Posted in Events, Fashion, Lelutka, Maitreya, Second Life, shopping, Uber SL

Conditional Love

There’s a lot to be said about the topic of unconditional love and this is a subject I struggle with quite a bit. I don’t think we can necessarily turn off love as if it were a water fountain or a light switch. However, I do think there are times in our lives that we must distance ourselves from people we love. I have loved a lot of people in my life. Despite what people like to believe, I’m a very loving person with a lot of love to give. With that said, I am not perfect, nor will I continue to show someone that love if they mistreat me or endanger my well being. It has taken me years to get to a place where I’m even close to loving myself as completely as I should. I’ll be damned if I’m going to risk that self love for someone that treats me or themselves like shit.
I wouldn’t say that my love has conditions, but there’s only one person on this planet that I will ever love so completely that no matter what they do (imagine the absolute worst) that I would still love them with all of my heart…and that person is my mother. Everyone else? Well, I love some people more deeply than others, but there are some sure fire ways to kill my love. I’ve walked away from people I loved more than once, because they’re too self centered or delusional. Friendship and love are two way streets, you get what you give with me. So, if you treat me as disposable, I will be leave. If you treat me like an option, I’ll remove myself from the equation. It really is that simple, because I’m not gonna be your ride or die knowing you’re going to jump out of the car before we drive off the cliff.

magika cx cureless

Sady is wearing:
hair:  Magika – Faye
^^Swallow^^ Charm Ears
head: LeLUTKA Nova Head 1.0
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
skin: [the Skinnery] Ashley (Lelutka) @ Uber

[CX] Ziekling’s Tongue
CURELESS[+] Eirisse Set

pose: Diversion – Faded Poses @ Aenigma

Posted in Catwa, Dahlia, Events, FaMESHed, Fashion, Foxcity, Glam Affair, Kustom9, Maitreya, N21, Second Life, shopping

When all is said and done

When all is said and done
Tell me how to write this
Tell me how to fight this war
I’ll keep marching on
Like a broken robot
Money back guarantee
I’m in your custody
But I’m not a criminal, I can be your next big thing
Look at what I’ve become
Silly little monster
Should’ve just held my tongue
I hate the feeling of this weight upon my shoulders
Pushing the pressure down on me
You think you want the best for me but nothing really matters
If you force it won’t come, I guess I’m feeling numb
I guess I’m feeling numb

dahlia collar

Basics:
head: CATWA HEAD Catya
^^Swallow^^ Crusties Ears
SU!– Piercing Set 07
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
skin: [Glam Affair] Maria @ Kustom9
.::Nanika::.Scarlet tattoo White

tram I0618 hair
CURELESS [+] Sterile Face Bandages
amias – NADIA gloves 2
Dahlia – Camilla – Collar @ FaMESHed X
Miu – Lulu sheer dress @ N21

pose: FOXCITY. Show Time Bento Pose Set

Posted in Avenge, Pale Girl Productions, Quasi, Second Life, shopping, Skin Fair, Tres Chic

Do You Know Me?

Keeping this one short and sweet…leaning on a song & lyrics. It’s a message and if you don’t get it, then it wasn’t meant for you. I just want to know if you’re really reading. *winks*

John Mayer – Do You Know Me?

It’s just the strangest thing
I’ve seen your face somewhere
An early evening dream,
A past life love affair
Do you know me, at all?
Do you know me, at all?
In all my reverie
I thought I felt us there
A feather in my hand,
A flower in your hair
Do you know me, at all?
Do you know me, at all?
Do you know me, at all?
Do you know me, at all?

do you know me

wearing:
hair: DOUX – Coco hairstyle (*new* @ TresChic)
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: [Avenge] Heather skin applier for Catwa – pale

lashes: [POUT!] Pretty Lashes – CATWA applier
eyes: –SU!- [HUD] Isolabella Eyes
eyeshadow: –SU!- Monochrome Eyeshadow +CATWA APPLIER+
lipstick: –SU!- Leandra Lipstick 02 +CATWA APPLIER+

CURELESS [+] Sterile Face Bandages
[Atomic] Kitten Collar
**RE** Kitty Pearls Necklace
Birdy – Backstage – Lace – Lara – White

Quasi – 6 Ulysses Painting (*new* @ Imaginarium)
Quasi – 9 Sparta Motherfucker Painting (*new* @ Imaginarium)

Posted in Collabor88, Events, Fashion, Foxcity, Maitreya, Pale Girl Productions, RunAway Hair, Second Life, Shiny Shabby, shopping, Skin Fair, Tres Chic

Waiting For Paint To Dry

Regardless of whether you’re a DIY or Salon girl, getting your nails done is like waiting for paint to dry. I’m clearly profiling, but in my neck of the woods the best nail shops are run by Asians, mostly Vietnamese or Korean. Y’all know me, I ask questions. I’d rather sound ignorant for asking a question than be ignorant while assuming I know something I don’t. You’d think a salon full of people wouldn’t make you zone out, but when they’re chattering away in their native language and it all just sounds like high pitched noises to you…well, its easy to zone out. Painting your nails at home, you try to get everything situated before you start, because its going to take a while before you can move about freely. You nail polish is unforgiving! This is when I tend to slip down inside myself and get lost in thoughts. If good things are happening in my life, I can revel in my blessings. I can be grateful and wish good things, send love & light to others. It’s like a fairy tale room in my mind. However, if things are messed up or I’m going through a rough time, that’s when my demons come out to play. Its like getting locked in the attic with a room full of creepy dolls, each one whispering a secret in a creepy little doll voice.

Waiting For Paint to Dry

wearing:
hair:  [RA] Alana Hair (*new* @ ShinyShabby)
hairbase: Just Magnetized – Special Hairbase set 05 for CATWA Skin Fair (*new* @ SKIN FAIR)
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
eyes: CURELESS[+] Dilated Eyes
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: [theSkinnery]  Iris (Catwa Applier) toffee (*new* @ C88)
lipstick & lashes: HUWE COSMETICS – PACK MATTE COLLECTION (Catwa) HUD APPLIER. (*new* @ SKIN FAIR)
eyeshadow:  Wednesday[+] ~ Glitter Circles
nail polish: alme. Love Ombre – Matte (*new* @ TresChic)

top tattoo: Ambition – Black Tattoo [CAROL G] Maitreya ADD (*new* @ SKIN FAIR)
bottom tattoo: .:AuricA:. Molly Leg Tattoo (*new* @ SKIN FAIR)

[CX] Hell’s Harbinger (Black Out)
Legal Insanity – Lily black tops (*new* @ TresChic)
:::insanya::: JennaShorts – Solid (*new* @ Whore Couture)

pose: FOXCITY. B A D Bento Pose Set (*new* @ Limit8)
FOXCITY. Photo Booth – B A D (Black Tintable) (*new* @ Limit8)

Posted in Animals, Exploration, FaMESHed, Fashion, Lybra, Second Life, shopping, Uber SL, United Colors

This is the Time

I am hurting so much right now and I’m not ready to write about. I’m not sure I ever will, but until I can write my own words…I give you the words and music of those that I relate to. ♥ Blog credits are below the picture, as always. Thank you in advance for you patience and understanding.

Nothing More – This Is The Time

When did we become these sinking stones?
When did we build this broken home?
Holding each other like ransom notes
Dropping our hearts to grip our brother’s throat
You can’t see because you don’t know
You’re caught below, beneath your own shadow
Stuck inside, half alive
Do you ever stop to ask yourself why?
Close your mind, identify
Do you feel, do you feel?
Do you call this a life?
All you waited for
Drowning just to keep score
We always start with good intentions
But lose ourselves along the way
This is the time that we let it go
These are the words that will take us home
Singing the song that’s inside us all
If we don’t open our eyes we’re walking blind
Anchored in anger, we exile ourselves
Bitter blood builds our prison cell
Darker water now fills our lungs
The depths of our heart have blacked the sun
You can’t see because you don’t know
You’re caught below, beneath your own shadow
Stuck inside, half alive
Do you ever stop to ask yourself why?
Close your mind, identify
Do you feel, do you feel?
Do you call this a life?
All you waited for
Drowning just to keep score
We always start with good intentions
But lose ourselves along the way
This is the time that we let it go
These are the words that will take us home
Singing the song that’s inside us all
If we don’t open our eyes we’re walking blind
Naked we come, naked we leave
Fools we are, to hold tightly
We are the jail, we are the key
We are free, we are free
This is the time that we let it go
These are the words that will take us home
Singing the song that’s inside us all
If we just open our eyes
This is the time that we let it go
This is the pain we are forced to know
Singing the song that’s inside
Inside us all, inside us all
Walking Blind

dreaming of dragons

wearing:
hair:  Tableau Vivant \\ Cindy
horns: Decoy – Dragon Temptress Gacha: #14 Horns Polar
head: CATWA HEAD Lilly
eyebrows: Bossie. alice eyebrows [catwa]
eyes: –SU!- Ekrabetha Eyes Fatpack
tears: CURELESS [+] Dragon Tears (v.1)
nose jewelry: AZOURY – Ange Earring Nose White
ears: ^^Swallow^^ Ears Elf
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: DeeTaleZ *Appliers* CATWA Head “Merrylu” Nordic (*new* @ Uber)
=Zenith=Leather Belt Gloves
LYBRA . XL STILETTO NAILS
UC_Sicrets_outfit (*new* @ FaMESHed)
#1 Dragon Brothers + texture hud {egosumaii} RARE

pose created using AnyPose

location: Winter Moon

Posted in Animals, Events, FaMESHed, Fashion, Gingerfish Poses, Jian, Landscaping, Lybra, Mina Hair, Prism Events, Second Life, shopping, Tannenbaum, The Annex

Heart of Glass

Tiger Lion – Heart Of Glass (cold cover)

Once I had a love and it was a gas
Soon turned out had a heart of glass
Seemed like the real thing, only to find
Mucho mistrust, love’s gone behind
Once I had a love and it was divine
Soon found out I was losing my mind
It seemed like the real thing but I was so blind
Mucho mistrust, love’s gone behind
In between
What I find is pleasing and I’m feeling fine
Love is so confusing there’s no peace of mind
If I fear I’m losing you it’s just no good
You teasing like you do
Once I had a love and it was a gas
Soon turned out had a heart of glass
Seemed like the real thing, only to find
Mucho mistrust, love’s gone behind
Lost inside
Adorable illusion and I cannot hide
I’m the one you’re using, please don’t push me aside
We coulda made it cruising, yeah
Yeah, riding high on love’s true bluish light
In between
What I find is pleasing and I’m feeling fine
Love is so confusing there’s no peace of mind
If I fear I’m losing you it’s just no good
You teasing like you do

frozen heart

wearing:
hair:  MINA – Alexa  (*new* @ FaMESHed)
crown: The Annex  – Moon Child Crown (*new* @ Tannenbaum)
head: CATWA HEAD Lilly
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: DeeTaleZ *Appliers* CATWA Head “Merrylu” Nordic (*new* @ Uber)
tattoo: [White~Widow] Caravage – White
Amala – The Kylie Choker – Thick
CURELESS [+] The Twelfth Night / Alpine Fur / PURE
LYBRA . Ara Babyblue  (*new* @ FaMESHed)
**RE** Luxy Rings Set
LYBRA . XL STILETTO NAILS
glass heart custom made

pose: GingerFish Poses – Yuletide (*new* @ Darkness Monthly)

scene created with:
Enchanted Woods V2 from Studio Skye
T-Spot Winter Tree w/ Lights – White
JIAN :: Arctic Fox Collection
Botanical – Complete Decorative Light Set
{anc} cracked glass (cloud)

Posted in Animals, Events, FaMESHed, Fashion, Jian, Landscaping, RedMint, Second Life, shopping

Walking With Koi♥

There legends about the Koi fish. Legends about them representing luck, strength, abundance, success, spirituality…even love and friendship. For me, they are just fascinating fish. Whether big or small, they fill ponds across the world, and their colors are so vibrant that it reminds me of watching a fire. I can just be mesmerized by watching them swim about for hours. So, when Jian released this Koi Pond Gazebo with a glass floor, I was immediately in love! I just love walking around in it and looking beneath my feet to watch the fish. Each one is only 3li, so you can rez as many as you like! I honestly don’t have a story to tell or some deep inspirational words to go with this post. I just suggest that you grab this pond set from FaMESHed so that you can have a peaceful, hypnotic place of your own. ♥

walking with Koi final

wearing:
hair(r)M Hair, No.48’17
bodyMaitreya Mesh Body – Lara
CURELESS[+] Yokai Chronicles / Hinnagami / RARE (*new* @ Epiphany)
.::Dead Dollz::. Koibito Geta

pose by Del May
JIAN Koi Pond Gazebo (*new* @ FaMESHed)

Posted in E.A.Studio, Events, Fashion, GingerFish, Lybra, Pale Girl Productions, Second Life, Self Reflection, shoes, shopping, unKindness

If I Have an Angel

I was born on a Sunday morning. My devote Christian grandmother told my mom that it meant I would have extra angels looking over me. As I was not a particularly graceful child (or adult for that matter) my mother would often say, “Your angels are working overtime today!” As I got older and continued to be anything but graceful, my mother would beg my extra angels to look after me and to have mercy on her. *laughs* I see a lot of memes with angels facepalming that say something about how people’s angels must look watching over them. Every time I see one, I just chuckle. My grandmother passed away when I was eleven. My mother insisted that she joined the ranks of angels looking over me. What occurred in my life the following year was confirmation that there were no angels watching over me.
As I grew older, I would sometimes imagine that there were still a few angels lingering about and just maybe they were dosing out some karma on those that crossed me, but eventually I grew to believe that wasn’t true either. I know some people do believe in angels and I have to say I think its a beautiful sentiment, but for me…nah, I don’t believe in them anymore. However, the concept of angels has always been quite fascinating. I especially love the way they are represented on Supernatural. I realize not all of my readers have seen that show and some may have just started it, so I won’t go into any details and spoil it. The entire concept of God, angels, Lucifer, demons…all of it…ages old, but the way the stories are told on Supernatural almost makes me want to believe in them again. At least that story makes a bit more sense to me, but alas to believe their story means I must also believe in all the monster presented, as well.

angry angel

For now, I’ll just present you with this picture and the thought that if I have an angel watching over me, this is what I think my angel probably looks like…sometimes she is stunned and pointing her finger at me as if to say, “You did it AGAIN!” She would surely be angry and frustrated to say the very least.

lost angel close up

hairTableau Vivant \\ Editorial \ Southern wind – Blacks+Whites
headCATWA HEAD Kathy
skinGlam Affair – Molly – Catwa Mesh Head Applier – Artic (*new* @ Arcade)
eyesCATWA Mesh Eyes Pack
eye applier:Conviction: Viscous Eyes
tearsCURELESS [+] Dragon Tears (v.1)
ears: .:E.A.Studio:. Box Ears Icarus
eyebrowsWarPaint* Hepburn Brow [Catwa] (*new* @ Vintage Fair)
lipstick-SU!– The Matte Lip Essentials
bodyMaitreya Mesh Body – Lara
tattoo**RE** Surya Tattoo – Common – Silver
nails: Astralia – Compatible nails system (Maitreya Stiletto base)
nail polish: GingerFish-Nail Applier-Astralia- Fairy Glitter-S

.:E.A.Studio:. BOX Collar Oculus Cross
Astralia – Wisdom angel WINGS RARE
.LYBRA . GABRIELLA (*new* @ LIMIT8)
erratic / cerise – panties
#EMPIRE – Impatiens

pose by Del May

scene created in a black box using:
uk – Mystic Dew Drops & Mist Sets
E.V.E Dancing Poison Rain {Silver}

Posted in Fashion, Home Decor, Second Life, shopping

Gacha, Gatcha, Gotcha!

I have no idea who originated the quote or if I even have it right…or even close, but I’ve said it for years never believing for one second that I was being original, “Opinions are like assholes. Everyone has one, but everyone doesn’t want to hear yours.”
gotcha

I’ve been on the grid for almost ten years now and I’ve witnessed a great deal of change. Not just from base prims to flexi to sculpts to mesh, but photography and marketing, too. I’m not claiming to be an expert on all things Second Life. I’m far too easily distracted by occurrences in my own small world. However, I have had the pleasure of once upon a time owning a store, a club, and various jobs along the way. From customer service to management, I’ve tried my hand at quite a few things. This isn’t even my first attempt at blogging. One of the biggest changes I’ve seen is the approach to marketing.
Hunts don’t seem to be as big of a deal as they once were, as a lot of designers just didn’t put as much effort into the hunt prizes and fewer people wanted to participate for that reason.
I remember when Gachas first showed up and I thought they were such a cute novel idea. They quickly became an addiction and even a way of life for some. It took me a while, but I think I’ve finally gotten my personal relationship with these vexing little machines under control. The irony is in the name…although I’m not even sure what is the correct spelling anymore.
A few years ago, I took a year long break from the grid and upon my return Events were all the rage. I’m not sure when they started exactly or which ones were even first, but they’ve certainly become the most common method of shopping now. More focus is placed on events these days than actual brands and some designers don’t even seem to have an actual store, but can be found in all the big events.
Now the newest trend seems to be the monthly boxes containing exclusive content. You pay L$XXXX each month and receive a box of merchandise that will surpass the value, containing exclusive items.
Another trend, that I first noticed happening with Gacha projects, is the colloboration efforts between designers.

Now, these are all amazing and fantastic ideas and I love all watching the innovation. I love all the excitement over new and shiny things being delivered in new and shiny ways! I know a lot of people out there aren’t happy about the monthly boxes. There are people out there that are even anti-gacha…I know, can you imagine? Well, here’s the good news!  No one is forcing anyone to participate in ANY of these events. Period.  No one forces anyone to participate in  Second Life and no one is forcing anyone to shop. So, unless a designer is being unethical, I just don’t believe we should be lashing out at them on social media, which seems to be a trend of its own these days. Plus, it kinda just makes you look childish, mean, and bitter…so put on your big boy/girl panties and try to be enough of an adult to warrant having a social media page in the first place, will ya?
gatcha

I will continue to enjoy my Luxe Box, my gachas, and anything else on the grid that I see fit…judge me if you want, but you have to admit…I look FABULOUS! ♥

wearing:
hair: Tableau Vivant \\ My Day @ Gym (*new* @ The Arcade)
CATWA HEAD Dyana
**RE** Simone Heart Collar
Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
#2 MC.Night Essentials.Top 2pack.Black (*new* @ The Arcade)
#3 Mc.Night Essentials.Shorts.Black (*new* @ The Arcade)

scene:
STATEMENT [pixel perfect – wall art]
DRD gg rug round 60sflowers (DRD VIP-September Group Gift)
Soy. Shitamachi Alley Garden – Shabby Stands  (*new* @ The Arcade)
16 Fancy Decor: Decorative Orb (*new* @ The Arcade)
little bones. Plasma Ball (*new* @ The Arcade)
[LJ] Slumber Party – Slumbervision – Horror – RARE (*new* @ The Arcade)
[LJ] Slumber Party – Slumbervision Videos –  Horror RARE (*new* @ The Arcade)
[LJ] Slumber Party – Slumbervision VHS – Horror – RARE (*new* @ The Arcade)
Intrigue Co. – Plushie Pals: Beth the Bride (*new* @ The Arcade)
:CurelessAmore: /Surrealisme/ Reservoir Balloon (*new* @ The Arcade)
R(S)W & YKFK Ladybug Top (*new* @ The Arcade)
MadPea Little Shop of Nightmares – Flesh Eater Junior (*new* @ The Arcade)
MadPea Little Shop of Nightmares – Flesh Eater Junior(the box was cool, so I used it, too)
-tres blah- Golden Cage – Coffee Run (*new* @ The Arcade)
Fancy Decor: Inlaid Box (Group Gift)
Sway’s [Peacock] Table Lamp . cobalt (*new* @ The Arcade)
[LJ] Slumber Party – Sleeping Bag – Prints (*new* @ The Arcade)
* SORGO – Pain Killers (*new* @ The Arcade)
[LJ] Chipsters – Chippers – Salt & Vinegar (rez) (*new* @ The Arcade)
+Half-Deer+ Cutie Clutter – Hair Accessories (Pastel) (*new* @ The Arcade)
+Half-Deer+ Cutie Clutter – Spilled Black Coffee (*new* @ The Arcade)
JIAN Lively Labs :: Family Bed (*new* @ The Arcade)
Kalopsia – Cecilia’s Cage Pics (White) (FLF-Sept 16)