’m sitting here laughing, because a month from now….52°F/11°C is going to seem quite warm. Isn’t it funny how our bodies adjust so quickly? It really is quite fascinating when you think about it. I’m happy for the cooler temps, I’ll just be happier once my body adjusts.
Seven years strong with my therapy Making mosaics of my memories Puzzled with doubt, I’m my closest enemy It’s like this girl is squatting in my identity She’s a raver, a likkle libertine (ayy) And a bouncer to my dopamine Tried so hard to become a referee To even out the game that’s between my mind and meLove me or leave me and let me be lonely Inside my head, there’s a voice that controls me I’d rather be somewhere else with anyone but me Ooh, love me or leave me and let me be lonely Been down so long now that happy is holy I’d rather be somewhere else with anyone but me Anyone but me (mmm), anyone but me (uh)She’s dependent, she’s my man and wife Peckham preacher, give ’em bad advice She just does the spendin’ and then I pay the price Tryna be Calise but she always trip me twice But, I know I could do better (I could do better) Baby, we’re no good together (together, together) You are you, I am I Now you gotta go bye ~ Joy Crookes – Anyone But Me
I wish I could do yoga in real life. I suppose there are some poses I could do, but due to my physical limitations, traditional yoga is not in the cards. Of course, had I just thought about the other realities of my life when taking this photo, I would have included a cat pouncing on my belly the way he did this morning. Oh, yeah, that’s right….I didn’t tell you. This morning…like 3am…he decided to use my belly as a springboard…TWICE. I almost caught him the second time. Let’s just say he didn’t land where he was hoping to. Then the little bastard decided that he should sing the song of his people at an all time high volume. I’ve twarted his pleas to go outside by scooping him up and kissing all over his handsome little face. He kinda hates that. *grins* I don’t know where he is now, but he’s being quiet and that’s a huge plus. Of course, he’s probably curled up asleep somewhere, which is where I should be, but after a cat to the gut twice in a row…I’m wide awake!