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Appreciation or Appropriation?

So, this might be a sensitive subject and I genuinely come to the table from a place of complete love. I’m also rather ignorant about the subject and I guess one could blame that on white privilege. However, in no way, shape, or form is this meant to insult ANYONE. And because I don’t like to offend people like that, I tend avoid certain things. However, I’ve noticed that Asian culture seems to be fair game. Oddly enough, its not one that I’ve been especially drawn to…except for the food. Cuz, let’s be fair, most Asian cuisine is pretty damn delicious and yes, I would honestly try some of the “weird” stuff they serve in the street food vendors I’ve seen on TV.
I guess my question is…when does it go from appreciation to appropriation? And when did this become a thing? For instance, growing up I always wondered how sports teams got away with using some of the names they used, because even as a child, I felt it was rather racist. My parents had no good answer about that teams and always said that one day they would change. They were right and as far as I know, most of them have changed. (I don’t follow sports, so some may not have changed yet.) Also, as a child, my favorite costume for Halloween was being a “gypsy,” but recently I discovered that even that term is considered racist now. I had no idea. I just loved all the jewelry and the flowing skirts. I liked it a whole lot more than being a princess! Also, as a kid…cowboys and Indians was a normal thing to play as a kid. We didn’t see them as good guys and bad guys, we just saw cowboy hats & guns or feathers & arrows. I always wanted to an Indian, because I thought they were cooler. I never could get into Westerns or cowboys.
So, if we look back on my childhood, without knowing my heart and reasons….was I racist? Was I appropriating someone’s culture? Well, I know my heart has never been racist. I know my parents weren’t racist. My family actually did have friends of other races and yes, they did come to our house (before you ask). With that said, my father was in the U.S. Army, so I was exposed to different races and cultures from a very early age.
To me, skin color is the same as hair color…the darker your natural pigment, the harder it is to change it.
Feel free to comment anyway you like, but know this…ANY clear-cut racist or hateful remarks will be deleted. This is not about hate or racism, this is about me trying to better understand the world I live in.

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hair:  DOUX – Jane Hairstyle
head: LeLUTKA Fleur Head 2.0
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) (1.2)
skin: DeeTaleZ *SKINS* for LELUTKA HEADS (EVO.) – Flora

.TeaBunny. + [CX] Shamisen Hairpins
*:..Silvery K..:*Japanese pipe(Lotus Silver)T
toksik – Propitious Qipao Dress
[BREATHE]-Toyumi Heels @ Epiphany (close Aug 12)

pose: Bauhaus Movement – Let The Beat Drop 26

Red Core – Asian Walls – The Bearded Guy

 

Posted in Bueno, Collabor88, DOUX, Events, Fashion, Legacy, Lelutka, Second Life, shopping, The Liaison Collaborative

Perfectly Content

Its funny how life changes us. Once upon a time, I wanted nothing more than to be the center of attention. Then I dabbled in some illegal activities which taught me the importance of blending in and fading into the background. I got out of that, fairly quickly, and without too many life altering consequences. Part of me craved that attention again and in seeking it out, I was once again reminded why I’m so much better off keeping my head down and keeping to myself. People that get close to me will see that little attention craver inside me, but as a whole…I prefer to keep to myself. To my therapist’s dismay, I do not socialize at all in real life. I prefer the comforts of my computer and being able to exit quickly. Even in Second Life I can spend days, even weeks pretty much alone…and I have. Not so much lately, but over the last few years. So, when social distancing and quarantines were causing the rest of the world to go insane, my life remained exactly the same. Other than walking my dog, I have not left my house since March 17 and I won’t leave until that’s the only way for me to get therapy. For now, I’m perfectly content staying at home.

doux cosmic dust cx diversion rezz room
“I don’t hate people…I just feel better when they’re not around.”
― Charles Bukowski

hair:  DOUX – Tainy hairstyle
head: LeLUTKA Lake Head 1.1
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) Perky Edition (1.2.1)
skin: [theSkinnery] Shara (LeLutkaEVO) @ Uber

eyeshadow: IDTTY FACES – LELUTKA MOON DUST COLLECTION #3
lipstick: IDTTY FACES – LELUTKA MOON DUST COLLECTION #8

TETRA – Luna necklace @ C88
(Yummy) Adel Ring Set @ C88
SU!– Almond Nails
[Cosmic Dust] – Justine Outfit @ Equal10
[CX] Ankle Bellets – White

Diversion – Avoidance – Pose Set @ The Liaison Collaborative

BUENO– Stack of Books-Strange Idea

[Rezz Room] British Shorthair Animesh

MINIMAL – Natural Nude Backdrop -Right Corner

Posted in Cynful, FaMESHed, Fashion, Glam Affair, Kustom9, Legacy, Lelutka, Second Life, shopping, Uber SL

I’m still learning

I should be living the dream
But I’m living with a security team
And that ain’t gonna change, no
I got a paranoia in me
And you wouldn’t believe
Everything that I’ve seen, no
Coming apart at the seams
And no one around me knows
Who I am, what I’m on
Who I’ve hurt and where they’ve gone
I know that I’ve done some wrong
But I’m trying to make it right
Did the one I love do me wrong?
Give me up right now
I know that I love you but I’m still learning
To love myself
I’m still learning to love myself
~ Halsey – Still Learning

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Sady is wearing:
hair:  [monso] My Hair – Lokelanni @ Kustom9
head: LeLUTKA Lake Head 1.1
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) Perky Edition (1.2.1)
skin: [Glam Affair] Reese Skin – Lelutka @ Uber

RichB. Kitty Ears @ SaNaRae
RichB. Imo Earrings
[CX] Tyrant’s Chain @ FaMESHed
MIWAS / Mei Belt jacket
Cynful Bodysuit Set @ FaMESHed
MIWAS / High waist Fishnet tights

pose: Lyrium. Lindalein Series
TrashTheBeat Backdrop – The Bearded Guy

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His Angel

Chris calls me an angel, which is funny in a way, cuz I think the only other people that’s called me that were my mom and my grandmother….when I was a baby. In fact, they called me precious little angel. Anyway, that’s a story for another time. I did this picture for Chris in honor of him calling me his angel…I mean, naughty angels are a thing, right? I mean, I assume he calls me that cuz I took him to heaven a time or two or six…*grins*

doux cx bb forge

Sady is wearing:
hair: DOUX – Shamiya hairstyle
head: LeLUTKA Lake Head 1.1
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara V5.0
skin: [theSkinnery] Signe

#29 Blueberry – Angelberry -Common- Halo – Pure
#6 Blueberry – Lillith – Wings – RARE – White *M*
[The Forge] – Ocullas Arms Rare, Lootbox
3. [CX] Industrial Valkyrie – Top // M // White Out @ Epiphany
9. [CX] Industrial Valkyrie – Skirt // M // White Out @ Epiphany
23. [CX] Industrial Valkyrie – Boots // M // White Out @ Epiphany

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Hotter than Hell

He calls me the devil
I make him wanna sin
Every time I knock, he can’t help but let me in
Must be homesick for the real
I’m the realest it gets
You probably still adore me
With my hands around your neck
Can you feel the warmth, yeah
‘Cause my kiss goes down you like some sweet alcohol
Where I’m coming from, yeah
Is a darker side of me that makes you feel so numb
‘Cause we’re hot like hell
Does it burn when I’m not there?
When you’re by yourself
Am I the answer to your prayers
I’m giving you the pleasure of heaven
And I’ll give it to you

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Sady is wearing:
hair:  #18 {Limerence} Willow hair-All Naturals RARE
head: LeLUTKA Lake Head 1.1
body:  [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) (1.2)
skin: [theSkinnery] Signe @ Uber

[CX] The Altar Horns @ Anthem
[Cynful] Stripper Body Dust
AsteroidBox. Paige Top @ Anthem
Blueberry – Catch Me – Bunny Set – Panties

pose: Ana Poses – Rome

Love CIrcle – DeepBreath – The Bearded Guy

Posted in Events, Fashion, Legacy, Lelutka, Second Life, shoes, shopping, Uber SL, [BREATHE]

It’s how we grow

I wrote about consistency in my blog a while back and I’m not sure I will ever have that consistency that makes me recognize my work, but I sure am having fun. I waited far too long to play around in Photoshop and now that I’m there, I’m discovering so many new things. I’d like to think that as long as I’m alive I will embrace learning new things. I might not always like change, but that’s how we grow, isn’t it? Things in the real world have certainly changed quite a bit and I’ll admit I’m scared. I have too many friends with auto immune diseases, not to mention other things like asthma, kidney disease, etc. I hope that everyone is doing their part to flatten the curve. I joke about how I’ve been social distancing for years, but this is actually quite serious. I guess I’m lucky that I rarely leave my house anyway, but others are not quite so blessed. There are so many out there that simply do not have the option of staying home. Please be mindful of one another during this time. It seems we will all have to grow from this. ♥

Tableau RezzRoom Breath GoK

Sady is wearing:
hair: Tableau Vivant \\ Tamami [add-on+HB] @ Neo Japan
head: LeLUTKA Lake Head 1.1
body:  [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) (1.2)
skin: [theSkinnery] Signe @ Uber

Tattoo “Dragon of the Rising Sun”_by GoK
[CX] + .TeaBunny. Shamisen Hairpins
[BREATHE]-Mitaki Heels @ Uber

[Rezz Room] Box Japanese Dragon Animesh @ Neo Japan

Diversion – Midnight Desires – Poses @ Belle

ARIA – Sawyer Pouf

Love Garden – Subarashi Mirai – The Bearded Guy @ Neo Japan

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Consistency?

Yes, I have been playing in Photoshop again. I learned some new tricks, got a new add on…so I shall be experimenting quite a bit. I’ve been told I need to find my style and establish some consistency. I’m going to try, but I’m not sure consistency IS my style. I’ve always been the kind of person that just goes with how I’m feeling. I’m a complex woman with a colorful past, more demons than any one person should have, and my mind goes a gazillion miles a minute in all directions. But it has been said that if I want to be taken more seriously as a blogger I will need to calm my little ass down. *laughs* I’m not sure what’s going to happen yet, but being tamed isn’t really something I’ve ever really longed for in the past. We’ll see…

magika cx spirit

 

Sady is wearing:
hair:  Magika – Sage
^^Swallow^^ Charm Ears
head: LeLUTKA Nova Head 1.0
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
skin: [the Skinnery] Ashley (Lelutka) @ Uber

Cae :: Eternal :: Collar
:::NOIR::: Kate Necklace
[CX] x Ichigo – Yoni’s Passion @ Hentai Fair
SPIRIT – Chloe jeans

pose: FOXCITY. Angels Bento Pose Set

Posted in Events, Fashion, Lelutka, Maitreya, Second Life, shopping, Uber SL

Conditional Love

There’s a lot to be said about the topic of unconditional love and this is a subject I struggle with quite a bit. I don’t think we can necessarily turn off love as if it were a water fountain or a light switch. However, I do think there are times in our lives that we must distance ourselves from people we love. I have loved a lot of people in my life. Despite what people like to believe, I’m a very loving person with a lot of love to give. With that said, I am not perfect, nor will I continue to show someone that love if they mistreat me or endanger my well being. It has taken me years to get to a place where I’m even close to loving myself as completely as I should. I’ll be damned if I’m going to risk that self love for someone that treats me or themselves like shit.
I wouldn’t say that my love has conditions, but there’s only one person on this planet that I will ever love so completely that no matter what they do (imagine the absolute worst) that I would still love them with all of my heart…and that person is my mother. Everyone else? Well, I love some people more deeply than others, but there are some sure fire ways to kill my love. I’ve walked away from people I loved more than once, because they’re too self centered or delusional. Friendship and love are two way streets, you get what you give with me. So, if you treat me as disposable, I will be leave. If you treat me like an option, I’ll remove myself from the equation. It really is that simple, because I’m not gonna be your ride or die knowing you’re going to jump out of the car before we drive off the cliff.

magika cx cureless

Sady is wearing:
hair:  Magika – Faye
^^Swallow^^ Charm Ears
head: LeLUTKA Nova Head 1.0
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
skin: [the Skinnery] Ashley (Lelutka) @ Uber

[CX] Ziekling’s Tongue
CURELESS[+] Eirisse Set

pose: Diversion – Faded Poses @ Aenigma

Posted in Events, Fashion, Kustom9, Maitreya, Second Life, shopping, Uber SL

leave into madness

find the only sign that you’re numb
lingering on your lips
hide in knowing tides undone
breathe i’m surrounded by your touch, blushed from salted tips
shrouding all i know, paths already found too soon
sigh the lowly miles become, withering your forfeit
fighting knowing one by one
leave into madness
above, hushed in our eclipse
how then would you know – i’m already drowning too?
ah, i’m fading wanting silence, torn
in your shallows i’ll swim
howling the only light on my shore
to align
oh to help me find
oh to align
oh to broken roots
hope that we return soon
leave me fighting shrouded lungs
drifting on from the moor
oh will i lie to soothe my tongue
oh believe my eyes
yearn for it all
leave you to find
all in time
calling your wind to tide
await you in the night
ah, i’m fading wanting silence, torn
in your shallows i’ll swim
howling the only light on my shore
to align
oh to help me find
oh to align
oh to broken roots
hope that we return soon
oh believe my eyes yearn for it all
only where my spirit grows
oh believe my eyes yearn for it all
learn to be whole
will we ever learn
ah, i’m fading wanting silence, torn
in your shallows i’ll swim
howling the only light on my shore
to align
oh to help me find
oh to align
oh to broken roots
hope that we return soon
oh believe my eyes yearn for it all
leave you to find
all in time
~ Vraell – Grain

cx miu

wearing:
hair: [monso] My Hair – Julia @ Kustom9
head: LeLUTKA Nova Head 1.0
ears:  [CX] Withered Bezerker Ears
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
skin: [theSkinnery] Ginny (LeLutka&Bom) @ Uber

Miu  – Rose top @ FaMESHed
RKKN. Paige Jeans StoneBlue @ Epiphany

pose by Del May