Posted in Catwa, Fashion, Maitreya, Second Life, The Liaison Collaborative

Crawling Through Shadows

“You need to spend time crawling alone through shadows to truly appreciate what it is to stand in the sun.” ― Shaun Hick

something asian

Basics:
head: CATWA HEAD Catya
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
skin: [Glam Affair] Dee Applier

hair: Foxy – Kitsune Hair @ Crystal Heart
tomoto, neko mask WA black @ Japonica
[The Forge] Louise Top @ The Liaison Collaborative
[The Forge] Aimee Shorts. @ Crystal Heart

pose: BellePoses – Roberta set
taikou / gaien market backdrop w. materials

Posted in Catwa, Events, Fashion, Lybra, Maitreya, Second Life, shoes, shopping, Vanity Event

F*cking Trust

It’s another song day, sorry…not sorry?

Kat Dahlia ~ Fucking Trust

You know everything about this train
The wheels movin’ already, and that steam is blowin’ so heavy
Standin’ at the station like a bank with a claim
Pockets empty but ready, cause’ my words are stamped and indebted
This is so sweet, you were on the other side of the street, with no seeds
With no trees, ain’t’ got no green
Dug a hole into my garden, took a piece of every root that I started
Cause’ I wasn’t guarded. Put my trust in the lust of a dream that you wanted
The witness, the witness, is unjust
(Well there goes my fuckin’ trust)
A surface, the purpose, contentious
(Well there goes my fuckin’ trust)
The witness, the witness, is unjust
(Well there goes my fuckin’ trust.)
Dug a hole into my garden, took a piece of every root that I started
Cause’ I wasn’t guarded, cause I wasn’t guarded
You knew everything about this train
These wheels have never been on a track
You took my hand and led me down your path
Its gone too far to start turnin’ back
You tryna’ say we better than that
When the ink went dry with that pen I signed
You stabbed it in my back
Sick to the stomach, and im sick to the brain
You got a piece of every single word I say
But baby whos to blame?, I bought into the game
Now you got all to gain
This ones for you, the vine with the
This ones for you, the vine with the
This ones for you, the vine with the thorns
And now my gardens all yours
And now my gardens all yours

windy days

wearing:
hair: Tableau Vivant // Demon huntress (*new* @ Crystal Heart)
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
ears: .:[PUMEC] :. – / Mesh Ears\ – 4 -POINT INDUSTRIAL
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: Ascendant – Susie Tone 06 (*new* @ Vanity Event)
DAPPA – Laced Tattoo. (*new* @ Vanity Event)

:::NOIR::: Isabela Choker (*new* @ Vanity Event)
Astralia – Scorpion rings

LYBRA . MINDY (*new* @ Kinky)
: CULT : Morane Boots/Black

pose by DelMay
MINIMAL – Bionic Building *10*

Posted in breathe, Catwa, Events, Fashion, Foxcity, Maitreya, N21, Narcisse, RunAway Hair, Second Life, shoes, shopping, The Liaison Collaborative, Uber SL, unKindness, Vanity Event

Quiet Lies

I’m letting the music speak for me….

Matthew Mayfield ~ Quiet Lies

You somehow see inside me
When I lay down
You steal my dreams easily
When you’re around
Quiet lies
Whisper whispered all the time
No more silent treatment
I am screaming in your ear
I’m starving stop at nothing
Til I am inside you for good
For good
Lights blurred with time
And that gray became a light
You see nothing clearly
So head strong deny the feeling
Quiet lies
Whisper whisper all the time
No more silent treatment
I am screaming in your ear
I’m starving stop at nothing
Til I am inside you for good
Ooh for good ooh for good
No more silent treatment
I am inside i am inside
No more silent treatment
I am screaming in your ear
No no no
Starving I’ll stop at nothing
Til I am inside you for good
No no no no
No more silent treatment
I am screaming in your ear
No no no
Starving I’ll stop at nothing
Til I am inside you for good
For good

Quiet Lies

wearing:
hair:   [RA] Sabrina Hair
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: Glam Affair – Willow – Jamaica ( Uber)

**CC** – Heavenly Ranger Halo (*new* @ Crystal Heart)
**CC** – Heavenly Ranger Aura (*new* @ Crystal Heart)
Nov-Jahseh Necklace (*new* @ Vanity Event)
(Yummy) Curator Rings Set (N21)

Narcisse– Sally Mini Ruffle Dress (*new* @ TLC)
[BREATHE]-Mireya Heels (*new* @ Blush)

pose by Foxcity – Me Time Set

scene:
uK – Victorian Dreamscape Cloudsies Blue
E.V.E Waving Bioluminescent Fungus W&G Cloud

Posted in Catwa, Cynful, Eudora3D, FaMESHed, Fashion, Foxcity, Maitreya, N21, RunAway Hair, Second Life, shoes, shopping, Uber SL

2am

“Two in the morning, I can’t control it
Lost in the moment, I just can’t get no sleep, eh
Two in the morning, everything’s frozen
I keep on falling and I just can’t get no sleep”
~Astrid, 2am

2am

wearing:
hair: [RA] Cinderella Hair
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
ears: .:[PUMEC] :. – / Mesh Ears\ – 4 -POINT INDUSTRIAL
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: Glam Affair – Willow – Jamaica (*new* @ Uber)

OSMIA – Nostalgia.Gacha.Earrings
[Atomic] Dysfunctional Collar (*new* @ Crystal Heart)
EarthStones Flaunt Nipple Piercings (*new* @ RLD)
(Yummy) Curator Rings Set (*new* @ N21)
[Cynful] Stripper Body Dust

[Aleutia] Arina (*new* @ RLD)
#EMPIRE – Arcade Dec ’16 – Panties
Eudora3D Berlin Heels (*new* @ Kinky)

pose: FOXCITY. Show Time Bento Pose Set

Trompe Loeil – Corazon Patio Bar + Props (*new* @ FaMESHed)

Posted in breathe, Catwa, Chic Moda, Cosmopolitan, Events, Exploration, FaMESHed, Fashion, Pose Fair, Second Life, Uber SL, {le fil casse}

Running Toward the Fire

Bishop Briggs ~ The Fire

Gave me love, sweet love
Gave me love, sweet love
Heaven above, sent me love
But it wasn’t enough, no it wasn’t enough
‘Cause I’ve been a devil, I’ve been a saint
Somebody help me, I can’t change
I keep on (runnin’ toward, runnin’ toward the fire)
I keep on (runnin’ toward, runnin’ toward the fire)
Oh, I let my lover go, didn’t wanna be a liar
Ashes in the cold, now I’m running toward the fire
(Runnin’ toward, runnin’ toward the fire)
I keep on (runnin’ toward, runnin’ toward) the fire
Gave me love, gave me sick sick love
But it was me who got swallowed up
Not enough, dust to dust, pray for us
‘Cause I’ve been a devil, I’ve been a saint
Somebody help me, I can’t change
I keep on (runnin’ toward, runnin’ toward the fire)
I keep on (runnin’ toward, runnin’ toward the fire)
Oh, I let my lover go, didn’t wanna be a liar
Ashes in the cold, now I’m running toward the fire
(Runnin’ toward, runnin’ toward the fire)
I keep on (runnin’ toward, runnin’ toward the fire)
Oh oh, gonna get burned, gonna get burned
Oh, oh, oh
Oh oh, gonna get burned, gonna get burned
Oh
Oh, I let my lover go, didn’t wanna be a liar
Ashes in the cold, now I’m running toward the fire
Runnin’ toward, runnin’ toward the fire
Oh, I’m running
Runnin’ toward, runnin’ toward the fire, oh

Running to the Fire

wearing:
hair:   TRUTH VIP Gwen
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: Glam Affair – Willow – Jamaica (*new* @ Uber)

[Atomic] Dysfunctional Collar (*new* @ Crystal Heart)
ChicModa // Lala Top (*new* @ Cosmopolitan)
{le fil casse} Jamie Skirt (*new* @ Blush)
[BREATHE]-Nikki Heels (*new* @ FaMESHed)

pose: [ west end ] Bento Poses – Reasons Unknown II – Collection (*new* @ Pose Fair)
location: FMD

Posted in Events, Exploration, Fashion, Second Life, Self Reflection, shopping, The Annex, We <3 Role-Play

Welcome To My Darkness

“Welcome to my darkness, I been here a while
Clouding up the sunlight, hurting for a smile
Or something, but something always turns into nothing….

….Acting like I’m heartless, I do it all the time
That don’t mean I’m scarless, that don’t mean I’m fine
But you’ll see, when someone else makes you this way”
Bishop Briggs – Dark Side

Its no secret that I have a dark side, I make jokes about my dark side being the side of me that likes pink, girly things like unicorns and cupcakes. I’m actually not a huge fan of those things, but its hard to hate things that bring so much joy to others. The truth is that my dark side is probably my truest side. Few people in my life have seen the darkest parts of my soul and I doubt anyone else ever will. I work really hard to keep it in check, because it can frighten people. It makes life harder than it already is.
Even the mild hints at my dark side tend to frighten people. My fascination with black clothes had my mother convinced I was a devil worshiper when I was only 19 and at one point I had black hair with blonde roots, as I am naturally blond. I was obsessed with Robert Smith of The Cure and did my make up a lot like his. Goth wasn’t a thing then, not like now. At my last job, all my co-workers had scriptures and crosses…family photos decorating their cubicles. I had skulls and dragons. When I told them I’m not a Christian, they assumed I was a devil worshiper, too. I had to explain that atheists don’t believe in the devil either. *laughs*
As, I’ve grown older, I have found more of a balance between the dark and the light. It’s helped me quite a bit and opened my world in ways I never imagined possible, but I will always embrace the dark as much if not more than the light. Its just who I am. Just like I will probably always go to sleep with the TV on…the only shows being those about crime, naturally….preferably serial killers. *grins*
I’ve recently made some changes to the way I’m blogging. I’ve been writing short stories or scenarios to go along with the photo. This is just a way to bring that balance into my creativity. I love writing, but I will admit that I’ve enjoyed writing the scenes much more than opening myself up and sharing such intimate parts of myself. I can’t promise that I will always write a story or scenario for each post, but I do think I’ll be doing it a lot more in the future. I hope that you, my readers, enjoy them as much as I do. If not, there’s always the option to just scroll on down to the details. ♥

dragon lady

wearing:
hair
: (r)M Hair, No.53’17  (*new* @ Hair Fair 2017)
headCATWA HEAD Kathy
skin: Glam Affair – Kibi – Catwa Mesh Head Applier – America (*new* @ Crystal Heart)
eyes: :Conviction: Viscous Eyes [HUD]
eyeshadow: –SU!– Smokey Eyeshadow
lipstick: –SU!– The Matte Lip Poison
bodyMaitreya Mesh Body – Lara
*katat0nik* (dark) Cloud Dragon
The Annex – Mei Cheongsam (*new* @ We<3Role-Play)

pose by Bauhaus Movement
location: Sky Willow Asian Escape

Posted in Events, FaMESHed, Fashion, Scandalize, Second Life, shopping

Look What I Can Do!

When I was a kid…okay, who am I kidding, I’ll still do it, if no one is around…but I love doing handstands in a pool. Probably because its the only way my fat ass has ever been able to do a handstand at all!  I do love swimming and playing in a pool, but as I’ve said before, at this point in my life swimsuits and I are not friends in the real world. Luckily, there’s no shortage of them in Second Life and this glitzy little number from Scandalize is a must have! And do you see that adorable little pug? Yeah, Jian, did it again! This pack comes with chihuahuas and pugs! How can you resist that? Oh and this handstand I’m doing? It’s not a blogger pose, nope! Its an animation that’s built into this awesome above ground pool from VOID! You can find all the details below the picture, but this is one summer we can all have some fun…even if its just in the virtual world. I, for one, have had some of the best times of my life with my Second Life friends.

Look What I Can Do

wearing:
hair
Tableau Vivant \\ Aeolian hair (*new* @ Crystal Heart)
headCATWA HEAD Kathy
skin: Glam Affair – Kibi – Catwa Mesh Head Applier – America (*new* @ Crystal Heart)
bodyMaitreya Mesh Body – Lara
Scandalize. Ultra (*new* @ FaMESHed)

pose came with the pool: VOID – Surfer Girl Garden Pool  (*new* @ Summerfest)
JIAN Pupper Pool Party :: Pug Drifting Floater (*new* @ FaMESHed)

Posted in Chic Moda, Cosmopolitan, Events, Exploration, FaMESHed, Fashion, Second Life, shoes, shopping

Keep Your Head Up

I spend an inordinate amount of time in Second Life and there’s still not enough time to do everything I want to do, to see everything I want to see, to talk to everyone I want to talk to….so whenever I hear someone in Second Life say they’re bored…well, first I want to slap them. Secondly, I want to steal their time from them, because there is ALWAYS something to do! I’m sure I’ve written about it before, but I am never bored in either world. Aside from shopping, cuz let’s face it, sometimes we do go broke…there are live music shows, dance clubs, and there are new sims to explore all the time. Not to mention there are sims that have games for the avatars inworld. How can anyone be bored here?
If you find yourself getting bored, try hitting the destination guide. I used to play a game with my friends ages ago, too…you could give it a try. We’d pick a place and the first person we saw, we’d open their profile and teleport to the first place listed in their pics. Mind you, this can send you to someone’s private land, but it can still be worth a laugh. At each place you land, another person takes a turn finding a profile to perv and find a landmark. You’d be surprised how interesting this can be. So, keep your head up, there’s loads of things to do in Second Life and if you honestly can’t find anything to do…then log out. Go find something to do in Real Life…I bet you’ve got some household chores that could use your attention. I mean, really, when was the last time you cleaned the baseboards in your house? *grins*

superstar

wearing:
hair
: Blues. Oakley  (*new* @ Hair Fair 2017)
headCATWA HEAD Kathy
skin: Glam Affair – Kibi – Catwa Mesh Head Applier – America (*new* @ Crystal Heart)
bodyMaitreya Mesh Body – Lara
Cae :: Chelsea :: Necklace (*new* @ FaMESHed)
**RE** Zaria Bracelets
ChicModa // Julia Dress (*new* @ Cosmopolitan)
[Gos] Boutique – Kylie Slingbacks (*new* @ FaMESHed)

pose by Del May

location:  Elysion

Posted in Death Row Designs, Events, FaMESHed, Fashion, Home Decor, Rebel Hope, Second Life, shoes, shopping

Final Destination

Alright, so this story has absolutely nothing to do with the picture, but as I struggled with what to write about I was also looking for something to watch on Netflix. That’s when I remembered the first time I saw the movie Final Destination. Now for those of you that have not seen it, let me give you a brief little spoiler free description provided for us by IMDB: “After a teenager has a terrifying vision of him and his friends dying in a plane crash, he prevents the accident only to have Death hunt them down, one by one.”

So, the first time I saw this movie, I was living alone and I had gotten a copy of it from a friend. Okay, it was a bootleg copy and it was a very long time ago…so not the point of the story. Please don’t judge me too harshly. So, I popped it into my computer and turned off all the lights, because that’s the only proper way to watch a horror movie, right? Now I should probably point out something for those that haven’t seen it…when people die in this movie is it very bizarre circumstances…the kind of stuff that would be on that show Curious and Unusual Deaths. Okay, so its dark…I’ve watched the movie…I’m alone. The movie ends, I’ve jumped out of my skin more than I expected and its time to get ready for bed.
I’m not afraid of the dark, obviously. I know my way around my own 760sq ft one bedroom apartment. After all, I was a property manager for the apartment complex, I’ve shown this very apartment many times before. So, I get up and make my way to the hallway, forgetting that I had left the vacuum cleaner in the dining room, but plugged into an outlet in the living room. I tripped and crashed into a wall in the hall…I feel something graze my face and realize its a shelf I have on the wall, that looks like an open window. Holy shit, that could have put my eye out! Whew! That was weird. I make it around the corner to the bathroom, turn on the light…I’m not taking any chances after the hallway. So, I’m brushing my teeth when my black cat, Jasper, comes into the bathroom and starts doing circle eights between my feet. I lose my balance and almost impale myself with the toothbrush! WTF!?!?! That’s it, I’m going to bed!
I manage to change clothes without incident and I climb into bed. I notice the wind is blowing outside and I think to myself, “Oh a storm would be nice. I love sleeping to the sound of rain.” However, it was just a really windy night and my sliding glass window is rattling something fierce. Did I mention the window was directly over my bed? Yeah, so I’m thinking…the hallway…the toothbrush….oh hell no! I get up, I move my bed to the middle of the room. Away from anything that could fall off the wall and kill me. Now, I can relax, right? WRONG!
I’m laying in my bed, listening to the wind on the window, smiling to myself for being so smart and moving away from the window. Then I seem to have developed super sonic hearing, because I’m hearing the ceiling fan wobble with each rotation. Tick, tick, tick, tick, tick….oh god, that’s going to fall right onto me…its right over my bed! ACK! Nope, the bedroom is NOT safe! I grab my comforter and my pillow and head back to the living room…no worries, I was turning on all the lights all the way there. Slowly inching my way back as I turn them off again.
So, I’m all settled in on the couch against a blank wall. Nothing to trip me nearby (I put the vacuum away) and the path to the bathroom is clear. Got it. I can hear the wind on the living room window which is a safe distance away and I’m loving the peacefulness of it all. I’m finally going to relax and get some sleep. Suddenly, out of nowhere something heavy lands on my stomach…I scream…he hisses. Goddamnit, Jasper! Yeah, I didn’t sleep that night.

RH

wearing:
hair
: :::Phoenix::: Linda  (*new* @ Hair Fair 2017)
headCATWA HEAD Kathy
skin: Glam Affair – Kibi – Catwa Mesh Head Applier – America (*new* @ Crystal Heart)
bodyMaitreya Mesh Body – Lara
EF: Oleander Earrings (*new* @ FaMESHed)
EF: Oleander Necklace  (*new* @ FaMESHed)
!Rebel Hope – Janelle Mesh Top (*new* @ FaMESHed)
!Rebel Hope – Tracy Mesh Skort  (*new* @ FaMESHed)
!Rebel Hope – Gladiator Mesh Beach Sandals (*new* @ FaMESHed)

pose by an lar [poses]
scene:
DRD – Garden Party – Fence Three – REWARD
15 – DRD – Garden Party – Wallflower Chair – Two c/m
15 – DRD – Garden Party – Wallflower Side Table – One c/m
15 – DRD – Garden Party – Wallflower Chair – One c/m
14 – DRD – Garden Party – Wallflowers – C c/m