Posted in FaMESHed, Glam Affair, Second Life

Making someone disappear

I think its about time that we start calling some of these people on their bullshit. No, I don’t mean our friends. I mean these bozos that crawl into our IMs with pictures of their dicks or other unwarranted crap. I saw we call them out on the spot. Answer their IMs in local…oops! *grins* I think they will disappear like magic! Better yet, maybe they’ll get upset and call us names…that seems to be a popular defense to rejection. You won’t fuck me so you’re a whore. *laughs* That makes soooo much sense. People are dumb, we have to be smarter. Killing them with kindness sometimes works, but rarely. I think its more fun to play dumb. If they’re stupid enough to send that kinda garbage to a stranger, they will surely believe we’re as dumb as they are. Meanwhile, we get to have some fun! Just a rando thought that crossed my mind as I sat down to write about magic and what tricks I’d like to perform. I think making someone disappear would be pretty awesome.

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head: GENUS Project – Baby Face
SU!– Piercing Set 01
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
skin: [Glam Affair] Abby @ Belle

hair: Doe: Livia @ Belle
Meva Alisha Set @ FaMESHed
-Meva Alisha Bracelets
-Meva Alisha Headpiece
-Meva Alisha Upperarm Chain
Ascendant – R-E-V-E-N-G-E Nails
Dead Dollz – Bev Romper @ FaMESHed

+ Cosmic Crybaby + {aii}
+ Magical Orb Censer (nebula) + {egosumaii}

pose by Di’s Opera

Posted in Catwa, Events, Fashion, Glam Affair, Kustom9, Maitreya, Second Life, shopping, Uber SL

Needle and the Thread

Just like a moth drawn to a flame
Oh you lured me in I couldn’t sense the pain
Your bitter heart cold to the touch
Now I’m gonna reap what I sow
I’m left seeing red on my own
Got a feeling that I’m going under
But I know that I’ll make it out alive
If I quit calling you my lover
Move on
You watch me bleed until I can’t breathe
I’m shaking falling onto my knees
And now that I’m without your kisses
I’ll be needing stitches
I’m tripping over myself
Aching begging you to come help
And now that I’m without your kisses
I’ll be needing stitches
Needle and the thread
Gotta get you out of my head
Needle and the thread
Gonna wind up dead

Dead Dollz Uber

Basics:
head: CATWA HEAD Catya
^^Swallow^^ Crusties Ears
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
skin: [Glam Affair] Maria @ Kustom9

*LODE* Head Accessory – Anna [yellow]
Magika – Lucy
Dead Dollz – Ruler Dress @ Uber

pose: BellePoses – Demi

8. Dead Dollz – My Attic – Spools Thread Rack
10. Dead Dollz – My Attic – Textiles Rack Patterns
11. Dead Dollz – My Attic – Fashion Sketches

Posted in Catwa, Collabor88, Events, Fashion, Glam Affair, Maitreya, Second Life, shoes, shopping

Undertow

“Two times in
I’ve been struck dumb by a voice that
Speaks, from deep beneath peerless water that’s
Twice as clear as heaven
Twice as loud as reason
Deep and rich like silt on a riverbed
Just as never-ending
Current’s mouth below me
Opens up around me
Suggests and beckons all while swallowing
Surrounds and drowns, and wipes me away
But I’m so comfortable
So comfortable”
~ Tool – Undertow

pulled under

Basics:
head: CATWA HEAD Catya
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
skin: [Glam Affair] Carla @ Collabor88
tattoo: DAPPA – Devour Tattoo.

:moon amore: Liquid Soul/ Brave Waves Hairstyle  @ The Epiphany
6. Dead Dollz – My Boho Summer – Bikini Bra -White @ The Epiphany
12. Dead Dollz – My Boho Summer – Bikini Thong -White @ The Epiphany
18. Dead Dollz – My Boho Summer – Sandals – White @ The Epiphany
:moon amore: Liquid Soul/ Fluids Halo -Water @ The Epiphany

pose by Del May

Posted in Catwa, Events, FaMESHed, Maitreya, Phoenix, Second Life, shopping, Uber SL

I am not your fault

“So I am not a broken heart.
I am not the weight I lost or miles I ran and I am not the way I slept on my doorstep under the bare sky in smell of tears and whiskey because my apartment was empty and if I were to be this empty I wanted something solid to sleep on. Like concrete.
I am not this year and I am not your fault.
I am muscles building cells, a little every day, because they broke that day,
but bones are stronger once they heal and I am smiling to the bus driver and replacing my groceries once a week and I am not sitting for hours in the shower anymore.
I am the way a life unfolds and bloom and seasons come and go and I am the way the spring always finds a way to turn even the coldest winter into a field of green and flowers and new life.
I am not your fault.”
~ Charlotte Eriksson – I am not a broken heart. 

picture perfect

Basics:
head: CATWA HEAD Catya
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
skin: [Glam Affair] Dee Applier

:::Phoenix::: Sandy Hair @ FaMESHed
*LODE* Head Accessory – Tulips & Cherries [white pink]
*AvaWay* DOLLY ROPE CHOKER
(Yummy) Grace Ring Set @ Uber
Ascendant – Savage Nails @ LeVeL
Dead Dollz – Raja Dress @ FaMESHed

pose & props: Le Poppycock *Just Alice* The Big Picture

Posted in Catwa, Events, Fashion, Maitreya, pr!tty, Second Life, shopping, Uber SL

As I move forward

Sometimes doing what’s right for myself seems to hurt those around me, because they don’t understand my choices. Their path is not my own and I don’t expect them to fully understand. Unfortunately, there are times that I cannot find a way to explain my choices without hurting their feelings. It’s not about them, though, and I have to trust that if they truly love me and care for me, they will trust that my decisions are about me…not them. I suppose this is the sort of line in the sand that some will never understand. I hate losing friends, but at the end of the day this is my life and I must do right by me. I’ve spent the majority of my life people pleasing and it has led me to some pretty dark places. There’s a sense of freedom that comes with shedding that people pleasing skin and really being true to myself for the first time in many years. I’m sorry that I hurt people along the way, that was never my intention. I can only hope to be more careful and mindful as I move forward.

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Basics:
head: CATWA HEAD Catya
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
skin: [Glam Affair] Dee Applier

hair: pr!tty – Lemonade
(Yummy) Free Spirit Rings
Ascendant – Old Love Nails

Dead Dollz – Mali Beach Robe @ Uber

[InDiGo] Female Portrait Bento Poses Pack

location: Scarlett Isle

Posted in Catwa, Events, Fashion, Maitreya, Second Life, shopping, The Liaison Collaborative

Holiday In My Head

“Every day is a getaway when all of it goes unsaid
I got a holiday a paid holiday
I got a holiday in my head
And what you want, what you really need
Are two different things wouldn’t you say
The line is thin between fun and sin
And we’re all clocking in for the day
And our only care is what to wear”

Windsurfing

Basics:
head: CATWA HEAD Catya
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
skin: [Glam Affair] Iris Applier [ Catwa ] @ Anthem

Tableau Vivant // Zephyr hair @ Summerfest
BONDI . The Surfer Sunglasses. @ Summerfest
Vibing — Lola Necklace

Dead Dollz – Maritza Top @ Summerfest
Dead Dollz – Maritza Thong @ Summerfest
Dead Dollz – Maritza Skirt @ Summerfest

Fashiowl – Windsurf set (w/prop) @ TLC

Posted in Catwa, Events, FaMESHed, Fashion, Maitreya, RunAway Hair, Second Life, shopping, The Liaison Collaborative

Tried to Make You My Own

“Sometimes I feel that I am what I deserve
A hundred crimes, no way to pay them off
So when quiet fills the night and you hurt
Know I am sorry for all that you lost
I, I had to learn you
All from the inside
My deepest regret
Right, right when I burned you
I made the last cry
I’m all that is left
I tried to make you my own”

ship wrecked

wearing:
hair:  [RA] Debbie Hair
head: CATWA HEAD Denice
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
skin: #PUMEC – Sophia
Dead Dollz – Gardenia Set @ FaMESHed

pose: Le Poppycock *Shipwreck* Weathered Memories (Boat) @ TLC

Posted in Dahlia, Events, Fancy Decor, Home Decor, Second Life, shopping, Silence, Uber SL

Make Room

I really wanted to write something beautiful, maybe even poetic for this photo. I wanted to write about light cascading into a bedroom on a lazy afternoon. I thought about songs that fit the mood. I even looked at a few quotes about Sunday mornings. In the end, I decided that nothing quite fit the mood of the room except to say that I spent so much time putting this room together that it almost hurt when I tore it down to make room for the next scene I’d put together.
Blogging decor is so bittersweet in that way. I spend time with each creation, moving them to just the right place. Yes, I start off with a pack or two from designers I work with, but then I reach into the depths of my inventory pulling out various delights that I’ve collected to add to the scene. Then once I feel the scene is complete, I begin shooting photos from every angle and that’s when pieces get moved around again and again until I have it just right. I get my photo, I do a bit of editing, grab the credits, pop everything into my blog draft and then….tear it all down to make room for the next scene.

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1. Dead Dollz – My Attic – Studio Skybox RARE

Dahlia – Curious – Sparkle Bottles

dust bunny . potted palm
dust bunny . fiddle leaf tree
dust bunny . giant palm plant
dust bunny . quirky planters . snail
dust bunny . quirky planters . hedgehog
dust bunny . quirky planters 2 . kitty planter @ Uber

Elm. Lady of Light Room Divider @ Final Winter

Fancy Decor: Blague Set @ Uber
-Fancy Decor: Blague Endtable
-Fancy Decor: Blague Lamp
-Fancy Decor: Blague Bench
-Fancy Decor: Blague Rug
-Fancy Decor: Blague Bed

Fancy Decor: Rene Console (wood)

[ keke ] milk jug flowers – white
[ keke ] zen orbuculum sphere . gold

Nutmeg. Disarray Newspapers & Hat
Nutmeg. Not too shabby flats, Nude
Nutmeg. Disarray Bag w/ Papers Beige
Nutmeg. Rattan Tote Carry, Light Blue
Nutmeg. Disarray Chair w/Plaid&Cushion White, Single 2
Nutmeg. Disarray Clutter
Nutmeg. Lavender secret package Group Gift
Nutmeg. Old Gilded Crown
4. Nutmeg. Sacred Pear set RARE
Nutmeg. Disarray Wooden Candlestick 2
Nutmeg. Disarray Wooden Candlestick
Nutmeg. Dacha Candle Jar
Nutmeg. Sneakers Worn White

ARMODI plant pot white balls by “sources

Silence. – Cactus Print 2
Silence. – Cactus Print 1
Silence. – Mitchell Phone Bench – Gold Drops @ Access (until June 7)

Posted in Catwa, Events, FaMESHed, Fashion, Gos, Maitreya, Phoenix, Second Life, shoes, shopping, The Liaison Collaborative

Recycle Me

I think I’ve written about my knee replacements in the past. Honestly, I’m not sure. So, there you have it, both of my knees have been replaced. So, there’s plastic and metal in both my knees now. No, I haven’t set off any metal detectors as of yet, but I do have a card for each knee to carry with me in the event that I do. With that said, I was thinking to myself the other day, “I wonder if they have considered using recycled plastic or metal for these parts.” I’m going to guess they don’t, but can you imagine? I mean, the way we’re tapping the resources of our planet as if she’s going to provide for us for eternity….it might be some day that replaceable body parts are made from recyclables. Then when we die, they reclaim those parts to recycle again! Jussayin! It could happen! I’m pretty sure my grandmother would never have dreamed of the day that people were having sex with robots, but that day is here!

recycle me

So, my futuristic look is rather complex and I wanted to make sure you got a good view of it all….so there’s more photos than normal, but I’m not that hard to look at….am I?

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wearing:
hair: :::Phoenix::: Beth Hair @ FaMESHed
head: CATWA HEAD Denice
.:: StunnerOriginals ::.Eyes Cybernetic – Pack One @ Unik
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
skin: #PUMEC – Sophia

[ rD ] – Jaanvi Set @ TLC
-[ rD ] Jaanvi Earrings
-[ rD ] Jaanvi Necklace
Ghoul – Hannya Demon Arms – Tsurara Onna
Dead Dollz – Selene Dress @ FaMESHed
[Gos] Star Boots @ FaMESHed

pose: [InDiGo] Marta Pose Set  @ Unik

Trash it – Technologic Vol 2 – The Bearded Guy @ TLC

Posted in Catwa, E.A.Studio, Events, FaMESHed, Fashion, Gos, Maitreya, RunAway Hair, Second Life, shoes, shopping, Uber SL

Wicked Woman

I’ve wanted to do a photo like this for quite some time. To combine a beautiful, classy dress with a mask or something dark. I wanted it to be sexy, but not overtly sexy. I didn’t want to look like some sort of succubus, but something that might confuse the viewer a bit. So, this DeadDollz dress was perfect with the sheer lace option, the elegant lace gloves, and then I added the Conjuration claws and rings from CerberusXing, but I couldn’t stop there. When I saw the Iron Desk mask from Contraption, I knew I had to wear it with the dress! Things just evolved from there and I’ve finally created my Wicked Woman!

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wearing:
hair: [RA] Liah Hair  @ FaMESHed
head: CATWA HEAD Denice
.:E.A.Studio:.Horns Syrax
duckie . m o o d eyes @ Eclipse
SU!– Smokey Eyeshadow
^^Swallow^^ Ears Elf HD
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
skin: #PUMEC – Sophia

[ContraptioN] Masks: The Iron Death @ Eclipse
[CX] Conjuration Set – Silver @ Eclipse
Dead Dollz – Ava Multi Style Dress @ Uber
[Gos] JAdore Cloth Pumps @ Uber

pose by Del May